Bury me with a sprig of white camellia

Recently, the school has been very strict about the sanitation in the Baogan area, and requires morality to go to patrol inspections.

The roof of the dormitory for high school students is a key point. The teacher said that students often sneak up to smoke, and cigarette butts are piled up in the corner.

"If you catch someone on the rooftop, write down all the names, and you must issue a reminder!"

Xia Niansui waited for the teacher to leave, then put on a sour face and spread his hands towards me.

"If I knew it earlier, I wouldn't be disciplined. Gao Yisheng will be exhausted to death."

I smiled and rubbed his head with my height.

"Where do you want to check?"

He curled the corners of his lips, looking like he had succeeded in his calculations, "Tiantai, can you help me?"

99.

I took the clip, and the door of the roof was indeed open. I sighed and raised my foot to go in and arrest someone.

It's a pity that I just ran into it.

I'm sorry, classmate.

A thin figure struggled to climb up to the roof, with a bent back, protruding and twisted spine, the school uniform was washed white, and a stain on the back waist was particularly abrupt.

He didn't seem to hear me coming in, and he started squatting in a daze after stepping on the steps of the roof.

The school uniform of the second grade.

My heart almost jumped out of my chest, I threw off the splint, and strode forward to drag him down.

"Student, it's dangerous!"

He looked at me in astonishment, the surprise in his brows and eyes was very obvious.

Maybe he thought he had planned everything, intending to make a stealthy leap on this day.

It's a pity to meet me.

I can't watch a guy jump off a building in front of me.

The little classmate looks very cute, very well-behaved, very sympathetic.

Perhaps thinking of Xia Niansui who I grew up with, my tone became more gentle.

"Why did you go to the rooftop to play?"

"The roof is dangerous, junior high school students should not run around."

He was quite stubborn, he pursed his lips and said nothing, when he came down, he saw that I would not leave, sat cross-legged on the ground and drew circles on the ground with his fingers.

So silly.

I was amused by him.

What's the matter?

Is there any hurdle in life that cannot be overcome?

98.

"Have you encountered any problems? If you are unhappy, you can tell me?"

The little classmate kept silent, just like a dumb person.

It's still a little tricky.

"Believe me, everything will pass. Look..." I pointed to the clouds outside the rooftop that were gradually turning red, "This morning, the clouds are white, and the sky is still white."

It's so blue, what color is it now?"

As expected, I didn't get a response.

"It is reddish-purple now, and the clouds and the sky will change color over time. We are the same, the longer the time, the more things will be worn away."

"There are memories that you don't want to let go, there are joys and sorrows, and things that you feel unacceptable now, maybe you can gradually let go of them in the future."

I reached out and patted his head lightly. The kid raised his head and glared at me, staring at me vigilantly.

I want to laugh a little, but it's not like omega can't touch it.

A stubborn beta is pitiful.

But he had a nice smell about him.

Seeing that it's getting late, Xia Niansui wants me to take him to the studio tonight.

I wiped off the dust on my body and gave him a hand.

Like a little hedgehog, he avoids my touch when he comes up.

I was still afraid that he would be overwhelmed, so I wanted to take a piece of candy from my pocket and give it to him.

Xia Niansui has hypoglycemia, so I habitually carry a lot in my pocket.

He doesn't like orange candy very much, and he wonders if the poor little man in front of him will like it.

Poor little girl was bullied at first glance, and felt wronged.

"Send you a piece of candy."

I stuffed sugar into his hand.

Patted him on the shoulder, pushed him back from the roof to the stairs, and locked the door of the roof.

"There are no hurdles in life that you can't get past. Don't go to the rooftop to play in the future."

"If you have anything to do in the future, go to the psychological counseling room and come to me. I will be there at noon."

I hesitated, "My name is Xie Yunyi."

97.

After school, I stopped by the psychological counseling room to take a look. The teacher on duty reminded me to take out today's letter.

"Remember to lock the mailbox."

"okay."

I had already picked up the letter at noon, and only found one letter when I opened the mailbox.

Three large characters on the envelope.

Xie Yunyi.

……

There is a typo.

Xia Nian came to look for me, hung her schoolbag on my shoulder, and looked over curiously.

"what is this?"

I stuffed the envelope in my pocket.

"Letter from psychological counseling, let's go, what do you want to eat when you go home?"

"I want to eat skewers!"

96.

"Why are you unhappy recently?"

