Shocked in late autumn

Yu Chenjing fell into the deep sea, his body was washed to the shore by the tide, and got stuck in the crevices of the rocks. When the colleagues of the anti-drug team found his body, his hands and feet were swollen from the sea water, his face was swollen like a cold steamed bun, and fish and insects surrounded him , Nibbling on his body, Xu Chenyu didn't yell or cry, just salvaged the body of the master silently, never saying a word.

His colleagues brought him back to his hometown. Seven days later, Yu Chenjing was buried. That day was extremely long.

In the early winter morning, the wind was biting, and the sky was drizzling with drizzle.

Ji Songlin held a black umbrella and walked beside Xu Chenyu. His shoulders were wet, but he didn't let any rainwater touch Xu Chenyu. Pulling out the traces of rainwater, it was two kilometers from the funeral home to the cemetery, a total of [-] steps. They walked very slowly, stepping on Xu Chenyu's heart with every step.

When I walked into the cemetery, I heard Sanskrit sounds echoing from the top of the mountain, and sadness filled the gray sky.The news of the death of the anti-narcotics captain spread like wildfire in the police station, and all the colleagues who could be present arrived. Everyone was wearing black clothes and black trousers, and they could hardly see clearly except for their eyes.

Sun Sijin put down a bunch of gerbera flowers in front of the tombstone. He took off his hat and bowed deeply to the unnamed tombstone. The colleagues behind him stood in a row and followed suit, bowing as a military salute. Way to see Yu Chenjing off for the last time.

Yu Chenjing's wife and daughter stood in front of the tomb. When the police saluted the army, his wife rubbed her teary eyes. The woman turned her back and secretly touched her eyes several times. The daughter kept choking and hid in her mother's arms.

Xu Chenyu was expressionless the whole time, and poured a glass of yellow rice wine in front of the grave, which was Yu Chenjing's favorite wine during his lifetime. He looked up at the mountain where countless dead souls were buried.He is wearing a high-necked black sweater today, and his inverted triangle figure looks unusually tall and straight.

Xu Chenyu looked around the cemetery. This mountain buried his father and now his master. There was no name engraved on the tombstone, no photos, and he was at a loss as to where he was. He looked at the tombstone, As if seeing his own end, he gave a severe shock.

Ji Songlin stood beside him, his shoulders were covered with a thin layer of morning frost, he moved two steps closer, his shoulders touched his shoulders, and then quietly held his hand, interlocking his fingers, Passing the warmth of his palm to him, Xu Chenyu turned his head, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, which meant to comfort him.

Yu Chenjing's wife and Wu Yuling squatted in front of the tombstone to burn paper money, occasionally whispering something, his wife was well dressed today, her shoulder-length hair was braided and tied behind her head, the wind mixed with rain, soaking her temples , she looks shorter than before, perhaps because of her stooped waist.

Wu Yuling turned her head, accidentally caught a glimpse of Ji Songlin and Xu Chenyu's tightly clasped hands, was stunned for a moment, and then thought that the two are good friends, under such circumstances, Ji Songlin might be comforting his son... , she looked up and saw the way they looked at each other. For some reason, a strange feeling rose in her heart, and she couldn't tell what was wrong...

After Sun Sijin paid his respects, he said a few words to Yu Chenjing's daughter, and then walked up to Xu Chenyu. The two let go of their handshake. Ji Songlin temporarily returned the space to him, stepped back and waited.

Sun Sijin didn't notice these details. He looked normal, stepped forward and patted Xu Chenyu on the shoulder, and said, "This is a decision after discussion with the leadership team. Relax, we will wait for you to return to the team."

Xu Chenyu nodded, only saying that he understood.

Not only Sun Sijin, but also the elders in the team. After comforting Yu Chenjing's daughter, they always come over to chat with Xu Chenyu. The content of the conversation is nothing more than words of comfort. In the eyes of colleagues, Xu Chenyu is Like Yu Chenjing's other son, Xu Chenyu accepted everyone's kindness, he was generous, sincerely and earnestly thanked him.

Wu Yuling looked at her son who had lost a lot of weight, and her eyes were full of distress. She brought a lot of cold medicine, and when she handed the plastic bag to her son, she reached out and patted the dirt off his lapel.

"The hospital has been too busy these two days. I have another operation tomorrow. Wait until the weekend. Mom will cook chicken soup for you..."

Xu Chenyu nodded and helped Wu Yuling tighten his collar: "Put on more, don't catch a cold."

Wu Yuling seemed to have something to say. Out of the corner of her eye, she caught a glimpse of Ji Songlin taking the plastic bag from Xu Chenyu's hand, and gave the two young men a meaningful look, but said nothing in the end.

After all the necessary ceremonies were completed, colleagues from the police station went down the mountain one after another. Yu Chenjing's wife put her arms around her daughter's shoulders. Please come to my house for dinner, I worked overtime during that time, so I didn't have time to make preparations." With tears in her eyes, she smiled and said, "If you are free, come to Auntie's house for a sit down."

Xu Chenyu spoke with a strong nasal voice. Under the rain curtain, his face was pale, and he responded with a smile: "Okay." At the end, he added: "My condolences are changing, the weather is getting cold, you have to take care of yourself."

