Number one!Sankeng school belle is not white moonlight

"...this wine? How did you get it?"

Meng Yue found Su Xiang in a black bar near the school.

Su Xiang stuck out his tongue and smiled slyly, "Scrub your face."

"..."

For a moment, Meng Yue suddenly didn't want to know why Su Xiang knew the people in the bar.After all, before Su Xiang "congliang", he even dealt with people on the road.

Meng Yue sat down in silence, and from the corner of her vision, she caught sight of those eyes on Su Xiang's ready to move in front of the bar, covered her mouth with her hands and whispered, "This is not a good place, come with me."

"I know." Su Xiang looked at him with a half-smile, spread his arms and leaned back on the sofa, looking lazy.

She added, "But I love to come."

Su Xiang's desolate, decadent yet rebellious look made Meng Yue's eyes ache.

Obviously she was called out by Su Xiang to have a heart-to-heart talk in the name of drinking, but Meng Yue, who was rarely careful, found that Su Xiang seemed to be extremely abnormal, but he seemed surprisingly calm.

She just drank one cup after another, neither crying nor laughing, neither sad nor angry, nor talking, just passing cup after cup of high-concentration alcohol through her intestines, as if turning into tears from her heart, bubbling Miquan gushed.

"Borrow a fire."

Su Xiang picked up the cigarette body with his index finger and brought it to his mouth skillfully.There was no expected decadence in his expression, but a calmness and coldness that was closer to death.

She knew very well in her heart that she would never reach the fairyland at the end of the world.

Meng Yue, who had always opposed Su Xiang's smoking, saw her old friend picking up the gun again, and almost subconsciously obeyed, lighting her a cigarette.

Meng Yue, who was also preoccupied, found out that Su Xiang had cut off her long hair that she had always been proud of.

Su Xiang once explained that the reason for her long hair was that when she was sick when she was a child, a gentle and considerate elder sister took good care of her.And the big sister with a gentle temperament has beautiful long hair.

So from then on, Su Xiang made up his mind to keep his hair long.

So for her, long hair is not only a symbol of a girl, but also a creed of wanting to be a gentle person like a big sister.

Meng Yue's expression faltered, and she said with difficulty, "...Didn't you tell me before that you are very envious of people like me who go both ways with your partner. Look at you now, your self-abandonment counts... ..."

"Hey, I said,"

Feeling the strong sense of preaching, it also aroused Su Xiang's extreme rebellion and dissatisfaction from the bottom of her heart. She interrupted Meng Yue impatiently.

"Isn't there anyone at this age who still believes in fairy tales? What are you? Do you really think of yourself as a runaway Disney princess?"

Meng Yue remained silent.

Although if it was placed in the past, he would definitely be so angry that he could not wait to rush up and slap Su Xiang's ears.The purpose is not to be angry with the words themselves, but to make her wake up.

After all, looking at it now, it's hard to say whether Su Xiang is really sober or just wants to indulge and pretend to be stupid.

Meng Yue took a deep breath, so that the anger that had flowed from his heels to his brain would not come out so quickly.

"You have to believe that everyone who chooses to leave you, or everyone who will turn a blind eye to you, can at least put themselves first and take care of themselves first, which is a good ending. "

Meng Yue recited the emotional quotations he had just memorized before entering the bar door by word.

"Until there are exceptions?"

Su Xiang's tone was full of sarcasm, "Still, dear great philosopher, I myself am a special case without the possibility of exception."

It seems that the more the alcohol needs to play a role, the more it will make Su Xiang feel the pain tearing every inch of the nerves of the brain more clearly.

At this moment, Su Xiang, who had understood more because of the excessive pain, suddenly started to laugh at himself.

"That's right, who would a normal person get this kind of extremely rare panchromatic blindness?"

"You fucking...!"

Meng Yue slapped the table and stood up abruptly, even the empty wine bottles, which were as beautiful as glazed products, were shocked by the messy lights on the wine table.

Perhaps deliberately provoking Meng Yue to make him angry was not out of Su Xiang's original intention.

But as far as the result is concerned, no matter whether this is what Su Xiang expected or unexpected, she didn't even move her eyelids, let alone ask anything.

——It's like everything in the world, including herself, has long been nothing in her eyes.

What's more, the happiness and anger of others has become so irrelevant to her.

Anything is fine.

It doesn't matter how.

So what if I care?

She wasn't there anyway.

Su Xiang uttered the words lightly, with an indifferent and indifferent tone in his tone, like picking Chinese cabbage in the vegetable market.

"If you have nothing to do, please don't stand here and get in the way."

She didn't want to drag anyone into the water anymore.

And I don't want...to let anyone touch this pain again.

Let's go.

Let's all go.

It's better to go.

It's only when I'm gone...to be clean.

Meng Yue finally couldn't bear it anymore, "Su Xiang, can you fucking be sober?! Even if I beg you, even if you don't believe in yourself, you should believe in her, right?! Why do you have to think that you are worthy of it?" Not on her??"

