Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

"Yes, I'm sorry!" Chris Maeda couldn't hold back his tears after all, and burst out crying, "As expected, I still don't want Dingbangsang to leave! I love you so much! You like me too, right? ? Let’s go to Karuizawa together, okay? Please, I really beg you! This is the only request in my life, please!”

The little guy was crying pitifully, and while retching, his body was also twitching non-stop.

"Ugh... I, I just like you...more than anyone else..." Crying to this point, he was completely lost, with snot and tears falling down together, "I like you more than anyone else in the world... ...I don't want...to see...your...desperate...destroyed look...vomit...I...I really...don't want you to leave...let's go to...Karuizawa..."

The crying appearance in embarrassment, from another aspect, is indeed a bit ugly.But on the beautiful face of Maeda Chris, such a crying appearance is even more lovable.If Xue Dingbang was not in a bad mood now, he would definitely hold him in his arms and love him from inside to outside.

He was shaking from crying, speaking incoherently, and still retching, just like a child.Crying like this, what is taken away is not the degree of the beloved toy, but the degree of being separated from the person you love the most forever.

Xue Dingbang remembered that Maeda Chris said that when he was very young—about four or five years old—his mother left him alone in the countryside and went to Tokyo to work alone.

That day, the four or five-year-old child cried miserably, and ran with his mother in the snow for a long time.

At that time, he was also crying so helplessly, right?

No matter how hard-hearted Xue Dingbang is, he will inevitably be moved.

"Go to Karuizawa." Xue Dingbang hugged his body and stroked his back, "Let's go to Karuizawa..."

"Really...Really?" Chris Maeda hiccupped, and hugged Xue Dingbang's neck tightly as if grabbing a life-saving straw, "Don't lie to me! No...don't change your mind again...we ...Let's go to Karuizawa!"

Xue Dingbang nodded and said, "It's the same wherever you go. It doesn't matter whether it's Karuizawa or anywhere."

Already, it doesn't matter.

Although Xue Dingbang said on the surface that he wanted to go back to China, he didn't intend to go home.

If there is another place in this world that needs Schrodingbang... I am afraid, it is only here with Chris Maeda.

"Dingbangsang, you are the meaning of my existence." Chris Maeda sobbed and collapsed in Xue Dingbang's arms, "Without you, my existence and non-existence are meaningless. If I am not a meaningful existence, What am I still doing here? Without you, I am nothing...don't leave me, Dingbangsang. Don't abandon me, Dingbangsang."

Xue Dingbang closed his eyes and let out a muffled "hmm".

At the airport, he thought the same way.

Don't abandon me, Brother Ren.

The expected good things did not happen, only the cruel reality and the coming cold winter.

On the way to Karuizawa, Xue Dingbang found that his documents were missing.

On the night when he went out to buy beer, Xue Dingbang still remembered that the documents were all in the mezzanine.Before getting drunk, Schrödingbang was still thinking about where to go after returning to China?what to do

Going back to his hometown with Chris Maeda, Xue Dingbang felt calmer than he imagined.

Because it doesn't matter anymore, so just be so calm.

But there is no hope, no expectation.

Chris Maeda didn't want Xue Dingbang to leave, and secretly hid his documents.Perhaps, this is also good, he can temporarily stop thinking about where to go, and don't have to think about his destination.

The man who came to meet Chris Maeda was a villager in the village.The driver, about 30 years old, drove the van. He was of medium build and dark skin.He just said hello rudely and said, "Yo, Maeda!"

Maeda Chris was very shy and nodded at him, even if he had greeted him.They got into the car and drove along the mountain trail.

Along the way, the atmosphere was not very lively.

Chris Maeda seemed to be unfamiliar with the driver, and his little mouth, which always liked to chatter, was kept tightly shut.

The scenery on both sides receded quickly.

As "Tokyo's back garden", Karuizawa is really beautiful in autumn.

The towering street trees form a vault along the roadside, and the colorful leaves are embellished in autumn.

The vehicle drove by, rolled up a handful of dead leaves, and flew in the wind.

But Schrödingbang didn't have the slightest intention of watching, just stared at the scenery outside the window in a daze.

On the road, Chris Maeda looked very nervous.Maybe it's because "near the hometown is more timid", maybe it's because of other reasons, Maeda Chris has been trembling all the time.He grabbed Xue Dingbang's fingers and pinched his nails hard.

Xue Dingbang was unconscious, still looking at the scenery outside the window.It seemed that the person who was pinched was not him, and it seemed that the hand was not his.

After driving along the winding mountain road for more than three hours, the car finally stopped at the bottom of a small hill.From the stone steps, there is an old wooden house.

"Hey, Maeda." The driver turned his head and grinned at them, "You're home."

Chris Maeda shivered as if he had suddenly realized, and smiled at the driver with a little embarrassment: "Thank you, Brother Kuan."

