Willing to go astray

At nine o'clock the next night, Shi Luo came to the dormitory on time.

Qi Yue had already fallen asleep, and Ding Ran was sitting at the table waiting for him.

"Just say it here?" Shi Luo looked at Qi Yue.

"It's okay, he won't wake up." Ding Ran pointed to the chair next to him, motioning for Shi Luo to sit down.

"What did you do, Brother Qi?" Shi Luo felt uneasy.

Ding Ran lowered his eyes indifferently, "I didn't do anything."

"Brother Qi won't go to bed so early."

"Schloe, is this what you want to talk to me about?"

"Of course not." Shi Luo nodded slightly, and sat down after weighing the pros and cons, discussing the important matters.

Shi Luo thought for a while and decided to clear up the doubts of the past few days, "Did anything happen between you and Brother Qi that night?"

"Shi Luo," Ding Ran frowned, "this is not what we want to talk about."

"I know, but I must know about this!" Shi Luo pondered, "Ding Ran, what exactly do you want to do?"

Ding Ran sneered, "What you need to know is what did Qi Yue do to me?!"

"Brother Qi is quite careless, so I don't necessarily believe what he believes." Shi Luo looked at him calmly, "Besides, I can see that you don't hate him as much as you seem on the surface."

Shiluo paused, and said seriously, "Ding Ran, you like Brother Qi."

"Where did you see that I like him?" Ding Ran snorted coldly, his eyes gradually becoming vicious, "I wish I could tear him apart!"

Shi Luo didn't seem to see Ding Ran's expression, and his emotions were still calm, "You call Brother Qi's name every night after you go to bed."

"Impossible." Ding Ran's face began to fluctuate, and he calmed down again in an instant, "So what, isn't it normal that I hate him so much that I want to kill him in my dream?"

"Back then, drunken sex hadn't happened yet, so why did you hate him?" Shi Luo keenly grasped this loophole, looked directly at Ding Ran, and forced him to tell the truth.

Ding Ran was at a loss for words, and suddenly shouted, "Shi Luo, you care too much!"

"Because this is not your business alone, look at what Brother Qi looks like now." Shi Luo took a deep breath, "Why did you do this?"

Ding Ran turned his head and looked at Qi Yue in a daze, suddenly speechless.He has seen this face for more than ten years. It has been more than ten years since he was young.It's been too long, so long that this person has been deeply engraved in his heart, and he can keenly observe every slight change in him.But he has to do this, a lifetime is so long, how can he make him remember his whole life if he doesn't do this? !

"It doesn't matter, it's only these few months anyway." Ding Ran murmured.

"What did you say?" The voice was too low for Shi Luo to hear clearly.

Ding Ran withdrew his gaze, looked at Shi Luo indifferently, and suddenly smiled softly, "Ask anything you want to know, I'll tell you."

Shi Luo was stunned for a moment, suddenly he didn't know where to ask, Ding Ran had lived with him for a year, but now he couldn't see through him at all.

"You tell me, I'll listen."

"also."

Ding Ran thought for a while and said slowly, "I have known him for 14 years. When we first met, he was six years old and I was six years old."

"Wait, what did you... say?" Shi Luo raised his head in astonishment, his eyes full of disbelief.

"I said I'm 480 and six years old." Ding Ran smiled softly, with an unnoticeable sadness in his smile. He seemed to have guessed that Shi Luo would have such a stunned expression, and after a short pause, he was unhurried Slowly continued.

"I am a fairy fox. The fairy fox will go through a thunder disaster in the first 500 years, but mine was ahead of schedule. Fortunately, nothing happened, and I successfully transformed into a human form."

Ding Ran remembered very clearly that after the catastrophe that day, he was curious about his appearance. Although he was very tired, he squatted by the stream happily and kept looking into the water.

At that moment he heard someone shouting behind him, "Child, who are you?"

He turned around curiously, and saw a little boy running towards him, panting, his head covered in ashes.

Xiaopingtou took his hand and asked him with a smile, "I'm Qi Yue, you can call me Brother Qi."

As he spoke, he rubbed his head, a little embarrassed, "You look really good-looking, are you Ding Ran from the next village?"

The thoughtless words just hit the heart of the little fairy fox who had just formed a human form, he nodded lightly, and responded with a nah.

In fact, his name is not Ding Ran, his name has already been recorded in the fairy fox book, his name is Yasu.

