most infatuated young

After Yin Riyue returned to N City, she wanted to rush back to Xinjiang immediately, but it happened to be in time for the quarterly internal review, so she was delayed.After Zuo Bin heard about him, he was overwhelmed and sighed, "Qin Feng is such an idiot. If someone loved me as much as you love him, I would have followed. What does it matter if it's a man or a woman?"

Yin Riyue laughed at him: "Can you handle women?"

Zuo Bin thought about it seriously, and finally shook his head: "It can't be hard."

Yin Riyue sighed, "He can't treat me either."

"But didn't you say that he didn't feel disgusted when you hugged and kissed him? Didn't you have sex before?"

"That's different, he's all drunk and has no memory. He's sick."

Zuo Bin patted Yin Riyue heavily: "I said you, but you are not frank enough. I told him that it would be over? Afraid of this and that, isn't long-term pain better than short-term pain? If you want to give up completely, don't Talk to him again, if he has something to do, why are you so anxious!"

Yin Riyue smiled wryly, he had cared about him for so many years, and Qin Feng had grown up in his flesh and blood, so could he just ignore it?It's just that he no longer has illusions about love.

Late that night, he received a call from Qin Feng. He seemed to have been drunk, and in a slightly aggrieved and cautious tone, he said that Cheng Wenxian had broken up with him, and he had no place to live, so he could live again. Do you take him in?

After watching it for so long, we all knew in our hearts that Yin Riyue could not refuse, but he also didn't want to face him hopelessly anymore. He was not afraid that he would vomit blood because of internal injuries, but he was afraid that he would not be able to hold back and face him Qin Feng used force.So he said: "Why bother to see outsiders, you just move back, do you still have the key?"

Qin Feng seemed relieved, and hurriedly responded, "Yes, yes, I will move back tomorrow."

On the other hand, Yin Riyue booked the air ticket that night, and after explaining to the hospital early the next day, he returned to Xinjiang and asked to extend the support plan for half a year.

When we didn't know what kind of mentality Qin Feng had when he rushed to Yin Riyue's house, he didn't see Yin Riyue who greeted him with a smile at the door. He once thought that he would definitely be there.Qin Feng hugged the pot of lotus peony, feeling very disappointed.

The room was still the same as it was when he left. He felt the familiar warmth and suddenly felt sad.He tidied everything up, opened the door of Yin Riyue's room, there was still a faint aroma of milk, the room was as clean and tidy as before, but the photos that were usually placed on the table disappeared, leaving only empty photo frames.

He went to look in his own room again, and saw two pillows on the bed at a glance. Qin Feng couldn't help pursing his lips and smiling slightly. This time he remembered it, and gave him two back, so he won't have any pillows himself. ?

Qin Feng looked at the time and felt that it was almost time for Yin Riyue to get off work, so he cooked some of his favorite dishes and planned to have a good talk with him.But after waiting for a long time, he didn't come back, so he couldn't help calling, but the phone was turned off.Qin Feng thought, maybe another operation.

He waited for another two hours and still turned off the phone.So I went straight to the hospital.

The hospital was already off work, and there were only doctors and nurses on duty, none of whom he was familiar with was there. When I asked people, they all said that Dr. Yin was on a business trip. When asked where he was on a business trip, they couldn't tell clearly, it seemed to be Xinjiang.

Qin Feng secretly smiled, how could it be possible, he usually travels on business, that is, wandering around in N city, either Beijing, Shanghai, or Xinjiang?I also went to Tibet!

While dialing the phone, he strolled back home slowly. Finally, after making more than a dozen calls, someone answered the phone.Qin Feng didn't expect that at that moment, his heart seemed to jump out, and his tone was unconsciously filled with excitement: "Ming, where have you been? I'm waiting for you to go home for dinner!"

"I'm out of town, I can't go back, you can eat by yourself."

"Then when will you come back? Shall I pick you up?"

Yin Riyue paused: "Do you have anything to do?"

"Ah? It's all right."

"Oh, someone called me, I'll hang up first."

