Shocked in late autumn

Xu Chenyu swirled in his memories, he opened his eyes with difficulty, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, it was a soothing look, Ji Songlin found that he was always like this, he was unwilling to reveal too much emotion.

"Chenyu, it's not your fault, don't blame yourself." Ji Songlin didn't want him to spend the rest of his life trapping himself in guilt, his voice whispered softly to comfort the injured little animal: "Everything can't be predicted, I believe, you The master will not regret the choice he made, even if he does it all over again, he will still stand on the opposite side of the drug dealers. The reason why the ideal shines is that not only the hard work is poured in it, but also the blood is irrigated."

There was no impassionedness, nor was there any rhetoric. He just stated the facts slowly and firmly, but it was more useful than any appropriate comfort.

What Ji Songlin wanted to express, Xu Chenyu understood everything, three days and three nights of drinking and thinking, Xu Chenyu asked himself countless times, if he had shot a second earlier, maybe Yu Chenjing would not have died, if he If he had worked harder back then, he might have been able to save Yu Chenjing before Kun Hai fired the gun, but he understood better than anyone else that there were no ifs in the world.

The real anti-drug is not a movie, it cannot be repeated and cannot be NGed, Xu Chenyu missed a second, and the price was Yu Chenjing's life, but as Ji Songlin said, even if Yu Chenjing was given another chance to choose, he would still have no choice. If he pursues without hesitation, he will not regret it, and the ending will not change.

Ji Songlin tightened his arms and hugged Xu Chenyu in his arms: "The gods can't guarantee the day when your life will end. You practice your ideals and are a competent policeman. That's enough."

"Am I... really competent?" Xu Chenyu murmured.

Ji Songlin spoke clearly, and he said firmly: "Not everyone who has experienced what you have experienced is willing to make the same choice, Chenyu, you are aboveboard."

Hearing these words, Xu Chenyu was still slightly shocked.

A person with a mature mind can still stick to his original intention even in the face of extremely evil human nature, but if he stumbles in his ideals, it is no less than a devastating blow. This is the case for Xu Chenyu. His father and colleagues successively Buried in the hands of drug dealers, they dedicated their lives to the anti-drug cause, but in the end it was nothing more than a pile of loess and an unnamed tomb.

In order to arrest Kun Hai, these policemen persisted for too many years. Yu Chenjing passed away suddenly, which suddenly made Xu Chenyu suspicious...Who will win and who will win between evil and justice?Xu Chenyu suddenly felt tired, he needed a little strength, as long as others told him that he did not go wrong, he could regain his courage and move forward indomitably.

As if he could see through him, Ji Songlin asked softly, "You're disappointed, aren't you?"

Xu Chenyu sighed lowly. He raised his glass and stuffed the wine inside: "It would be a lie to say that I am not disappointed, but this kind of disappointment is not due to the general environment or the established facts, but to myself."

The answer was not simple, but Ji Songlin understood that Xu Chenyu's pain came from himself, his nightmare was himself, he was dissatisfied with himself, and disappointed in himself.

"You've been blaming yourself for what happened to Master Yu?"

Xu Chenyu blinked his eyes suddenly, he was silent for a while, and then said softly: "Yes..."

"Can I ask you a question?"

"You ask."

Ji Songlin looked into his eyes: "Will you give up being a policeman?"

Xu Chenyu was taken aback, should he give up?Give up the ideals he has pursued for many years, just like Jiang Xiuyuan's suggestion, and apply for a transfer to a clerical or other industry.Just like his family hoped, find a stable job, get a good income, and become an ordinary person in the world with worldly happiness.

Xu Chenyu thought for a long time, there was silence between the two of them, Ji Songlin just looked at him, waiting for him, his eyes focused and patient.

"No!" After saying these words, Xu Chenyu let out a sigh of relief.

Ji Songlin knew that he needed a listener, so he changed his posture, put his hands on his knees, and kept his eyes on his eyes.

"There is a slogan posted in the office building of our bureau, once you touch drugs, you will get rid of drugs for life," Xu Chenyu said slowly, "I once busted a drug gang. The youngest drug dealer was only 16 years old. When he was caught, he He knelt down and cried and begged me, saying that he was the only child in the family, and his parents died because of drug addiction. He had no choice but to go this way, but do you know? He put drugs in drinks and sold them to students. Sell ​​it to ordinary people, and it will make a lot of money from now on.”

"I understand that one person's power is too small." Xu Chenyu smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled: "However, maybe I caught one more drug dealer, and maybe I also helped another person from being harmed."

He can foresee the final ending, but still refuses to leave this ideal land.

