After the substitute, he counterattacked and became Bai Yueguang

Qi Tang's chest heaved violently, and he tried his best to calm himself down.

He was already embarrassed enough, and he didn't want to become more embarrassed.

"Let go." After a long silence, he gritted his teeth and said.

Lin An hugged him even tighter: "Don't let me go, if I let you go, I won't be able to find you."

In fact, he has been following Qi Tang for the past few days.

It's just that Lin An knew that Qi Tang couldn't be stimulated anymore, so he didn't dare to show his face in front of him.

But just now, when he saw Qi Tang squatting here, so sad, so heartbroken, as if his whole body was going to be broken, Lin An felt very distressed.

He had never seen anyone so sad, so he couldn't help but want to comfort his baby.

He was wondering if he was wrong, and he shouldn't insist on picking off this thorny rose because of paranoia.

Now he has the rose, but the rose is dying.

The room was quiet for a while, Lin An thought that Qi Tang had calmed down, and when he was about to kiss him, he heard an indifferent voice next to his ear:

"Do you want to see me go crazy?"

The tone was neither light nor heavy, but there was an uncontrollable tremor at the end.

Lin An froze in place, and then slowly let go of Qi Tang.

His little gentleman, the most respectful, the most graceful and gentle, but now, he says he's going mad.

In Lin An's heart, apart from being sour, there was also a touch of fear, he was afraid that Qi Tang would be stimulated and lose his original self.

That's not what he wanted to see.

"Baby," Lin An's voice was hoarse, these two days he was restless, without Qi Tang by his side, it was even more difficult to sleep every night.

"I won't touch you, calm down."

But seeing Qi Tang's unsteady standing, he finally sighed and gently grabbed his sleeve, trying to make him sit on the sofa.

When Qi Tang glanced over with indifferent eyes, Lin An just said calmly:

"Let's sit down and talk, anyway, we have to talk, right?"

He knew that Qi Tang could return to this home again, not because of nostalgia or anything else, but because he wanted to make a decision - to break up.

But he couldn't let go, and he wouldn't let go.

He likes Qi Tang.

It was Qi Tang's presence that made him feel that his heart was beating very vividly.

Moreover, human beings are inherently selfish, he has put in so much effort for many years, and it is impossible for him to give up because of Qi Tang. That plan was laid out five years ago, much earlier than Qi Tang's appearance.

Qi Tang must also understand this truth, he is just irrational and not calm right now.

That is to say—the reason is understandable, but the emotion cannot be forgiven.

Therefore, Lin An felt that what he had to do now was to fight for a probation.

As long as we don't break up now, Qi Tang is so sensible, he will definitely figure it out, and it will be fine if he coaxes her again when the time comes.

Qi Tang shook off Lin An's hand, and sat on the sofa by himself, without any expression: "Let's break up."

His love has been insulted and he doesn't want it anymore.

Lin An sat opposite him, with a gentle tone: "Baby, I've already explained to you that things happen for a reason, aren't you the most reasonable?"

An inexplicable anger welled up in Qi Tang's heart.

A gentleman is the most reasonable, but only limited to things that can be reasonable.

There is no reason to speak of feelings. If you insist on being reasonable everywhere, you will be pinched to death by the other party.

At the beginning, he followed his own heart and wanted to indulge and be brave for the sake of Lin An. At that time, there was no reason at all.

Now that it's over, I want to follow my own heart, and I don't want to listen to people's reasoning.

Moreover, if in a relationship, you have been hurt so deeply, but in the end you only get the other party to say 'you have to be reasonable'...

Divide it.

Qi Tang didn't want to say anything, he refused to communicate.

Because Lin An never stood in his position, considered for him, cared about his feelings.

As for the matter of disclosing the identity of the lover, it doesn't matter whether there is a reason or not, because it is just a tipping point.

The hidden contradictions between them and the inequality in their relationship are all laid bare.

It also gave Qi Tang the humiliation of being given the title of 'lover'.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Lin An thought that Qi Tang's mood had calmed down a little, and he was slightly relieved.