Xia Niansui sighed and said angrily, "My father's first love died, and I have a younger brother."

"Half father, half mother, dog blood."

It's really bloody.

"But don't let him enter our house, my mother said, let him live outside alone, don't come back to block the eyes."

"Things that destroy other people's families." I saw him roll his eyes, "Scumbag."

"Xiao Sui, don't swear."

He looked up at me dissatisfied, "You don't know how his mother forced him into my house."

"Suicide by pinching a little bit, and making his son's glands look like that, you know how to pretend to be pitiful!"

"Omega?"

Xia Niansi smiled sarcastically, "That's right, an omega whose glands are severely damaged, whether it has pheromones or not, is very sick, and it will die if you don't pay attention."

"Same as a flower."

95.

Hello senior.

I am Xia Weiran from the second class of the second year of junior high school.

Thank you for comforting me on the rooftop.And give me candy.

I have no friends, can we be friends?

I was a little surprised.

Is there any child nowadays who has no friends?

94.

When I was on duty in the junior high school, I deliberately observed the second class of the second grade of junior high school.

There is a familiar person in the back row of the classroom, lying on the table and looking at the blackboard.

His eyes were fixed, and I suspected he was deserting.

93.

When I went to the cafeteria to eat, I saw a few junior high school children.

"I won't give it, I won't give it! Ugly monster, come and chase me! If you catch something, I'll give it back to you!"

A junior high school student smugly waved a spoon in his hand and accidentally bumped into me.

The people behind him took the opportunity to pounce on him.

The little pitiful person I saw on the rooftop earlier snatched the spoon back from the junior high school student with a blank expression.

92.

Xia Nian asked me if I wanted to try to fall in love?

"Others are in puppy love, Brother Xie, let's try it?"

I'm not very good at rejection. It's the first time for anyone to fall in love, so I hesitated and agreed.

91.

Little Poor is not happy.

When I was waiting for Xia Niansui after school, I saw him carrying his schoolbag at the school gate and being bullied by several alpha kids who were half his head taller.

He tried to fight back, but hit the wall instead.

He didn't cry either, he just bit his lip and stared at his bully.

Xia Niansui walked over, trying to pull me away.

"wait for me."

"You want to help him?"

Xia Niansui looked at me in disbelief.

"He is Xia Weiran! My family's illegitimate child!"

"So you let someone bully him?"

90.

Xia Weiran followed me, Xia Niansui snorted coldly, folded his arms and rolled his eyes at him.

"Xie Yunyi, I want to eat ice cream!"

"Don't you have a cold? I'll buy it for you when you get better later."

Xia Niansui hugged me and rubbed my neck, actually I didn't like him doing this.

Xia Weiran, who was following behind, lowered his head and said nothing. If I didn't know how sharply he yelled when he was beaten, I would really have thought he was a little mute.

89.

The little mute always likes to come to the high school and stand by my side to watch me on duty.

"Why, you want to help me?" I couldn't help teasing him.

The little mute did not speak.

He doesn't seem to have grown up, he's very childish. Give him a piece of candy and let him help me buy a bottle of water at the canteen.

88.

Xia Nian said that he likes being in the woods, he laughed very flamboyantly, "Brother, challenge the limit!"

I don't know whether I should accept this kiss, maybe I personally don't like it, but he is Xia Niansui.

Now that you are in a relationship, it seems that you should meet the needs of the other party.

There were many mosquitoes in the grove, and they buzzed non-stop in my ears. Xia Niansui stood on tiptoe and approached me. The moment his lips pressed together, he hugged my neck.

So how should it feel?

I did my best to respond to him as tenderly as I had cared for him growing up.

89.

The teaching director likes to squat in the woods to catch people.

When the light of the flashlight swept across, I subconsciously covered Xia Niansui's eyes.

The light flickered for a moment and then went out. I didn't have time to think, so I grabbed the startled Xia Niansui and ran into the depths of the woods.

There was the crisp sound of shoe toes stepping on dead leaves behind him.

"Separate and run in a detour."

I said in a low voice.

88.

I hid behind a tree, and my arm was bitten several times by mosquitoes.

A pair of sneakers came into my eyes, and the lower end of the school uniform pants was empty. I didn't need to think about how thin the owner of the shoes was.

The color of the school uniform for the second year of junior high school.

I guessed the name in my head.

When the culprit didn't find the person he wanted and was about to abscond, he grabbed his wrist.

