Self-knowledge

12

Lin Jiaxu didn't remember how he got home, he was sitting on the sofa in the living room, the space was eerily quiet.

The house is not messy, he just hired cleaners to clean it a few days ago, and it is even cleaner than when Ye Xiang was there.

Ye Xiang is sometimes a little lazy, such as sweeping and mopping the floor every two days. If you can cook at home, you can use one less tableware, just to save some energy for washing dishes.

Ye Xiang had also sat on this sofa countless times waiting for him to come back. The difference is that the door at this time will never be opened because of another owner's return.

Lin Jiaxu lowered his head and grabbed his hair. The heating was not turned on in the room. He was shivering from the cold, but he finally woke up after more than a month of ignorance and self-deception.

He lost his Ye Xiang.

Ye Xiang was Lin Jiaxu's first love, and the only one he had a serious relationship with.

Although Lin Jiaxu was in good condition and had many suitors since he was a child, his tall and straight appearance and excellent grades made him think highly of himself. He couldn't figure out who could be worthy of him. interest.

Because he thinks girls are troublesome, he has to accept subtle hints and overtures from time to time. He basically only plays with boys. His best friend before college was Ji Zeye.

Ji Zeye was outstanding in appearance when he was in high school. At that time, they were inseparable. Ji Zeye would occasionally joke with him that crossed the line. Lin Jiaxu didn't understand, but felt that there was something strange in the haze.

Later, when Ji Zeye went abroad, Lin Jiaxu just felt it was a pity, but he didn't have any special nostalgia for his good buddies who were separated from each other.

His sexuality was only awakened after meeting Ye Xiang.

Ye Xiang is not like the former Ji Zeye.From time to time, Ji Zeye would rest his head on his shoulder, or accidentally brush his lips past his ear.

However, he just looked at Ye Xiang who was sitting obediently across from the library, looked down at his professional books, and tapped on his laptop to do projects, and he would feel dry mouth inexplicably.

Until that day, he was standing on the wall in a particularly uncoordinated posture, trying to pull Ye Xiang up. Ye Xiang raised his head and said to him, "Lin Jiaxu, I like you."

Ah, I like it.

He finally found a space for the impulsiveness and annoyance in his chest. The reason is that he likes it.

He likes Ye Xiang who has always been alone, only close to him; he likes Ye Xiang who treats others coldly and distances himself, smiling unreservedly in front of him; he likes Ye Xiang at this moment, the eyes in his pupils The reflection is full of him, full of fascination.

He didn't even think about whether the person he liked was the same sex or the opposite sex.Only five seconds later, the body preceded the brain, he jumped off the fence, approached Ye Xiang, grabbed the back of the other's head and kissed him without any teacher.

The tongue cavities were exchanging body fluid, the soft tongues were entangled, and the teeth collided from time to time. He turned his head slightly to prevent the bridge of his nose from colliding, and he could even feel the trembling of the other party in his rapid breathing.

So sweet.

It turns out that liking is such a happy thing.

Two months later, he went to bed for the first time. In the small hotel at [-] yuan a night in front of the school, he hugged Ye Xiang, who had fallen asleep, and slowly brushed the bruises all over his body with his fingers. Dry the tear stains, kiss a light kiss.

He thought, Ah Xiang is mine now, and belongs to me alone.

I must treat this person well, for the rest of my life.