Mr. Incompetent Bodyguard

Shen Qingyu had never yelled at Ji Jin before, but this kind of thing really broke through his bottom line. He recalled in his mind what Xiao Yijie said that Ji Jin always liked to eat grass on the edge of the nest, and thought that Ji Jin might have done it to others Such a thing caused his anger to be ignited instantly.

"Do you know what you're doing?"

"What did I do?" Ji Jin was questioned a few times by him loudly. He got angry and yelled back even louder, "I called you and you didn't answer! I asked you to come back and you didn't answer! I want to do something now. No way? Are you going to break up with me?!"

Shen Qingyu froze for a moment when he heard the word break up.How could Ji Jin say these two words so easily?

"I didn't!" He tried his best to restrain his emotions, but he is not a clay bodhisattva, so the tone of the words inevitably became very aggressive, "Didn't I tell you that today is my first formal training day? It is impossible for me not to practice, and I will rush back as soon as I finish..."

"Why is it impossible? Training is not a competition. What will happen if you take half a day off? You obviously don't want to come back to see me!"

Shen Qingyu opened his mouth to speak, but after taking a breath of cold air, he suddenly couldn't speak.

This exchange made him feel irritable and pointless.He covered his forehead with his right hand, and wanted to tell Ji Jin that you should calm down first, and we will talk after you calm down, but he still remembered that such words cannot be said when Ji Jin is angry.

"Ah Jin." He changed to a more restrained way of saying, "I'm in a bit of a mess right now, let me sort it out myself, and I'll come back to you later, okay?"

He picked up the clothes that Ji Jin threw on the ground just now and was about to put them on, but Ji Jin rushed up to snatch the clothes and threw them away.

Ji Jin's chest heaved even more violently, and he stared fixedly at Shen Qingyu. Under the surface of anger was anxiety, and the essence of anxiety was fear: Why did Shen Qingyu always go along with him when he needed Shen Qingyu before? On call?Why is Shen Qingyu leaving now?Did he never come back after he left? ?

Countless thoughts crazily rushed into his mind, making him unable to form a complete language.He pushed Shen Qingyu hard, trying to push him back on the sofa, but refused to let him go.

Pushed by him, Shen Qingyu became furious, grabbed his wrists and tried to control him, but as soon as he exerted force, Ji Jin suddenly changed his face and screamed out in pain!

Shen Qingyu was startled, and immediately let go, only to see Ji Jin clutching his right wrist in pain and squatting down.

"What's wrong with you?" Shen Qingyu quickly bent down to check, "You...are you injured?" At first he thought that he had not restrained his strength and injured Ji Jin, but when he thought about his actions just now, he felt that it should be wrong As for that.

Ji Jin bit her lip hard, tears streaming down her face.From yesterday morning until now, he has been trying to endure, desperately endure, but the more he endured, the more anxious he became, and the more he endured, the more painful he became.He worked hard to contain his temper in front of outsiders, but when he saw Shen Qingyu, he couldn't help it.He regards Shen Qingyu as a safe haven, but now the safe haven won't let him anchor!

Shen Qingyu found Ji Jin's injury, but suddenly calmed down.

The dozens of missed calls in the afternoon, Ji Jin's abnormal tone on the phone, the messy home made by Ji Jin, and Ji Jin's various outrageous and unreasonable behaviors after he came back suddenly all came together, making him want to What did you get through.

——Ji Jin must have been stimulated outside to be like this.

——Ji Jin's anger was not aimed at himself.Or in other words, what is unreasonable is not his Xiaojin, but bipolar disorder, the illness itself.

These two cognitions instantly dissipated Shen Qingyu's anger.

Ji Jin wiped away tears, stood up and continued to push Shen Qingyu: "Aren't you my bodyguard? Why are you not there when I need you? You don't come back when I'm hurt! I beg you so, why are you Won't come back?"

He is stubbornly trapped in his own logic, unable to get out, and will not give up until he reaches his goal.This time Shen Qingyu didn't resist anymore, and was pushed back on the sofa by him.

When Ji Jin wanted to straddle up again, Shen Qingyu grabbed his elbow and looked at him gloomyly: "What do you want to do?"

Ji Jin didn't speak, and tried to fight Shen Qingyu over his own strength.

Shen Qingyu took a deep breath silently.He could not mind Ji Jin's past, but he didn't want to be just the object Ji Jin used to vent when he got emotional.

"Ji Jin, I asked you something, and you answered me—" he repeated hoarsely, "Do you want to have sex with me?"