Little Poor was taken aback by me, and when she saw it was me, she became expressionless again.

It seems that I don't feel that I have done anything wrong.

With his face up, his eyes were calm and calm, and he almost wrote the words "ask me" on his face.

"Aren't you going home?"

"I want you to take care of it?"

Eh, this kid.

87.

"Where's the flashlight?"

"threw."

I laughed dumbfounded, "Evidence will also be destroyed."

I saw him curl his lips, looking depressed, and asked, "Why did you do that?"

He raised his head, looked at me like a fool, held back for a long time and squeezed out a sentence, "...I'll take revenge on him, are you blind?"

"Don't speak impulsively." He patted his head and saw a thin mark on his face that was scratched by a tree branch, and wanted to check his pocket for a Band-Aid.

Unfortunately not, not even sugar this time.

I had no choice but to calm down and coax this eccentric little classmate, "Be good, take a detour and go home later."

"I don't have a home."

He stared at me, and his eyes seemed to be red after a while.

This time I was completely defeated, Xia Weiran cried.

86.

Xia Niansi sent a message asking me if I escaped.

I hesitated, and finally made up a lie.

-I went home first, there are too many mosquitoes in the woods, I can't stand it.I'll bring you fruit candy tomorrow as an apology.

Xia Niansi sent a runaway emoji.

Xia Weiran stared at me, then suddenly turned around and ran elsewhere.

"Where are you going?"

I had a hard time grabbing him.

He struggled like I was a monster, but he was so thin and small that I dared not let him go.

Who knows if this little thing will go to the rooftop again at night.

Little madman.

"Do you tube!"

He bit me one last bite, very deep, almost bleeding, and glanced at me bitterly, "I don't want you to be so kind."

85.

I'm kind of annoyed.

With good intentions, he was treated as the liver and lungs of a donkey.

"Is it reasonable for you to spy on others and disturb others' dates?"

I laughed angrily, "Student, you are really interesting."

He was silent again, and his convulsions really came and went.

"Your brother is gone, and I will take you home."

"I don't have a home."

He answered again, speaking clearly, emphasizing this point with me very deliberately.

"Don't you usually sleep under the flyover?"

"The stray dog ​​sleeps in the trash can. Is the trash can his home?" He raised his head and stared at me very earnestly.

I can't speak.

84.

I messaged my family and said I was a little bit pre-processed.

Xia Weiran stood at the door, shaking the key to open the rusty green iron door.

There are no couplets posted on both sides, and it looks lifeless.

He lives alone.

There were very few items in the room. I walked in and there was a big bookshelf in his room.

"Do you like reading?"

Xia Weiran acted like he was dumb again, and silently tore off a certificate I was looking at from the wall.

National Composition Competition First Prize.

Cranky little lunatic.

That's the only way I can describe him.

83.

Be a good person to the end and go out and buy some iodine.

"Pick up your clothes."

He avoided me, and I pulled him out of the corner and pulled up his sleeves to apply medicine to him.

"Is this the person Ah Sui was looking for?"

"There are," he said with lowered eyes.

"Next time you are bullied, come to the high school or report it to the Disciplinary Office, and I will deal with it." I threw the cotton swab, "I apologize to you on behalf of A Sui."

Xia Weiran asked me a very strange question.

"How does it feel when you kiss?"

He stared at me, with round eyes like a wild cat suddenly jumping out of the bushes in the dark.

"Do you love Xia Niansui very much?"

It's too strange to say "love" to a student who is only in the second grade of junior high school.

He himself stumbled when he said this, and his words were not smooth.

"Ah."

It should be love.

It's already a relationship.

82.

The little mute has been quite peaceful recently.

He likes to write me letters, and he talks about things in the letters.

"I think I'm so dirty."

how could be?

It's not your fault.

I wrote back to him, you are the cutest omega I have ever seen.

81.

Xia Nian said that she wanted to receive nineteen red roses at the music festival.

He likes the ultimate sense of romance, and he also pursues it when painting.

I did as I did, and it seemed to be the boyfriend's job to listen to what my partner said.

When I stepped off the stage, I caught a glimpse of someone in the third-year phalanx being scolded.

It was Xia Weiran again.

He might have fallen asleep again in class.

80.

"My pheromone is white camellia, I don't like the taste, it's weird.

My mother told me before that the smell of white camellia smells very cowardly, and she likes roses. "

He wrote so once in a letter.

