you are unspeakable

"Sleeping with someone else, sleeping with me, there is no difference," Li Xinglu tried to make his voice sound the same as usual: "How can you be sure that you won't be happy with me?"

"We tried it for a year," Wang Qi reminded him, "and now this is the result."

"It's not the same!" Li Xinglu interrupted him: "It's not the same, I admit, I wasn't serious about you back then, I never thought of going on with you... But it's different now, Wang Qi, let's try."

Wang Qi thought that he might have misheard, he actually heard the prayer in Li Xinglu's words, he couldn't help but glance over from the corner of his eye, but unfortunately Li Xinglu didn't look at him, his eyes fell on the front seat Somewhere on the chair, long eyelashes cast shadows over the emotion in his eyes.

There was a long silence in the car.

After an unknown amount of time, Li Xinglu said in a low voice: "This time... let's try seriously and be real lovers, Wang Qi, just treat...give me a chance."

"Together?" Wang Qi repeated, and chuckled self-deprecatingly: "Why are you still with me? How many times do you want me to say that I am dirty and not worthy of you... you touch me now, no Do you feel sick? When you sleep with me, you don’t think of Jinshi? You don’t think of those unknown men?” He hasn’t said such a long word for a long time, and the breath in his chest seems to be insufficient, and his voice is getting softer and softer: “Actually, I don’t want to Telling you this, I just want to tell you that I really don't need other people's pity."

"I told you to try," Li Xinglu frowned, he didn't want to say these meaningless words to Wang Qi again: "Wang Qi, you are an adult, you should know that the world of adults is not easy. Promises, promises must represent responsibility, and taking responsibility is not a simple matter, I can't let go of you now, I also admit that I did something wrong before, I can't see how you spoil yourself now, I will do it too I can't let you be held in someone else's arms, since anyone can do it, so can I."

Wang Qi sighed slowly in his heart.

He didn't agree, and didn't know how to refuse, so Li Xinglu took it as his acquiescence.

Li Xinglu smiled slightly: "Let's go home." After speaking, he took out his mobile phone and called a valet driver. The alcohol that Wang Qi poured on his body has not yet dried up. Even if it does, it will definitely leave traces. The most important thing is ——He feels comfortable now and doesn't want to move to the front position.

Jin Shi stood behind the pillar in the parking lot, smoking a cigarette, and waited for a long time. He waited for the driver to drive Li Xinglu's car away, and then slowly walked out from behind the pillar.

He guessed that he was one step too late. While waiting, Jin Shi wanted to knock on Li Xinglu's car window countless times, or expected Wang Qi to get out of the car, but neither of these things happened. .

It was still the same here, Li Xinglu was holding Wang Qi's wrist, as if he was afraid that he would run away.

"Change shoes?" Li Xinglu bent down and placed the slippers in front of Wang Qi.

Wang Qi put on her shoes obediently, her feet without socks were red from the cold, Li Xinglu pursed her lips and said nothing.

He asked Wang Qi if he wanted to take a bath, his tone was negotiable and gentle, Wang Qi looked at him dumbly, and nodded slightly.

When he came out of the bathroom, Li Xinglu, who had already showered in a hurry, had already made the bed and was busy in the kitchen.

The kitchen, which had been empty for a long time, once again had a familiar figure from his back. Wang Qi stood there with his wet hair on his head, staring at his back in a daze without blinking.

It all seemed like a dream, a dream that he dared not dream.

Li Xinglu turned off the fire, turned his head and saw Wang Qi's dripping hair, he found the towel in silence, came back and stood in front of Wang Qi, and gently wiped his hair.

The towel wicks away moisture from the hair.

Li Xinglu led Wang Qi into the room and blow-dried his hair, his movements were so natural, his hair was dried, Li Xinglu stretched out his palm and stroked Wang Qi's hair a few times, and said with a light smile: "Your hair is so soft. "

Wang Qi didn't speak.

Li Xinglu put the hair dryer back in place, left the bedroom, and came back with a glass of milk in his hand.

"I made you a glass of milk." Wang Qi sat on the sofa in the bedroom, and Li Xinglu stood in front of him: "Liu Wen said that there is a high probability that you will suffer from insomnia. Milk, maybe it will help."

After Li Xinglu finished speaking, he put the cup into Wang Qi's hand.

Li Xinglu used an insulated cup. Wang Qi couldn't feel the heat of the milk when holding it in his hand, but they were still steaming. Wang Qi guessed that it should be what Li Xinglu cooked in the kitchen just now.

To be honest, he didn't want to drink.

But Li Xinglu stood there, staring at Wang Qi as if watching a child, which made Wang Qi feel a little uncomfortable. He raised his head and forced himself to pour all of them into his stomach.

There was a circle of milk stains around his mouth, of course Wang Qi wouldn't notice this detail, but Li Xinglu found it interesting, bent slightly, and helped him wipe it off with his thumb.

The intimate movements made Wang Qi unable to move, his neck was stiff and he did not dare to look at Li Xinglu.

This is obviously a beautiful and sweet action, but the two parties have different moods.

Li Xinglu was intoxicated by it.

But Wang Qi was so frightened that she wanted to push Li Xinglu away and escape.

Before Wang Qi could restrain himself, Li Xinglu withdrew his hand, took the cup in Wang Qi's hand and went out. The moment Li Xinglu disappeared at the door, Wang Qi clutched his warm stomach and curled up slowly .

