Self-knowledge

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After getting off the boat, Ye Xiang and Sun Xiao waved goodbye and went home.

Lin Jiaxu stopped following him stickily, Ye Xiang returned home, Ye Xin was playing games in the room, and I don't know if he has practiced well these few days.

Ye Xiang didn't expose his younger brother's lie about "company cruise ship benefits". Although Ye Xin had been playing games at home all day, Ye Xiang still took the responsibility of cooking as a habit.

While serving the meal, Ye Xin mentioned that Zhang Yi, the general manager of their company, asked Ye Xiang to have dinner.

Zhang Yi was the man who Ye Xiang went on a blind date by mistake and finally arranged for Ye Xin to join the company, Lin Jiaxu's partner.

Ye Xiang's heart skipped a beat, thinking that it's finally here.

"Brother, why are you still in contact with Mr. Zhang?" Ye Xin asked curiously.

Ye Xiang fooled around and sent a text message back to Zhang Yi.

Obviously there was nothing between the two of them, but he felt guilty.

Maybe it was Zhang Yiruo's seemingly ambiguous attitude before, or maybe he didn't want Ye Xin to know about his breakup with Lin Jiaxu.

I always find it difficult to explain.

Ye Xin didn't get entangled in this issue either, he was very happy with Ye Xiang's return, and said bitterly that all he ate these two days was takeaway or instant noodles.

Ye Xiang sighed, "What will you do with your life in the future?"

"There's nothing to do," Ye Xin said vaguely while gnawing on a chicken leg, "Aren't there parents, and you, brother?"

Ye Xiang was stunned.

Feeling helpless in my heart.He envied his younger brother's simplicity and his willingness to rely on others.

Ye Xiang knew from an early age that his mother was not his biological mother. Growing up in a delicate family atmosphere created his sensitive and withdrawn personality.

Learn to be independent early, learn not to rely on others early, and not to have too many expectations of others.

A lot of trouble is just that what you want does not match what the other party can give.

Yes, in this life, Ye Xiang only wants to rely on that person unconditionally, spread out the soft belly that has been hidden all along to that person, and take that person as his own.

While willing to pay for him, I also hope that that person can give me care and love.

He also wanted to be able to rely on Lin Jiaxu so carefree, the man who said he would love him forever in this life.

Get used to such a person shielding him from wind and rain, getting used to treating him well...

Lin Jiaxu gave him the reliance he wanted, but after he handed over all his trust, he gradually changed.

After washing the dishes and clearing the table, Ye Xin went back to the room to play games.

Ye Xiang leaned on the balcony railing and smoked. It was getting late, and he looked at the corner of the street in the old-fashioned neighborhood with ecstasy. The housewives who had finished dinner gathered together, chatting gossip, or warming up for a short square dance.

There are a few lonely stars hanging in the sky, and the world is extremely lively.

He thought, Lin Jiaxu didn't take back his love, and even now, he is working hard to win back Ye Xiang.

He just changed.

The housewives warmed up and started a neat square dance rehearsal.

Ye Xiang is also thinking about the reason why the two drifted apart in the last few years, maybe not just because of Lin Jiaxu's change.

He knew he had changed too.He has been colored by society, and with his indifferent face, he has also learned to smile and cater to in the mall, and has become accustomed to using nicotine to dispel troubles. As for Lin Jiaxu, he has gradually become accustomed to quarreling and indifference from the initial obedience. Violence.

Just as he felt that Lin Jiaxu was becoming more and more strange and unreasonable, he thought, maybe Lin Jiaxu is the same, and he no longer loves Ye Xiang as he is now.

Do you want to start over?

The you I love is not you, the me you love is not me, is it still going to end in tragedy?

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In the middle of the night, Ye Xiang appeared in the hospital.

Sun Xiao's phone call was like a thunderbolt.Ye Xiang grabbed his wallet, put on a coat, and rushed out without even having time to inform Ye Xin.

"Ah Xiang, I'm in the hospital. Can you come over? I'm in a hurry and I don't have any money."

Huo Liao hurried to the hospital, and the moment Ye Xiang saw Sun Xiao, he felt that the blood in his limbs and bones were all coagulated.

His close friend Sun Xiao, always optimistic, handsome and beautiful Sun Xiao, the little prince of music who sang sparkling on the stage, Sun Xiao, now has blood all over his head, one side of his face is swollen very high, the corner of his mouth is torn, and his clothes are even worse Crumpled, the bottom button of the shirt has fallen off, and it can be seen that there has been a fight.

They had just parted more than ten hours ago, and at that time, Sun Xiao was riding the spring breeze and said with sparkling eyes that he decided to start a new life.

