perfect out of control

X, X, X, Sunny

This is my first acting class, so fresh!I thought that while I was acting, there was a voice shouting next to me that I would act, but it turned out that I adapted well, and felt like a puppet controlled by Teacher Wu's voice.But that's right, an actor is a person who lends his body and injects the soul of the character.

X, X, X, Sunny

Senior Sister Li En is actually going to film with Tan Zhen, I saw her at school last week!The world has become visibly smaller...

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X, X, X, Sunny

The current TV dramas seem to be hyping up CP, but it’s actually quite unnecessary, but if senior sister Li En and Xue Li are concerned, I still think Xue Li and Tan Zhen are more CP-like. When they acted in "Creating Love", the two seemed to be a good match. Yes, but Tan Zhen is too restrained. To be honest, if he really likes anyone, it will be difficult to tell.But it takes a lot of courage to fall in love with Tan Zhen.

X month X day thunderstorm

He was born for the big screen, can't those who say he's not good at acting see how many nominations he has already won?Do you have to take the actor?He plays everyone like Tan Zhen so what, some actors have their own style, I love his restrained and classic style so much, don’t change Tan Zhen, just be yourself!

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X, X, X, Sunny

Am I bisexual?When I was in high school, I also had a crush on a female classmate in my class, but I never had that kind of physical reaction. Why would I dream of holding him, and he was in a suit and leather shoes, but I was naked. When I woke up, I still had a wet dream. It’s too shameful. Find a way to interpret the dream, but this kind of dream is so easy to speak, I am too embarrassed to type it...

X month X day thunderstorm

There are a lot of bugs in this movie. After watching it, I don't know what I'm going to talk about, but as a fan of his movie, it's impossible to give a bad review.In fact, this is the director's obsession with his work, hahaha, there are too many face-to-face shots, alas, I cut a lot of them myself while making complaints about the needlessness.Is there anyone better on screen than him?No, not anymore.Sui Qingchi?Sui Qingchi won't be on the big screen again!

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X Year X Month X Day Yin

If there is a god who reads my diary and sees the sentence I wrote, it makes no difference whether he is there or not. I want to kneel down and repent. If there are still gods who are reading it, I hope my father’s tumor is benign, it must be benign , I am willing to trade my next ten or twenty years for his health

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X, X, X, Sunny

I graduated today, and I haven’t kept a diary for more than a year. It seems that everyone writes Weibo and blogs these days. I went to the stationery store today and saw a few girls in the contestant’s account book, which gave me a sense of time travel to the future. , the feeling that the diary has been eliminated.

When I really picked up the pen, even the feeling of writing is so strange, I don’t know what to write, and I don’t know what to do in the future. Maybe I will be a drama actor like my father.If I had known this was the case, maybe I would not have been admitted to the Film and Television Academy back then.

In fact, you should continue to keep a diary. Both happiness and pain should be recorded, not for others to see, but for your own memory backup.

I can hardly remember his last look.

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X Year X Month X Day Yin

Thank you Yihai for taking me in, just follow his footsteps, and I will find my home on the stage.

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X Year X Month X Day Yin

There is no way, I still love acting. When I feel that life has made me numb, acting will arouse my enthusiasm again.Maybe I acted too hard, I couldn't breathe every time I finished the performance, and I couldn't stop crying, because I thought of my father in the hospital bed, and I said that I almost couldn't remember it, but once I entered the world of performance, those Memories are all revived.

In fact, it’s not that they forgot. Many people say they forgot, but they just don’t dare to think about it, and dare not face their hearts sincerely, but the performance will make us come back sincerely.

I really hated him when he forbade me to take this path, but when he left, I missed him very much, and I remembered how he was when he asked me to make an appointment with him on the hospital bed, and I wanted to talk to him a long time ago Well, the morals of this world are different from the morals of his time, and the mainland and Hong Kong Island are also different, so he is worrying unfoundedly.But that day I looked into his frail eyes filled with fear. He was afraid that I would not agree to him, so he dared not leave.

It's not that he doesn't understand, it's that he can't understand, that incident caused him too much harm, he must still be unable to get out of that nightmare.He really wants to protect me, even though I don't need that kind of protection anymore, but he doesn't know.

X, X, X, Sunny

They all said that I was very involved in the performance. I don’t know if it’s good or bad. I prefer a more closed performance. I think I should be like Tan Zhen, hiding everything in the eyes so that people can’t understand It's better, more blank space is better, my performance is too rough, but I can't control it, and I will go crazy again during the performance.

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Light rain on X month X day, X year

This is the second time, I had such a shameful dream again, and I still recall it after waking up, what happened?I can't even write his name now.

But in the dream he was well-dressed, maybe subconsciously I like him in shirts or suits.He was so perfect in the dream, I was afraid of getting him dirty, in the dream I hugged him and said sorry to him while hugging him, and he just whispered in my ear that it was okay.Fortunately, my mother doesn't look through my diary, and the person who loved to look through my diary is long gone.

Cast a dream to scold me, Dad.

