Self-knowledge

10

The little boy sang a song with Sun Xiao as he wished. Ye Xiang looked at the boy's obsessive and apprehensive eyes on Sun Xiao, as if he understood something. He was happy for Sun Xiao but also a little worried.

On the way back, I wanted to advise something, and after thinking about myself as a loser in love, and thinking that it would be better to let things take their course, I stopped talking.

Work did not become easier as the Chinese New Year approached. Ye Xiang was so busy that he was looking for a house while working.

By the time the house is settled, it will be the end of January.

On top of that, two things happened at the end of January.

One is that Ye Xiang received Gu Cheng's wedding invitation, and the wedding will be held on the third day of the first lunar month.

Ye Xiang and Sun Xiao both went home early that day, and the two of them watched a comedy movie when they were in the mood. When they were laughing, Gu Cheng called.

So Ye Xiang saw Sun Xiao pick up the phone stiffly, and after replying a few words, his face turned pale, and after saying goodbye, he stood there in a daze.

After a few minutes, he turned his head like a ghost, the pale light hit the top of his head, and the long bangs cast a shadow on his eyes under the projection of the overhead light, making it difficult to see his expression clearly. Ye Xiang heard crying .

"Gu Cheng...he's getting married."

I made up my mind to forget about living a good life alone, thinking that I had done it and could face life with a smile, but when the news came, the building suddenly collapsed.

Tears poured out completely uncontrollably, and there was nothing left of persistence and self-esteem for a moment...

Ye Xiang silently gave Sun Xiao a comforting hug.

He also felt like crying.

Sun Xiao choked up and said that the wedding was scheduled for the third day of the Lunar New Year. Ye Xiang patted his back comfortingly, and he finally cried loudly.

Zhou Xingchi's voice was chattering on the TV, the cold winter wind was blowing wantonly outside the window, the air conditioner was whizzing out hot air, and the wailing of his best friend lasted all night.

Another thing is that one day there was a social meeting that he couldn't refuse, and Ye Xiang excused himself to leave after drinking and drinking.

Before he had time to loosen his tightly tightened tie, Ye Xiang saw Lin Jiaxu at the end of the corridor.

To be exact, it was Lin Jiaxu and Ji Zeye.

Because of the angle, he couldn't see Lin Jiaxu's expression clearly, he only saw his hands attached to Ji Zeye's hair, wiping away some dust for him.

He used the hand that had been gently placed on his forehead, and the hand that had rubbed his waist and chest in love.

In a daze, he met Ji Zeye's eyes, and then Ji Zeye raised his eyebrows.

Sensing that the man was about to turn around, Ye Xiang hurriedly left the corridor.

"What's wrong? Who did you see?"

He heard a familiar voice ask.

"there is no one."

"—an insignificant person."

The winter in the southern city is cold and humid. Ye Xiang didn't put on long johns and long johns, and he didn't even bother to cut his bangs if they grew a little, as long as they could keep out the cold.

The air-conditioning seems to be constantly rushing up from the soles of the feet, and perhaps the coldest thing is the heart.

Still busy with work, after two days of staying up all night, the project team finally submitted a set of proposals, and left the company with thick dark circles and greasy hair. Ye Xiang just wanted to see a random door in front of him and teleport to the bed.

In front of the company gate, the man was wearing a black windbreaker. It had been a long time since I saw him. His beard had grown a little, his face was not good, and he looked tired.

"Ah Xiang."

Seeing Ye Xiang going out, his eyes brightened a little, and then his tone was a little cautious.

Ye Xiang was so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyes. Although he was shocked when he saw the man, the scene in the corridor of the restaurant flashed again a few days ago, and he only replied ah, and stood and waited for the big Buddha to find him. What's the matter with him.

... It can't be that he is going to get married too, no, who is he marrying?Ji Zeye?

His thoughts dispersed, and Lin Jiaxu saw that he was silent, so he called again, "Ah Xiang."

"Huh? What's the matter?"

Ye Xiang tried hard to squeeze out a smile called calmly facing his ex-boyfriend.

Lin Jiaxu was stunned for a moment, then said coyly, "Ah Xiang, are you still angry?"

"Huh? Why are you angry?"

So angry, or to keep smiling.

"...I didn't speak very well before, and I told you a few words, don't be so fussy, okay?"

"..."

So angry, I don't want to keep smiling.

But he still managed to use his reason, and pulled out a particularly ugly smile, "I don't care about it."

Lin Jiaxu seemed to heave a sigh of relief, but then his attitude changed again.

"Then why are you so awkward? You don't answer the phone, you don't reply to the text message, and you don't go home. Have you had enough fun?"

……

"I'll say it for the last time, we broke up." Looking him in the eyes, Ye Xiang said every word.

The man's eyes finally became a little flustered. He grabbed Ye Xiang's arm, as if the two sides had switched roles more than a month ago.

"Stop making trouble...Xiao Xiang, I'm sorry, I apologize."

"I didn't quarrel. I didn't quarrel with you by breaking up with you," Ye Xiang sighed, "I mean it."

"...Why did you break up?"

"...Then why are you apologizing?"

"...I don't know," Lin Jiaxu's gaze shifted, "I only know that you are angry, but I don't know why you are angry. Ah Xiang, I have been to your company's door many times, but I can't meet you. I am waiting today. It’s been below zero today for more than an hour.”

Lin Jiaxu looked at Ye Xiang eagerly, his wet eyes looked like an abandoned puppy.

It's like after countless quarrels, whenever he showed such eyes, Ye Xiang's heart would always soften into a mess.

Reluctant to do housework, quarrel, compromise; come back too late, quarrel, compromise; not caring enough about him, quarrel, compromise... In this game called love, Ye Xiang has retreated to the point of no return, and announced his departure .

Ye Xiang became cruel, and opened Lin Jiaxu's hand, "Why don't you go to Ji Zeye."

Lin Jiaxu's eyes flickered, his emotions were unclear, but Ye Xiang clearly saw a trace of complacency.

"I said angry words that day. You were so cold to me at that time, I just wanted to see if you cared about me."

Colleagues passing by gave them sideways glances, and Ye Xiang sighed, "Let's go to a nearby park to talk."