Self-knowledge

11

It just rained yesterday, and the ground was still wet. Ye Xiang wrapped his down jacket tightly. He was really sleepy, but from Lin Jiaxu's attitude, he felt that it was necessary to talk to the other party.

Ye Xiang stood still, quietly looking at the man beside him.

Together for seven years, watching him slowly grow from a boy to a man.

When they were in college, they ate dark dishes at the school gate together, and in winter they bought a baked potato and held hands together; after graduation, the man went to a state-owned enterprise, working from nine to five, listening to himself complaining about overtime and devil bosses every day; The man is early, and Ye Xiang is reluctant to let him cook, so the man buys a few small dishes to take away on the way, and the two of them eat together at home; in winter, they will cook a pot of hot pot at home, call Sun Xiao and Gu Cheng, open a dozen beers, and have a good time Drink quickly for an afternoon; at the beginning, there was not much difference in salary between the two, but after two years, Ye Xiang's salary and job title were mentioned again and again, but the man's salary had not been raised. Bored in bed for a long time, the man resolutely decided to resign and start a business. Ye Xiang also took out all his savings at the time to invest in shares; from the beginning of the company with three people, it has grown to a hundred people now; technology, market, investment... ... The man became very busy, and his heart was always twisted; Ye Xiang felt very tired, and was unwilling to accommodate or compromise, and the love between the two gradually changed.

He looked at the man who had accompanied him for a quarter of his life, and said slowly:

"Jia Xu. Not only Ji Zeye, but also many other things... We have too many conflicts. I am very unhappy and tired, so I want to break up.

"I thought, if you told me that you and Ji Zeye had nothing to do, maybe I would have chosen to step back that day. But maybe within a few days, we might have an argument again. How should I say this feeling, it seems that I have reached a dead end. Or a ball of yarn is tied up in a knot, and there's nothing to do but cut it off."

Lin Jiaxu listened silently, looking fixedly at Ye Xiang, it was rare that he didn't lose his temper immediately.

Ye Xiang continued to speak softly.

"So you told me today that you and Ji Zeye are fine. I felt very calm and didn't feel relieved. Because I had already cut the ball of wool and decided not to.

"I always try my best to accommodate you. Jiaxu, I am also tired and lazy, and I don't want to do housework. When I am sick, I want someone to comfort me and let me act like a baby. You can comfort me when I wake up from a nightmare. Work. You don’t have to wait for you alone when you come home after a busy day. Lin Jiaxu, I often feel so hurt. When you force me, and when you ignore me, you use me as a tool to vent your temper and be aggressive towards me When. I kept retreating, retreating again and again, but there was no way.

"You said before that you will always treat me well and not let me be wronged. Does what you say count?"

As the sky darkened, the winter twilight was always short, and pedestrians on the side of the road hurried home.

Lin Jiaxu's eyes gradually turned red, he opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound.

"Jiaxu," Ye Xiang looked into his eyes deeply, and said each word quietly, "Forget it."

Speechless to say more.

Lin Jiaxu watched the pale and slender figure gradually disappear from his field of vision. He stretched out his hand as if trying to save something, but found that his fingers were so cold that he had lost consciousness.

He suddenly realized that something important in his life was gone.