Ah Kuan nodded and smiled at them, waved his hands after they got out of the car, said "goodbye" and drove away with the exhaust of the car.

In the autumn mountains of Karuizawa, the temperature is already very low.Chris Maeda was only wearing a windbreaker and was shivering from the cold.But Xue Dingbang didn't feel cold at all, he even breathed so lightly that there was no mist.

Chris Maeda took a breath of white mist and held his hand: "Go in."

They climbed up the stone steps, and a few fruit trees were planted below the hillside, and now is the season when the fruits are abundant.The unattended fruit trees still grow luxuriantly, exuding a rotten and sweet fragrance alone in the cold wind.

No one has walked on the stone steps for a while, and they are covered with moss and slippery.On the fence on both sides of the stairs, dry creeper vines are still wrapped around it.

After walking more than [-] steps, the stone steps turned two bends, and the vision suddenly opened up.

Four or five heights above the ground is the house left by Grandpa Chris Maeda.

There is a Japanese-style arch outside the antique fenced courtyard with the style of the times.The courtyard gate under the arch is made of straw, which is not very strong.The small lock on the door is not difficult to open.

Chris Maeda unlocked the lock with a hairpin and pushed open the courtyard door, revealing a desolate and messy world.

The small yard is not very big, and there are two dead chickens lying in it.On the right side of the yard, mushrooms grow out of firewood neatly piled in the corner.The fallen leaves are covered with a very charming Japanese-style courtyard, and the bleak and desolate autumn wind blows through the holed window paper.

"This old man! He's so sloppy!" Chris Maeda gritted his teeth, and threw his luggage on the corridor in the backyard. "There's dust everywhere...it's almost dark..."

Maeda Chris blinked, walked down the corridor without taking off his shoes.

In Japan, a country where houses are generally small, the wooden house in Chris Maeda’s hometown has a relatively large usable area.Although it is not as spacious as Yin Ren's villa on the Upper East Side of Manhattan, New York, the small two-story building has at least a few hundred square meters.

Along the way, Maeda Chris stepped on the corridor, like a cat breaking into an abandoned old house, leaving a series of linear footprints.He went around to the backyard window and opened the French windows.I saw that although the furniture in the house was neat, it was already covered with dust.

The spider web in the corner is bigger than Chris Maeda's head.The clock in the corner had already stopped.On the pendulum, several spiders were even attracted to weave webs and build nests there.

"Dingbangsang, it's getting dark..." Chris Maeda took out his phone and glanced, "I'm sorry, there's no way to stay at home. Let's go to the hotel above the town to stay for one night first? I'll come back tomorrow to clean up. May I?"

Xue Dingbang was silent, since Maeda Chris led him to the backyard, he stood there without moving.He neither agreed nor opposed Maeda Chris's proposal.

Maeda Chris sighed gloomyly, and ran over to hug Xue Dingbang's body: "If you don't speak, I will take it as your agreement. Dingbangsang, if you don't want to talk to me, you don't have to. As long as you still Just by my side."

Xue Dingbang didn't blink, just looked at the dusty room in front of him.

He seemed to have heard what Chris Maeda said, but he didn't seem to hear it.

Chris Maeda led Schrodingbang around the hillside to a cement slab building not far below the house.From here, a lush farmland can be seen.The crops are in the harvest season, but many of them are rotten in the ground due to the soaking of rainwater.

Chris Maeda stood on tiptoe, took out the key from the mailbox on the wall of the building, and opened the shutter door at the entrance.It turned out to be a garage with a dusty Nissan and Honda parked quietly inside.

"Dingbangsang, I don't know how to drive." Maeda Chris took out the car key from the toolbox in the garage with ease and accurately opened it from a pile of spare keys, "Can you drive us to town?"

The headlights of the car shone through the mist, emitting a warm orange light.

Xue Dingbang mechanically took the key, opened the door and got into the car.

Speechless all the way.

On the way, no matter how Chris Maeda talked to Xue Dingbang, he remained silent.It's as if he's not a flesh-and-blood human being, but an emotionless autopilot.

Chris Maeda was a little disappointed. He leaned softly on Xue Dingbang's shoulder and whispered softly: "Dingbangsang, if you don't like Karuizawa, we can go to other places."

other places?

Where else can I go?

Xue Dingbang did not know, and did not answer this question.

They randomly opened a standard room in the hotel above Karuizawa town.The two slept in separate beds, each with their own concerns.Xue Dingbang actually didn't fall asleep at night, he didn't want to dream again, in the dream, he missed and lost Yin Ren again and again.

In the dark and silent night, only Chris Maeda's eyes shone brightly in the darkness, as bright as stars in the dark night.He couldn't stop moaning and tossing and turning.

Several times, Maeda Chris wanted to sleep on that bed.

Taking advantage of the darkness, she nestled into Xue Dingbang's arms.