rest of life 22

When the new year was approaching, I went to the station to pick up Su Cheng who was rushing home.He is still the same, there is no trace of the years on his face, but his words are much less.I carried his bag and he carried his suitcase.After we settled down in the hotel, it was already 08:30 in the evening.We each ate a bowl of noodles, and then went to ktv to sing and drink together.

"Just the two of us?" I asked.Maybe, I think it would be too monotonous and deserted for two people to sing and drink.What's more, every time I went there in the past few years, there would always be a lot of people, men and women sitting together, extremely lively.So I knew it was his usual style.It was so abnormal for a moment that I couldn't help but think that it was because he was trying to accommodate me.

"Well, it's just the two of us. It's just the two of us!" He replied affirmatively. "The year is over, and many people have left home. Most of the remaining few have their own affairs, so don't bother me." He saw my doubts about his words, and continued to add.

"Oh! Alright." I nodded.

"It's been a long time since I sang, and it's been a long time since I've had a drink! I'd better relax today." He took a long breath and said.

"Okay! Then I will have fun with you tonight." I patted his shoulder with a smile and replied.

We asked for a small private room and a case of 24 bottles of beer.No cups, just hold the beer bottle and pour it to your mouth.

"Aren't you going to invite Dong Zi?" I asked.Because when we went in, we met her at the stairs on the second floor.She was as usual, with heavy makeup and a cigarette in her hand.I didn't recognize us for a while, I just walked on my own, but she recognized us first.She greeted us and told us the location of the private room by the way.I smiled and waved to her, but Su Cheng didn't say a word, just walked towards our private room on his own.

"No, you've also seen that I didn't pay attention to her at all just now. I don't like her more and more now!" Su Cheng shook his head and said.

"Oh? Haven't you guys been in touch for a long time? You're so straightforward. If it were me, I wouldn't be so heartless." I took a sip of my wine and said with a smile.

"Well, I haven't contacted her for a long time! If you don't like her, you just don't like her, so why bother to provoke her again." He replied like this.

I was a little surprised, because this was quite different from his usual behavior. At least from my perspective as an outsider, he was definitely a flirtatious person. "Maybe, he has really changed!" I stared at him, picked up the bottle and touched him, and said, "You have changed a lot when you come back this year!"

"Oh? What changed?" He asked suspiciously.

"A lot more realistic and mature. Why, do you want to get married?"

"I'm not in a hurry to get married. It's just that since last year, my family has been urging me to arrange a blind date for me." He shook his head with a smile and said. "I can only make excuses, and I even had a fight with my dad once, alas!"

"I understand the old man's thoughts! Let's explain it to them. By the way, you are so popular with women, why don't you bring one to your house, so that your parents can feel at ease, and I will no longer find you a blind date in the future." Already!"

I suggested.

"Until it's confirmed, I won't take anyone home casually." He shook his head and said.

We sat in the ktv for three hours, seldom sang, but drank more than ten bottles of wine.He frowned, looking like he was drinking away his worries.

"Zhang Jing and I were once about to talk about getting married. But once we made an appointment, I went to her school to find her, and it took me a whole day to get there. I was already very tired, but she He actually ignored me, and just said something on the phone, "I have a classmate who is graduating and is going to work. Let's see him off tonight. You can stay by yourself first!" Then, he went on his own. Then One night, they seemed to drink a lot of wine, and they went back to school very late. Until the next day at noon, I went to find her for lunch, and she asked me to wait until two o'clock in the afternoon, and finally she said 'I don't want to Eat, you go' was dismissed. It is difficult for you to imagine the anger in my heart at that time. The dissatisfaction and conflicts in the past all broke out at that moment. I stayed there for two days and stayed in the hotel. I was originally looking for her , but I haven’t seen her from the beginning to the end. It’s like being a clown, being teased by someone. That feeling is really uncomfortable! I was thinking at the time, maybe the two of us are not suitable, after all, I can’t do it I can't be bound by her unconditionally! So I left that day. I didn't tell her, and she didn't ask..."