Qin Feng didn't expect that he hung up as soon as he said it, and stared at the phone blankly for a long time, as if he suddenly remembered something, hurriedly called again, and the other side only picked up after it rang for a long time.

"Amin, where are you? Where have you been on a business trip? How long have you been there?"

Yin Riyue's voice came from thousands of miles away: "Xinjiang, one and a half years."

Qin Feng only felt that the one thing he wanted to say the most was "Do you want me anymore", but after opening his mouth for a long time, he couldn't say anything. "Before my uncle passed away, I called you, and you said that you were in other places, and you were also in Xinjiang?"

"Ah."

Qin Feng felt that he was so stupid that he never asked him.

Yin Riyue asked again: "Is there anything else?"

"Ah, yes, yes. The flowers we bought are blooming, and the pot of lotus peonies is very, very beautiful. I thought, I wanted to show you. You have been away for so long, and when you come back, it all falls."

"Oh, there will be chances in the future. You take care of yourself, is there anything else?"

"I... I... I'm gone, so take care of yourself."

It turned out that this was what Yin Riyue meant by "I'm leaving".It turned out that he wanted that from now on, the two of them would go their separate ways and become strangers in the end.

Qin Feng only felt that there was a big hole in his heart, it was empty, but he felt suffocated, what is this?It hasn't started yet, is it about to end?Is this retribution?Come to think of it, when he called Yin Riyue and said he moved back, what kind of mentality did he report?Even on the phone, you have to get drunk?

He thought: Let's not fall in love, let's just be friends like this, as before, anyway, you are not getting married, and I don't have a girlfriend anymore, so let's try to see if we can be together, and if it doesn't work, let's talk.Now that I think about it, how dirty this kind of thinking is!Colin was right. I couldn't give him the response he wanted, but I wanted to occupy his love.

He always thought that Yin Riyue would never leave him, that he would always stand behind him and smile at him, he was so determined.After he had gotten used to it, Yin Riyue turned around and left, only then did he realize that those hugs, touches, and even kisses in the past had already been imprinted in his heart, making him very nostalgic.

The dishes on the table were already cold. In the past, Yin Riyue always lay lazily on the sofa. Qin Feng called him in the dining room, but he didn't move. Like a kitten, lead him to the dining room.It turns out that eating alone is so deserted and lonely.

Qin Feng hugged the two pillows back to Yin Riyue's bed, and buried himself in them. He hugged a pillow like Yin Riyue did, smelling the milky fragrance on it, as if the one he hugged was that person.Could it be that when Yin Riyue was like this, she was also thinking about someone?Is that person me?

What Cheng Wenxian said, Yin Riyue did not refute it, but accepted it.In other words, on this bed, they made love.He already knew that two men could also do it, but he just wanted to use it... Yin Riyue, a clean freak, how could...?

Why did he hurt Yin Riyue so much that he had to lie on the bed for three days?Why didn't you call him directly when you returned to N City?Why procrastinate these days?

The image of Yin Riyue was in the whole mind, and the smell of Yin Riyue was in the whole room, Qin Feng became shamefully hard.And when he clearly realized that the object of his sexual fantasy was Yin Riyue, he could only smile wryly.Wrapped in the quilt, he stroked it a few times, and became more impatient, so he simply went to the bathroom.

The bathtub was illuminated with soft light, and he immediately remembered that it was the place where he helped Yin Riyue hand silver for the first time.Yin Riyue still had a plaster cast on one leg, and her soft and white body was lying there, with an indescribable temptation.The wide open legs, the heavy panting, and the misty look in his eyes looking at Qin Fengli are all so alluring.

Qin Feng didn't need to imagine too much, the one in his hand shot happily.To be honest, he hadn't tasted such a hearty buffet for a long time, and he once thought that he was impotent at a young age, wouldn't this be killing people!

Perhaps the desire of the flesh is the most honest, it instinctively reflects what you want, without thinking, worrying, or escaping.The fact that Yin Riyue left made him terrified. He didn't care if it was love or not, he didn't care what the result of going out was, he just thought it was hot in his head, and now he only wanted him to come back.Qin Feng hurriedly took a shower, ran back to call Yin Riyue without even drying himself.The phone rang several times before it was picked up.

