round spring

The evening wind of summer night blows on the eyes and heart, and the panic and fear can't be blown away.

──An Yuan's Diary

Shen Xingchun was indeed reluctant, reluctant to bear An Yuan's pain, and also hated to see him cry.

Another point, it starts from the fact that he asked Qi Yunfeng for a film during the Chinese New Year.

After Shen Xingchun returned to Beijing two years later, Qi Yunfeng asked him to have dinner at home on weekends, and immediately threw him a heavy bag after the meal.

That pocket was full of the films he had asked for from Qi Yunfeng before. Shen Xingchun watched a few of them by himself, but every time he watched the beginning, he couldn't watch it any longer. The two naked people in the picture were panting. He was not interested in the man who was kissing at the same time.

But Shen Xingchun was very sure that Xiao Yuan'er was also a man, he liked Xiao Yuan'er, and of course he liked Xiao Yuan'er's body, his own body reaction every time he faced Xiao Yuan'er could explain everything.

Watching the movies was nothing, until a month later he dug through things and found those discs.

Shen Xingchun counted the time of An Yuan's summer vacation, and tried to pick another one to read, but after he finished watching it, that picture floated in his mind for a long time, and he wasn't sure if someone really liked that kind of perverted blood. way, or just because the preparations in advance were not done well.

Because of the failed same-sex "popular science" disc, Shen Xingchun had several nightmares, in which he injured An Yuan and bled a lot.

An Yuan cried out in pain, his body was covered in blood, stained on his hands.

Shen Xingchun couldn't tell An Yuan about his dream, he couldn't bear An Yuan's pain.

They still didn't do it that night, and Shen Xingchun was afraid that An Yuan would feel uncomfortable the next day, but it seemed that the unhappiness last night never happened.

An Yuan was still the same as usual. After waking up, she slipped into his arms, hugged his neck twice, kissed his chin, and said, "Brother Chun, you've grown a beard again. I'll give it to you later." shave."

They were still next to each other during mealtimes. After breakfast, An Yuan sent him to school until he turned around and went back to catch up on sleep. After taking a shower at night, he would also ask him to apply body lotion.

"Brother," An Yuan came out of the bathroom barefoot, holding a bottle of white body lotion in his hand, sat on the edge of the bed and handed the body lotion to Shen Xingchun, "Recently my skin is a bit dry, brother, wipe it off for me. .”

After An Yuan finished speaking, she took off her pajamas, turned her back to him, stretched her hands behind her back, and used enough force to reach the position of her shoulder blades, "Brother Chun, please help me apply more."

An Yuan lowered his head, the back of his neck was slightly bent, Shen Xingchun looked at the white and thin skin on An Yuan's back, and the shoulder blades on both sides arched a little.

An Yuan only took off his shirt, and he was still wearing pajama pants. His pajama pants were very short. When he sat cross-legged on the bed, the hem of the pajama pants was pressed against the position of his thighs, and he could faintly see a little color inside. His shoulders The radians on both sides are tightened all the way down until the edge of the pajama pants stops.

Shen Xingchun took a look and reacted immediately, Xiao Yuan'er was facing him like this, if he didn't react, he would be abnormal.

But since that night, they've had nothing more than kisses.

Every time An Yuan finished kissing Shen Xingchun, she hugged his neck with both hands, lay on his shoulder with her eyes closed, yawned and said she was sleepy.

As soon as he said he was sleepy, Shen Xingchun would not continue, he lay down obediently, hugged An Yuan and turned off the light to sleep.

An Yuan has been with Geng Bai during the day for the past few days. Now Geng Bai has formed a band with his classmates. He is one of the lead singers. He has released two albums in the past two years, and now he has a little fame.

As the summer vacation approached, Geng Bai's band took on a lot of commercial performances. During the day, when Shen Xingchun left, An Yuan went to find Geng Bai after breakfast, followed their band to participate in activities, and helped them with logistics.

Every night he came back a little later than Shen Xingchun, but only a little later, as if he had timed it right, when he entered the door he was humming a little song, which was an original song by Geng Bai's band.

Although Shen Xingchun was quite familiar with Geng Bai, he hadn't really heard their band's song, but he felt that An Yuan hummed it very familiarly, but he couldn't remember where he heard it.

Shen Xingchun had been worried that An Yuan would be unhappy after that night, but looking at his current appearance, it didn't look like he was unhappy.But you could tell he was a little tired.

After An Yuan came back, he went to take a shower, sat on the sofa after washing, beat his calves and shoulders, told him how tired he was today, then hugged his arm and shared some interesting things during the day.

Shen Xingchun couldn't figure out whether An Yuan was happy or not.

He squeezed the bottle of body lotion, and when he heard An Yuan turning around and urging him, he recovered and opened the bottle cap. When he opened the bottle, he could smell a little milky and light fragrance, which was the same as the smell on An Yuan's body.