He told me about it on our way back to the hotel.I was dumbfounded, because it was hard for me to imagine that she would be like this.I don't know how to evaluate myself, but if it were me, I couldn't stand it.I remember Zhao Han said, "When a man and a woman get along, we must pay attention to fairness." I don't quite agree with it, because the kind of "fairness" she said is difficult to calculate.After all, love cannot be quantified, not to mention that everyone has their own unique behaviors. Even in love, it is ultimately a process of two individuals "seeking common ground while reserving differences".I don't think "accommodation" can sustain love forever.At most, it is just a moment of relaxation, or the maintenance of specific social relationships such as marriage and family. "Fairness" is difficult to measure clearly, but a certain amount of "integrity" is necessary and must be possessed.And this should also be something that needs special attention in love.

"I hate the feeling of being let go! So, if it were me, I would probably make the same choice as you." I thought for a while and expressed my opinion. "Of course, everyone makes mistakes. This is undeniable. However, if you make mistakes all the time, so that you don't even realize your mistakes, or even mistakes. Then this is a personal problem! Unforgivable. So, always' Empathy' should be the ability that a person should have."

"Hmm! You are quite right. However, since the matter has passed, let it pass. As the saying goes, there is no grass in the end of the world, so there is no need to worry about gains and losses. Sigh!" He patted my face with a smile shoulder, said.

We talked a lot that night.The past, the present, and the future.I didn't fall asleep until it was almost dawn. "Perhaps, there won't be too many days to drink and brag like this in the future!" I suddenly thought in a half-dream and half-awake state.

It was also in this year that Liu Ming found a girlfriend, and Zhao Zijun went to graduate school.The three of us got together, eating hot pot and drinking white wine.Laughing and talking about the past, and planning the future.

"Damn, who knew that they were from the Hui nationality. They are not allowed to marry foreigners, and it is impossible for me to join the religion. This matter can only be left alone, and now that senior sister has a boyfriend He is short, black and thin, far worse than me. But he is Hui nationality. Alas!" After drinking, Zhao Zijun spoke unscrupulously and his voice was loud.He sighed and talked about another love affair in his college, which had no beginning and no end.People have to sigh, have to sigh that he is indeed a person whose love road is extremely bumpy, and the road ahead will only be a cliff.He is a rational person, so naturally he would not jump in.So, he is single so far.

"Let me tell you, I came back this year and had surgery. I just had nine nails pulled out the day before yesterday, and I feel better now! No, I have to lie to my girlfriend when I go back this year. Fighting for three hundred rounds, it's cool to think about it! Haha." Liu Ming still spoke the same way, but added some adult topics and some colorful content.His love affair has just begun, and as a senior old virgin, we know that he only dares to speak big words and dare not do big things.So, after he said these words, Zhao Zijun and I gave him a contemptuous look at the same time.

"Why, do you want to find some young ladies for you so that you can experience the fun of being an adult?" I asked maliciously.

"Ah? Miss sister, I like it! Come on, call me if you have the ability, and let you see the sharpness of my sword when it is drawn out of its sheath. It will brighten your eyes." Zhao Zijun used his usual weird tone, his eyes were shining looked at me and said.

"I think, before formally conquering my girlfriend, it's also necessary to exercise first!" Liu Ming replied in a serious manner.

That day, the three of us drank a bottle of liquor and a few bottles of beer.For those of us who can drink well, it is not too much.The three of us huddled together in a hotel, lying together, talking until dawn.Naturally, the young lady didn't call out. After all, the risk was too great. The three of them had no guts. Coupled with the tight pockets, a beautiful encounter ended before it even started.

"Don't worry, next year, I'll call you next year! I promise to let you experience the fun of becoming an adult." I pretended to promise, and of course, the promise is only limited to the promise.I can't do this kind of thing.

I pursued Wang Yuyin, but I failed.She is not good-looking, but she is very attractive.The figure is very good, 1.7 meters tall, the chest is not big, but the shape is very good.I have seen and kissed.Her lower abdomen is a little fleshy, and her buttocks are warped and soft.I've seen it all, and I've touched it.So, I fell in love with her completely.Not because of her good looks, nor because of her good figure.Of course, these are also indispensable factors.And the main reason why I like her is probably because I have liked her a long time ago!Four years ago, when she was my deskmate and was talking to me about things that were boring at the time.So, why didn't you decide to like it until this wasn't quite the right time?I asked myself this question in my heart.Perhaps, all of this needs a reason, an opportunity for love to germinate.And our trip is such an opportunity.