Now Sun Xiao is sitting alone at the emergency gate of the hospital with his mobile phone in his hand. His body is covered with injuries, and his pupils are not focused. His eyes were on Sun Xiao who was waiting here alone.

Ye Xiang was both distressed and wanted to curse. He wanted to rush over and ask the doctor, can't he be bandaged first because he is so badly injured?Do you have medical ethics?And who did this to Sun Xiao?He was anxious all the way, and Sun Xiao was very vague on the phone. Ye Xiang thought it was an internal medicine problem, but he didn't expect it to be a trauma.

"Ah Xiang."

When Sun Xiao saw Ye Xiang, he looked up habitually and wanted to smile, but he didn't want to hurt the wound, so he grinned hoarsely and cried out for pain.

Ye Xiang stabilized his mind, suppressed the countless questions in his heart, and went to help Sun Xiao register and pay the fee first.

There was a long cut on the forehead and 5 stitches were stitched.

The wound on the face was fine, but the chin was swollen from the slap, and there were many soft tissue abrasions on the body. The doctor prescribed some topical medicine.

Sun Xiao said that the scar on his forehead was pulled by the steel needle that came out from the side of the tricycle. The doctor shook his head and prescribed another tetanus injection.

After settling everything back and forth, it was already three o'clock in the morning.

Sun Xiao was very quiet all the time, and tried his best to suppress the pain even when he was getting stitches. Ye Xiang held his hand, and could feel Sun Xiao's hand trembling unconsciously due to the pain.

Ye Xiang's heart was agitated.

He knew that Sun Xiao was most afraid of pain.

The delicate little prince always reacted greatly to bumps and bumps.

Gu Cheng is used to pampering him, and often when Sun Xiao is injured, Gu Cheng becomes more nervous.

He remembered that once the three of them went to the beach to play, Sun Xiao didn't pay attention to his feet when walking on the embankment, twisted his ankle, and the ankle swelled.There was no taxi there, so Gu Cheng carried him the whole way, two hours.

Ye Xiang proposed to take turns carrying, Gu Cheng shook his head, and lifted Sun Xiao up. "Xiaoxiao is not heavy, and will never be too heavy for a lifetime."

At that time, Ye Xiang rolled his eyes from the sidelines and said, please don't stuff the dog food, Sun Xiao giggled and buried her head in Gu Cheng's neck.

They walked along the beach all the way, and the moonlight shone in the water.

Ye Xiang felt at the time that if there was someone in this life who could walk through life with him like Sun Xiao and Gu Cheng, that would be a blessing from heaven.

At that moment, when Ye Xiang thought of it, he felt desolation and irony in his heart.

But he didn't expect more irony to follow.

Sun Xiao pulled a smile that was uglier than crying, "Ah Xiang, do you want to ask me what happened?"

Ye Xiang nodded.

"Gu Cheng did it."

Sun Xiao touched the gauze on his forehead and said softly, "We're done."

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The most painful love is nothing more than two people loving each other, but murdering love with their own hands.

One knife for you, one knife for me.

Blood spilled out and was riddled with holes.

It's okay, just a little more pain, do the cruelest thing, you can't not love, you can only hate.

"I can't bless him at all."

"I can't bless him to get married. I can't even bless him to be a father."

Before boarding the boat, Sun Xiao packed the photos of him and Gu Cheng and sent them to Gu Cheng's wife.

She seemed to have been frightened, and her fetus moved, so she went to the hospital for a miscarriage injection, and stayed in the hospital for two full days.

After his wife came out of the hospital, Gu Cheng waited at the door of Sun Xiao's house for several days.

The first time he saw Sun Xiao, he slapped Sun Xiao's face directly.

Gu Cheng has cared for Sun Xiao for ten years, holding it in the palm of his hand for fear of falling, and holding it in his mouth for fear of melting.

He was never willing to let him a little pain.Even every time I had sex, I patiently did every foreplay, asked him if it hurts countless times, took care of every corner of his body, treated him like a treasure from the tip of his hair to his toes, and finally hugged him gently.

It was the same with Gu Cheng, who slapped them away for ten years.

With all his strength, Sun Xiao staggered and fell backwards due to the force of inertia. His forehead directly rubbed against the tricycle parked by the side of the road, and a trickle of blood flowed down.

He asked him if he was crazy, why did he do this?

——Do you know that it will kill people?

——Can you grow up?Sun Xiao?

——Sun Xiao, can you be more mature?

——We have broken up, no one will wipe your ass behind you anymore!

Sun Xiao felt in a daze that the slap just now didn't hurt very much.

The few words he said later seemed to hold a few nails against his heart, and hit the nails with a hammer to chisel out the heart.

It hurts……