Mr. Chen doesn't love me

Mr. Chen doesn't love me.

I'm sitting in a big empty apartment.The golden retriever wagged its tail and moved closer to me.I ignored it, but it approached me relentlessly.I got really annoyed and kicked it.

This move may have hurt it, it howled and ran to the sofa to scratch, looking pitiful.I felt a little regretful, got up and walked slowly to the sofa, I wanted to touch its head.But it seemed a little afraid of me, and ran away with a "crack".

This makes me a little anxious.

I especially want to call Chen Yi.After hesitating for a long time, I just sent him a WeChat message.

"Are you going home tonight?"

After sending the WeChat message, I went to take a shower.Because I guess this message will be returned very slowly.Sure enough, he didn't text me back until I was already lying in bed at night and I was about to turn off the lights and go to sleep.

Although he doesn't love me, the news was sent very coincidentally.

"The company has something to do, so I won't return."

I stared blankly at the phone, the screen was so bright it pierced my eyes.I clicked on my circle of friends, and the circle of friends was basically full of links to share, high school information and the like.There are only a few photos of me and Mr. Chen holding hands, and the background is also a photo of me and Mr. Chen's back.

Chen Yi doesn't like to show his face.So I don't have a photo of us together, even so, I will try my best to tell my friends around me: I have a master.

I tapped on his circle of friends again.It was still empty inside, without a trace of me.

He doesn't even have a circle of friends.Sometimes I even wonder if this is his trumpet.

After a while, my cell phone rang again.

Quite strange.

I hurriedly quit the circle of friends, clicked on the message box, and I was used to replying to him in seconds.

"The original refrigerator is broken, and the spare small refrigerator has something to eat."

"Okay. I'll go to bed first, you go to bed early, good night."

"Go to bed early, good night."

I held my mobile phone and stared at the ceiling until my eyes were dry.I got up from the bed and looked at the dialog box on the phone. His note was "Mr. Chen (Love)".

I stroked the heart emoji on the note on the dialog box and bit my lip tightly.I slowly got up from the bed and came to the living room.

The golden retriever in the living room was still awake, looking at me with its eyes open.

I forced myself to raise the corners of my mouth, tried my best to pull out a smile, waved at it, and shouted as briskly as possible: "Come here, Yuanbao!"

It lay on the ground without moving.

Yeah, it's not coming.

I squatted weakly on the ground, leaning against the corner of the wall and hugging my legs.I buried my head in my arms.

I knew in my heart that no matter how loudly or gently I barked, it would never come.

I know, today, I am destined to not be able to sleep.

I chased the golden retriever to the balcony.I know there's nothing wrong with it, but I don't want to see it right now.

I walked slowly to the fridge to see if there was any beer.I don't really want to face the reality that the ingot is gone, I want to numb myself.

I tried to open the fridge door and it wouldn't open.Then I remembered the text message Chen Yi sent me.

The refrigerator is broken.

I was about to turn around and look for a beer in the spare mini fridge.But the objects on the refrigerator caught my attention.

The refrigerator is locked.

In fact, many places in the house are locked, such as the safe in Chen Yi's study and the bedside table where we both sleep.But I never touched it. I knew it might be a very confidential document of his company.And the locker on his car was also locked.What was locked was his other lover's things.

I am very good, I am not curious about the locked things.

But now I suddenly don't want to be so obedient.I watched the lock on the refrigerator carefully, noting the shape.I rummaged through boxes and cabinets at home, found more than a dozen keys, and tried them one by one.

Fortunately, I managed to open it.

The refrigerator door was gently opened by me, and the sensor light inside suddenly lit up.

The freezer is filled with food.The strange thing is that the middle one is a big white plastic bag.I touched it, and it was cold and a little hard.

I gently unwrapped the white plastic bag.

What catches the eye is the golden fur.

I covered my mouth with trembling hands, and my legs fell to the ground due to weakness.

It was pitch black, as if the electricity had stopped.After a while, I gradually calmed down my panting, and I struggled to get up from the ground.

I carried my white plastic bag outside, it was not heavy.

I wiped my face and found that my whole head was already wet, a lot of cold sweat flowed from the back of my head, and my face was covered with tears at some point.

I gently opened the plastic bag.

It closed its eyes and was cold.

There is a shallow scar on the paw.

I couldn't help crying loudly.It wasn't until I couldn't cry anymore that I hugged its dead body and sat by the sofa.

I turned on the TV and played the children's channel.It used to like to stare at the TV, I think it likes cartoons.

The stars of the night blinked.The little animals in the cartoon are chattering, and there is a yellow puppy who threatens to maintain world peace.

I held Yuan Bao's frozen body.We sat in front of the sofa and watched the finale of this cartoon.

Later, I don't know when it was dawn.

It's just that this nightmare is not over.Yuan Bao was still in that position, lying peacefully on the floor.

I found a small blanket, wrapped it carefully, and found a bag from the box and chest, and went out with it.

I carried it on my back, quite confused.I know that some pet stores can cremate pets now.But I don't know whether to bury it or cremate it.

I took a taxi with it on my back and drove south for several hours before I found a pet hospital that could be cremated.

I didn't go home directly, I walked around the city with Yuan Bao's ashes.It was only active in our community during its lifetime.

I don't know how long I walked, but when it got dark, I found a bench by the side of the street and sat there.After sitting for a while, he walked slowly with the box containing ingots.

Then it slowly dawned.

I went back to the apartment.The golden retriever in the apartment no longer dared to come over. It sat on the balcony and watched me from a distance.

I turned on my phone.There is no news from Chen Yi.

I re-locked the refrigerator.When I was looking for the keys before, the house was messed up by me, and it took me a while to clean it up.

I packed my suitcase.Put the box containing ingots inside.

Before leaving, I took a closer look at the room. There were narcissus planted by me on the window sill, calligraphy and paintings he wrote for me in the study room, the footstool by the sofa and the blanket on the floor were bought by him specially for me. I really like them. Sit on the ground and read a book.

I turned my head away, pulled the suitcase, and left the house.

The moment I stepped out the door, I turned my head back.

The golden retriever is playing with a ball on the balcony by himself.After hesitating for a while, I packed a bag of dog food, found Yuan Bao's dog leash, and took it away.

I'm afraid it will show up in the fridge in a few days too.

I had to take this dog back home.

After arriving home, Chen Yi still didn't send me a message.It's been a few days, and it seems that he hasn't come home.

I looked at the small box containing ingots on the table, and my internal organs hurt as if they were out of place.In the past few days, whenever I see the urn, I feel exhausted. I still want to shed tears, but my eyes are too dry to flow.

I took out my phone and blocked Chen Yi's call, and deleted his WeChat.

He's a decent guy, so I don't want to get bloody about the separation.

His inadvertent mistake caused the loss of a fresh life.He's just using another life to try and pull off a scam.

I gave him this decency, and it was the end of my love for him.

My love will indeed be hot and true.

And three years and five months later.

There will be no more him by my side, only the little box and a puppy of unknown origin.

This fiery and sincere love.

I strangled it.