"Ming, Amin! I have something to tell you."

"Well, let's talk."

"Amin, how did you and Colin... get together?"

Yin Riyue was slightly surprised: "Why are you asking this?"

"I just want to know, tell me, okay? Did he chase you?"

"Well, it's the past, there's nothing to say, what's the matter with you?"

"The past? Then you broke up? But a while ago you still—"

"We broke up after he graduated. What are you asking him to do? Did he trouble you?"

Qin Feng was suddenly very nervous, his heart was beating violently, and even he could hear the voice: "No. Since you broke up, can I...can I try it? I can try it, let's try it, shall we? good?"

At that time, Yin Riyue was sitting in front of that kind of old-fashioned desk, and when she heard this, she stood up abruptly, without even feeling her knee hitting the edge of the desk: "What nonsense are you talking about?"

"I'm not talking nonsense, really, let's try, if we succeed, we're still brothers, I can do it, really!"

Qin Feng only felt a wave of supreme anger coming from the air, and Yin Riyue didn't need to speak, but he really felt it.This is not an exaggeration at all. Have you ever tried that the person you care about the most can feel the mood of the other person even over the phone?

Yin Riyue's depressive deep breathing and brief silence made Qin Feng flustered. He felt that he had never been so angry before. Qin Feng almost forgot what he said just now. He only knew that he was really angry. "Ming, Amin, what, I..."

Yin Riyue's cold voice came clearly: "Qin Feng, there are some things you can try, and some things you can't. Homosexuality is not a novelty or fun. Try it if you want. You're just a lost love. You don't need to give up on yourself like this. If it's because of me, I can ask Cheng Wenxian to explain it clearly. In addition, some things can be said, some things can't be said, I don't want those, you don't have to wrong yourself to accommodate. "

Qin Feng was completely panicked. When Yin Riyue was fighting against him when he was young, he could only cry, but now Yin Riyue is so restrained and extremely unfeeling. Now Qin Feng is almost not sure whether Yin Riyue treats him differently. It's different, how gentle and tolerant she was before, now how cold and repulsive she is.

This feeling of worrying about gains and losses caused Qin Feng to panic, "No, no, don't try it, don't try it, don't be angry, don't be angry, just pretend I didn't say it, don't be angry."

"Qin Feng, I'm sorry, I still caused you trouble. I'll call Cheng Wenxian tomorrow, or do you prefer to reconcile with Ke Lin?"

Qin Feng suddenly felt sad, either wronged or sad, "Ming, Ah Ming, stop talking, stop talking, don't talk to me like that, I, I feel uncomfortable."

Yin Riyue calmed down a bit. He originally felt that there was nothing to be sad about. It was just a love affair of more than ten years that had no fruit. He didn't hope for it at first, and it didn't come to fruition in the end, so he wasn't disappointed.Now Qin Feng's every word is stabbed in the heart like a knife, he really wants to pull him over and beat him up.

However, the anxiety in Qin Feng's words and the fear of offending him made Yin Riyue's heart soften instantly, and he couldn't help but think of his original heart, he wanted him to "be safe and happy, never sad".The vows he made when he was a boy were pure and arrogant, but in today's adult society, they seem so tender and false, but after all, the vows have supported him for many years and countless sleepless nights, it is like a This kind of inertia, a kind of instinct, has been engraved and lingered in the days and nights, lingering and lingering.

Qin Feng said that he felt uncomfortable, so why not himself.Qin Feng is the flesh and blood that grows in his heart. He can't cut it off, he can't let it go, and if there is a slight disturbance, it will affect his whole body. He thought, probably in this life, he is destined to be eaten to death by Qin Feng. He said: "Okay, okay, I'm not angry, don't get into the horns, don't do stupid things. It's late, go to bed."

Qin Feng seemed relieved: "Oh, well, don't be angry, take care of yourself and eat on time."

"Ah."