Ji Songlin once again saw the shining stars in Xu Chenyu's eyes. He seemed to be carrying light, and his whole body was shining brightly in the dark.

Ji Songlin stretched out his right hand and held Xu Chenyu's wrist. He looked at him and said, "In this life, I have come here and pursued it. No matter what the ending is, I will have no regrets."

Without saying anything, Xu Chenyu held his palm with his backhand, lowered his eyes, and smiled.

The person beside him was like a gift from heaven, he didn't persuade Xu Chenyu to take a path that most people would like to take in the name of "for your own good".Instead, tell him to walk according to his own will, success or failure is in his heart, gains and losses depend on fate, and he is worthy of this world if he is worthy of himself.

Xu Chenyu faced him, and he tilted his head, sighing: "Those three days were like a dream...but fortunately, the dream has woken up."

A big dream, a new understanding of the world.

Ji Songlin pouted his head and looked at him: "What would you dream of?"

Xu Chenyu raised his chin slightly, squinted his eyes, and looked at the flickering lights on high-rise buildings: "There are many, there are gunshots, there are drug dealers, and there are also fathers and masters." With a shallow smile on his face, he said to himself: "After waking up...I was actually a little scared...I was afraid that it would be my turn next." He said these words with a strong sense of shame. People are afraid of death, and human nature seeks benefits and avoids them. Harm, this is instinct.

This is Xu Chenyu's disappointment with himself.

Ji Songlin touched Xu Chenyu's face, rubbed his cheek with his hand, looked into his eyes and said: "Chenyu, your choice and your persistence are all precious. In my heart, no one is more beautiful than you. alright."

Words of love are better than words of love, in Ji Songlin's eyes, Xu Chenyu is rare in the world, not only because of his love and appreciation for him, but also because of his pursuit of ideals.

What is ideal in such a time when all horses are silent?Xu Chenyu cried bitterly for it for a long night, and worked hard for it. He even doubted and struggled, and finally chose to return, insisting on taking a road that few people travel, which is the path of pilgrims.

Xu Chenyu raised his head and saw the love in Ji Songlin's eyes, more distressed, he gained some strength from these eyes, and also saw understanding, tolerance and support.

Xu Chenyu didn't know how to express his emotions accurately for a while, after thinking for a while, he said, "Song Lin, thank you."

Ji Songlin watched Xu Chenyu for a long time, his expression was gentler than the evening sunset when they first met.

"Between us, there is no need to thank you, and you don't need to apologize." Ji Songlin raised his finger and touched his face that was blown by the night wind.

Xu Chenyu grabbed his hand and rubbed it against his cheek: "I'm fine, don't worry." Yes, being able to say it calmly means that the wound is slowly healing.

The atmosphere was inexplicably solemn, so Xu Chenyu picked up the wine glass, shook the glass, and clinked glasses with Ji Songlin: "Come, let's respect the past and tomorrow."

The glasses touched each other crisply, Ji Songlin thought for a while and said, "I hope the future will always be bright."

The two talked again, the yellow rice wine was more than half down, Xu Chenyu's cheeks were slightly red, he looked a little drunk.

After opening up their hearts and chatting, they felt that this matter was really over. The two looked at each other and smiled, and finally drove away their worries and began to enjoy the rare sunny day. Xu Chenyu took another sip of wine, he moved his body, and Ji Songlin got closer, sighing that there are so many stars tonight, the stars are bright and beautiful.

Ji Songlin found that whether he was standing or sitting, Xu Chenyu's back was always upright, like a small white poplar growing toward the sun.

Ji Songlin's eyes were deep, looking at Xu Chenyu's hair, his eyebrows, the tip of his nose, and the corners of his mouth, the deeper he looked, the deeper he looked. Ji Songlin still remembers the first time he saw Xu Chenyu, what clothes he was wearing, Remember the current time and space atmosphere, and also remember what they said.Memories take root, will not corrupt or fade, and will last forever in his mind.

After watching it for a long time, Ji Songlin seemed to be in a daze, and Ji Songlin forgot to even blink.

Xu Chenyu suddenly turned his head and looked into Ji Songlin's eyes. The two looked at each other unexpectedly. The distance was too close, and he could smell the other person's breath. The sudden movement made Ji Songlin hang his head, and he had no choice but to withdraw his bare|naked|naked eyes. look away a little.

Xu Chenyu used the wine to boost his courage, he couldn't take his eyes off, he just looked at him like this, and asked with a bit of a joke: "Why don't you continue watching?"

The question made Ji Songlin shake his head and chuckle, he met his eyes again, his eyes were lingering, and he said unabashedly: "I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself, and I'll offend you."

"Huh?" Xu Chenyu raised his eyebrows, he didn't understand all of a sudden.