Xu Chenyu looked at Yu Chenjing's youngest daughter, and forced a smile: "Yangyang will take the high school entrance examination next year, right?"

Yang Yang nodded, and said in a nasal voice mixed with crying: "The exam will be in July next year, and I want to go to the city's No. [-] Middle School to study in high school."

"City No. [-] Middle School is good, and the teachers are the best," Xu Chenyu didn't know what else to say. He looked at the little girl, and finally said the most ordinary and sincere blessing like an elder: "Study hard. , and get into a good university in the future.”

Yang Yang tugged the strap of the pink schoolbag, pursed his lips obediently and nodded.

"Everything that needs to be done is done, and it's time for us to go home." The woman raised her hand and brushed her hair that was blown by the wind around her ears. There were strands of white mixed in her black hair. She held her daughter's hand tightly: " Go, say goodbye to uncle."

The little girl is 15 years old this year. She looks very handsome. She has long black hair tied up in a high ponytail, revealing a smooth forehead. There is a tear mole at the end of her eyes. Xu Chenyu stepped forward: "Goodbye, Uncle Chenyu." She looked up at Ji Songlin, and politely said, "Goodbye, Uncle."

Xu Chenyu stood on the top of the mountain, watching the mother and daughter leave, Ji Songlin followed his gaze, and suddenly remembered the scene when he saw the anti-drug captain for the first and last time.

It was late autumn, and the rays of the sun elongated Yu Chenjing's shadow. When he said goodbye, he waved his hands in the wind without turning his head. As he walked further and further away, his body gradually turned into a small Black dots, submerged in a sea of ​​people.

Suddenly, Ji Songlin had a different understanding of "life". The last thing ordinary people can leave to the world may be only a shadow of their backs. Because of this, the word "limited" is even more precious. Ji Songlin glanced at Xu Chenyu's face. Looking sideways, he didn't know how much time between the two of them could be wasted and wasted. Accidents always come faster than tomorrow.

Involuntarily, Ji Songlin felt impulsiveness and anticipation in his heart. He wanted to take Xu Chenyu's hand immediately, hold it firmly in his palm, and never let go.

After the funeral was over, they strolled back to the apartment. There was a faint smog in the air. In the drizzly rain at several o'clock, Ji Songlin held an umbrella for him, holding Xu Chenyu's left hand and walking on the street. Pedestrians came and went, but he didn't care, he Too.

Since the night before, neither of the two men mentioned that hug, and chose to keep their mouths shut. The word "love" doesn't have to be said, it can be seen just by looking at it. Love never plays tricks.For them, that hug is more like a dark past, a long overdue two-way rush.

Opening the door of the apartment again, the messy clothes and trousers on the sofa have been cleaned up by Ji Songlin, and they are piled up neatly.Ji Songlin replaced the flowers that died in the early winter, and put green plants in the white porcelain vases, and the hut finally regained a little vitality.

Looking at the neat and unstained living room, Xu Chenyu's whole heart was wrapped in warmth, and he suddenly said, "Let's go watch the sunset."

"it is good!"

Ji Songlin nodded, and the two went to the balcony. The apartment is on the 37th floor, and you can have a panoramic view of half of Z City. The small balcony is fairly wide, with a bench at the foot of the wall, and some beautiful flowers and plants under the outer eaves. Early winter is here. The branches and leaves of the creeper were withered and entangled on the fence half dead.

The wind picked up, blowing away the drizzle, and the sky gradually cleared up. This is a rare and good moment in winter. The golden-pink sunset is buried under the soft clouds, and the orange-red sky is full of rays of light.

The red glow was reflected in Xu Chenyu's eyes, he turned his head and asked, "Do you have any smoke on you?"

Rummaging through his pockets, Ji Songlin took out a small delicate box and opened it with a "snap", only the last one was left inside.Turning the cigarette in his hand, he handed it to Xu Chenyu, lighting a red spark for him.

Xu Chenyu took a puff, squinted his eyes and exhaled the smoke, he didn't choke again, his movements were much more proficient than the first time, he returned the cigarette to Ji Songlin, without saying anything, Ji Songlin took it and took a puff too.

The atmosphere here is just right, the language seems redundant between them, Ji Songlin didn't try to discuss the truth of life with him, there are too many things he can't help, words can't be honey to comfort people, so when he feels lonely, Ji Songlin chooses to accompany him smoke a cigarette.

The smoke ring rolled into a white mist and slowly dispersed in front of the eyes. The afterglow sank, and the two shadows intertwined on the ground. They smoked the cigarette one by one.

After he put out the cigarette, Xu Chenyu arched his back and tilted his head on his arm. He watched the dusk eat up the sunset bit by bit. The night came with lights, and the quiet atmosphere made his heart hard to be at peace.

With a dry and warm palm on the back of his hand, Ji Songlin tapped the back of Xu Chenyu's hand with his index finger: "It's already 07:30, are you hungry?"

Xu Chenyu shook his head subconsciously. Ji Songlin didn't let go of his hand, but increased his strength. Under his burning gaze, only the liar came to his senses, then nodded, and finally said truthfully: "A little... .”