"White camellia tea smells very good, I really like it."

79.

In the third year of high school, Xia Niansui said that he wanted to break up.

I said "hmm" and said "it's okay."

He looked at me guiltily and said he was going to study abroad.

"If, I mean, if I don't meet someone I like there, I will still be with you when I come back."

I don't understand his logic.

I actually don't understand what I'm thinking.

Do I really like Xia Niansui?

It seems to have been out of duty.

78.

Xia Weiran seemed to become more cheerful after arriving in high school. I often saw him playing basketball in the playground downstairs.

He probably has grown up and is not as playful as he used to be.

I am not very happy, depressed and thinking about a very serious problem while studying.

What is liking?

My parents taught me from a young age to be gentle and polite to others.

Don't hate others.

So what is liking?

77.

After the college entrance examination, I have been emptying out, and I am not used to having a younger brother who has taken care of me since I was a child.

Probably because there is a lack of people who need to be taken care of, I can't even talk much.

I don't like having a lot of sugar in my pocket.

Didn't like the woods either.

I don't like mountains even more, I'm afraid of heights.

76.

Xia Weiran always likes to come to the university to find me on weekends.

I asked him what he was doing here.

He said he was afraid that I would be unhappy after breaking up.

"I'm afraid you will jump off the building!" He dropped this sentence, and then began to remain silent again, sitting on the railing with me in a daze.

I couldn't find a topic, so I had to continue to look at the sky, wanting to ask him if he wanted a Coke.

But he took out a high school math textbook out of boredom.

I am a little surprised.

"I love studying, student Xiaoxia."

He said with a cold face, "No, yes, you, don't care."

"How much is the test score?"

I chuckled, just to tease him.

He was furious like a cat, threw the book and threw it on my face, jumped off the railing and walked towards the intersection.

I took his book with a smile and looked at his back as he went away.

He took two steps, and came back with a straight face, very aggrieved.

"Why are you back?" I asked knowingly.

He spread his hands, gritted his teeth, the roots of his ears were red up to his neck, "...my book."

I raised my eyebrows and raised my hand, "I won't give it."

"Give me back!"

"How much is the test? Midterm results?"

He had no choice but to bow down for the book and was forced to say, "149."

Unexpectedly high.

"Xia Nian passed 150 in the exam."

Originally, he was just talking casually, but he turned out to be serious and said stubbornly, "I have passed the test before."

He repeated, "Many times, more than him."

"Can I return the book now?"

He opened his mouth angrily and reached out to me.

Bewitched by ghosts, I blurted out, "I'll pay you back if you shout."

75.

Xia Weiran also likes to run to me in her third year of high school.

No matter how you don't listen, you can't drive away.

There was really no other way, so I had no choice but to lower my face and attack him.

"Next time you come again, I won't be your friend."

He groaned, turned and left.

But I always feel that something is wrong with him.

Maybe his own experience made me feel that he needs someone to take care of him.

A child who was forced to study by his mother when he was young, and was beaten for disobedience.

A child who was raped as a child.

A child full of negative emotions who always thinks about committing suicide by jumping off a building.

He's like a gust of wind and I think he'll be blown away.

It's not like the wind.

Like a rootless flower.

74.

He really hasn't been here for a long time, and he stopped writing to me after I graduated.

I just realized that I actually don't have his contact information.

I was very worried. I couldn't see him coming to see me every week. I was always worried that something happened to him.

73.

Sure enough, there was an accident.

On a rainy day, my classmate told me that someone was looking for me in the dormitory downstairs.

The boy who was soaked by the rain stood in the rain, pitifully, trembling by the wind.

He will be blown away by the wind.

The strange metaphor that came to my mind turned out to be quite appropriate.

"elder brother."

He looks at me.

"The key is lost."

72.

The dorms are all alpha.

It was unreasonable to let him stay in my dormitory as an omega, so I had to hold up an umbrella, take a bath towel to dry off, put on a coat and go to the hotel to open a room.

Beta at the front desk glanced at us, and said indifferently, "Little couple?"

"This is my brother."

I denied it, but my eyes fell to him involuntarily.

He hangs his head, is half shorter than me, and quietly concentrates on doing one thing.

pick hands.

Pick the scar on his arm.

A hideous scar ran through his cold right arm, and my heart skipped a beat when I saw that scar.

71.

I have to guard against him, I suspect he enjoys self-mutilation.

