perfect out of control

X, X, X, Sunny

It’s over, maybe I’ve studied too many of his films during this period of time. Now I feel overwhelmed when I hear the word “Tan Zhen”. I actually blushed and couldn't watch it anymore!If you watch too much, you may have this kind of reaction, probably because you feel that this person is too close to you, but in fact, they don't know who you are at all.

Xiaoxue on X, X, X, X

I don't like the label Melancholy Prince, it doesn't define him at all.He is a very introverted person who does not let go, he hides much deeper than Salinger, Tang Dan's complaints are simply unreasonable.

Xiaoxue on X, X, X, X

When attending club activities today, senior sister Du Meng said that she was going to take an art test during the winter vacation. Everyone wished her success. I was the only one who thought she was too good, and her parents were too. can agree!

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X, X, X, Sunny

Today, the club has a dinner to celebrate Du Meng's admission to the Southern Film and Television Academy.She told us a lot about the art test, saying that if you have this plan, you should prepare early and register for a class in advance, and then she said, "Unless it is a talented player like our classmate Shengye", I am really sorry It was so embarrassing that I had to pass over on the spot!

Do they really think I'm doing a good job?Still complimenting me?Senior sister Du Meng said: "I think you will definitely pass the exam if you take the exam." Oh my god, it really touched my heart, okay?

But will my mother agree?I think my dad would agree, after all he was an actor himself.

Alas, the only one who will support me [-]% in my family is Jackson.

Even if I don’t pass the exam, it’s okay to continue taking the college entrance examination when I come back. If I can’t prepare well for the college entrance examination, at worst I’ll repeat it for another year. Anyway, I’m young and have plenty of time, so it’s not a loss to try everything.

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X, X, X, Sunny

I really don't understand why I'm not allowed to learn acting? !Obviously he himself was born as a drama actor!His dream of being an actor came to an abrupt end due to misfortune. Shouldn't he hope that his son can inherit his dream? Which father wouldn't do this? Why did he treat me like this? !

X, X, X, Sunny

He also told Uncle Jie that I have no acting talent, which is really ridiculous. Uncle Jie is a director, doesn’t he know better than you?I asked him what if I had it, and he couldn't refute me other than "If I say no, I don't have it", he also knows that he is unreasonable!Don't you feel ashamed of being so incompetent and furious in front of Uncle Jie?

Light rain on X month X day, X year

I envy Senior Du Meng and Tan Zhen, they must have the most understanding parents in the world.

Light rain on X month X day, X year

I made a bet with that domineering man, I said that if I don’t have talent, I’ll give up, but whether I have talent is not up to you, let me take the art test, if I don’t pass the test, I will never mention it again in this life Be an actor!

He agreed, and asked Uncle Jie not to teach me secretly, Uncle Jie never taught me acting, what do you know, you are a father in vain!

X, X, X, Sunny

I plan to apply to two schools, Southern Film and Television Academy and CTR Film Academy, but I most want to be admitted to CTR, so Tan Zhen will be my senior brother! CTR Film Academy, here I come!

X, X, X, Sunny

The domineering man forbade me to go to city A ahead of time, and he didn't give me the fee to register for classes. I wanted to find a job to make money by myself, but he didn't allow me to skip class. It's so bitter to be the son of a domineering man!

Fortunately, God has treated me well, I have a mother who is as tolerant as the universe, and I can still go to sign up for an art test surprise class about a week in advance.Mom, I'm sorry, I complained about you before, but my son bows to you here!

I hope the domineering man when I went to the art test didn't take his anger out on Jackson.

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Rain on X month X day in X year

The teacher in the art test assault class said that I am very spiritual, domineering man, did you hear me?

You can't be proud, you can't be proud, in fact, I just happen to have well-developed tear ducts, it would be great if I got a crying scene during the interview.

Alas, it's not good, it's too insincere to think so now.

X, X, X, Sunny

It seems that all the good-looking young people from all over the country come here to get together. Compared with them, I find that I am really out of the crowd. It doesn't matter, anyway, I didn't want to take the idol route hahaha!

But today I also found out that I really don't seem to be gay. I don't feel at all about those good-looking guys, maybe I think they are too naive. I like mature big brothers?Oh, it’s nonsense, I still like girls. I met a girl who looks like Chen Xue among the CTR candidates. She is so beautiful. When she smiles, I feel that she is shining.I've always thought that Chen Xue's appearance is so good, but unfortunately her acting skills are a little bit bad, so in the future, can I see the actor version of Chen Xue?There is also a girl, tall and slender, with wheat-colored skin, a bit like a girlish version of Gu Tianhou, with a heroic look in her eyebrows, cold and tugging!

There are quite a few good-looking boys, but there is no such thing as Tan Zhen. Pretty boys are not tall enough, and tall boys are not beautiful enough. It turns out that tall and handsome boys like Tan Zhen are really rare.I don't know if Tan Zhen had an unprecedented grand occasion when he came to apply for the exam?