Ji Jin roared loudly: "Yes!"

Shen Qingyu didn't compare his volume with him, and asked restrainedly: "Then do you love me?"

This question inexplicably made Ji Jin even more irritable.like?He put all his anxiety and irritability on the failure of his lover to satisfy him in time. He would rather not love himself, and probably it would not be so painful!

He stubbornly refused to answer and continued to struggle.Shen Qingyu couldn't bear it anymore, and pushed him onto his shoulder with all his strength.Ji Jin was suddenly picked up by him, before he recovered, Shen Qingyu had already carried him into the room and threw him on the soft bed.

Shen Qingyu opened the drawer of the bedside table and took out a bottle of oil from the cabinet—he just bought it yesterday.The reason why he didn't go through with Ji Jin a few days ago was because Ji Jin was about to go to a performance, and it was also because it was easy to get hurt if he wasn't prepared for this kind of thing.

But he didn't open the package right away, he just put the oil on the countertop, then bent down to control Ji Jin.The space on the bed was larger than that on the sofa, so he didn't grab Ji Jin's arm anymore, but directly restrained Ji Jin by pressing and hugging with his body weight, preventing him from kicking and beating him indiscriminately.

"Tell me, do you love me?" He also felt obsessed, insisting on getting the answer from Ji Jin who was ill.

Ji Jin didn't speak, he raised his neck and didn't know whether to kiss him or bite him, Shen Qingyu stood up, but he didn't want to bite him.The two confronted each other for a while, Ji Jin's neck was sore and he fell back on the bed.

"Speak!" Shen Qingyu stared at him with dark eyes, persuading, "Say it, and I will cooperate with you."

Ji Jin struggled for a long time, no matter the difference in weight or the unfamiliarity of anti-control skills, he couldn't move his body at all.The exhaustion of physical strength also made him gradually tired.Suddenly the corner of his mouth turned down, and he was about to cry again.

"Why do you insist on fighting against me? Follow me and you will die!" He yelled angrily and aggrieved.

Shen Qingyu was taken aback by his yelling, it was extremely absurd: Who is fighting against whom?Did Ji Jin feel wronged?This fucking is really... Where can he go to reason?

After a while, seeing Ji Jin's tears welling in his eyes, he became furious, grabbed the bottle that had just been placed on the table, and tore off the packaging as if venting: "Fuck... OK! You can do whatever you want So, I follow you!"

At the beginning, his actions were very rude, and after returning home, his mood was disturbed by Ji Jin, and he really didn't have such a good manner.Ji Jin also seemed to be afraid of his temper, gritting his teeth and refused to say a word that hurt.

It didn't take long for Shen Qingyu to gradually discover that although Ji Jin's attitude seemed to be [-], in fact, his performance was extremely rusty, and he definitely didn't look like he was experienced.

He couldn't help being extremely surprised: "You...are you uncomfortable?"

"Nonsense!" Ji Jin burst into tears.He was propped on the bed with his palms, the injury to his wrist made his arms weak from the pain, and he was about to fall on his side.Shen Qingyu found out, and quickly turned around for him.

"Woooo..." Ji Jin's goal was finally achieved, and his strong resistance finally softened.He covered his face with his hands and kept crying, "Why does it hurt so much!"

The anger in Shen Qingyu's heart was completely shattered—Xiao Yijie actually lied to him?He actually believed it!In an instant, only distress and annoyance remained in his heart, he held Ji Jin's sobbing face, and kept kissing away the tears from the corners of his eyes, his movements became extremely gentle.

Ji Jin cried so hard that he couldn't speak, and hugged Shen Qingyu's neck tightly.He wanted Shen Qingyu to hold him tighter, tighter.If he never separates like this, then the uneasiness in his heart can be dispelled.

……

I don't know how long it took, the room became quiet again, and there were only two quiet breathing sounds one after another.

Shen Qingyu hugged the person in his arms tenderly for a long time, then sat up with his body propped up.He looked down at his side, and saw that Ji Jin's skin became whiter and more translucent after sweating, and a few strands of half-wet hair on his forehead hung down to his eyebrows.His eyes were half-opened and half-closed, as if he was already very sleepy because of being too tired, but he didn't know why, his eyelashes were trembling, and he just refused to fall asleep.

"Can you still get up?" Shen Qingyu helped him brush away the broken hair on his face, his movements were very light, as if he was afraid that the person in front of him would shatter if he exerted too much force.