The thing that is obviously warming the stomach can slide down, but it only makes Wang Qi feel pain.

Wang Qi didn't know what he was thinking, but it seemed that he was ready to be disgusted by Li Xinglu, but unfortunately, he didn't feel it until the two of them lay side by side on the bed.What Li Xinglu did was probably deliberate, but not mean, not playing around, and not having everything negatively related to what he imagined.

Wang Qi fell into a daze, he lay flat on the bed blankly, covered the quilt, stared at the void with his eyes open, Li Xinglu's breathing and Li Xinglu's body temperature were in his ears, and there was an arm's distance between them.

Everything in front of me and around me is similar but strange, and Wang Qi's reaction is unbalanced and cannot be defined.

However, Li Xinglu did not, he had never been so clear and open-minded as this night.

All his attention is attracted by the cool body temperature around him, he feels the lightness of his breathing, and pays attention to his movements all the time.

He remembered that they had slept on this bed dozens of times, but tonight was the first time for Li Xinglu to feel the breath next to his ears.

It's so light that I worry that it will dissipate anytime soon.

after a long time.

Wang Qi didn't know how long it had been, but he felt his limbs were a little stiff, his temples and the back of his head were throbbing, it was a kind of irritability that he couldn't sleep or move.He was uncomfortable, without the anesthesia of alcohol and the consumption of sex, he closed his eyes, but he was sober and terrifying.

Insomnia goes hand in hand.

"Can't sleep?"

Li Xinglu's voice suddenly sounded.

Wang Qi didn't speak.

Li Xinglu stopped talking.

The next day Li Xinglu made him breakfast, watched him finish eating, and then went to work, before leaving, he squeezed Wang Qi's palm: "I will call you and pick you up at noon to eat, is that okay? Or do you want to eat at home?"

Wang Qi didn't say a word, he couldn't resist Li Xinglu like this.

Two hours later, he received a call from Li Xinglu. Wang Qi saw that it had been ringing for a long time, but he still answered it. Li Xinglu and him had a brief chat. Of course, Li Xinglu talked a lot.

This time when the two people who talk less are together, Li Xinglu becomes the one who talks more.

At noon, Li Xinglu came into the house with food.

After washing his hands, he put him on the dining table and asked Wang Qi to come over for dinner with a smile.

Sitting on the sofa, Wang Qi looked back at Li Xinglu, staring at the smile on his lips in a daze.

On the morning when Li Xinglu went to work, he wanted to go to the balcony to enjoy some air, but found that all the glass of the balcony was sealed, and only a finger gap could be opened.

At a height of more than 20 floors, even the air cannot be replaced.

People who have no appetite no longer want to force themselves to swallow food. Wang Qi only took a few mouthfuls of the three dishes and one soup that Li Xinglu packed. The people who eat are not paying attention to the food at all. These few mouthfuls of food were in Wang Qi's mouth, Li Xinglu couldn't even feel the arc of his chewing, but simply swallowed casually.

In the afternoon, Li Xinglu did not go to work. He took Wang Qi to the supermarket to buy vegetables. On the way, Li Xinglu kept holding Wang Qi's wrist and walked in a variety of supermarkets. Li Xinglu seemed to be in good spirits. He went to Lots and lots were thrown in the cart and the entire cart was filled.

After filling out the delivery address, Li Xinglu took Wang Qi home from the supermarket.

In the early winter evening, the city streets were windy. Li Xinglu passed by a men's clothing store and dragged Wang Qi in.

They bought a dozen socks.

Li Xinglu squatted in front of Wang Qi, half squatted and put on socks for Wang Qi himself, he said with a smile while putting on: "You need to change your habit of not wearing socks, it will get colder and colder in the future, don't wear them If you wear shoes with socks, your feet won’t be able to bear it.”

Wang Qi didn't say a word, just watched Li Xinglu's movements fascinated.

The dinner was made with the ingredients sent by the supermarket. Li Xinglu stewed a pot of soup, cooked a pot of rice, and fried a dish. After the two men finished their meal, there was still a lot left.

Then shower and sleep.

They lay in the same bed together, at arm's length, without touching each other, and without making love.

A few days passed like this.

One morning, the surroundings were eerily quiet.

Li Xinglu's voice rang in his ears: "Is the previous Wang Qi the same as the current Wang Qi?"

Wang Qi didn't fall asleep and didn't speak.

"I never believed that a person could go without sleep for a few days," Li Xinglu's voice was very abrupt at night, he didn't seem to wake up from sleep, he opened his eyes until now, and his voice was clear and awake: "Four days , You didn't sleep at night, just...open or close your eyes, waiting for the dawn."

Li Xing law uses declarative sentences, not interrogative sentences.

"How can you do it?" Li Xinglu took a deep breath: "I have only persisted for a few days, and I already feel that I am going crazy."

He discovered Wang Qi's strangeness late at night on the first day.

He didn't startle the enemy, he was like a calm observer, adjusting himself to try to keep pace with Wang Qi, observing and remembering the man around him that he had completely ignored.

Then found out what he was suffering from.

Li Xinglu just stayed up for four days, and he was about to collapse, not to mention that he hadn't really stayed up all night, and Wang Qi beside him seemed to have regarded all this as normal.

"No," Wang Qi said in a calm voice, "If you don't sleep for a few days, you will die. I just sleep less."