Thoughts

Saying goodbye to Mu Dongchen on the platform, Shen Duanrui looked in the direction of his departure for a while, then looked away, turned and walked to the company.

It has been more than half a month since Mu Dongchen asked that question that night, and during this period, the two of them resolutely did not bring up this topic, as if it had never happened.

"Duanduan, what do you think when you say you like me?"

After Mu Dongchen said this, before Shen Duanrui recovered from his surprise and organized his words, he immediately stood up, said that he was a little tired and wanted to rest early, then turned around and walked to the guest room and closed the door, leaving Shen Duanrui in vain. Sitting alone on the sofa, the speed was so fast that he wondered if he had an auditory hallucination.

At night, Shen Duanrui tossed and turned sleepless because of these words, but the next day Mu Dongchen was just like usual, without any sign of asking this question.Shen Duanrui thought, maybe he really heard it wrong.

Although he explained it to himself in this way, Shen Duanrui still felt faintly in his heart that this was not the case for more than half a month.

In a blink of an eye, Mu Dongchen has already been intern for more than two months, and the internship period stipulated by the school will end in less than half a month.Shen Duanrui asked Mu Dongchen what his plans were in the future, Mu Dongchen thought about it, and replied: "I think the company I practiced at is not bad, and the other party also intends to sign me. If there is no better choice, I think I will stay in the company. This company. But I don’t know if Xiaoqian is willing to come with me, if she doesn’t want to or wants to go to other cities, I can follow her too.”

For one person, choose a city.

Mu Dongchen, you really like her.

Shen Duanrui thought, if Mu Dongchen is willing, he will follow him, no matter which city it is, even if it is the ends of the earth.

Mu Dongchen went back on the eve of school opening.And that day, Shen Duanrui was at work.

Originally, Shen Duanrui wanted to ask for leave to send him off, but Mu Dongchen refused in every possible way, so Shen Duanrui had no choice but to give up.Thinking that it will take a long time and maybe never see each other again, Shen Duanrui feels that he can't calm down and can't continue his work.

In the end, Shen Duanrui still asked for leave, quietly followed Mu Dongchen to the station, watched him get on the train, and then left from the overcrowded station.

The moment Mu Dongchen left, Shen Duanrui suddenly had a feeling that he would never see Mu Dongchen again in his life, and panic covered him like a tide, making him unable to breathe, as if he would die like this.He squatted on the ground, clutching his chest and gasping for breath.The passers-by around glanced at him, their sympathy and worries were pushed to the back of their minds by the busy life, and after a slight pause in their footsteps, they resumed their original speed and walked towards the north and south, without a trace.

It took a while for Shen Duanrui to feel better. He thought that he was so weak that he would be tortured to the point of death by such thoughts.

"He didn't belong to me in the first place, even if we could meet, it wouldn't change anything."

Yes, Mu Dongchen never belonged to him, not even for a second.The second that Mu Dongchen's girlfriend named Xiaoqian can possess and squander at will, is something he cannot get even if he spends his whole life.

So, if you can't see each other, maybe it really doesn't matter.

Anyway, nothing will change.

After Mu Dongchen left, Shen Duanrui returned to the school dormitory.He was the only one in the empty dormitory, and Zhao Cheng and the other three were still doing internships in other places and did not come back.After running the water and electricity and cleaning the sanitation briefly, Shen Duanrui lay on the bed to rest.

The two lived together for three months, and suddenly one person was missing. Although they had returned to the state they had before Mu Dongchen came, they still felt frighteningly empty, and they couldn't stay alone.The kitchen, the bathroom, the living room, the balcony, Mu Dongchen is everywhere, and every time he sees a place, he will think of Mu Dongchen.And in his home alone, even if the sound of the TV and stereo is turned up to the maximum, it cannot erase the loneliness and tranquility of Mu Dongchen's absence, so he simply returns to the dormitory. Stop thinking about the bits and pieces of their life together.What's more, it's closer to work here.

One day after the National Day holiday, Shen Duanrui received a call from Mu Mu. It was rare to see that the person on the other end of the phone asked him to go out for a drink.When Shen Duanrui arrived at the address given by Mu Mu, the other party had already drunk almost a dozen drinks.

Sitting down beside him, Shen Duanrui asked the boss to get some wine, without asking anything, and drank with Mu Mu.

Mu Mu usually says what he wants to say without talking too much, and if he doesn't want to say, no matter how much he asks, he can't open his mouth.Since he asked him to drink, Shen Duanrui should just accompany him.The rest will be handed over to the other party.