Shen Xingchun pinched the bottle, lowered his head and sniffed at the mouth of the bottle, "Yuan'er, what does your body milk smell like?"

An Yuan was already lying on the bed, with his face sideways on the pillow, and he closed his eyes and asked, "Brother, does it smell good?"

"It smells good, it's very fragrant, and it smells the same as yours."

"The bottle smells better, or do I smell better?" An Yuan asked again, with a soft smile in his voice.

Shen Xingchun's throat was tightened by his question, he squeezed the bottle and said, "You smell good."

An Yuan smiled with the corners of her mouth upturned, moved her neck, turned her head to the other side, and turned her head to Shen Xingchun: "It's rose fragrance, body lotion with this flavor is not very easy to buy, many women use it, the fragrance is too strong, It’s not suitable for me, this is what I’ve been looking for for a long time, it’s the same smell as the roses outside the summer yard of grandma’s house.”

Shen Xingchun held the bottle with one hand, and held An Yuan's hand with the other, and sniffed the inside of his arm: "This smell is not strong, it smells good."

An Yuan shook his hand at him and said, "Brother, help me paint quickly."

Shen Xingchun put down An Yuan's arm, said "um", picked up the bottle and squeezed it into the other hand.

There was still half a bottle of body lotion left. He squeezed it twice at first but couldn't squeeze it out. Then he squeezed a big lump out.

The texture of the lotion was thin, Shen Xingchun squeezed too much, and it flowed out along the palm of his hand, he quickly switched to holding it with two hands, and poured it on An Yuan's back.

The white liquid began to trickle down Anyuan's back to the sides again, and Shen Xingchun quickly spread out his palms to carefully apply the lotion on Anyuan. When the lotion was all applied, he followed the steps Anyuan said, starting from the back of the neck and going down Massage in circular motions.

The shoulders, the back, and finally the waist, and two arms.

This process was a bit difficult for Shen Xingchun, the more he wiped it, the more dry his mouth became.

An Yuan felt that it was almost done, so he turned over again, this time he didn't let Shen Xingchun wipe his chest, after he finished it, he rolled up the hem of his pajama pants, and poked Shen Xingchun's side waist with his toes.

"Brother, please help me paint my legs again, please paint my calves and thighs. You just massaged my back and it was so comfortable. I stood all day today and my legs are sore."

Shen Xingchun responded with a nasal voice, An Yuan put on her pajamas, found a comfortable position to lie down, and raised her legs to rest on Shen Xingchun's lap.

"Brother, let's start."

Shen Xingchun didn't move at first, holding An Yuan's ankles in his palms, he looked down at himself, feeling that this was really too tortured.

He looked at An Yuan again, An Yuan didn't respond, his eyes were closed as if he was asleep.

Shen Xingchun thought to himself, maybe he was really exhausted.

An Yuan didn't fall asleep, but kept her eyes closed. After waiting for a long time without any movement, she touched Shen Xingchun's thigh with her toes.

"Brother, if you don't paint it, I'm going to fall asleep."

Shen Xingchun held An Yuan's fidgeting toes in his palm, rubbed them together to prevent him from moving again.

He silently picked up the body lotion and began to paint An Yuan's legs.

An Yuan is too white, he grew up from a young age, the kind of white that can't be tanned no matter what, not only the upper body is white, but also the lower body, even the toes are white.

It is slightly dazzling white.

Shen Xingchun wiped him hastily, rolled him up to the bottom of his trousers and patted him down.

He tentatively asked, "It's so tiring to go out and play during the day."

An Yuan was really about to fall asleep this time, when she heard Shen Xingchun's voice, she moved her body and leaned towards him.

"That's right, brother Bai and his band really had a lot of things to do when they were performing. In fact, I didn't do much to help. I just helped pass water, fiddle with clothes, move things and so on. It's a little miscellaneous, so I came here I ran away, but it was fun, and the brothers in the band are very nice."

Shen Xingchun heard what An Yuan said, and asked again: "Who is in their band?"

An Yuan's throat dragged a bit nasally, and he raised his hand to count for Shen Xingchun, "There are five people in total, besides Brother Bai, there are four, Brother Xiao Ji, Brother Xiao Li, and one is a new acquaintance, but Younger than me, he has to call me brother..."

An Yuan was still counting, but Shen Xingchun interrupted him, "Wait a minute, Brother Xiao Ji? Why do I sound so familiar?"

An Yuan opened his eyes this time, put his hand on his forehead, looked at him and said: "That year you asked me to come to Beijing to play with you. I went to their school with Brother Bai. Brother Xiao Ji is a classmate of Brother Bai. , The songs I just learned were all written by him, aren't they very nice?"