"Baby, just like you can't let go of painting, I can't let go of my business either. I know you're sad, it's my fault."

Having said that, Lin An frowned slightly.

He is still not used to admitting his mistakes. These seniors are in high positions, and no one dares to let him admit his mistakes.

But the kid had to coax him now, Lin An felt that he was in the wrong, so he temporarily lowered his head.

"I promise you to break up, but can you wait for a while?" He glanced at the messy room and said again:

"It will be divided after you have completely moved out of here."

He understands Qi Tang's character, he must move by himself.

But with so many things, plus Qi Tang still has work and studio to do, it will take at least ten days to finish the move.

During these ten days, he had many opportunities to get close to Qi Tang and make him change his mind.

Qi Tang was silent for a moment: "Okay."

Anyway, sooner or later it will be divided.

He just needs to finish moving soon.

After speaking, Qi Tang got up and began to pack things in the house, Lin An stood beside him, watching him go about his business.

His eyes followed the familiar figure and glanced greedily.

It had been a long time since he had looked at Qi Tang so openly.

He misses his baby.

Especially without Qi Tang, he couldn't sleep every night.

Qi Tang ignored his gaze, turned and went into the bedroom. Today he has to pack his clothes first.

Lin An followed behind him, leaning against the door and continuing to look at Qi Tang.

His baby was thinner and gaunter, with sunken eye sockets, but more fascinating than ever.

He missed Qi Tang's embrace, every inch of his skin, and wanted to go up and hug his waist.

But Lin An restrained himself, he understood that Qi Tang's tolerance for him was limited.

The small sounds in the room lasted for two hours, and when it was ten o'clock in the evening, Qi Tang put the packed things by the door, turned around and was about to leave.

Lin An stood aside and looked at him: "Baby, it's too late, stay here."

He added: "I won't do anything to you."

Qi Tang didn't answer, as if he didn't hear anything, he directly opened the door and strode out.

The evening wind in late spring is still a bit cool, and when it blows over, it wakes up the whole person a lot.

Qi Tang felt that he seemed to be much calmer than he imagined.

Probably because the matter of breaking up has already been decided, and he will never be hurt by this person again in the future.

In the days that followed, Qi Tang was busy moving while preparing for the art competition.

During the day, with Qin Xiao around, he discussed issues with him from time to time, diverting his attention a lot, which made Qi Tang gradually withdraw from the sad and depressed emotions.

At dusk, he would go to the villa to pack his luggage.

But I don't know why, the person who used to be so busy that he couldn't even have dinner with him was at home every day.

It was inevitable that Qi Tang would fight Lin An, but he just pretended that this person didn't exist.

Even though he was treated like this, Lin An still chatted with him every day with a smile on his face.

The old man doesn't know how to chat, and all he comes into contact with is business affairs.

So generally what they talk about is the stock market, the future economic development prospects of city A, and how companies can change their operations.

The old man also saw that Qi Tang was not interested in these things, so he gradually stopped talking.

But he wanted to communicate with Qi Tang, even if he was the only one talking.

So he went to find out about the art competition that Qi Tang mentioned earlier that he was going to participate in next month.

It's time for Qi Tang to pack up again.

Lin An intentionally made the room a little messy, so that Qi Tang would be slow to put it away.

Seeing the children bending over to tidy up their things, Lin An said:

"Baby, how is your preparation for that competition?"

Qi Tang ignored him, pretending he didn't hear him.

Lin An said: "It seems that Lu Ting and Zhang Yan are both judges, I guess Lu Ting didn't tell you?"

When it was over, he added another sentence: "The baby will definitely win the prize."

These words made Qi Tang frowned, and turned his head to glance at him lightly.

"Mr. Lu and Mr. Zhang are not that kind of people. They have a noble character, and they will never show favoritism just because I am a student of Mr. Lu."

He didn't mean anything else, but he didn't want anyone to think about his teacher like that.

Lin An's eyes gradually fainted with a smile.

This was the first time Qi Tang answered his words in so many days.