Ji Jin opened his eyelids, and there was still water vapor in his wet eyes.He glanced at Shen Qingyu and shook his head pitifully.After the irritability faded away, his whole body appeared extremely soft.

"I'm sorry..." Shen Qingyu's heart melted, he bent down and picked up his knees: "I'll take you to take a bath."

Ji Jin hooked his shoulder obediently.

After washing, Shen Qingyu carried Ji Jin back to the bed, and after putting him away, he got up and went out.He hadn't stepped out when he suddenly felt someone grabbing the hem of his clothes.He lowered his head and saw Ji Jin nervously reaching out from under the quilt to grab him.

He laughed and patted Ji Jin's head: "I'm going to get something."

Ji Jin refused to let go, and said hoarsely: "Don't go."

These three words were like a hammer hitting Shen Qingyu's heart hard, causing the blood vessels in his heart to constrict instantly.He bent down, kissed Ji Jin's soft lips, and said vaguely: "A Jin, I love you." He was no longer attached to the response he would get, anyway, at this moment, he just wanted to express his heart Let Ji Jin know.

Ji Jin was kissed by him for a while, and finally let go.

Soon, Shen Qingyu came back with a bottle of Thai boxing oil.He sat on the edge of the bed, fished out Ji Jin's right hand from the quilt, and checked: "Did you sprain your wrist? How did you hurt it?"

Ji Jin replied in a low voice: "I was attacked..."

"Attack? Who?" Shen Qingyu was taken aback.

"fan……"

Shen Qingyu was dumbfounded.He had seen the madness of illegitimate fans, and probably guessed what happened, so he frowned hard.

He poured the champion oil into the palm of his hand and rubbed it until his palm was hot, then he began to massage Ji Jin's wound.These athletes are more professional than doctors in dealing with such problems as bruises.After kneading for a while, he asked, "Do you feel hot?"

"Ah."

"King boxing oil is very effective for sprains. Don't play the piano these few days, and don't force your hands." Shen Qingyu stuffed his hands back into the quilt, "It will be fine after a few days."

Ji Jin was exhausted physically, and he didn't sleep much in the past few days, so he was already very sleepy now.But seeing that Shen Qingyu didn't seem to be planning to lie down, he grabbed Shen Qingyu's clothes again: "Don't go, sleep with me."

It's only past seven o'clock in the evening.Shen Qingyu's life has been extremely regular lately, he will get sleepy if he goes to bed late, and he can't fall asleep if he goes to bed early.What's more, he hasn't had dinner yet, and he hasn't called Zuo Fengrui yet.

But he still lay down next to Ji Jin, stroking Ji Jin's back: "Go to sleep."

Ji Jin finally closed his eyes with peace of mind.All the thorns on his body softened into fine hairs and spread out on the pillow.

Shen Qingyu stared at his lover with a heavy heart.

Ji Jin's morbid attachment is like heroin, sometimes it makes him addicted, but he knows that this addiction is harmful.Not only hurt him, but also hurt Ji Jin himself.Just like today's tossing, he was very tired, but he knew that Ji Jin should be even more tired.

After learning about Ji Jin's illness, he searched for a lot of information and consulted a doctor through his relationship.Mental illness is an organic disease. If you want to cure it, you need to start from both psychological and physical levels.On the one hand, patients should try to stay in a comfortable environment, be less stimulated, and maintain a peaceful mental state; on the other hand, patients need to regulate their bodies, the most common way is to take medicine, and maintain good living habits.It is not impossible to recover without taking medicine, but with Ji Jin's current situation, he obviously cannot meet the two conditions.

Shen Qingyu could understand that Ji Jin stopped taking the medicine privately.If there is any medicine that he will never be able to enter the ring again after taking it by himself, he will also throw the medicine into the trash can.But he wanted to persuade Ji Jin to see a doctor again.Change a hospital, change a doctor, maybe there will be a different treatment method?

It's just that he didn't mention this before, and now that he said it, he wasn't sure what Ji Jin would think.Ji Jin will definitely question whether he dislikes him, maybe doubt whether he loves him or not, or have other more radical thoughts...

Shen Qingyu couldn't make up his mind for a while.

After a while, Ji Jin's breathing became regular and quiet.After making sure that Ji Jin was asleep, he got out of bed lightly and went to make dinner for himself.

……

Early the next morning, Shen Qingyu opened his eyes sleepily, and found that Ji Jin was staring at him with big black eyes blinking.

Shen Qingyu is used to this scene.Ji Jin's sleep quality is too poor, either he can't fall asleep, or he can't wake up. Often when he opens his eyes, Ji Jin has already woken up for a long time, or he hasn't gotten up when he comes back after going out.