I moved to live with him at his house, and wanted to tidy up his bedroom when I was not in class, and I caught a glimpse of something shiny in the corner of my eye when I was tidying up the summer vacation.

A key was pinned between two books.

Xia Weiran told me before that the two keys of his house were lost outside.

Silently I put the key in my pocket.

70.

On the day of Xia Weiran's college entrance examination, I went to see him off, and Uncle Xia was also there.

He talked to me about what happened to Xia Niansui abroad.

It was only then that I realized that I hadn't contacted Xia Niansui for a long time.

I didn't think much about it.

69.

Xia Weiran said that he was going to have an operation during the summer vacation.

"Small injury, about a month."

"Oh, which hospital?"

He looked at me dissatisfied, "Don't look at me!"

"I've taken care of you for so long and I'm not allowed to see you?"

He shook his head vigorously, and in the end, he simply enlarged his moves, "If you dare to come and see me, I will jump directly from the roof of the hospital building."

I froze for a while, and cursed secretly in my heart.

Little madman.

What a grumpy little madman.

68.

When Xia Weiran came back, school had already started.

He seemed happy and I smelled flowers on him.

"You didn't put on the pheromone blocking patch?"

He didn't seem to know there was such a thing, "What is that?"

"You're still a little omega, so you don't even know about it. How did you pass the physical exam?"

He looked at me fiercely and became angry again.

Really got him.

I went to the pharmacy and bought him a box and taught him how to use it.

"Don't move around, it's sticking crooked." I held him down, and my fingertips accidentally touched his glands. He shrank his neck and protested uncomfortably, "itch."

As soon as he let go, he ran to the bathroom to look in the mirror, and rushed out angrily within half a minute.

"Thanks! Cloud! Meaning!"

He called me by my full name for the first time.

"Are you so courageous? Why do you call me a person?"

I laughed.

Disrespectful little lunatic.

He tore off the barrier sticker on the gland and slapped it directly on my face, he was so angry that he was about to smoke, "You are the idiot!"

There are three words written on the gland sticker.

Silly goose.

You are a little idiot.

little fool.

Little madman.

67.

The little idiot went to feed the cat and was bitten by the cat.

How old are people, they are almost adults and still bicker with cats.

66.

Happy birthday little fool.

Congratulations on becoming an adult.

65.

Xia Weiran is a bit withdrawn, I didn't see him playing with other people.

Too lonely is not good, I plan to take him out for a walk.

64.

I have a friend who studies psychology. He met Xia Wei and said to me, "The freshman you brought here must have mental problems."

"Freeze said."

"Really, didn't you notice that he kept staring at you after the normal party?"

"I asked him if he wanted a drink, but he didn't even lift his eyes, just like a deaf man."

My friend told me seriously, "You'd better stay away from him, if you really get into a psychopath, it's not easy to get rid of him."

63.

I did start to worry.

He is too closed off.

I plan to find an alpha friend who speaks more humorously to chat with him.

As a result, Xia Weiran remained silent, and the scene was very awkward.

My friend's face was livid, and before leaving, he said to me, "Why are you with such a person?"

"That's my brother."

"The way he looks at you is not like the way a younger brother should treat his elder brother. Yun Yi, listen to me, stay away from him, this man is a lunatic."

"You don't know, you went to the bathroom earlier, I wanted to tease him to perform magic tricks, and he directly took out a pocket knife for me from his pocket."

62.

I'm really worried that he's sick.

He likes to talk in his sleep at night.

Going to cover him with a quilt at night, I actually heard him talking to himself.

"...I went to the movies with Brother Xie today..."

"That's pretty good, but come on."

I listened to his sleep talk and felt cold from the soles of my feet.

I want to take him to the hospital to have a look.

61.

Xia Weiran refused to go to the hospital.

He said it might be because he was too tired to talk in his sleep.

60.

Ran Ran.

59.

I went crazy, when I woke up and saw Xia Weiran lying in my arms, I was completely dazed.

how come?

Obviously just had a few drinks last night.

I can assure you that I'm in control of myself, there's no way I'm going to sleep with someone I don't like.

If I really only see his brother...

I really need to calm down.

58.

The kid said he wanted to try it with me.

I'm so confused inside, my head is full of fits?

I might not be able to take care of him well, I'm not very good at raising an omega.

How to be a qualified alpha?

What if I treat him badly after we get married?He is so fragile, will he be overwhelmed?

Fortunately, at the latest, there was no sperm on the brain to mark him.