But what does it matter, since then he has used the name Ding Ran in the world for 14 years.

Little Dingran and little Qiyue quickly warmed up, and they made an appointment by the stream for the whole summer vacation, and then went to play together.

Until one day in late August, there was heavy rain and thunder and lightning.Little Ding Ran was waiting for Qi Yue by the stream. While waiting, he saw a child in white clothes floating over from the upper reaches of the stream. The child was very delicate, and his appearance was somewhat similar to his, but his figure was illusory. It is a ray of soul.

Little Qiyue thought of the teachings of the Fox King and Fox Queen that one should not intervene in human life and death without authorization, so she didn't dare to pay attention to it, but just stared blankly at the soul drifting away and disappeared.

He didn't wait for Qi Yue that day.

In the next ten days, he didn't wait for him.

When he was a little fox, he liked to wander around the world, so he gradually realized that Qi Yue might be going to school.There are several elementary schools in that small town, and he searched all over before finding him in a first-grade classroom named Musong Elementary School.

He walked over and took his hand, and asked anxiously, "Brother Qi, why...why didn't you tell me you went to school?"

That was the first time he was forgotten by Qiyue, and little Qiyue said, "Who are you?"

Xiao Dingran was stunned, and looked at him stupidly, his eyes filled with moisture.

Xiao Qiyue took his hand like the first time, and asked softly, "Are you a new transfer student? You look so good-looking."

When he said that, those bright black eyes hid shyness, but they also shone brightly.

Under those words, Xiao Dingran became good friends with Xiao Qiyue again, and quickly found an identity to stay there.

This is the first time, there is bound to be a second, third, or even more, forgotten.

This period of friendship gradually reached the graduation of elementary school, and Xiao Dingran followed all the way to junior high school.On the day of the report, Ding Ran was waiting for Qi Yue at the door of the classroom. When he saw him coming out of the classroom, he immediately walked over and called him, "Let's go back together."

Qi Yue scratched the nondescript hair on her head, showing a puzzled expression, "Are you talking to me?"

Ding Ran blinked, and suddenly became uneasy, "...um."

"you know me?"

"Brother Qi, don't you know me? We met yesterday." Ding Ran was so anxious that he was about to cry.

Qiyue racked her brains for a while, and suddenly realized, "Oh, that's right, we met at the canteen yesterday, right! You are a relative of my neighbor's family! I didn't expect you to go to school here, what a coincidence!"

"I'm not, my name is... Ding Ran, brother Qi, are you kidding me?" At that moment, Ding Ran seemed to realize something, maybe he couldn't believe it so he didn't dare to take it seriously.

It wasn't until this scene happened again in the second year that Ding Ran really accepted this fact——Qi Yue forgot him again.

The forgetting was far more violent than Ding Ran imagined. At first it was a year, then half a year, and then it gradually turned into a month, half a month, and finally Ding Ran was always faced with strange eyes.

What makes Ding Ran even more sad is that, at this stage where men and women are separated, friends who share the same taste, and play games and basketball online, Ding Ran has gradually been isolated from Qi Yue's innermost circle of friends.

All animals love their masters. Although Qi Yue is not Ding Ran's master, he has already regarded him as his own private property for so many years. His possessive desire has gradually intensified in the endless indifference, and finally developed to the point of being out of control. the point.

And this kind of exclusive desire accumulated into love year after year, and then was washed into hate by jealousy day after day.The deeper the love, the fiercer the hate.

It can be said that Qi Yue has been Ding Ran's only center of gravity these years. It is conceivable how the shift of the center of gravity has hit Ding Ran, and Qi Yue's good popularity undoubtedly added fuel to Ding Ran's sadness. The closer he is to others, the more glaring his disregard for himself.And time, the time when there is no hope in sight, makes this despair even more palpitating.Under the stimulation of not being able to love, Ding Ran became more and more silent, his personality became more and more distorted, and his desire to take everything for himself became stronger and stronger.

After listening to this story, Shi Luo was too heavy to speak. What made him more uncomfortable than the story itself was the strong unwillingness and despair revealed in Ding Ran's tone. No one can imagine that the person he loves will never face him. How scary it is to have unfamiliar eyes, and the acquaintance in the past undoubtedly cast a hot blow on the current indifference.After all, it is even more difficult to give up once you have it.