He hadn't heard Qi Tang's voice for a long time.

Warm and magnetic, cold and restrained, still so fascinating.

"Well, baby, I understand, but they love talent, baby is so talented, I believe baby will win the prize."

Lin An coaxed softly, taking care of the children's emotions.

Qi Tang was inexplicably uncomfortable, with his back turned to him, while sorting out the sundries, he said:

"Nothing is certain, don't look down on other players, everyone is working hard and talented."

This is a provincial competition, and no one is in it randomly.

As soon as he finished speaking, he felt a warm body pressing against him, with a familiar breath.

Qi Tang froze.

"Let go." He squeezed the waste paper in his hand.

Lin An softly whispered in his ear: "Not loose."

No matter why Qi Tang answered his words, he could see that Qi Tang's mood had stabilized a lot recently, and his attitude had softened.

Then now is a good time for him to attack.

Lin An put his arms around Qi Tang's waist, and put his face on his back obsessively:

"Baby, I miss you so much. Although I can see you every day, I still miss you, especially in the middle of the night. I want to go crazy."

Qi Tang froze there, listening to the familiar love words and tone, his eyes slowly turned red.

He suddenly discovered that he wasn't calm anymore, he was just numb.

Now that the emotional point is triggered again, the sadness spreads from the chest bit by bit like breaking through the seal.

What's even more tragic is that even though his reason and brain were telling him to push away the person in front of him, his heart and body were greedy for Lin An's warmth.

The body has memory. Before, they were in love every day and crazy every night, and they had long been familiar with each other's bones and temperature.

After being separated for such a long time and embracing again, every cell in the body seems to be longing for Lin An, telling Qi Tang——you miss this person very much.

"Baby, I really miss you." Lin An's lips pressed against Qi Tang's earlobe, and they rubbed slowly, expressing his missing.

He hugged Qi Tang's waist, greedily absorbing this peace of mind.

After a while, Qi Tang didn't push him away, Lin An knew he had seized the opportunity, and said:

"Don't break up, baby. The wild roses in the garden are about to bloom. We agreed to see them together."

Qi Tang recalled the scene when they decided to plant wild roses together.

The human brain is amazing. When you recall a scene, it will let your heart remember the feeling at that time.

A strong love surged into his chest, and Qi Tang's throat was sore from being stimulated.

At that time, he really loved Lin An, and he had devoted all his heart and soul to love this person.

In the matter of disclosing his lover's identity, he actually understood that Lin An had nothing wrong with it, maybe he just didn't love him that much.

After all, Lin An has spent ten years of hard work on the family business, and he just wants to maintain this hard work.

Just like I wouldn't give up painting for Lin An...

But even if he understood this truth, he still couldn't forgive psychologically and emotionally.

What's more, there are so many problems in the relationship between them, and they didn't realize it when they were in love, but the incident of the banquet gave Qi Tang a blow in the head, which made him gradually wake up.

After taking a deep breath, Qi Tang slowly opened Lin An's hand.

"Baby, don't push me away, I will be sad." Lin An said softly.

Qi Tang lowered his eyes, the end of his eyes turned red: "Then have you thought about how sad I am these days?"

Lin An's heart ached and he didn't speak.

Qi Tang said again: "Let go, I should go home."

Lin An didn't use force, he let go obediently, but through the hug just now, he knew that Qi Tang was shaken.

Then as long as you give him a little more time, he can make Qi Tang change his mind.

"Okay, baby, be safe."

Qi Tang quickly left that house, and walked on the road for a long time before her mood gradually calmed down.

He didn't want to think about it any more.

Because the more he thought about it, the more embarrassing he felt. He would never forget the way everyone looked at him at that banquet.

Under those gazes, he no longer had the arrogance he had before, nor the dignity of a gentleman.

All gone.

He also can't forget Lin An's weighing pros and cons and gentle traps, all of which make his sincerity seem ridiculous.

Neither of them slept well that night.

In the next few days, the two still maintained this state, but Lin An gradually made progress.

