mistakenly compared you to a star

When he woke up the next day, Chu Zichen saw Yan Ke lying on his stomach beside the bed as soon as he opened his eyes.

"Zichen? Is it Zichen?" Yan Ke approached and asked cautiously.

"En." He replied with a strong nasal voice, Yan Ke smiled openly, and was about to pounce on him.Chu Zichen predicted his action and raised a hand to keep a distance.

I don't know if it was because of Yan Ke's aggrieved eyes when he was stopped, or because he found that he continued to dominate this body, Zichen's mood rose inexplicably, so he couldn't help teasing: "It's not me who is so worried, but Chenchen? It turns out that your kindness to Chenchen is all fake."

"No, it's just that you and Chenchen have different breakfast tastes. I need to see who it is before I can decide what to do."

"Don't do it, go downstairs and eat." Zichen sat up and said casually, "I miss the omelette downstairs."

"Really?" Yan Ke thought for a while, "Then I'll pack it up and eat it. I remember you prefer to use the sauce at home."

"No, hey, wait..." Zichen wanted to stop him, but Yan Ke left quickly.

The door closed with a bang, and Zichen sat on the bed, sighing helplessly.

He originally thought that a simple breakfast would be fine, but Yan Ke spent more effort than cooking himself to prepare this meal.

The sauce prepared by Yan Ke was indeed delicious. He ate the omelette in small bites, ignoring Yan Ke's constant glances at him, waiting for a compliment.

"Take me to the leasing center later." He suddenly remembered the business, "I want to rent a house, it doesn't need to be very big, about 50 square meters is fine."

He thought that he had no source of income for the time being, and he had to cut down on spending if he couldn't open the source.

Yan Ke froze for a moment, trying not to make his disappointment too obvious.Zichen fell asleep by himself on the sofa last night. At that time, he thought that the two of them would get back together soon, but he didn't expect Zichen to be so indifferent after sleeping. He was seriously planning to move out .

Is it so uncomfortable to live next to yourself?He wanted to ask so much, but finally held back.

"However, today we should go to the hospital for psychological treatment." Yan Ke looked at the calendar and said, "We will go every week at this time, but the ones who went before were Chenchen, you don't know."

"Really..." Zichen also knew that treatment was very important. Now that he had returned, he should take responsibility for this body and actively cooperate with the treatment.It seems that the matter of renting a house can only be postponed.

After breakfast, they went to the hospital.As soon as they entered the consulting room, the fat doctor who treated them raised his head with great interest.

"You're here." He smiled, looking between the two of them.The psychiatrist is more sensitive to human emotions, and he has already noticed that the aura between the two visitors is very different from before—although there is not much conversation, there is a feeling that they are very familiar with each other.

"Yes, doctor, this is Zichen, the second personality. He was in charge of the body before." Yan Ke introduced to the doctor with a smile on his face.

The fat doctor nodded at Zichen: "No wonder today's condition looks better than before."

It was the first time for Zichen to receive treatment with his own personality, he nodded at the doctor a little strangely, and looked at Yan Ke blankly.

Yan Ke patted his head and comforted him softly: "Don't worry, just follow the doctor's instructions. I'll wait for you outside the door, call me anytime if you need anything."

After Yan Ke went out, the fat doctor pointed to the door and asked Zichen, "How is your relationship with him?"

"Eh? Is this related to treatment?" Zichen felt nervous for a moment, which was too much to the point.

"Of course there is. Your movement disorder is caused by psychological factors, and psychological communication is essential."

Chu Zichen nodded: "...just friends."

In the process of chatting between the two, hypnosis and suggestion came in unknowingly.

After the treatment, Yan Ke entered the consultation room.The fat doctor said to them:

"It's a good thing to have a more dominant personality come back, and Zichen has a constitution that is more receptive to hints. The next treatment should go much smoother."

Yan Ke looked happier than Zichen. "Really? Great!"

"However, we still need to pay attention to the problem of muscle atrophy. When we go back, we can help him lie on the bed and do more leg raising exercises. In addition, it would be better if he can cooperate with some massage." The doctor turned to Yan Ke and explained.

Zichen thought, don't look at him, what does it have to do with him?Yan Ke nodded very positively: "Good doctor."

The next day, Zichen still persistently asked Yan Ke to take him to see the house.

Yan Ke took him to see it this time, but he picked out various places that are not convenient for people with wheelchairs to live in each one.Zichen had no choice but to admit that Yan Ke had indeed thought carefully, and most of the reasons he raised made him feel reasonable.

