perfect out of control

"Later, he seemed to go to see Sheng Ye's plays often," Jie Pingan said, "he would send flowers every time. You know, most people can't stand such a posture, let alone Tan Zhen came to send flowers. Later, he came to find I, I just found out that Sheng Ye told him everything, including his father's affairs."

Tan Qian was also puzzled: "Why doesn't his father allow him to learn acting?"

Jie Pingan sighed inexplicably: "His father used to be in the same theater troupe as us. He didn't come from a major, and he didn't have any teachers. It all depends on his talent. Now he is the kind of actor who is rewarded by God. It's a pity that he was in the mainland at that time. Film and television was still in the pioneering period, and amateur actors like him who became monks had no chance, so his father just stayed in the troupe and acted in dramas, and then...something happened later." Jie Ping'an was very deliberate when he said this After a while, some unnecessary links were left out, "...the troupe couldn't do it anymore. Brother Sheng is arrogant. The film and television industry in the mainland is developing very slowly, and he is eager to prove himself. I went to Hong Kong Island to develop. I honestly don’t know what happened later. I only know that something happened to him. With his personality, he couldn’t tell me the details, but I can probably guess. I see, it's too sharp, Brother Sheng, the film and television industry on Hong Kong Island is much more complicated than we imagined, I'm afraid he offended someone, and in the end... was disfigured by someone."

Tan Qian was shocked.

"It should be for this reason. He doesn't want Sheng Ye to enter the showbiz." After Jie Ping'an finished speaking, he let out a sigh of relief. Afterwards, I also asked him if he still insisted on having Sheng Ye act, and he told me at the time that he thought it was not important whether Sheng Ye acted or not, but he should go to the screen." Jie Pingan stared at the coffee table and sighed for a long time "He really appreciates him."

Someone came in and out of the cafe, and the wind chime on the door rang, and Tan Qian slowly withdrew from the heavy and melancholy atmosphere like an old movie.

Jie Pingan put down his coffee cup: "It's filming, it's inevitable to get involved in the film, but it will come out in the end, the kid has always been easy to get into the film, even on the stage, but he didn't do well, so I didn't take it seriously at first superior."

During the filming process, all kinds of interactions between Sheng Ye and Tan Zhen, inside and outside of the play, he saw all kinds of interactions, and the reaction of the actors could not escape the eyes of the director, but the problem is that he is the director, the director, that is The kind of guy who uses everything in an actor to get the best out of a movie.An actor with a sense of belief should be able to lend to the director and the role without hesitation from the inside to the outside, from body to soul, to complete their common art.

Which director would think that entering the play is a problem?Actors don't think there is any problem, they enter the play tacitly, and they act tacitly.They lend themselves when they are actors, and they take it back after the performance, that's all, and every good actor should be proficient in this.

So Jie Ping took it for granted, let the atmosphere between Tan Zhen and Sheng Ye feel at ease, and thought that they would all come out after the film was finished, at most it would change from Yan Fei and Kong Xinghe back to Tan Zhen and Sheng Ye, from "brothers" "Become a bosom friend.

During the wrap-up banquet, he jokingly asked Sheng Ye to toast Tan Zhenjiu, patted him hard on the shoulder, and said, "Wake up, he's not your brother now!"

He regrets what happened now, but if he goes back to that time, he should still make the same choice.

"Later, I felt...something was wrong..." Jie Ping'an's voice dropped.

It's not just that Jie Ping'an felt wrong, Tan Qian thought, Sheng Ye's later performance made too many people feel wrong.She still remembered that on the day of Tan Zhen’s 28th birthday, Sheng Ye sent out a long Weibo post without warning at 12:[-] midnight, which was more like a long-planned confession than a birthday greeting to Tan Zhen .Although it was Kong Xinghe who said it to his brother Yan Fei, but it was posted on Tan Zhen's birthday, it was too imaginative. This microblog sent him and Tan Zhen to the trending searches overnight, causing an uproar in the entertainment circle.

It had been a long time since the movie was released at that time, and "Stable Structure" even won the award, so it couldn't have been to create hype for the film, but there was indeed hype before. It was Tan Zhen who took the initiative @生野的, and Sheng Ye responded very well Flattered, Sheng Ye dared to call Tan Zhen so boldly in a blink of an eye. The CP fans were overjoyed, and Sheng Ye's boldness was interpreted by them as arrogance due to favor. Without Tan Zhen's acquiescence, they felt that Sheng Ye's character would not dare to "show affection" so blatantly.Tan Zhen's fans were extremely annoyed, because this is not the first time that Tan Zhen has been forcibly "posted" like this. They scolded Sheng Ye for being addicted to hotness, calling him gay, calling him shameless, and all kinds of insults. Cursed personal attacks continue.