The moon is flying in the sky, and the stars are all over the window. This winter night is too clear. It is a scenery that Ji Songlin has never seen before. He fell into Xu Chenyu's eyes and suddenly said: "The moonlight is beautiful tonight, let's kiss Bar."

After finishing speaking without giving him a chance to respond, Ji Songlin leaned over and kissed Xu Chenyu's lips, and then tasted the aroma of wine on the tip of his tongue.

Xu Chenyu was dumbfounded on the spot. He blinked and saw Ji Songlin's emotional face. The twilight was hazy, and the sky was full of starlight intertwined between their lips and teeth. Ji Songlin was obviously a novice. The palm that was caressing Xu Chenyu's face couldn't help trembling slightly.

Xu Chenyu closed his eyes dully in dizziness, and tried to respond to Ji Songlin's kiss. The two of them were very unfamiliar with kissing, but they just put their lips close to each other, feeling each other's warmth and softness. The aroma of wine was intoxicating, and Ji Songlin couldn't help Zhizhi slowly moved his palms, put his arms around Xu Chenyu's waist, and wrinkled his sweater.

The sky was full of stars above his head, scattered in the winter night, Xu Chenyu carried Ji Songlin's kiss, his elbows tensedly pressed against his chest that was getting closer and closer, like a rejection and a temptation.

He was so nervous that he interrupted Ji Songlin. Ji Songlin's cheeks were still flushed, his lips were an inch away from Xu Chenyu, and he gasped and asked, "What's wrong?"

Xu Chenyu pursed his lips, reminiscing about Ji Songlin's jerky kiss, his nasal cavity was blocked: "I can't breathe..."

He was actually cut off by a cold. Thinking of this, Ji Songlin shook his head and laughed. Xu Chenyu sniffed his nose twice after he finished speaking. Under Ji Songlin's funny and helpless eyes, he added: "Also...you knocked I have a tooth."

Pu Chi laughed, Ji Songlin was completely defeated, the lust in the peach blossom eyes disappeared by seven points, he smiled very sincerely, and said: "Sorry, I have no experience."

"I didn't just say that, between us, there is no need to say sorry." Xu Chenyu also smiled, his small pear dimples are very attractive, like hiding sweet and greasy sugar, as if one lick, the heart will overflow with honey .

As soon as he laughed, Ji Songlin fainted from the laughter, his world began to turn upside down, a driver downstairs honked his horn, and the man in the other car stuck his head out of the window, arguing with the driver.Some students are coming home from school, and adults walk beside the children and chatter endlessly.Some people are talking and laughing at a party, some are whispering, but that is the noise of another space, and Ji Songlin's world is completely trapped in Xu Chenyu, he can only see the person in front of him, and only hear his breathing and heartbeat.

Still close, the two could hear their breaths, Ji Songlin's arms around Xu Chenyu's waist suddenly tightened, and his lips were only a few centimeters away from touching each other, but Ji Songlin asked stupidly: "I...I Can I still kiss you?"

"No!" Xu Chenyu said this sentence almost close to the tip of his nose, and the next moment he moved to Ji Songlin's lips, and said the last sentence indistinctly: "Now I want to kiss you."

The person who said no but took the initiative was not very proficient in kissing skills. After all, counting the one just now, this was his second kiss in his life, and also the second kiss between them. Xu Chenyu opened his mouth slightly, probing When they reached the tip of Ji Songlin's tongue, it felt delightful and suffocating. They plundered the sweetness between each other's lips, and according to their instincts, they made rapid progress in the temptation.

An unspeakable longing emerged from the depths of his body, like a traveling wind blowing the grass, growing branches and leaves crazily, Xu Chenyu revealed the hidden arrogance in his character, occupying every inch of Ji Songlin's mouth, The two pondered back and forth about the mellow fragrance remaining on each other's lips.

The long kiss even made the moon drunk. Just this alone can't satisfy the love, and Ji Songlin also lost control. To paint with the tip of the tongue, to draw a magnificent picture of love on the lover.

Xu Chenyu couldn't help raising his hand, and touched the back of Ji Songlin's neck. His fingertips were slightly cool, and the skin that touched each other felt as if an electric current was flowing through it, making it extremely numb.

The cold wind blew in the early winter night, but it couldn't blow away the scorching fire between the two. The balcony was not hidden, and as long as the neighbors next door opened the curtains, they could see their secrets about to move.

When Ji Songlin's chest was heaving the most, he forced himself to leave Xu Chenyu's lips, he gasped and stopped in time: "I can't go on anymore, you are sick."

Xu Chenyu was sweating thinly on his temples, and he couldn't stop panting, and asked in a dark voice, "Don't you want to?"