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X, X, X, Sunny

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh no need to go to Nanying Film Academy anymore, here I come to CTR Film Academy! !

I don't know what to write, but I'm so excited!I took a photo with Tan Zhen in front of the Academy's Wall of Fame, finally!In fact, before I went to the exam, I saw a lot of candidates taking pictures there, but I told myself that I would only come to take a group photo after the exam. No matter whether I passed the exam or not, I would come and take a group photo with him. My brother came to take a photo with him!

X, X, X, Sunny

I called my mother today to tell my mother the news, but I didn't tell my father. In fact, I should have called yesterday, but I don't know how they will feel when they hear the news, especially my father, who will not be happy.Uncle Jie also congratulated me, and said that my acting talent is inherited from my father. I disagree with this statement. I have never seen his acting. Acting skills are not written in my genes. Relying on myself, I also depended on myself to be admitted to the film school. If there is anyone who is influential, then maybe Tan Zhen is a little bit bigger, and it has nothing to do with the actor father.

X, X, X, Sunny

As soon as I got home, he went into the study and didn't see me, and I'm used to it, the person who never went to a parent meeting for me since I was a child, the person who only used patriarchy to suppress me when I wanted to chase my dreams, It makes no difference whether I have this father or not.There is still one semester before the college entrance examination, so I moved back to the school dormitory in order not to meet him face to face.

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X Year X Month X Day Yin

Today is the weekend, I was supposed to go home, but I don't really want to go back.Unexpectedly, Uncle Jie came to pick me up from school and said that he would treat me to a meal to celebrate my achievements.At the dinner table, I realized that the car accident that caused my father’s disfigurement was not a simple car accident. I asked Uncle Jie if he had any videos of my father performing in the past. He took me to his hometown and found some videos at that time. The first time I saw my father who was a theater actor.

The angle of view of the camera is fixed, just in front of the stage, which is a bit monotonous compared with the constantly changing lens of the movie. There are also the voices of the audience, occasional coughing, and soft crying, which are all recorded. It feels very strange. It is an atmosphere that the movie does not have. The actors standing on the stage seem to be silently watched by the gods.

We watched together one night, and I was particularly impressed by a play called "Small Shop by the Sea". In the play, my dad played the role of the owner of a small seaside souvenir shop, a very silent man. I told the director that it was very suitable for him. Acting in his true colors, the director smiled and said, "That's not it, that's why I chose him. This is your dad's first starring role. Was your dad handsome when he was young?" Handsome is handsome, and I wouldn't He denied it, but I didn't see that he was the lead actor. The silent shop owner didn't have a few lines. The most lines were when customers came to the store to buy things, asked him a question and he answered, and the most talked about was the price.

"Ten dollars."

"15 dollars."

"This is not for sale."

I remember a customer who searched all over but couldn't find any money, and wanted that pendant especially, so he said, "That's worthless, take it away."

Just like this with a straight face, repeating these monotonous lines over and over again.

Those guests all have names and stories. In the whole show, he is the only one who doesn't have a name, and he doesn't seem to have a story.This play is wonderful, obviously very monotonous, but unexpectedly catches people, the scene of the stage has not changed, only the lights are constantly shining in front of the small shop, from sunrise to sunset, from light to dark, reincarnation over and over again.I began to realize the strangeness of it. I found that this store is not closed, and most of the customers who come here are single. Very cheap price to take away with satisfaction.

There was no background music throughout the whole process, only the sound of the waves rising and falling. Every time the sound of the waves sounded, I could hear the soft sobbing of the people in the auditorium. They understood everything, and I understood it too.Every customer's story more or less pokes tears, but the one who made me shed tears is the taciturn boss who has been guarding this small shop and selling things that customers like at a cheap price.

His story was not clearly told, but we all felt it, from his taciturnity, from his lonely back when he went in and out of the small shop a few times, from his eyes looking at the sea.

If the mediator hadn't brought me to see these, I might never have seen such an amazing performance in my life, and the person who performed it was my father.

It's cloudy today, and it's raining outside as I write this.

X Year X Month X Day Yin

I told him that I knew everything. I didn’t know what his expression was through the door. I told him I was sorry. Your blood is why you want to learn acting so much, don't blame me.

I hope he really doesn't blame me, I know he loves me, and I love him too, can he feel it?Maybe we are all like this, leaving our emotions to the camera and the audience, but not good at expressing to the closest people.He can accept the sympathy from the audience and fans, but he can’t accept the sympathy from his son. I can express my affection and concern to all the people who play the role, but I am afraid to express it to him, but he doesn’t know how often I act with that kind of contradictory emotion In the play, I always think of him.

I'm going to be an actor, Dad, please bless me.