After An Yuan finished speaking, he closed his eyes and hummed a few words vaguely. After humming, he smiled at Shen Xingchun and asked, "Brother, is it nice? Brother Xiao Ji also said that they don't have a performance on Friday, so they want to teach me Play the guitar……"

After An Yuan finished speaking, before Shen Xingchun could say anything later, he closed his eyelids again, put one hand on Shen Xingchun's waist, curled up and fell asleep.

Shen Xingchun waited until An Yuan fell asleep, then put a pillow under his neck, then pulled the quilt beside him to cover his stomach, and lay beside An Yuan, raised his hand to stroke An Yuan's wrinkled skin in his sleep. eyebrow.

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On Friday night, Shen Xingchun finished his work and didn't stay for a moment. He called An Yuan when he left the school, but there was no answer.

He called Geng Bai again, Geng Bai answered quickly, Shen Xingchun asked the address of their band's performance on the phone.

Shen Xingchun didn't call Geng Bai, and Geng Bai wanted to call him because An Yuan drank too much.

"Why did you drink too much?" Shen Xingchun asked.

"We had a dinner with the band in the evening, we all drank some wine, An Yuan drank a little too much," Geng Bai asked after finishing speaking, "Have you two had a fight recently?"

"No quarrel, what's the matter? He comes back every day happily, saying that he had a good time with you."

"Happy fart," Geng Bai felt that the two of them were not talking about the same person at all, "Xiaoyuan'er has been quite abnormal lately, she is out of her mind every day, with a sad face, and today she was almost smashed on the shoulder by the iron frame at the performance. Someone next to him gave him a hand, I thought you had a fight."

When Shen Xingchun arrived, there were not many people left in the private room. Brother Xiao Ji, whom An Yuan said was watching his mobile phone with his partner, greeted them one by one and went straight to An Yuan.

An Yuan sat on a single sofa in the innermost part of the private room, her eyes were red, her face was red, her neck was also red, her head was tilted back, her neck was slightly raised, and her small round Adam's apple moved.

"Xiao Yuan'er..." Shen Xingchun walked up to him, bent down and called him.

An Yuan didn't expect Shen Xingchun to come, and when he heard Shen Xingchun's voice calling him, he took a while to straighten his body, and when he was sure that it was really Shen Xingchun, he embraced Shen Xingchun with open arms, regardless of the other people around him. Lie on his chest and smiled, "Brother, why are you here?"

Shen Xingchun had just clearly seen the change in An Yuan's eyes when he looked at him. He was a little disbelieving at first, then he was a little hesitant after that little disbelief, and in the end he was not pretending to be happy, but it was still not enough to conceal the little sadness in his eyes.

It was only then that Shen Xingchun realized that there seemed to be something really wrong between them, and he felt it was necessary to have a talk with An Yuan, but now that An Yuan had drunk too much, she hugged his neck and refused to let go.

He patted An Yuan on the back, "I'm here to pick you up."

An Yuan lay on his chest and nodded, closed her eyes and sniffed.

Shen Xingchun didn't care about other people's comments and whispers to them, he hugged An Yuan in his arms, greeted Geng Bai and left the box.

The place where they had dinner was not too close to the place where they lived. After An Yuan came out, Shen Xingchun didn't hold him. He got off him and put his arm around him, saying that he wanted to scatter wine and didn't want to take a taxi.

Shen Xingchun led him back slowly, and when An Yuan was tired from walking, he stood there and rested for a while, but he really didn't want to leave, so he squatted on the side of the road and asked Shen Xingchun to carry him on his back.

An Yuan wanted to walk hand in hand, Shen Xingchun took him by the hand, and An Yuan asked him to carry him on the back, so he knelt down and carried him back.

An Yuan liked that Shen Xingchun carried him on his back, he could lie on his back with his eyes closed, when he drank too much when he was a child, it was Shen Xingchun who carried him home.

The smell of alcohol on An Yuan's body was a bit heavy, Shen Xingchun asked him: "Did you have a good time today?"

An Yuan smiled, rolled her eyes and said, "Happy."

"Why do you drink so much when you're happy?"

The evening wind in early summer is not as dry and hot as the daytime. It blows on the body and face, bringing a little coolness and comfort.

An Yuan closed her eyes, smelling the smell of Shen Xingchun's body in the summer night, and then slowly opened her mouth after a long time.

"Brother, it seems that after so many years, I have been used to your rejection. Now that we are together, sometimes I am still afraid, very, very afraid, afraid that one day you will tell me, Xiao Yuaner, I still don't seem to like men."

He paused and continued: "I can probably understand why you don't want to do it with me, or, you think, you should leave us a way out, but even if you leave me a way out, I don't want to go. "

After An Yuan finished speaking, she hugged Shen Xingchun's neck vigorously, her voice was trembling by the weak evening wind,

"But brother, you can go back on your word at any time, you can stop at any time..."