That night was very tormented.However, I finally survived.I didn't fall asleep, but I slept soundly, without any movement, and even my breathing was extremely steady, and I didn't even turn over all night.I turned sideways, facing her.In the dark night, he opened his eyes and looked at her.I can't see anything, but I can feel that she is there and I'm looking at her.It's like Christians are praying, just for the faith in their hearts.I'm only for the throbbing in my heart.

It was finally dawn.She slept deeply and soundly.She was still in the original position, lying flat, her eyes closed tightly, her small nose breathing gently.She hugged the quilt tightly until it reached the junction of her neck and jaw, tightly protecting her beautiful body under the quilt.I stared at her, at the person who was no longer dark, no longer empty.I suddenly thought, it seems that it is good to be able to look at her like this all the time.

She finally woke up, about two hours after I watched her.So, I met her eyes. "What do you see me doing?" She asked coquettishly in a voice that was almost coquettish with a hint of getting up.

"Look at you, just look at you!" I replied almost rascally.

"How long have you been watching?" she continued.

"Probably, one night, add half the morning!" I replied seriously.

"Oh! Then, look." She paused and said.Then, she started lying flat again.

"Turn around!" I demanded. "Otherwise I won't understand!"

"No, why don't you tell me to turn around? I'm tired of turning sideways, okay!" She kicked the quilt and said reproachfully.

"Then, if you don't turn, don't turn!" I didn't continue to ask.

So, I looked at her, and she stared at the roof.The room fell silent, a little eerie.

"I, can I hug you? Just through the quilt!" I finally broke the calm, tested, and summoned up the courage to ask.

"Tell me a reason!" she said, turning around, looking at me, and thinking again.

"If, if I say, because I liked you at a certain point in the past, I want to hug you. Is this reason okay?" I hesitated and said.

"Well, it's okay. Then come here!" She paused again, and then said very straightforwardly.

So, I hugged her.With a thick quilt.Neither of us spoke or moved.That day, I took her hand and went to climb Jilei Mountain.The mountain is very high, the mountain road is not steep, but it is very long.There is snow in the mountains, not thick, and the snow in the middle of the mountain road has almost disappeared.

"I think, this looks like a couple!" I took her hand and sighed. "Yesterday, it was awkward!" I added.

"Yesterday, what was wrong?" she asked.

"Yesterday, everything was awkward!" I replied.

So she rolled her eyes. "If you say it, it means you didn't say it, don't ask, hum!"

"Haha, compared to yesterday, I am still willing to hold your hand and climb the mountain together!" I said helplessly. "Shopping, too." I couldn't stand the way she rolled her eyes the most.

"That's it. Then, I'll hold it for you!" She smiled, took her hand from mine, and then solemnly put it in mine, saying.

We climbed for a long time, from noon until about five o'clock in the afternoon.I planned to go back that day, but I underestimated the height of the mountain.We talked a lot and I was never as chatty as I was that day.From my life to her life, from my growth history to her growth history, from my family to her family.

"I can't go back!" I said.

"Yeah, no going back!" she repeated.

I will always remember that night! And the beginning of all the good things was because of my little "cleanliness" and the bathroom frosted glass that was slightly see-through after being stained with water.

"Go take a shower!" I urged.

"Hmm...not going" she closed her eyes, said a long "hmm" in a coquettish voice, and then answered me two words, simply and neatly.

"I climbed the mountain all day today, and I'm full of dust. And I'm sweating all over my body. If I don't take a bath, I'm going to be rotten!"

I tirelessly told the reasons why I "must" take a bath, and continued to urge her to take a bath. A "bath," especially if a girl is "bathed," is always a dream come true.But in fact, I really have no other idea.

"Look, I don't even want to kiss you if you don't take a shower, wash your face and brush your teeth!" As if coaxing a child, I took out candies and showed patience.

"If you don't kiss, don't kiss!" She hummed, and continued to close her eyes, playing the role of "child" very well.