As usual, Shen Qingyu leaned forward and gave Ji Jin a good morning kiss. When he let go, he saw a layer of light pink floating on Ji Jin's skin, his eyes drooping, and his long eyelashes trembling slightly.

This seems to be... shy?

Shen Qingyu was stunned for a while, and then remembered what happened yesterday - his sleep quality was always excellent, and he forgot all the troubles after sleeping, and it was a brand new day when he opened his eyes.

He reached out and stroked Ji Jin's hair: "How are you feeling today?"

Ji Jin whispered, "It hurts a bit."

"Where does it hurt?"

"...what do you say?"

It took Shen Qingyu a while to realize what he was talking about. Thinking of yesterday's indulgence, his face couldn't help but feel a little hot.But he couldn't massage the place where it hurt, so he could only grab Ji Jin's hand and kiss it as comfort.

"You were too cruel yesterday..." Ji Jin complained softly.

Shen Qingyu couldn't laugh or cry when he beat him upside down.Who caused this?Who did the evil?

He got up and got out of bed.Ji Jin also sat up slowly, grinning when he moved.Shen Qingyu walked around to the other side of the bed: "Can you get out of bed? Do you want me to hug you and brush your teeth?"

Ji Jin was not so squeamish, blushed and shook his head, helped Shen Qingyu's arm to stand up, and walked to the bathroom with Shen Qingyu.

The two stood side by side in front of the mirror and brushed their teeth.Shen Qingyu looked at Ji Jin from the mirror, and after sleeping, he felt that Ji Jin's complexion was much better than yesterday.

And Ji Jin also looked at him from the mirror.

Ji Jin felt that there was a black hole in his chest. Ever since he met Shen Qingyu, Shen Qingyu had helped him fill this hole little by little. Last night, the relationship between the two of them got closer, and this hole was filled again.But this hole is bottomless, when will it be filled?He himself does not know.

After brushing his teeth, Ji Jin went to the entrance to check.He still remembers that he couldn't control his anxiety at home yesterday and made a mess in the house, but now the house has returned to its original state.Obviously Shen Qingyu cleaned it up last night.

Ji Jin stood in front of the clean entrance cabinet in a daze for a while, and when he turned around, he found Shen Qingyu standing behind him and looking at him.

Ji Jin wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say, the two looked at each other silently.

After a while, Ji Jin took the initiative to walk towards Shen Qingyu, and tentatively opened his arms to wrap around Shen Qingyu's waist.He was a little afraid that Shen Qingyu would push him away, but luckily Shen Qingyu didn't do that.

"I'm sorry..." Ji Jin recalled the incident of losing his temper with Shen Qingyu yesterday, and all kinds of uneasy emotions came to his heart again.He felt guilty and even more afraid, afraid that his various actions would push Shen Qingyu further away.

He felt as if he had fallen into a vicious circle, the more anxious he was, the more disturbed he would be.What should he do?

"It's okay." Shen Qingyu touched the back of his head, "As long as you apologize, I will forgive you."

Ji Jin's nose was sore, and he buried his face in Shen Qingyu's neck.

Shen Qingyu hugged him and persuaded: "Ah Jin, do you want to take less work?" Ji Jin's work is too hard, and he always needs to deal with people, which is really bad for his mental state.

Ji Jin said: "I haven't received much recently." Originally, there was a talent show variety show in July that invited him to be a mentor, and the salary was very generous, but he also asked Brother Zhao to help him turn it down.Of course, his original intention was not for the illness.He didn't want to be so busy, and hoped to spend more time with Shen Qingyu.

Once hugged, he didn't want to let go, Ji Jin asked in a low voice, "Can you stay with me at home today?" Unlike yesterday's arrogance, his attitude at this moment is cautious, for fear of annoying Shen Qingyu.

Shen Qingyu didn't say anything.

Today is Saturday, and his training task today is physical training.However, the task on Saturday will be relatively light, and only half a day of training is required.

He held Ji Jin's face, looked into Ji Jin's eyes seriously, and discussed in a friendly voice: "Ah Jin, I have to go to the club for training, but I will be back early today. I will be back at noon, can you wait for me at home?" ?”

Hearing this answer, Ji Jin couldn't help frowning and looked away.

Shen Qingyu turned his face and forced him to look at him: "When I come back, I want to take you somewhere."

Ji Jin blurted out: "Where?"

"I'll take you to the hospital." Shen Qingyu said, "Look at my dad."