Spring time

Xiao Wang is the only man in the company's personnel transfer, but there are only two people in this transfer.Just me and Xiao Wang.

His full name is Wang Ping. His name is very ordinary, but he is tall, with a short cropped head, like a hedgehog, with thick eyebrows and big eyes.There are many girls in the company who ask him out, but he always says that he has a girlfriend who is out of town.

He and I are not in the same department, and we don't meet very often.He's a lower rank than me, but he's such a nice guy that I often hear young girls discussing him in the pantry.I'm curious why he chose this transfer, something obviously thankless.

Gentleman Xiao Wang helped me pack my luggage before boarding the plane and find a good seat for me, but he seldom spoke.After the plane took off, I sat next to him and watched him silently looking at the magazines provided on the plane, so I couldn't help asking him.

Xiao Wang, why are you willing to work in Yunnan? Is it because your girlfriend is there?

He raised his head, closed the magazine in his hand, and asked with a smile.

Then why are you willing to come here? Your position is higher than mine, and your salary is higher than mine. Maybe after the project you have been responsible for is over, you can get promoted and raise your salary again. The future is bright.But you actually gave up such a great opportunity and chose an unclear path like me. Compared with myself, I am more curious about your reasons.

I was a little speechless, so I had to answer ambiguously, you can guess, if you can guess, I will treat you to a big meal in Yunnan.

Xiao Wang answered without thinking.

It must be because of emotional injury, it should be someone you like in the company, but that person,

Xiao Wang didn't go on talking, I was a little surprised by Xiao Wang's sharp insight.

You really guessed it, but do you know that person?

I asked him a little guilty.

Xiao Wang looked at me suddenly, with a look of amazement.

I really guessed it, but I really don't know who that person is, maybe, you tell me?

I can't help but smile.

You can guess right by mistake, but this person, maybe one day in the future, I will tell you who she belongs to.

I don't know why I talked so much with Xiao Wang, and it also involves my ulterior relationship.Maybe it’s because this relationship is too painful for me, and I have been bearing it all by myself. Now someone finally opened up a small corner of this sealed relationship, and I couldn’t help breaking out of the chrysalis. Find someone who understands me and listen to my talk quietly, and the content is about that unknown relationship.

It may be that I think Xiao Wang may be able to understand or accept my relationship that is not recognized by the world.

During the short journey of more than 2 hours, I chatted with Xiao Wang for a long time. For some reason, I felt that I could trust him and he could understand me.As for my childhood, my college life, and my parents that I didn't even mention to An Xin too much, I actually revealed all of them and told Xiao Wang.Just after I finished speaking, I felt inexplicably relieved. It turns out that there are some things that I have to tell and share with others.I really seem to throw all those things that have been suffocating in my stomach to Xiao Wang, except for that relationship.As for Xiao Wang, he was also willing to take over and listen to me.

In exchange, Xiao Wang also told me something about him.He told me that in fact he didn't have any girlfriends at all, but he never found a suitable one, but it was hard to reject others, so he made up a far-fetched reason.Tell everyone he has a long-distance girlfriend.He smiled and told me that he really didn't have the courage to reject others directly like me, so he admired me very much.And the reason why he chose Yunnan is because after working in the company for so many years, he is almost 35 years old, but he is still fixed at the same level, and there is always no chance of promotion.And he didn't want his talent to be buried like this, and told me that maybe after arriving in Yunnan, he would be able to get a chance to make a big splash and realize his ambition, and he might even be able to find his true love in Yunnan. These are uncertain, but it is better than staying in Shanghai in obscurity.

What Xiao Wang said to me made me feel ashamed. I came to Yunnan just to escape reality, and he had already planned his life, but my own future was still so uncertain.It seems that I really have to plan for myself.Slowly learn to let go of peace of mind, because I can't always regard her as the whole of my life.

Because of the conversation on the plane, Xiao Wang and I became close friends, and also became the best partner at work, which made my trip to Yunnan much more interesting.And I gradually began to let go of An Xin, but I still couldn't help thinking of her every day when I fell asleep, worried about how she was doing, and imagined An Xin's life without me alone.

An Xin once called me, but I didn't answer it. An Xin also sent me text messages and emails many times, but I never replied.The content is all about questioning and pleading, asking what happened to me, whether you did something wrong to me, so that you were the last to know about my departure, and even before I left, I didn't want to see you again.

I know you must be very annoyed by my inexplicable behavior, and I have been waiting for you to explode.

Sure enough, people are impatient.Finally, An Xin issued an ultimatum to me, saying that if I don't reply to her again, the relationship between me and her will really end.When I saw this email, I couldn't help but burst into tears.

Don't worry, why don't I want to reply to you, but I can't do that.But, rest assured, your patience, or your tolerance for me, has a limit.It's just that this deadline is really short, so short that I wonder if I have ever had a place in your heart.Maybe a friend like me is dispensable to you.

You really didn't contact me until after the break-off email, which gave me the illusion that the current An Xin is the same person as the one she was a few days ago.Because just a few days ago, you still cared about me that much.

What impressed me the most was at the airport in Yunnan. As soon as I turned on my mobile phone, I found that Anxin had called me nearly 50 times.After turning on the phone, An Xin called.I resisted the urge to call back, and directly removed the battery of the phone, because I was afraid that once I replied, I would lose control of my emotions, and immediately flew back to Shanghai to stay by your side.But I don't want to do this, so, rest assured, I'm sorry, please forgive my selfishness.

An Xin didn't contact me anymore, and I gradually got used to the days without An Xin. I changed my mobile phone number and told the people around me, but I didn't tell An Xin.

I know that two years later, or even longer, I will still return to Shanghai, and I will still see An Xin.It's just that the various behaviors I have done to you before make me feel that I am digging my own grave.When I see you again, I don't know if you will still admit my existence, or pretend not to know me, and pass me by like a stranger.You may be married, have children, and run a small family of your own, and I'm just a passerby who broke your heart.

After a while, maybe you won't remember that there was such a me, because the time I stayed in your life is not long, really short, less than a year.But this is the ending I hope for, and I can no longer figure out whether I am doing this for your own good, or if it is a bit of revenge.I just thought about it later, even if I saw An Xin again, it would be good for her to deny me, so that I could get rid of this unrequited love that I could never be the protagonist.You got rid of me and lived the life you wanted.

And I'm just a stranger living in the same city as you, nothing more.

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