It's just that when Meng Yue said these words, she didn't understand in her heart.

Why must it be her?

"If what you say is true,"

Su Xiang's expression suddenly became painful, but she was still stubbornly trying to show a calm look, and she pulled her lips into a smile with great reluctance.

"Then tell me, I cut my hair short, pierced my ears, smoked and drank again and became like a boy... In this way, will she, she... Will she like me?"

Meng Yue clenched her fists and fell silent.

In order to help Su Xiang, he had asked Gu Yunche's brother about her situation in private before.It's just that the result obtained is not as simple as expected.

Meng Yue asked, "What do you mean?"

"She needs to see a doctor." Gu Wangshu explained.

Meng Yue felt more and more unreasonable about this person, "I really don't understand what you smart businessmen are doing. Is there anyone like you who sends his own sister to a mental hospital and still stands by?"

Gu Wangshu wasn't angry either, and said politely, "She's sick and needs medical treatment. Is there anything wrong with that?"

Meng Yue became even angrier when she heard that, "It's not her fault, it's you, do you understand!"

After a while, Gu Wangshu spoke, his voice was still gentle and elegant, "Didn't you say before that you don't know how to ask anything, just do things with money? Why did you suddenly change your mind now and ask me up these?"

"You'd better let them meet now," Meng Yue's voice became cold, "otherwise I will think that you are not qualified to be her brother Gu Yunche at all."

"I can only say with regret that that little girl doesn't seem to be the one who can take good care of Yunche." Gu Wangshu was still unmoved, just talking to herself.

Meng Yue said angrily, "You didn't even let them meet, why did you say such a thing?!"

After a long time, Gu Wangshu sighed, "...you don't understand."

Indeed, even the current Meng Yue still doesn't understand or understand.

Why must it be Gu Yunche, not anyone else except her.

At least if the person Su Xiang likes is a boy, then at least he can beat up that brat, why would he treat Su Xiang like this.

Meng Yue could feel the bone-chilling cold and frantic despair emanating from Su Xiang's body, but she could only leave a meaningless and extremely indifferent sigh for Su Xiang's heavy and almost meaningless question.

"...Cry, just cry out."

"cry?"

Su Xiang raised his head, with a half-smile and a drawn-out ending sound.

In the overlapping smoke shadow of the bar, her eyes seemed a little blurred.Su Xiang stared into Meng Yue's eyes, but that expression was even uglier than distorted pain.

"If only I could fucking cry."

Su Xiang was suddenly discouraged, like a dead man who knew that he was about to die, even if he was pushed to the guillotine.

Meng Yue remained silent, and Su Xiang also lowered his head and did not speak.

The atmosphere between the two continued to be subtle, like a stop-motion animation, because there was only one page, so they couldn't move.

"In any case, I believe in your vision and decision. But I hope you know that feelings are not only two-way, but also joy, confidence and a series of positive emotions... instead of feeling lost and sad like now, or even It’s being humble or feeling unworthy.”

Meng Yue organized his clumsy sentences, trying to influence Su Xiang through her own words, wake up Su Xiang, and stop letting her continue to abuse her like this.

"No, you don't understand."

Su Xiang suddenly refuted loudly, and said seriously, "You who said these words... must not understand the feeling of seeing it through but still liking it."

"Ha," Meng Yue suddenly laughed, "What silly things are you talking about, it's simply unreasonable."

"Maybe." Su Xiang also smiled, "Maybe I'm really unreasonable."

After a while, Su Xiang continued, "Because I knew from the bottom of my heart, from the very beginning, that all my pursuits might really be just my own wishful thinking, and I knew that she was the white cloud far away in the sky, the Guanyin enshrined in front of the Buddha, It's just an illusion I can't reach."

Su Xiang suddenly gave a wry smile, and looked up at the star-studded ceiling, as if staring at his broken dream.

"It's just that I... had a pretty good dream, and I just don't want to wake up. Speaking of it like this, I really can't understand it."

After hearing this, Meng Yue's expression softened a little, and her tone became calmer.

"So you're not confused at all, you're just too sober."

"After all, being born in such a family, the desire for love is much more than ordinary people, and it is much more difficult."

Su Xiang turned his head to look at him, his eyes that should have been filled with the rainbow light of stars were now full of dust.

Meng Yue's heart couldn't help but tugged again.

He couldn't allow Su Xiang to degenerate in such a self-conscious way.

"At 05:30 tomorrow afternoon, please meet someone."

"I don't see anyone."

Su Xiang still put on a look that no one can wake up.

Meng Yue said again, "It's Gu Yunche."

"..." Su Xiang was silent for a while.

"……you're lying."

Su Xiang's lips trembled uncontrollably, and even her thin shoulders began to tremble continuously. She struggled to say, "She might... never see me again..."

"See you." Meng Yue sighed.