After a long time, after the other party drank another five or six bottles, Mu Mu finally spoke.

"Duanduan, Li Ming has decided to go abroad, while I am studying in China for graduate school."

After taking another sip of wine, Mu Mu played with the bottle, "Actually, I have had this kind of awareness for a long time, but it will inevitably hurt the spring and the autumn." He hooked the corners of his mouth, "Li Ming used to say She might go abroad, but at the same time, she is also preparing for graduate school in China. If she can guarantee the graduate school, she might not go there. We both said that we would fight for the same school. But in the end, we both secured it. In the end, she gave up and decided to go abroad.”

Mu Mu put down the wine bottle, leaned on the back of the chair, and looked up at the gate not far away, "I've always known that she was vacillating between going to graduate school and going abroad, and I didn't want to interfere with her decision, after all, it was her. life, all I can do is to support her no matter what she decides. We made an appointment to be together. She only went abroad for one year, one year, not a long time, is it? I Believe in her, and also believe in myself, we agreed to wait for each other and we will definitely do it." He paused, then sighed softly, "However, even though my reason tells me so, but emotionally There is still sadness and worry.”

Shen Duanrui pursed her lips and listened silently.Mu Mu and Li Ming are a couple that he has seen since high school. How sweet and loving they are can be seen by just looking at their aura without being told by others.The two have already discussed the decision, and it is useless for others to say more.As the person concerned, what Mumu needs is just the listening of others.For Mu Mu, being able to pull him to drink is already the greatest expression of emotion, how can the usual Mu Mu look so depressed and frustrated.

With a chuckle, Mu Mu said mockingly: "I just realized that I have no confidence." After speaking, he took a sip of wine.

Shen Duanrui tapped the body of the bottle lightly with his index finger, and said with a sigh of admiration: "You two, it's always possible."

What's wrong?Both are loyal to love, both believe in each other, and both are willing to work together for each other's future, so no matter how long the time is, no matter how far the distance is, it will not be a problem.

No, it is always weak-willed and never hopeful.

If Mu Dongchen chooses her city, then no matter how willing she is to move her city with him or even give it up, the result will not change in any way—it will always be zero possibility.

And this kind of result, from the day Mu Dongchen left, every day passed, the possibility in Shen Duanrui's heart became more and more likely, and finally it basically turned into reality.

Mu Mu said he didn't have confidence, Shen Duanrui thought, he was the one who really lacked confidence, from the day he fell in love with Mu Dongchen, all his confidence disappeared without a trace, and the only thing left was trembling like walking on thin ice.

Mu Mu is not a person who leaks emotions. It is not easy to show Shen Duanrui's fragility by talking so much with Shen Duanrui.So after he let out the breath buried in his heart and relaxed a lot, he returned to the usual calm and reliable Mumu.Shen Duanrui knew from the frequency of his drinking and frowning that this man was fine.

After the recovered person took a sip of the wine, he turned his attention to the listener.

"What's your plan, Toddler?" he asked.

"If there is a chance, maybe I will continue to work in the internship place. If not, I will switch to other companies. Generally speaking, it is not a problem for our major to find a job." Shen Duanrui is not too worried about work. He believes that gold will always shine, not to mention that there is a relatively large demand for their professional talents in the market, so it is not a problem to find a job.

"What I'm talking about is..." Mu Mu wanted to say something, but he didn't continue in the middle of the sentence, and asked something else: "Does Dongchen plan to develop in N City?"

"I don't know, maybe. But he also said that the company he practiced before was quite satisfied with him and offered him an olive branch, but he didn't know if he would go." After all, he said that he would like to go of the city to go.

"If he returns to this city, he can see each other often, and he won't be too unfamiliar." Mu Mu nodded, "If he is in N City, we can only get together during the New Year and holidays." Like Thinking of something, Mu Mu knocked on the table, "But Li Ming and I probably won't see you all after graduation. She is abroad and I am in City Z. I don't know what Xia Mian is planning. If she also goes In other places, the few of us really get together less and leave more, and you two are the only ones who can see each other often."

"After all, everyone has their own choices..." Shen Duanrui responded.

At the crossroads of life, the partners who are walking together go their separate ways and move on in different directions. This is the normal state of life.No matter how much you miss and don't give up, you can only keep your head down and move on, after all, you can't stay where you are.Everyone has their own way, and there is no other way but to move forward.

Although everyone has their own road, Shen Duanrui hopes to extend the distance between now and the fork in the road leading to the five of them, and then extend it a little, so that the five of them, him and Mu Dongchen can spend more time together.

This is his biggest wish right now.