At first he would go to the studio to pick up Qi Tang, Qi Tang was painting, he was waiting outside under the big tree, Qi Tang was going home, he would follow behind.

Qi Tang knew that this person could not be chased away, so he simply pretended he hadn't seen anything.

Anyway, the move is almost done, and the breakup will always be settled by then.

On this day, Qi Tang went to the studio as usual, but Lin An was unusually absent.

He glanced at the big tree outside the window, and moved his eyes indifferently.

Picking up the brush, there was a half-painted sketch on the easel, and he had to finish the other half today, otherwise he would be late for the competition.

Qin Xiao who was on the side came over to take a look, and his eyes gradually became brighter.

This painting is very beautiful, can't help but beautiful, and has a fascinating artistic conception.

It was a dead vine, but if you look carefully, there is a little bit of new green on the tip of the vine, and the new green is pressed by white snow.

The whole vine seems to be struggling in pain, but it seems to be quietly waiting for new life.

Qin Xiao was moved, he now understands why the teacher said: good paintings are connected with people's spiritual world.

Because this painting is just like the current Qi Tang.

"You will definitely win the prize." Qin Xiao withdrew his gaze.

Qi Tang just smiled faintly: "Maybe."

When he wrote for the first time, he didn't think about any theme, nor did he think about what he wanted to express. He just felt so sad.

But he also knew that he had to look forward.

Before I knew it, the picture was almost drawn.

While the two were discussing, the studio door creaked open.

When Qi Tang turned his head, he saw Lu Ting walking in in a hurry, his expression still sour.

"Teacher." He greeted respectfully.

Lu Ting didn't even look at him, and walked directly to the drawing board.

When his eyes glanced at his paintings, he was amazed at first, then slowly frowned, and finally returned to indifference.

Qi Tang tentatively asked: "Teacher, is there anything wrong with my painting?"

Lu Ting glanced at him, his expression was very strange, with a bit of disgust:

"Stop drawing, you are disqualified."

Qi Tang's hand holding the paintbrush stopped, his brain seemed to be stuck, and his heart beat a little faster.

After a long while, I spoke with difficulty: "Teacher, can I ask who canceled it?"

Lu Ting's voice was not loud, but inexplicably majestic: "I."

Qi Tang froze in place, his throat moved, and he said after a while:

"Then can I ask you why?"

"Why? Because you insulted art!" Lu Ting's tone gradually became bad.

He looked at Qi Tang: "Before that, I was told by Zhang Yan that there was a good seedling, let me take a look, and bring it to me if it is suitable."

"As a result, I only found out now that you met Zhang Yan because of your relationship with Lin An, right? Don't you feel embarrassed to cheat me, an old fellow, together?"

After this call, someone else would have been stunned.

But Qi Tang cleared his mind for a while, and understood what was going on.

His complexion gradually became ugly.

It turns out that there is no such thing as pie in the sky.

On the day Lu Ting approached him, he felt that he was too lucky, but because he was very happy and Lin An was in love, he didn't have time to think about it, so he just regarded it as a chance.

Now it seems that he was once again deceived by Lin An.

Qi Tang felt his heart freeze for an instant, and his fingertips were trembling slightly.

Lu Ting's voice continued, with uncontrollable anger.

"I don't care if you young people want to take shortcuts, but when you walk in front of me, I will take care of you!"

"Art is holy and clean, it cannot be defiled by you people!"

"Besides, the relationship between you and that Lin An has spread! You are so young, why are you willing to be a lover in a lowly way?"

Lu Ting's face showed anger, disgust, and regret.

"You go, don't come to my place in the future, my ability is limited, my mind is small, I can't see this kind of mess when I'm old, and I can't take you with me."

After he finished speaking, he didn't even look at Qi Tang, and walked out of the studio with his hands behind his back.

Qi Tang was still frozen in place, without moving for a long time, his face was terribly pale.

Qin Xiao witnessed the whole process from the side, and he felt sorry for Qi Tang.

After pouring a cup of hot water, he gently placed it on Qi Tang's table, and said:

"Don't pay too much attention to what Lu Ting said, he is old-fashioned and not open-minded."