He couldn't just follow me so casually.

He is still young.

57.

Still couldn't resist agreeing.

I am responsible for him.

I should learn how to take care of a little omega.

He likes reading books very much, and tried to write online this year, but it was a pity that his writing was not very popular at the beginning.

Ugh.

It was really tiring to hide in the house in the middle of the night and leave him an anonymous message.

But he's happy.

He should smile more.

56.

However, she always likes to pester me to do it.

I don't know if it's because of the relationship, but he is not as thorny as before, he is much better, and he can learn to make breakfast.

This kind of thing can actually let me come.

He wants me to tag him.

I said slow down, the mark is once in a lifetime, don't be hasty.

He doesn't look happy.

very unhappy.

At night, Xia Niansui was mentioned without warning.

"You were with Xia...my brother before, how did it feel?"

I couldn't describe it to him, so I had to seriously think about it.

Who knew that the little lunatic would be very angry when he got angry, and he would bite my hand until I was bitten green.

"You are mine! Mine!"

Well, yours yours.

I won't run away.

55.

After graduating from university, I went to my dad's company and began to learn how to manage company affairs.

I talked to him about my relationship with Xia Weiran.

He didn't say anything, but said with a little worry, "I've seen that kid before, and it's not normal."

"He's nice," I said. "He's healthy."

54.

I bought Ranran his favorite matcha cake.

He recently said that he would have a final exam to reward him for studying so hard.

I don't know if he caused any damage at home.

Just don't tear down the house.

53.

I'm really going to be stupid to death by him.

The windows are closed and he's playing with fire, and he'll be fucking dead if I get back a little later!

Crazy, still laughing there.

Who the hell cares about those pictures?

I'm afraid you're dead!

52.

Crying and fussing, he carved words on his arm with a knife.

I'm going to be driven crazy by him.

madman.

I beg you, don't cry, don't hurt yourself.

I'm here.

You cried in your dream so much that my heart ached to death.

51.

Ran suddenly didn't want to eat.

He just likes wandering around the kitchen, and he doesn't care if the kitchen knife cuts his hand.

"Can you try it? Xie Yunyi, would you like to try it?"

I was worried to death, but he forced me to eat the food he cooked.

"Treat the wound first, but, be obedient, put down the plate."

"I do not."

"Xia! Wei! Ran!"

I really want to open his head and see what he is thinking.

"You are really stupid, wooden fish head, are you?"

I'm really mad.

The blood on his hand dripped down, but he stood there motionless.

After a while, a sentence came out of his mouth, "...are you angry because I burned Xia Niansui's photo...you still like him."

Fuming, I grabbed his hand and went to find the medicine box.

"That's right, that's right, I fucking like Xia Niansui. I like it so much that I can't forget it. I'm crazy to take care of you!"

He was so frightened that he shut his mouth, and his eyes turned red after a while.

I don't want to coax him.

It's really bugged him.

After tidying up the wound, I spoke to him expressionlessly.

"Break up, of course."

He stared at a certain place in the house as if his soul was out of his body, and he was as silent as a stuck robot.

"When did you know you were wrong, learn to cherish yourself, and come to me again."

50.

I just want to scare him.

But the hospital called me and told me that Xia Weiran had cut his wrist.

He didn't care at all that he walked through the gate of hell, he just lay on the bed in a daze, and stared at me again when he saw me.

...I really want to scold him.

Instead of feeling guilty when he saw me, he looked at me with a determined look.

"Don't break up."

I twitched the corner of my mouth and praised him, "Using self-mutilation to keep people, but... you are really smart."

49.

Xia Weiran is crazy.

He prefers to hide in the room and talk to himself more and more.

He always locked himself in the room strangely, saying repeatedly.

"Xia Weiran, you have to work hard before someone will love you."

"But I can't learn, I can't."

"We must learn."

"My mother said before that as long as I study hard, she will love me. But she always cried in the middle of the night so that I couldn't sleep, and she changed her appearance at night and beat me, saying that I

dirty. "

"You're not dirty."

"I'm dirty."

"Mom loves you."

"She doesn't love. If she loves me, she won't find someone to rape me and her."

"Love, love, you have to work hard!"

"If you don't love me, Xie Yunyi doesn't love me either. He likes Xia Niansui, he likes Xia Niansui...he also thinks I'm dirty."

I can't stand it.

I'm about to suffocate.

48.

