The cold goddess always wants to bend me

She remembered very clearly that outside the emergency room, the doctor took off his mask and said with a serious face, "Which one of you is Gu Mingxi, go see the patient for the last time."

She was frightened by the "last side" that the doctor said, and was about to go in staggeringly, but was stopped by the doctor and nurse, who said to her: "I'm sorry, the patient said that he only saw Gu Mingxi, and the rest were gone. Who are you?" It was Gu Mingxi who hurried in, it was too late, and he couldn't even see him for the last time."

So she and her father stayed outside the emergency room, and no one went in until Gu Mingxi came out crying, slapped her father, and said bitterly: "I will never let you go, you wait for me to be ruined. "

Then she left without looking back. She still doesn't know what her mother's last words were, but later Gu Mingxi took her to her residence and took care of her meticulously, but she was taking care of herself day after day Amid the guilt and guilt, I can't extricate myself.

"I haven't seen my mother for the last time, and I don't know her last words. I think she must hate me and my father."

"After my mother's funeral was dealt with, I went back to school. After seeing Shu Yixin again, I couldn't face her even more. Sometimes I thought, if only she hadn't given me that letter, or she never It would be fine if I didn’t fall in love with me, and it would be fine if I never met her, and after Shu Yixin knew that my mother passed away, she was more gentle to me. She tolerated all my bad emotions, and it was this unconditional tolerance that made me I couldn't face her even more, and I was more painful in the guilt and self-blame day after day, so I simply took a long vacation to hide from her. It was at that time that something happened that I regret until now, which completely changed my relationship with her. Her relationship completely changed me and her."

Wei Zhi was lying on the bed, looking up at the ceiling, his dark pupils couldn't see the focal length, and the memory in his mind seemed to return to that night again.

That day, when Gu Mingxi came back from the company, he said to her as soon as he entered the door: "There is a girl downstairs who said she wanted to look for you. She seemed to have been standing there for a long time. I wanted to bring her up, but she didn't want to. Do you want to go down and have a look?"

She was in a trance at that time, unable to sleep all day and all night, and her complexion was terrible. The more Shu Yixin didn't give up, the more she couldn't let herself go. Her mother and the brother or sister who had never met each other Night will appear in her dreams, cry to her, blame her, resent her, call her pervert, call her disgusting.

Shu Yixin's constant entanglement will not move her, on the contrary, it will only remind her of the crimes she has committed over and over again. This sense of guilt is like a sharp knife in her heart, and it will fall off at any time, like a judgment. She is late.

Sometimes she even began to have doubts about her feelings. She felt that she didn't really like Shu Yixin. Everything was an illusion. She didn't kill her mother and unborn brother or sister just because she liked girls. , everything is a misunderstanding, the mother misunderstood, she also misunderstood, she is normal, she is not abnormal, nor disgusting.

Gu Mingxi naturally saw that she was abnormal at that time, even though Gu Mingxi himself did not come out at that time, he still tried to solve her. Wei Zhi has been close to her since he was a child, and this person is the best person to her besides his mother , and Gu Mingxi had a girlfriend before, if it was her, can she be forgiven?

At that time, she desperately wanted someone's understanding, no matter who it was, so she told all the things, thinking that with Gu Mingxi's love for her, she would lead her out of the predicament, and she could regain the person who loved her, But Gu Mingxi's reaction was completely different from her expectations. She was no longer gentle, nor smiled at her, and even looked at her with deep resentment. That night Gu Mingxi said the most vicious words to her.

"You, like your father, shouldn't exist in this world. Get lost and never let me see you."

Wei Zhi was thrown into hell directly, and asked her in a daze, "Why? Why do you even treat me like this? Obviously you like women too."

Gu Mingxi didn't answer her, but grabbed her arm roughly and drove her out of the door. Tears stained the makeup on her face. Gu Mingxi no longer had the usual elegance and composure. In those always smiling eyes, there was only a deep-seated smile. hatred.

Wei Zhi didn't know how she left, she just felt that the whole world was plunged into darkness, and then she saw Shu Yixin who was guarding downstairs.