"And it is said that he had the opportunity to become a famous painter before, but he was snatched away by a low-level painter who relied on his connections. That's why he hates this behavior so much."

After the voice fell, there was no sound in the studio for a long time, Qin Xiao didn't know whether to continue talking.

There was no expression on Qi Tang's face, and he couldn't even feel any sadness on his body, but this made Qin Xiao even more afraid.

Because the silent and silent breakdown is the scariest and most hurtful.

Unexpressed emotions will accumulate in the heart, and if they don't hurt others, they will hurt themselves.

Just when he had no choice, the door of the studio was opened again.

A handsome man walked in with a slight smile on his face.

Lin An approached and called softly: "Baby."

Qi Tang's body trembled, as if he was stung by something.

He looked at Lin An slowly for a long time before asking calmly:

"You arranged for me to come to this studio?"

Lin An's face froze, and the smile on the corner of his mouth gradually faded, but he couldn't deny the question.

"The other day when I was sketching from life, Teacher Lu talked to me. It was actually a collusion between you and Teacher Zhang Yan, right?"

Qi Tang was very calm, so calm that fear gradually arose in Lin An's heart.

He stretched out his hand, trying to grab Qi Tang's arm, but was thrown away.

Lin An looked serious:

"Baby, I just want to help you. Do you know how difficult it is for an artist to have a chance? Some people can't wait for a lifetime, just like Lu Ting. But you are different, you have me, I would like to be your luck."

Qi Tang lowered his eyes indifferently, he no longer wanted to communicate with Lin An.

This man doesn't respect him at all.

Even though he clearly rejected the gift that time, Lin An still 'forcibly' delivered the gift to him, and now it has become another weapon to humiliate him.

Lin An didn't care about his thoughts at all, nor did he care about his feelings, let alone respect his dreams.

Now, his dream is also destroyed, completely.

There is nothing left.

Qi Tang tidied up the sketches on the table, then stood up, and walked out the door with an indifferent face.

Just after taking a few steps, he staggered as if he was about to fall.

Lin An hurriedly stepped forward to support him.

He wanted to explain a few words, but after seeing Qi Tang's calm face, those eyes that had lost their light and became lifeless, the words he wanted to say were stuck in his throat like that.

Lin An froze in place, and the feeling of distress stabbed violently at his heart.

It's like he's...really hurting this guy.

His rose... is dying.

While pulling, Lin An's wallet fell to the ground.

Qi Tang glanced at it, suddenly thought of something, bent down to pick it up.

Now, he wants to get back his own things, and get back the sincerity he gave back at the beginning—the painting of wild roses.

But when he opened his wallet and searched but couldn't find the painting, Qi Tang was stunned for a moment.

He looked at the wallet for a long time.

Lin An stood aside and watched him for a long time.

After a while, Qi Tang raised his hand to cover his eyes, his voice choked up slightly:

"You, you, lost the painting?"

Lin Anxin felt a sudden pain. He felt that his baby was so sad and hopeless right now.

But he couldn't get the painting out.

"Yeah. But baby, I didn't mean to."

The next moment, Qi Tang smiled, no one could see his eyes, but he was smiling from the sound.

But he laughed sadly, as if something was about to break.

Lin An's complexion gradually turned ugly, and an inexplicable fear grew in his heart. He lowered his eyes to defend himself, and to comfort Qi Tang:

"Honey, that's just a painting—"

"Yes, to you, it's just a painting."

"But I told you clearly, it's something very important."

Qi Tang turned his back, his shoulders trembled slightly, he tried his best to suppress his emotions:

"Have you taken the initiative to understand me? Whenever you ask, why is the painting important? Have you asked?"

"Have you taken the initiative to approach my world? Have you included me in your world?"

Lin An's face was haggard, and he called hoarsely: "Baby..."

Qi Tang took a long breath:

"You don't, because you never cared about me, so you don't care about my thoughts, you don't care about my affairs, and you don't respect my dreams."