"Oh! Alright! You, silly girl." I said helplessly, a little discouraged.I lay next to her, staring at the ceiling with my eyes open. "Let's rest for a while and talk about it later, I have to let her take a bath and go to bed after washing." I thought.

Suddenly, she turned over and hugged me, and quickly kissed me.She kissed me on the mouth. "Then, if I kiss you, can I not take a bath?" She bargained.

"No, no!" I resolutely rejected her deal, "I don't even want to kiss you without brushing my teeth, okay?" I pretended to be calm, and used these calm words to conceal my surprise, I heartbeat.

"You still despise me, you are not allowed to hug me anymore! You are also not allowed to kiss me." She turned her head, continued to close her eyes, and said.

"Ah? Don't, why don't you wash it?" I finally came to my senses.And, in the end, under the tempting conditions she offered, she lost herself and betrayed her principles.

She lay undressed for an hour, and I stayed with her for an hour too.And she, after I broke my principles, went to take a bath after all.Most likely, she also felt that after a day of running around, she should clean her body.But the beginning of everything beautiful was actually because of one of her mistakes.Or, the matter of taking a bath itself is charming.And the mistake is just to expand the beauty.

"Well, I can't see it." She asked me to go into the bathroom, and through actual inspection, I verified that the bathroom was made of frosted glass. From the outside to the inside, only a vague figure could be seen. "However, then you are not allowed to look at it, turn your back!" she demanded.

"No, it's my freedom to see or not. What's more, I can't see anything." I retorted.

"Hmph! It's up to you, you can't see anything anyway." She raised the corners of her mouth and walked towards the bathroom while talking.

"If I can't see it, I'll watch it too." I shouted stiffly.

So, I did watch it.He opened his eyes wide, looking at the bathroom glass, which was blurry and couldn't even see the outline of the shadow clearly.I know that there is a beautiful girl inside, taking a bath.Suddenly, there was a sound of water, and after an exclamation of "ah", a stream of water sprayed on the bathroom glass facing my eyes.So, I actually saw it.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"It's okay, I turned it in the wrong direction just now, and the cold water came down. As a result, I dodged and sprinkled water on the glass." She replied.

"Oh..." I was silent for a while.He continued, "Well, I think I saw you taking a shower! What should I do?" I teased.

"I don't believe it, I've verified it." She said confidently.

"But, you spilled water on the glass just now, you can roughly see it now!" I said teasingly with a smile.

"Ah, are you serious?" she asked uncertainly.

"Of course, when did I tell a lie"

"Ah, turn your back and don't look."

"But, I've already seen it!"

"Then, don't read it now! Otherwise, I won't wash it."

"Okay, okay, I'm lying to you. Wash it quickly! It's a big deal, I'll just turn around." I greedily looked at the clear shadow, and turned around reluctantly.

She took a bath very quickly, or in other words, she took a bath faster than the legendary girls.It came out after a while.Look at her wet hair and her beautiful body wrapped in a towel.Suddenly I thought, "It might be nice to just look at her like this!"

"Just now, I seem to have really seen it!" I said with a smile.

"Really, you go to the bathroom and I'll take a look." She did the experiment again.Only this time, the glass was wet.

"Well... just look at it, anyway, I can't see it clearly." She said resignedly.

"Who says you can't see clearly, I can see clearly!" I teased her.

"Hmph! So what if you see clearly, I won't let you hug me anymore." She said angrily, and got into bed after speaking.

And I finally got up cheeky and got a small piece of land on her bed.

That night, we kissed.I forgot who started it.Too nervous, or, can't help it, as to let nature take its course.The eye-to-eye contact between men and women can easily lead to more intimate things.This is my conclusion.

That night, it was very hot, and we took off our clothes.I hugged her all night, and I also lay in a fixed position all night.She was on my arm, her face pressed against my chest.I didn't move at all, even if my arm was so sore and numb that I couldn't feel it. "Maybe, we should do something." I thought about it later. "At that time, why not do it?" I asked myself this question more than once. "Maybe, there is something between us!" I came to this conclusion.But what exactly is it?Or, it is morality, responsibility, cowardice, intolerance, and inner contradictions.Until I finally determined, "I, too slow!" But at this time, it was too late.

Until now, all of this seems like a lifetime away.