After several days of not finding a satisfactory house, Zichen also began to feel a little tired.Yan Ke told him that he had already contacted an intermediary who was more familiar with barrier-free housing, and waited for the intermediary to collect information on the target housing, and then check it together on the spot.So the matter was shelved day by day.

After listening to the fat doctor that day, Yan Ke quickly learned the massage technique to prevent muscle atrophy.Every night, Yan Ke first helped Zichen do leg raising exercises, let him lie flat on the bed and alternately raised his legs, and at the same time helped him record the time, encouraging him to lift a little longer every day than the day before.

After finishing the exercise, Yan Ke sat by the bed and helped him massage his legs.Whenever this time, time will pass very slowly.Yan Ke's powerful big hands kneaded his legs back and forth, with just the right strength, without any aggressiveness, but there was always a trace of tenderness tainted by the silence between the two of them.

Although this kind of thing happens every night, Zichen still finds it unbelievable when he sees Yan Ke patiently and proficiently massaging.From this person, it seems that he can't find the shadow of the domineering at the beginning.Is it to hide it for yourself?But how long can this false peace last?

It's not that he doesn't enjoy this tenderness at all, but behind the enjoyment is a deeper fear.He didn't want Yan Ke to change for himself.To change for someone like me...but what can I give him.

love?He saw Yan Ke wavering between Chu Chen and himself, between the past and the present. No one could give a precise definition of what love is.Love is the most illusory thing, he has received this empty check, how can he use it on others.

A few days later, before he knew it, Chu Zichen discovered that in the bathroom, room, balcony...all places with thresholds were equipped with ramps for wheelchair walking, and Yan Ke's obsessive-compulsive disorder disappeared at some point. For Zichen's convenience, many things are placed where he is most convenient.

But he was even more depressed.He and Yan Ke have emphasized several times that he will move out soon, there is no need for this, Yan Ke does not argue with him, he just said that he wants to give him the best, even if it is only a few days, and wants to make it easier for him .Gentle and considerate, can't find any faults.

But Chu Zichen felt that Yan Ke didn't seem to intend to let him move away at all, and was even sure that he couldn't move away.

A bird in a golden cage loves to sing more.

Apart from thinking about moving out, Zichen is also silently thinking about his future.

As if holding his breath, he didn't want Yan Ke to see his hesitation and helplessness before he found his own way out.

Lu Kuan has released a new album, and recently several TV stations have been broadcasting his music MV.The new song is very challenging, but also very pleasant to listen to. Chu Zichen looked longingly at the person who captured the hearts of all beings with his singing voice on the stage, and was often fascinated.

He suddenly remembered that he had had such a fantasy, he was singing on the stage, and Yan Ke was in the auditorium, like all the audience, he only had a shining star in his eyes.

Such obvious concerns naturally cannot escape Yan Ke's eyes.Yan Ke seemed to want to make up for the obstruction of Zichen's dream at that time, and always asked him very attentively if he wanted to continue to make music and sing.

"After the last follow-up visit, I specifically asked the doctor. The doctor said that your vocal cords have recovered well. As long as you are careful not to overuse your words, you can sing." Yan Ke said.

He often praised like this: "Is your voice now the legendary smoke voice? Very popular."

Whenever he heard such words, Zichen would secretly get a little angry.They are all lies, Yan Ke still loves to lie so much, and you may never guess what he really thinks.Even creating illusions has a limit.His voice was obviously not as good as before, it was hoarse and deep.Such a mellow voice can never be found again.

But even so he still wanted to sing.

He studied music theory, music composition, and dabbled in stage performance, but what he wanted to do most was singing.

He wanted a place where no one else was around, and tried to make his own voice.

After making such a decision, he took advantage of the time when Yan Ke went downstairs to buy things and came to the balcony.He took a deep breath to open his voice.But suddenly, he felt that all the items in Yan Ke's house seemed to have eyes, and they looked at him eagerly like their owners, forming a cage woven by eyes.

His scrutiny, his evaluation, his expectation, his deceitful praise... all drowned himself like a raging tide.

In the end, he couldn't even pronounce a single syllable.

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This chapter has been revised many times.

Zichen has a heart disease, and I really want to convey this state, because it has something to do with the theme that this article wants to express.Why does love hurt?Maybe someone can find a little bit of reality in this story.

terribly sorry!If I have to go out on weekends, I may have to ask for leave. If I ask for leave, I will inform you in the copy.