Peacock

Standing on the street corner of Sanlin, I was just holding on to the telephone pole with a blank mind. Maybe I should make a phone call to inquire about the situation, but I was afraid that Tang Ling would act like I had no right to intervene in the affairs between them.

"truth!"

Breathing heavily, I turned my head away, and saw Pu Wei chasing all the way out of the studio.

He came over anxiously and patted me on the back: "I'm sorry I shouldn't have taken you back... Why did you react so strongly? Is it related to you?"

Probably after meeting Tang Ling, all the dampness in my heart was aroused. When I heard Pu Wei's words, I could only think in my mind, that is between me and Tang Ling, and he has no right to Ask more?

I waved my hand and said after a short break, "Aren't you going back to class?"

"...The studio is already in such a mess." Pu Wei was startled, and then said, "You don't seem to be in a good mood, why don't we... let's go to the movies?"

He took out four movie tickets from his trouser pocket: "Didn't you say you really want to watch this movie? We planned to watch it with a few classmates during their lunch break, but now they all stayed there to watch the excitement."

At that time, I didn’t realize that I seemed to have only recorded the name of this movie in the memo on my mobile phone once. I just felt that the invitation seemed too abrupt, but Kaoyue hesitated and explained that it was his birthday as an adult. He didn't want to have no one to accompany him to watch a movie, and he even said that he thought we were friends.

In the final analysis, I still have soft ears, remembering that I also spent so much time in the studio relying on his original comics, I finally nodded.

However, I was holding my phone tightly throughout the movie, always thinking that someone would contact me, and I would hurriedly look down when the screen lit up.The screen may be answering the plot development that I was curious about, but now I have no intention of watching it.

Pu Wei seemed to see that I was absent-minded, and started talking to me in a low voice.

But the fact is that it is indeed difficult for Pu Wei to take on the important task of chatting in a situation where I am unwilling to take the initiative. He always speaks a sentence in a fragmented and implicit way, which makes me more irritable.

Finally, he had to organize his words for a long time before he asked: "...Truth, what happened to those marks on your neck?"

I didn't say anything, Pu Wei said anxiously again: "You can't, you can't think about it."

I said helplessly, "I didn't."

As if expressing comfort, he handed me the Coke. I didn't want to drink it, but when I stretched out my hand to push it back, I felt that he seemed to be exerting force strangely.Both sides were exerting force, so the paper cup was overwhelmed and squeezed into a long shuttle shape, and the scorched liquid dripped down my pants.

I hurriedly stood up and said to go to the toilet to clean up.

Looking at myself in the bathroom mirror, I still called, but the call was for Chen Xing.

"Hello, less than?"

Hearing that there seemed to be no more noise on his side, I wondered, "Are you all right?"

Chen Xing was silent, and I asked again: "What happened just now? Why is Tang Ling there?"

"It's nothing serious, it's just that she came to discuss Wumian's funeral." Chen Xing said, "...I just want to ask Tang Ling to go."

……that is it?

I was at a loss, if Tangling was going to attend the funeral, Tangling probably wouldn't refuse.But on second thought, perhaps death would be a nightmare for Tang Ling, after all, it was not the first time he had seen it in person.

"How long?"

"Start tonight."

"...can I go?"

Chen Xing was stunned: "Mom and I have already returned to the countryside, Tang Ling will come later, you can go with him."

I responded vaguely, washed my pants with clean water casually, and planned to find Tang Ling.It seemed that Pu Wei also ran out of the theater to wait for me, but I didn't care about it at all, so I left in a hurry.

It turned out that Tang Ling was still in the studio, and I found him after turning back from his house to the backyard of the studio.

And he didn't seem to be in a hurry to go to the meeting, he just sat on the front hood of Chen Xing's black off-road car and smoked, with his back folded dejectedly, like a dead bamboo that would break if broken.

The world in front of me has become a monotonous black, white and gray. I don't know when the sky in Baima has become so gray. Tang Ling is dazzlingly bright in the dark background, but she also looks more and more out of place.

"It's raining outside." I walked up to him.

Tang Ling glanced down at me, wiped the water off my face, and pressed her warm fingers against the side of my face.He didn't say a word, but I didn't have any extra thoughts.I felt that I had become a little snake at his fingertips, and now I had no choice but to respond as a pet should, so I bowed my head and fell into his palm.

After a while, I heard him say, "Aren't you afraid?"

I looked up at him puzzled, but he stretched out his hand to caress the purple marks on my neck, and then looked down at me quietly.

I didn't answer directly, I just said casually: "It's very cool, I like sexual suffocation."

Tang Ling smiled lightly and looked away. I thought he was distressed.

Reaching out to grab his cuff, I asked, "Can I skip the funeral?"

Tang Ling tilted her head slightly: "The reason?"

"What's your reason for going?" I said, "Because Chen Wumian died in front of you?"

Tangling didn't answer, so I said urgently, "Then I'll go with you."