X, X, X, Sunny

If I had the chance to meet him in person, I probably wouldn't.It's too shameful, or maybe it's because of the closeness to the hometown, because I'm afraid that he won't like me, and think that a male fan like me is too enthusiastic to make him uncomfortable, will he?Alas, I know he won't, but I'm still scared.

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X, X, X, sleet

Uncle Jie, are you going to let me die in place? ! !

He is so handsome in real life, the way he is holding a rose is killing me!Brother Tan Zhen, you can do it, you are worthy of being a national-oriented sniper!

Alas, what should I do, I really don't want to miss this opportunity, this may be the only chance in my life to film with my male god, if I only film this film with him, I will return to the stage in the future, old man Will dad blame me?Just let me realize two dreams at once.

X, X, X, Sunny

I received flowers again today, because they were put in a box. I thought it was something so big and beautiful, but when I opened it, it turned out to be roses!I thought it was a wrong delivery, but it really was for me.I thought it was from Boss Fan. Boss Fan is an old drama fan, but he gave flowers to each of the leading actors after the performance. He gave lilies to actors, and roses and lilies to actresses. Never sent a flower box, such a large bouquet of red roses and champagne roses packed in a large black box does not look like his handwriting at all.

I quietly and secretly expected it to be Brother Tan Zhen. I didn’t dare to think it was because I had already received a bouquet of roses from him. I shouldn’t be too greedy, but when I opened the box and took out the card, I saw that it was really "" Tan Zhen" I was going crazy, although it was not written by him.

He probably didn't come to watch the show in person, but why did he order flowers for me?This seemed unreasonable, and then for a while, I wondered if someone was tricking me and deliberately playing a prank, because it’s no secret that I like Tan Zhen, but Director Yang reminded me, who tricked you into giving you such expensive roses? !It seems to be right, but why did he send me flowers when he didn't come to see the play?

I have Brother Tan Zhen’s WeChat account, but I was too embarrassed to ask. I was afraid of being embarrassed by making a mistake, so I thought of Uncle Jie. I made a phone call to ask. Uncle Jie asked me if I had figured it out. I said no. , I asked him, Uncle Jie, did you tell Brother Tan Zhen about my performance time, and then he changed his face 180 degrees and replied to me: "I'm in a meeting now, you don't know how to ask!" I'll go, Terribly fierce!This turning face is faster than turning a book, as expected of my dad's good brother, like attracts like...

Later, I was thinking about how to send Brother Tan Zhen a WeChat message, and then suddenly his WeChat account popped up!It said: I sent it.

Yes, I, send, of!

God knows that my chest is still numb as I write this!

So when I called Uncle Jie, was he in a meeting with Uncle Jie?Maybe Uncle Jie hung up the phone and mentioned it, so he sent me this WeChat message.

I am looking at these roses and writing a diary now. I have never collected the flower box, and I still remember that when I opened the box lid, those roses opened their petals like a group of elves and wanted to hug me.Red and champagne, warm and gentle, so beautiful.

Mom asked me who gave it to me, and I said Tan Zhen, do you believe it?She didn't believe it at all and thought I was joking.Yeah, I can't believe it myself.

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Rain on X month X day in X year

He actually came to see my performance again. Uncle Jie told me an hour in advance that Tan Zhen was coming to see your performance and asked me to perform it well. It was fine if he didn’t tell me, but it made my performance mess up. I actually said the wrong lines !Brother Tan Zhen came to see me backstage after the performance. He was wearing a black coat and a pair of glasses. Only then did I know that he has myopia of [-] degrees. He usually wears contact lenses when acting. No matter how well-dressed he is, Yushu Linfeng is not enough to describe him. When he came in, he was perfect, very perfect!

Others send flowers to the heroine Xu Qiao. After all, I am only the number two male, but I took such a big bouquet of roses from him, purple, so rare, still in bud, so many people looked at me , I always feel that this rose does not suit me, he should turn around and give it to sister Xu Qiao, so can men give flowers to men like this?

He was scented with roses, and when I sat with me, I could always smell that faint scent, but maybe it was a men's perfume?He was wearing a black turtleneck sweater in his overcoat, the neckline was close to his neck and chin and turned outward, like the petals of a flower, I always felt that there was a fragrance leaking from his neckline, I was so crazy. I can't be myself like this!

I said I said the wrong line, he said he didn't pay attention at all, I said that the old audience would notice, he said that I would pay attention in the future, I was really flattered, I said I didn't mean that, I just felt today The performance was not perfect, because Uncle Jie told me in advance that you would come, but he actually smiled and said, it is not your fault, it is my fault and his fault, mainly my fault.

How can there be such a considerate and knowledgeable person in this world? !

I don't know what to do anymore, those flowers almost made me surrender, how could I refuse him?Every time I receive flowers from him, I feel that I don't know what to do, how can I not agree to him?He told me he was my fan from day one and I literally got goosebumps!I think this is an opportunity God gave me. Did I dream of him too many times, and then I became sincere?

Dad, if you don't want to, just cast me a dream, say that you don't want me to take this drama, and tell me clearly, if I don't dream of you, I have to make my own decision.

X, X, X, Sunny

Mom, I love you so much, thank you, I know this is not a dispensable sentence for you, by saying this sentence, you share the guilt with me, thank you very much.