"So you can disconnect when you are on a business trip, and be cold-faced when you don't follow suit. You don't value me, so you don't care about my friends."

"You don't value me, so you never let me get involved in your world, your plans, your family, you don't tell me."

Qi Tang trembled, his throat hoarse:

"Because you think those are unnecessary. The starting point of your feelings is to please yourself, so you never consider me.

Lin An opened his mouth halfway, his throat rolled a few times, and he couldn't speak for a long time.

He heard Qi Tang's trembling voice:

"Your feelings for me are not love at all, you are just greedy for my love for you, because it makes you happy!"

"You don't understand what equality and respect are."

Lin An felt his sadness, his despair, and his heart was as dead as ashes, his throat gradually became sore, and his heart gradually began to ache.

He wanted to refute, but couldn't open his mouth.

Qi Tang laughed hoarsely.

Everything about him is worthless in the eyes of this person, so his paintings are the same.

He originally thought that even if it was only a little bit, he had had love before...

It turned out that he had no love at all.

What this person gave him was not love, but a condescending liking, even a liking like charity.

As light as liking a pet, a cup of coffee.

They were never equal.

He doesn't care for such cheap feelings.

Qi Tang gasped for breath, the heartache was several times stronger than before.

The calm during this period of time seemed to be just for him to take a breath, so that he could face a heavier blow.

Qi Tang clutched his heart, a nausea came up, he quickly ran a few steps, lay down next to the trash can in the studio and retched.

Lin An watched from the sidelines. Last time he only heard about such a scene from Assistant Tian.

Seeing it with his own eyes now, he couldn't tell what it felt like.

He wanted to go up to comfort Qi Tang, but he couldn't move.

His baby was so sad, sad as hell.

It was the first time Lin An understood what heartache was, it was dozens of times stronger than heartache.

He just stood there, watching Qi Tang vomit, watching the light in Qi Tang's eyes gradually dim...

Then I feel like I can't breathe slowly.

The heart seems to be dead.

Later, Lin An didn't know how he took his steps, and when he recovered, he was already standing beside Qi Tang.

Then he heard himself say hoarsely:

"Baby, let's separate."

Since there is only pain left for two people to be together, it is better not to be together.

The four words of timely stop loss are applicable to everything. Lin An has implemented these four words very well in everything he has done for so many years, so he can get to where he is today.

And Lin An, who had been completely selfish in this relationship, was not selfish for the first time.

This time, what he wanted to stop was not his own loss, but Qi Tang's.

He didn't want the rose to die. He picked the rose because he was paranoid and thought he could take good care of it.

But now he can't help but not, and he has bruised Rose so badly.

There was deathly silence in the studio.

Qi Tang froze for a moment, then he raised his hand to cover his eyes.

He didn't speak because his throat was about to explode.

It was as if a knife was plucking out his heart, and every nerve in him ached uncontrollably.

Yes, they are breaking up.

But these words must never come out of Lin An's mouth!

Because he is not qualified!

Qi Tang gritted her teeth, barely propped herself up against the wall, but didn't look back.

He didn't look at Lin An again, just said: "Okay."

Then he strode out of the studio.

As for Lin An, when Qi Tang walked away and was no longer seen, he still stood there in a daze.

Qin Xiao, who witnessed everything, felt very uncomfortable.

He walked over and pushed Lin An very rudely: "Get lost, you are not welcome here—"

He couldn't utter the last word.

Because he saw two lines of tears slowly slipping down from the corners of Lin An's eyes.

Qin Xiao choked, he didn't know what to do for a while.

After a long silence, he just tidied up the studio and left.

The author has something to say:

Alas, the crematorium will start tomorrow, don’t worry, take your time, the crematorium is slow to heat up, but anyone who needs to be abused will be abused

Maybe I have a higher tolerance, I always feel that my writing is not cruel...

This chapter recommends the song "Crushing the Light of the Night", which will have a better effect when combined with food (狗头)

感谢在2021-11-2804:12:58~2021-11-2923:27:01期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Encounter, want to eat children * 2; children are like this, you repeat 1;

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!