Ji Songlin smiled dotingly: "What do you want to eat?"

Xu Chenyu really thought for a moment, his eyelashes blinked slightly, and the small pear dimple at the corner of his mouth showed a long-lost smile: "Su noodles, the one you cooked last time."

"Then you can watch the sunset here for a while, and you can eat it later." Ji Songlin reached out and rubbed his head, turned around and was about to take a step when Xu Chenyu grabbed his sleeve and said, "Hey, I help you."

"you sure?"

During the weekend date, Xu Chenyu almost blew up the kitchen while cooking. Ji Songlin would never forget that, seeing the seriousness of the person in front of him, with a playful look on his face, he couldn't help laughing.

"Cooking is a matter of first familiarity and second familiarity." Xu Chenyu let go of his sleeves and straightened his back: "Don't underestimate me."

Seeing his serious appearance, Ji Songlin smiled.

"It's my fault." He took Xu Chenyu's hand again and led him to the kitchen: "Then please ask Mr. Xu to wash the vegetables for me."

Turning on the faucet, Xu Chenyu bowed his body, washed a handful of green scallions, put them into the sink, and asked if there was anything else that could help?Ji Songlin only said to let him play in the living room, watch TV or listen to music, and eat some biscuits if he is hungry.

Xu Chenyu crossed his arms, and he simply leaned against the corner: "I'll watch you here, and learn how to cook by the way..."

Well, Ji Songlin had to admit that even if he couldn't help, he was more than happy to let Xu Chenyu accompany him. He smiled softly, and pointed to the side: "Then you stand far away, don't let the oily smoke get you."

This smile made Xu Chenyu's heart skip a beat, it was the first time he had seen him smile like this, his peach blossom eyes were bent into crescent moons, unstructured and faded away, even the slight creases at the corners of his eyes were filled with happiness.

The scent wafting from the kitchen was filled with human fireworks. Looking at Ji Songlin's busy back, he finally had a sense of reality of returning to life.

The sesame oil was poured into the hot pan, and the splashing sound of oil stars was heard along with the condiments. Considering that Xu Chenyu was still catching a cold, Ji Songlin wanted to stir-fry two vegetarian dishes. He opened the refrigerator and saw that there were only the last two eggs left in it. There are no extra ingredients for him to play.He sighed, thinking that he would have to go to the vegetable market tomorrow to fill up his refrigerator.But fortunately, Ji Songlin's cooking skills are not bad, and finally cooked two bowls of egg noodles, sprinkled with seasonings, and the aroma wafted all over the room.

The two carried the coffee table to the balcony, set it up as a temporary dining table, and sat on the side of the bench, and then moved their chopsticks.

Ji Songlin picked the fried eggs in the bowl to Xu Chenyu's bowl, and said in a calm tone, "You should eat more, and lose weight."

The eggs were brought back again, Xu Chenyu explained: "Cold affects appetite, I can't eat too much, you can eat."

A fried egg was handed back and forth two or three times like this, Ji Songlin didn't allow him to give it up any more, and protected his own bowl, showing a rare childish look: "Eat it quickly, if you make a fuss for a while, it will become cold noodles."

It would be a lie to say that you are not moved. Although it is just an egg, the most trivial love is often hidden in the subtleties.After eating the noodle soup, not only the heart but also Xu Chenyu's whole body warmed up. The two men ate quickly, and the plain noodles were gone after a while. There was still half a jug of yellow rice wine and two glasses on the coffee table.

Huangliang wine is warmer and more fragrant than cold wine.

Ji Songlin filled up the wine: "When do you go to work?"

"Bureau Sun gave me a big vacation for a whole month." Xu Chenyu pushed the wine glass to Ji Songlin, and then took another glass over.

A slight sigh was hidden in his voice, and Ji Songlin caught it. He didn't intend to bring up the sad things at first, but now the setting sun is disappearing into the horizon, the lights of thousands of houses are connected to a galaxy, and the moon is faintly exposed. This kind of atmosphere is very suitable for kneeling After a long talk, he couldn't hold back, and asked, "Because of what?"

Xu Chen pursed his lips. He hesitated for a moment before talking about the past: "The second day after returning from Samet Island, it happened to be a shooting competition in the bureau. I was a contestant..." He paused , as if replaying the scene in front of my eyes: "But when I went to the shooting range, I realized that I couldn't shoot at all... Director Sun felt that I was emotionally unstable. After discussing with the leadership team, they decided to let me rest at home for a while. "

Ji Songlin frowned, and suddenly recalled that when he was in the cemetery, Sun Sijin told Xu Chenyu to wait for him to return to the team, so that was what he meant.

Once the chatterbox is opened, some concerns are unavoidable.

"Did this incident affect you a lot?"

"The master once told me that even if you are a second late when you meet a drug dealer face to face, you may lose your life," Xu Chenyu closed his eyes, Kun Hai's malicious smile and the missed second appeared in his mind, he said The corner of his mouth twitched, as if mocking himself: "He really hit the mark!"

Ji Songlin hugged Xu Chenyu's shoulders, turned his body sideways, and shielded him from the cold evening wind.