I wanted to take him to the hospital to see a doctor, but he refused desperately.

Promised that I would not hurt myself, then turned around and bit my own arm black and blue.

I break up and force him to be quiet, and he'll only be quiet for a while, and then he'll do something that makes me shiver even more.

The scariest one was when he climbed out of the window and narrowly missed falling.

"Why did you buy roses?"

He stared at me, "He likes it, I don't."

But I bought it for you.

47.

His mood has stabilized a lot recently, and he occasionally loses his temper.

Friends advised me to let go early.

"Most mental illnesses can't be cured. You can't survive. There are so many omegas in the world. Why don't you just find a healthy one?"

"I can still hold on."

I took a deep breath, "He's healthy. He's my omega."

I'm afraid he's dead.

46.

I'm getting more and more afraid of going home.

Xia Weiran always called me to urge me.

He wished he could stick to me like an insecure baby bird.

He likes to pester me, no matter whether he can bear it or not, he will try his best to keep me in bed.

He asked me to sleep with him, he said there are ghosts at night.

Xia Weiran is getting thinner and thinner, I think he has become crazy.

I dare not go back.

I am afraid that one day when I open the door, what I see is a lifeless corpse.

45.

I haven't been home for a month.

I miss him, but I dare not look at him.

44.

Xia Weiran cuts his wrist again.

43.

He is not the only one who is crazy.

It's us.

I was driven crazy by him.

42.

I can no longer coax him patiently.

I just want him to shut up, stop moving, and stop hurting himself.

Let him go and let me go.

Of course, my course.

I beg you.

You cut brother Xie here, don't hurt yourself again.

41.

He likes to be in a daze.

Tell me there is a tree outside the window, there is a bird's nest on the tree, the mother bird and the little bird are living happily.

I listened to his stories and wanted to give him a hug.

He changed his voice in the next second, blinked at the distant city lights, and asked me innocently.

"Do you think the mother bird will eat the baby bird?"

She works so hard to raise the little bird every day because of love.

If she is really too tired and doesn't love her anymore, will she kill the little bird?

His dark eyes were terribly gloomy.

"Without the bird's nest, the tree will die."

His light words hit my heart very heavy.

40.

Trying to trick him into going to the hospital, he shook off my hand and ran towards the main road.

Almost got hit by a car.

"You lied to me……"

I'm really fed up!

I don't owe him anything for letting go of him and throwing him in the street to fend for himself.

"Yes, I lied to you!" I yelled, and the passer-by's child was scared to cry by me.

"Didn't you insist that I like Xia Niansui? I'll go find him, and I'll go now! I don't want you anymore! You love to die, love to live!"

39.

Seeing him sitting alone on the bench in the coffee shop, motionless, broke my heart.

I ordered a cup of the bitterest coffee and poured it into my mouth.

However, what do you want me to do?

38.

Xia Niansui has returned home.

He asked me out for dinner.

He said he wanted to get back together with me.

I showed my ring, "I'm married."

I have mine.

37.

I dare not see it.

He is crazy.

I had to seek help from a psychiatrist.

I made an appointment to come to my house next week, pretending to be a friend and chatting with Ranran.

I beg the doctor, don't let Ranran go crazy again.

I am afraid, I am afraid that one day he will die in front of me.

36.

I don't blame Ranran.

He doesn't want to be sick either, but I dare not go home to see him.

I'm going crazy, closing my eyes is the appearance of him jumping off a building and cutting his wrists.

35.

I finally dared to go back today.

He raised a pot of white camellia.

He likes to raise flowers, but he always raises them to death.

It's good to grow flowers, at least he didn't hurt himself again.

But when he hugged me, he bit my gland.

I saw his bloody arm.

There was a stabbing pain in the neck, and I couldn't suppress my heartache.

In a trance, I pushed him away and ran away in embarrassment.

I seem to have said something, but I can't remember.

When I calmed down, he was lying on the ground and fell asleep.

I couldn't laugh or cry, checked his wound, bandaged it and put him on the bed.

Of course...my course.

34.

I think I should tag him.

He scares me so much, I want to leave something on him so that he won't be easily taken away by the wind.

He is a white camellia fished out of dirty water, its loose petals easily blown away by high winds.

He hugged me and whispered softly in my ear, "I love you, brother."

"I love you"

"I love you and want to be with you forever."

"Xie Yunyi, I want to stay by your side."

How nice to stay.

How good.