She ignored her, wandered aimlessly on the road, and she didn't know how long she had been walking, but felt that the surrounding environment was getting quieter and quieter, she was afraid of the quietness, she was afraid that her mother's voice would suddenly come out, accusing her, cursing she.

It was very late, and there was no one on the street. Occasionally, a few stray cats shuttled in the alley by the roadside, rummaged around the edge of the trash can, and when they heard someone approaching with a fish bone in their mouth, they jumped a few times nimbly. disappeared.

Wei Zhi looked at the figures of those stray cats disappearing in the darkness, and suddenly felt that she was no different from those homeless stray cats. She smiled bitterly twice, and then felt that the corner of her clothes was being grabbed by someone, she turned around , Seeing a weak person, the slightly red and swollen eyes were full of worry, at that moment, her heart was poked suddenly, and instantly softened, she really seemed to hold her and cry in her arms one game.

She thought, she should be the only person in this world who still likes her!

But soon, the mother's voice reappeared in her mind, and there was also the baby's crying faintly. They came to her again, and she grabbed her head that was about to split and hummed in pain, tears dripping fall.

"What's wrong with you?" Shu Yixin frowned, trying to take off Wei Zhi's scalp scratching hand, "Don't do this, come home with me, I will take good care of you."

Family?

Where does she have a home?

She threw people away a little funny, looking at the person in front of her who seemed to have walked out of a fairy tale world, she was still beautiful and could not find a single flaw, and her weak facial features still made her want to protect them, but everything was It's different, there is no possibility between them anymore.

Suddenly, a vicious thought popped into her mind, if she was pulled into her own hell, wouldn't she stop pestering her?

"Do you like me that much?"

"Yes, I like you very much." Shu Yixin grabbed her hand and tried to show a sincere smile.

Her voice is still so beautiful, as soft as a feather, and childish, it's easy to soften people's hearts.

Wei Zhi's heart was indeed softened, and she paused when she was about to speak, she shook her off again a little irritatedly, and said, "It's too late, you go back, don't follow me."

The smile on Shu Yixin's face disappeared, tears rolled down, she stepped forward, hugged her arm and said, "Why? You obviously like me too, why can't you accept me?"

"I don't like you." She looked up at the street lamp above her head, forced back the tears in her eyes, made up her mind, and threw it away again, Shu Yixin didn't stand still, fell to the ground, her tender knees were broken, The blood flowed out, which was extremely dazzling compared with the surrounding white skin.

Wei Zhi resisted the urge to help Shu Yixin up, and said cruelly: "I don't like women at all, if it weren't for your letter, how could my mother not think about it, if it wasn't for you, my mother must still be alive now, how could I like you, I hate you for being too late."

Shu Yixin obviously didn't know about these messy things, and Wei Zhi didn't intend to tell her, she just wanted her to give up and stop pestering her, she was going to be overwhelmed by the guilt in her heart, she really didn't want to see it again she is gone.

"What do you mean? Why do you say that?"

"Is your mother's death related to me?"

"Wei Zhi, tell me."

Shu Yixin's voice was flustered, and regardless of the pain in her knee, she stood up and wanted to ask Wei Zhi for clarification.But at this time, Wei Zhi obviously didn't want to explain more, and this was her family matter, she didn't want to tell others.

"Just know that I will never like you, and I will never want to see you again."

Shu Yixin's fair little face lost its color in an instant, and her face was full of disbelief.

Wei Zhi no longer dared to look at her tear-filled eyes. The sadness and sadness revealed there made her feel like a bastard. She made up her mind, turned around, and left.

The girl behind her was still crying, her crying sounded helpless in this silent night, she gritted her teeth and quickened her pace, and fled quickly, but this time Shu Yixin didn't follow.

That night, she didn't know how far she had walked, she just kept walking, as if something bad would happen if she stopped, she didn't know where she was going, until the phone rang for the first time Come.

She stopped, looked blankly at the unfamiliar surroundings, took out her mobile phone slowly, and then, she was taken home by Uncle Zhou, and they invited a psychiatrist to enlighten her, during which time she received calls and messages from Shu Yixin , but she didn't reply until a month later, she received her last message.

At that time, she had no idea what that message meant.