How could you not want to?Flames ignited in Ji Songlin's eyes, and the lust in every cell of his body stretched out, instigating him, urging him to embrace the people around him, wrap him up, wrap him tightly, and spend the night of burning wood with him.

Desire|Desire is the outlet of deep love, but he is unwilling to be so hasty, Ji Songlin wants to give Xu Chenyu the best memory.

Loved ones should not be taken lightly.

Ji Songlin smiled and shook his head, telling the truth: "Of course I want to...but don't worry, we will have a long time to come."

Seeing that he was enduring so hard, Xu Chenyu leaned over again. He wanted to kiss Ji Songlin, but the moment he touched his lips, he turned his head suddenly, "Ah Chirp", he sneezed very well, and his head became dizzy up.

This person.

Ji Songlin smiled, he took off his coat and put it on Xu Chenyu's body, he embraced his shoulders, let out his warm chest, and used it as a pillow for Xu Chenyu.

"The stars are so bright tonight, let's watch quietly for a while."

It doesn't have to be done, just kissing and hugging will almost send the two of them to the pinnacle of joy.Xu Chenyu was even more moved by his thoughtfulness, he leaned against Ji Songlin's arms and looked up at the moon hanging in the sky.

The cold wind blows, but Xu Chenyu doesn't feel cold. He is protected by Ji Songlin. He not only blocks the wind and sand for him, but also erects a warm wall for him. In the warmth, desire slowly ebbs, happiness and satisfaction But it is getting thicker.

Ji Songlin shook the person in his arms lightly, looked at his flushed cheeks: "Are you drunk?"

"No," Xu Chenyu shook his head stubbornly, and retorted without deterrent force: "I can drink well, and now I can single out three strong men..."

Seeing him distorting the facts and making self-righteous arguments, for some reason, Ji Songlin felt that he was [-] times cuter than usual, and he was willing to follow his words, coaxing: "If you faint, just lean on me for a while Son."

"Hey, close your eyes." Xu Chenyu was slightly drunk, and he slowly lifted the corners of his eyes in Ji Songlin's arms.

Ji Songlin was suspicious, with a smirk on the corner of his mouth: "What are you doing?"

"Where are you thinking?" Xu Chenyu directly covered Ji Songlin's eyes with his right hand, and said softly, "I have a gift for you, stretch out your hand with the palm facing up."

His sight was blocked, so Ji Songlin had no choice but to do it obediently, there was a rustling sound of rubbing beside him, as if by magic, Xu Chenyu took out a key from behind him, put it in Ji Songlin's palm, then moved his right hand, and restored Ji Songlin's vision .

Ji Songlin held the key and watched it over and over in surprise. His joy was beyond words, even more exciting than getting a castle. There was an uncontrollable smile in his voice, but he pretended not to understand: "Give me the key, what does this mean?"

What's the meaning?Is this person really ignorant or not?Xu Chenyu picked him up, teased him, and said deliberately: "You can accept the late birthday present, and you can help me clean the house if you have time."

Ji Songlin slowly closed his palms, his heart was full of emotion, but he also joked: "My labor costs are not cheap, calculated by the hour, Mr. Xu, have you figured it out?"

Xu Chenyu sat up straight, cleared his throat, and asked seriously: "How much does Lawyer Ji charge?"

"About legal issues, two hundred dollars per hour, how long do you need?" Ji Songlin buckled the key in the key ring, mixed it with records and courtyards, and they jingled and landed in the ear, like a beautiful song Melodies.

Xu Chenyu was calculating the math problem in his mind, he made a rough estimate, and said, "There are 8760 hours in a year...I want to reserve Lawyer Ji's 80 years, please do the math, it's time to cooperate How many dollars?"

Ji Songlin approached his breath, tilted his head and kissed Xu Chenyu's small dimple, took his left hand and pressed it on his heart, and said affectionately: "Give me every tomorrow of yours, and I will give you the 80 years of the rest of my life." .how?"

To Xu Chenyu's ears, this sounded much more beautiful than "I love you". The yellow rice wine he drank began to ferment in his body, and he didn't know whether it was the wine that made him drunk or Ji Songlin.

Xu Chenyu suddenly felt the magic of fate. The person in front of him was not only a grand gift, but also his confidant and lover. He finally met another compatible soul.

The world was spinning around in front of him, Xu Chenyu couldn't even tell whether it was reality or a dream at this moment. He looked at Ji Songlin, as if he had seen the beauty of the whole universe.

Seeing the blood seal Ji Songlin's gentle killing move, Xu Chenyu fell into his sniping attack and was powerless to resist. He looked into his eyes and had an unprecedented beautiful smile on his face.

"make a deal!"