Although Shengye explained the next day that this was just a letter written by Kong Xinghe to Yan Fei in the play, and Jie Ping'an and screenwriter Shen Tu also came forward to help him clarify, but he was scolded enough that time, and has been criticized by Tan Zhen's fans ever since. against.This incident almost got out of hand, and it made their family very embarrassed. Tan Zhen didn't reply to Sheng Ye, which made the outside world speculate that either Sheng Ye had become addicted to the heat, or he had really fallen. Wishful thinking.

At least on the surface, Tan Zhen did not reply.When Tan Zhen came home, his mother even secretly checked his cell phone. Of course, nothing was found. The WeChat account was clean, and there was no incoming or outgoing calls. Sheng Ye’s number was not even in the phone book, so the mother felt a little relieved.

Tan Zhen’s respect for his father and resignation to his mother are all due to the fact that his mother gave birth to him at the age of 36. After that, his mother’s health has been poor. His father told Tan Zhen since he was a child, you Your mother almost died giving birth to you, and she asked to save you first during the rescue. You must be filial to your mother, understand?Not only the father said so, almost everyone in the family said so to Tan Zhen.Tan Zhen has lived with a sense of guilt since he was a child. When he was just in elementary school, he asked his mother, mother, why do you want my life instead of your own?Mother hugged him and said, because when you were still in my womb, I knew that you were the most obedient child in the world. When I was sad, you would not kick or make trouble. When I was happy, you would be a little mischievous. If you touch your belly to make you behave, you will immediately become obedient, I can't bear it.

Tan Zhen was a little rebellious when he was young. He skipped class more than once in elementary and junior high school. After skipping class, he actually had nowhere to go. He just walked on the street by himself, aimlessly, and only came home after school time.After the skipping of classes was discovered, my father was furious. At that time, it was my mother who protected him and interceded for him. She told Tan Zhen that if you feel too tired, you will not go to cram school. If you don’t want to learn musical instruments, you can Don't study anymore.But in the end, Tan Zhen didn't drop out of the cram school, and insisted on learning both the erhu and the piano, and he didn't even skip classes anymore.

After becoming sensible, Tan Zhen never made his mother feel sad again.Except for applying for the CTR Film and Television Academy.

This may be something written in the genes. It seems that Tan Zhen has begged his mother only once in his life so far.Her mother's acting career was cut in half. Although she acted as if she didn't care, Tan Qian knew that she actually had regrets, so this time she worked hard to help Tan Zhen.My father strongly objected at first, saying, what are you thinking, you let him enter a place like the entertainment industry? !When the art exam was approaching, my mother made various efforts and guarantees, and my father finally reluctantly agreed.But grandpa couldn't be happy, because of this incident, mother couldn't lift her head up in front of grandpa.

When Tan Zhen enters the entertainment industry, no matter how clean he is, it is difficult for him to be alone. Every time Tan Zhen is in the news for something, it becomes a topic of conversation among people. Their family inheritance is beyond recognition, and the atmosphere in the family will be very unpleasant, and this unhappiness will naturally be projected on the mother in the end.

Tan Qian knew that after Tan Zhen entered the entertainment circle, he deliberately kept his contact with other members of the family. On his 28th birthday, he did not stay with the rest of the family. He only dated her, Chen Bohan and a few college classmates and others. Friends in the circle held a birthday party at a nightclub run by a friend, and there were some senior movie fans at the scene. When the DJ was playing discs, Tan Zhen sat alone in the corner drinking and playing with other people. Later, fans booed Tan Zhen to sing. Tan Qian thought that Tan Zhen would refuse, because his singing was notoriously bad, but he unexpectedly Literally put down the glass and picked up the microphone.

He sang "Ashamed" by Tang Du.

So you really left

I can't get out

Every time I sing that song, the shame overwhelms me

so many times to come back

I chose the worst answer

Enjoying your love, I forgot to return love

Hold me by your hand, silently accompany me to chase

I just go forward and never look back

I don't know, so you are really tired

I didn't realize until today that the love I thought was just your cradle

Over and over again, I'm like a child

waste all the love you give

All I give you is sadness

How can I deserve it, I only deserve to be ashamed

He sang this song with his eyes closed almost the whole time. He didn't sing it for anyone present. We can only guess who he sang it for, but everyone felt that something was wrong with him. He was like a victim. A person who was emotionally hurt, he put down the microphone in the middle of singing, said: "Everyone have fun." Then he turned and went to the bathroom.

Chen Bohan went to the bathroom with him, and they didn't come out for a long time. Later, when Chen Bohan came out, Tan Zhen didn't come out either. She asked Chen Bohan what happened to Tan Zhen, and Chen Bohan smiled reluctantly and said, "He drank a little too much."

After a long time, when everyone was playing high, Tan Zhen came out and sat back in the corner alone. The light from the nightclub shone on his depressed face, and she saw his eyes were red.

After the incident on Weibo, Sheng Ye and Tan Zhen didn't seem to have any communication, even at the work level, there was no interaction between the two on Weibo.They were filming their own scenes, as if they were all well, and she was relieved for everyone.

The song "Ashamed" must be the full stop of this relationship that Tan Zhen gave.