I saw that Tangling probably didn't want to take me with me, so I made Chen Xing's promise again, and finally Tangling had to let me get into the carriage.

There were miscellaneous things piled up in the back seat, covered with a white cloth, and there was nowhere to settle, so I sat on the co-pilot logically.

At first I was interested in changing the songs on the speakers in the car, but then I was really sleepy, and I unconsciously grabbed Tang Ling's clothes and fell asleep. In the end, it was Lei Ming who woke me up.

The thunder frightened me into a low cry, and I sat up straight in a daze, staring around at the winding roads around me.

"Where is this...?"

"It's almost there." Tang Ling felt that I was really scared, and even took a Buerjia out of her pocket and gave it to me.

I almost gave him a blank look, but I still took it and peeled off the plastic paper: "I'm not a child, what kind of rules are there to eat sweets during thunderstorms?"

Tang Ling turned to look at me, and picked up the plastic paper I threw away.

"Hey, concentrate on driving." I said vaguely.

Out of the corner of my eye, I seemed to see Tang Ling smiling, but I didn't know if I was sleepy and misjudged, so I moved closer to look at him, but the back seat drew all my eyes away.

Maybe it was a brake that caused the white cloth covering to slip off. When the lightning brake passed, I could see everything there.

Some small wreaths for sacrificial offerings, two long wooden boxes, several bags, and there seems to be a person sitting on the far right.

I thought I saw a ghost, and I opened my eyes again several times. Gradually, I realized that it seemed to be just a plastic mannequin.

Some cheap phoenix coronets were neatly worn on them. The model had no face and stood upright in a strange posture. Around her neck was Chen Wumian's rather old-fashioned Jade Guanyin.

I frowned uncontrollably, and leaned over to look through the things in the back seat. There was a pile of folded clothes next to the model, a black Chinese-style groom's suit with dark silver patterns on it, and a pair of fiery red dragon and phoenix. Candle pressed.

"……What does it mean?"

I came to my senses and looked at Tangling in disbelief: "What did her mother beg you to do just now?"

Tang Ling didn't look at me, but said, "Let's go for a formality."

I find it ridiculous.

It's almost like a joke.

The wind gap came in and stirred Tang Ling's forehead hair, his eyes were still calm, as if he wasn't the one who would do something ridiculous.

"Stop." I said, "Tang Ling, stop!"

Tang Ling didn't respond to anything, probably after passing the swimming pool hotel, he also more or less understood my moodiness.

I was so angry that my scalp tightened, and I reached out to turn his steering wheel. The car scurried as if lost, and the windshield wipers could not clear the direction of the road ahead. Finally, I hit the bumper of the road, and the violent shock pushed us forward. , the airbag suddenly popped out and occupied all my field of vision.

Tang Ling's hand holding the steering wheel turned white, and he slowly glanced sideways at me, as if he was waiting for my explanation.

At that moment, I only knew that as long as he left today, everything would be over. After going around and around, everything would return to the original point. He was still living, and I was still a burden that would only bring burdens to the people around me.

I couldn't find any bargaining chip in that waveless eyes. I felt a little helpless, so I had no choice but to take out the steel knife that I had carried with me for a long time from my trouser pocket.I held the short handle tightly and pointed the blade at him: "Do you think it doesn't matter what you do?"

Tang Ling frowned, and said softly, "Yu Zhen."

I could hear the comforting tone in his tone, but it made me even more anxious: "Don't get married to a goddamn ghost! Are you out of your mind! It's all your own fucking fault that you're living like this now!"

Tang Ling said: "For the truth, this incident has no impact on me, but it is very important to some people, and in their eyes it even equals life."

"What if I'm a girl? If you kill me right now and force you like this, are you willing to marry me?"

Tang Ling reached out and pressed my trembling blade. I saw dark red liquid dripping down the blade. Finally, he pulled hard and snatched away the steel blade.

Then he said, "Yes."

When I got this answer, I burst into tears instantly. I don't understand why he doesn't care about himself so much.

I don't know if it's choking or I'm overbreathing again, I just feel like I can't breathe, and I can see my chest rising and falling violently in my peripheral vision, but I can't feel the exchange of airflow at all.

I raised my hand and slapped him.At this moment, I can't wait to kill him just like that. If he dies, it's better to die in my hands.

Tang Ling raised his head, his gums were bleeding, he pressed the corner of his mouth with his thumb, then leaned over and passed me, opened the door on this side, and pushed me out of the car.

I tripped over the side of the car, accidentally stepped into a ditch, and fell to the side of the road. My joints rubbed against the rocks and made me cry out in pain.

Hearing the sound of the car door opening over there, I gritted my teeth and crawled forward, then staggered to stand in front of the headlights.

The scorching high beams pierced my body completely, and I just stood in such a state of embarrassment. The heavy rain was about to make me unable to open my eyes, so I said, "Keep driving."

