in love with my psychiatrist

On the last night of Island X, after the flustered phone call that made me feel particularly ridiculous, when I returned to City N, I never took the initiative to mention Qi Qianyun to anyone again.Never contacted her again.

The so-called courage and frankness, because that "dear" completely turned into a huge irony.

While busy with the Luhai project with estelle, when she asked about me and Qi Qianyun, I just laughed it off and said, "estelle, sometimes things go wrong in life. Many, fortunately, I didn’t go too far, and I was able to turn around relatively easily. I will reflect more and be more careful in the future.”

She knows me, and when things are really settled and decided, I usually become reticent.

She is as understanding as she is, of course I can hear what I mean, so I don't ask any more.

Qi Qianyun called me a few times and sent me a few text messages, but I didn't answer or reply.

But don't get me wrong, I'm not being angry or stubborn. Of course, I was angry and sad for a few days, and I felt stupid in my heart, and there was a lot of embarrassment.

But people usually have to pay the price for their own emotional childish impulsiveness and undefense.And the price is actually quite small.

After all, after those few days, in the end, I really just felt that I never knew her.

The so-called emotion may just be her goddess-like mysterious appearance after being emotionally hurt, the exaggeration of the old days, several inexplicable temptations, a new and exciting experience, etc., which caused my temporary hormonal confusion.

She treats me too, right?

In the end, they each return to their respective parallel worlds and trajectories, and there is no intersection anymore.

All the previous events, all karma, were just an embarrassing joke.

Feng Sheng also mentioned her to me several times.

Once, he said, Lu Qiqi, Qianyun said, you didn't answer her call.

Once, he asked, Lu Qiqi, did you read the text message Qianyun sent you?

I smiled and answered him: "No need to pick up."

"To be honest, I really didn't read the content of the text message, so there's no need to read it again."

Another time, when I reported the work progress to him and was about to leave the office, he stopped me with a rare hesitant expression and said, Lu Qiqi, Qianyun, she...

I stopped him with an impatient expression of "so far", and told him that the promotion of his Luhai project is actually quite tricky. Me, estelle, and my eyes often work late into the night, and I really don't have the energy to talk to each other again. He Zhou Xuan discusses some people and things that no longer make sense.

He sighed, speechless, and let me out.

In this way, for a long time, I continued to put in a focused work state.

Until one day a few months later, after killing countless of our brain cells, the first proposal for the promotion of the Luhai project was finally made.

Estelle and I, as well as the eyes, originally arranged to meet Feng Sheng in a coffee shop, and let him see our results for the first time.

The time was appointed, but he was late, so I called, and he hurriedly said: "Qiqi, another day, I'm in the hospital now."

I asked with concern: "Is it serious, who is sick?"

Feng Sheng hesitated for a moment, then said, "It's Qingshan, Qianyun called me."

When I heard this, my heart skipped a beat, and I didn't ask any more questions. I just said, "Then you should deal with the hospital affairs first. Don't worry here. Let us know when you're done."

Feng Sheng wanted to say something else, I hung up the phone lightly.

This incident did not arouse much turmoil in my heart.

I just feel that their world has nothing to do with me, I never understand it, and I don't want to understand it.

It's just that every time someone mentions that name, a half-lit, half-glamorous, deserted and beautiful back in front of the French windows on the 33rd floor, under the neon lights, will appear in my mind.

I still vaguely remember the palpitations at that time.

But it seems like a long time ago, like a dream.

I was afraid but addicted, and finally woke up, and there was only a faint shadow, flickering and dark.

fair enough.

So, that afternoon, the three of us sat in the cafe in a rare way to relax, leaning against the floor-to-ceiling windows, basking in the early winter sun, sometimes chatting casually, and sometimes listening to the entertainment gossip on the TV on the wall of the cafe gossip.

In a few months, from summer to winter, from scorching heat to early freezing, the few of us who have encountered life-changing events, seem to have the opposite luck with the seasons, and seem to be slowly walking on the sunny road.

The promotion of Luhai project has officially entered the countdown stage.We've been pretty busy.

I finally moved to a new house, and Estelle also sold the previous house and bought it in the same community as me.

There is another neighbor relationship between us.

Estelle joked, "Iris, in this life, the iron-clad revolutionary friendship will never be broken. I guess ghosts have to scare people together."

I laughed out loud.

The three of them often work at my house or estelle's house, and make some delicious food together after work, and have a full meal.

When we have a little free time, we will go swimming and watch movies, or during our vacations, we will drive the new car purchased with Feng Sheng’s more than enough salary to go hiking in the countryside together.

Sometimes it is rare to rest, and my eyes are too tight to go.As for the reason, I am very clear.

Estelle's mother has changed to a new doctor, and the healing of her condition is getting stronger and stronger. She told me hesitantly that she wanted to invite Qi Qianyun to have a meal in private, as a thank you, but Qi Qianyun politely declined.

I smiled and said nothing.

In fact, logically, the fact that we work so freely, satisfyingly and happily at Feng Sheng's place is also because of her, so how can we thank her.

Then, Eyes said, Wen Wen and Li Li mentioned that Estelle's domestic violence ex-doctor boyfriend really went to the company to find Estelle, and also looked for Eyes, but of course they returned in vain.

Hearing the word Wenwen, Estelle's smile faded a bit.

His eyes still followed her anytime and anywhere, and seeing her subtle expression, he immediately added, Actually, I don't have much contact with Wen Wen, and when I met and chatted by chance, I had more contact with that kid Li Li.

By the way, let me add that when I was still in the company, I could tell that Wenwen liked eyes and stuck to them every day.

After hearing what he said, Estelle pretended to smile just now, felt embarrassed, and murmured, why did you explain this inexplicably.

When the eyes heard it, they blushed all of a sudden, and the two of them were struggling like this.

I am a bystander, and I really feel that enough is enough.

At this time, there was a news on TV, and we didn't pay attention to it at first.

Until I heard "...Three years ago, Qing Shan, a draft star before quitting the entertainment industry, overdosed on drugs at home yesterday...According to unreliable news, Qing Shan has been trapped by love for several years, which is even more controversial One after another, the subject turned out to be a homosexual, and it was rumored that the woman also had a prominent family background and was internationally renowned in the field of psychology..."

Estelle and I turned our heads to stare at the screen at the same time, and the picture had already flashed by.

I let out a breath and said, "Feng Sheng is in the hospital, probably because of this matter."

Estelle shook her head: "Maybe, you are right to withdraw early. Their world, alas."

I nodded, but there was confusion in my heart.

A few days later, when I met Feng Sheng again, his handsome face, which was always proud of the spring breeze, looked haggard.

The few of us finished talking about work together, and Feng Sheng left me alone.

His brave and determined expression, ready to die, scared me.

I joked: "Mr. Feng, is it because you are not satisfied with the first case and want to fire us?"

Feng Sheng actually had no time to joke seriously. He said: "The plan is very good. I don't worry about it at all. I leave it to you. Continue to deepen in this direction, no problem, just..."

He looked at me and took a sip of coffee: "Lu Qiqi, do you want to hear Qianyun's story?"

I was stunned by the sudden change of subject.

Why are you talking about this again?

I frowned and said, "It's really unnecessary."

Feng Sheng said: "But I want to tell you now."

I was a little irritated and baffled.