Shi Luo was still puzzled, "Why does Brother Qi remember you now?"

Ding Ran clenched his palms tightly, his eyes gradually became sharper, forgetting, how could he make him forget forever? !

"The previous elder Qing Ming was imprisoned in the forbidden cave of our fairy fox clan. I made a deal with him. He gave Qi Yue the ability to remember me..."

Shi Luo interrupted him abruptly, with an anxious expression on his face, "What did you give him in exchange?"

"Irrelevant things." Ding Ran raised his eyes and showed a relaxed smile.

His intuition told Shi Luo that things were not that simple, but Ding Ran obviously didn't intend to tell him the truth, and he might not be able to find anything if he asked.I had to turn to ask, "So you are doing this now to get revenge on Brother Qi?"

"Of course." Ding Ran suddenly stood up and walked around the room, "You said that if he knew that I was responsible for all the failures in his love affairs these years, and that the drunken sex this time was also directed by me. It's a good show, do you think he will hate me, will he suffer like me!"

At the end, Ding Ran couldn't help laughing, the humble hope and the unignorable sadness were all buried in this smile.If Shi Luo were to describe Ding Ran at this time, it would be like a gambler who knows that the bet will lose but still can't help but bet his life again.

"Why did you tell me this? Aren't you worried that I'll tell Brother Qi right away?" Shi Luo frowned.

"Wouldn't it be nice to have one more person to share my pain? And you won't say it." Since he dared to tell Shi Luo these things, he was sure he wouldn't say it, "Because you understand my pain, compared to Brother Qi , I make you feel even more unbearable."

Shi Luo was silent for a moment, then suddenly said, "What did you exchange with Qing Ming? Is it..."

Before he could say the word life, Ding Ran interrupted him lightly, "You guessed wrong, my life is not so worthless."

Shi Luo pursed his lips tightly and said no more, Ding Ran continued on his own, "I need your help in more than a month."

"My help?"

Ding Ran made a fool of himself, "You will know when the time comes."

Shi Luo had mixed feelings in his heart, "Ding Ran, I won't help you. You're right, I really can't bear it. But I can't just sit and watch you hurt Brother Qi. Since Brother Qi can remember you now , why don't you get along with him in another way?"

"Remember?" Ding Ran snorted mockingly, another way?How long can he remember himself then?

"Isn't it good to let him hate me? The more he hates me, the more he will never forget me. It's better for him to hate me for a lifetime, then he won't be able to get rid of me in this lifetime!"

The ferocious joy on Ding Ran's face made Shi Luo feel chills all over his body. He couldn't tell whether he mostly loved or hated Brother Qi.At this time, Ding Ran didn't make him feel scared, but just sad, cold to the bone.

"Shi Luo, even if you intervene, you can't change anything. Having sex after drinking is fake, but once it is exposed, I have the ability to make it real. If you have been married to my family, you will have the ability to live forever. You said that if Brother Qi finds out that he is immortal one day, will he regard himself as a monster?"

Shi Luo's complexion changed drastically, and he calmed down after taking a few deep breaths. Ding Ran's failure to do so this time showed that he still couldn't bear it, so these words were probably said on purpose.Ding Ran was right, he couldn't stop him.

"Even so, I won't help you."

Ding Ran smiled and said firmly, "You will help me."

Before Shi Luo asked the reason, Ding Ran suddenly changed the subject and said, "You...why do you like Ye Fan?"

Shi Luo was taken aback, thought for a while and answered seriously, "He treats me very well."

Ding Ran seemed to be contemplating, with a very indifferent expression. After a long time, he suddenly stood up and raised the corner of his mouth at Shi Luo, "This is the end of today's talk."

Shi Luo hummed lightly, didn't stay any longer, opened the door and walked out.

Ding Ran then walked to Qiyue's bed and squatted down, staring fixedly at the sleeping person on the bed, gently tracing his eyebrows and eyes with his fingers, his eyes were pure and beautiful, suddenly, like a child who was ignorant many years ago .

Suddenly, Ding Ran clutched his chest and coughed heavily, the fishy-sweet smell in his mouth became stronger and stronger, and the dark red blood finally couldn't restrain himself from spilling out.Ding Ran laughed mockingly, wiped the blood from the corner of his lips with his fingers, and returned to his bed and lay down as if nothing had happened.

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