"You can go, just run over me."

I said it seriously, without any threatening meaning.

Tang Ling stood quietly by the car door and looked at me, the blood dripped down from his fingertips, and fell into the muddy puddle.I think he probably really can't understand my thoughts. We should be just temporary partners who have never had anything to do with each other, and there is no reason to restrict each other.

He came to pull me, but I insisted on standing in front of the car, and it turned into a ridiculous pull in the end.Under Tang Ling's pull, I lost my strength, fell forward unsteadily, and threw him into the muddy shallow ditch that had not yet been repaired.

My whole body was smashed apart by the ground, and I was dizzy for a while.Dirty rainwater filled my ears, and I felt like I was losing my hearing.I didn't let Tang Ling get up, but hugged him tightly: "...Since moral kidnapping is so useful to you, then I also hope you can understand that if you don't go this time, it will have no effect on you at all... But That's very important to me. It's even life-threatening."

I held his face in my hands, and the black stains stained his fair skin, as if I didn't think it was enough, I began to rub his clothes and his skin vigorously with my fingers, but when I saw the muddy water stained on it, I couldn't help it. I didn't feel much better.

Then I hugged him and cried, bit his shoulder hard, and repeated the words "don't go" over and over again.

Gradually, Tang Ling seemed to relax, he just looked down at me a little confused, and brushed the hair that was stuck to my face with mud and water: "Yu Zhen, I don't understand you."

"You fucking never thought to understand me!"

I heard footsteps and conversation, and it was people in the yard behind who heard noises from the road and hurried out.

There were Chen Xing, his mother, and a few relatives from their hometown who came to help.They spoke in an incomprehensible dialect and surrounded the car in twos and threes.

The white silk and paper flowers leaning on the street were washed away by the heavy rain and scattered messily all over the ground.

I got up wobbly from the ground, without any further reaction, I just threw all the things in the car at them, and when I threw away the scattered debris, I felt as if I was letting go of the long-term imprisonment The Prison Bird, is another, lighter experience.

In the end, I threw the model's phoenix crown in front of the woman, and the pearls scattered all over the floor.

The woman started screaming, and the man stepped forward to stop her.

She still looks humble and weak when begging Tang Ling, I don't understand why she always treats people like this: "You let Tang Ling marry your daughter?"

"Chen Wumian is so fucking intimidated by himself, want you to meddle in your own business here?!"

The woman hurriedly fell into the puddle, picked up those things one by one, and carried them into her arms properly.Then she knelt down in front of me in embarrassment, put her hands together and cried in front of me: "A girl who walks away without getting married will become a ghost! My poor daughter, she worked so hard when she was alive." Well, after she dies like this, she won't be able to enter the ancestral hall, so she will be floating outside forever. I don't want her to be like that in the future, alone..."

Her eyes began to frantically flicker: "I've been dreaming for the past few days, dreaming of my daughter, she kept crying, asking me why I couldn't let her go home..."

"What the hell are you doing! What were you doing when Chen Wumian was alive?" I grabbed her by the collar, "Why is it Tangling? Can't you just find a dead person?"

Then the woman knelt on the ground and cried helplessly. She didn't answer my question as if she was insane. done.

I wanted to kick that woman away, but Chen Xing hurried over to pull me away: "Yu Yu, calm down!"

Seeing Chen Xing's useless face, I just felt that everything was too absurd: "You believe this too? Do you think you should bring irrelevant people into this crap?"

Chen Xing hugged me, but his expression was selfish like a dog guarding his bones: "Everyone thinks that Chen Wumian has something to do with Tangling... Besides, Tangling himself doesn't care, no one cares. He doesn't have much reputation in Baima It can be said."

"Fuck you!" I struggled hard, looked at Chen Xing in a blur, my voice was so hoarse that I couldn't speak, "...I care."

For a moment, I just felt that the pain was unbearable: "I care!"

In full view of everyone, I ran to pull Tangling, wanting him to go with me.

I have never gazed at him so seriously, nor have I longed for something with such despair and eagerness.I don't know whether it was tears or rain that blurred my vision, but his face turned into white flakes in front of my eyes.I held his hand with all my strength, only knowing that my life was hanging in his hands, and he must not refuse me.

In the early summer of Baima, the boundless sultry torrential rain fell desperately, and I began to hate this place.I was even thinking, if Tangling doesn't want to go with me today, I will definitely fulfill the promise I made when I came here.

After an unknown amount of time, Tang Ling took my hand back.

The heart beats up and down, as if the blood in the whole body is circulating again at that moment, only at this moment the raging and violent emotion becomes a curled spring pressed deep down, and it begins to fiercely backlash everything in my world, pushing everything into the black nest, There is only a single Tangling in the center.

Sweat and blood filled the intertwined gullies in the palms of the palms, and finally this gap made us stagnate into one individual. That was the first time our fingers were interlocked on the night run.