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Meng Yinan didn't sleep well that night.

I was having strange dreams, dreaming of many fragments of his childhood, but sometimes I felt that it was not a dream at all, but a subconscious memory.

He seemed to be awake, but he closed his eyes and wandered off, thinking about the past and the past.

When Meng Yinan was three years old, he actually lived a happy life.

His memory is not very clear, but he only remembers that Meng Du often came to hug him, talked to him gently, and gently shook Meng Yinan's arm, making Meng Yinan laugh non-stop.

In addition, there are some clips of taking Meng Yinan to the amusement park to eat ice cream, but the impression is not very deep.

When Meng Yinan grew up, he couldn't tell whether those dreams were real or fabricated dreams. When he was hurt, he felt that it would be too outrageous if it was a dream, so he didn't want to think about it, and he didn't believe that Meng Du would treat him. good time.

But thinking about it later, maybe there was such an experience, and Meng Du should have really treated him well.

Because children are always more sensitive, people who really don't like themselves and hate themselves can be distinguished.

When Meng Yinan was five or six years old, he frequently begged Meng Du for his father's love, but later his expectations fell through, and after a series of things happened, the more he thought about it, the more he felt that Meng Du could not have loved him, so he didn't think about it carefully. logic before and after.

Then came the time when Meng Yinan was five or six years old.

At that time, he had not suffered any harm like other children, and he was small, ignorant, and couldn't tell good from bad. The only strange thing was that Meng Du would find various Alphas or Betas he didn't know to come to his house to have sex/love this one piece.

It might not be appropriate to talk about home. When Meng Yinan followed Meng Du, there was no place that could be called "home", so let's call it residence.

At that time, Meng Du often took some people to do things in the residence, and sometimes he would get a sum of money when he was done, and use that money to take Meng Yinan to a good meal, instead of picking up the leftovers like usual.

But later Meng Yinan found out that Meng Du had deliberately waited for Meng Yinan to do it when he came home from school. Let him watch those scenes, and Meng Yinan felt sick, and he never had any so-called big meals with Meng Du after that.

The next fragment of memory is the two years when Meng Yinan was seven or eight years old.

When he was in primary school, there was a quarrel over something, and Meng Yinan broke out as if he couldn't bear it, saying why he hated me so much, why he did those dirty things at home, and why he wanted me to see him. .

I don't know which sentence hit Meng Du, and Meng Du suddenly became furious, saying that Meng Yinan had to eat, drink, and go to school to live so well, and that he didn't spend any money. That's how all the money came from. Nan felt that he was doing dirty things with others. Isn't Meng Yinan who grew up with this money dirty?

In the memory clip, Meng Yinan huddled beside the bed, crying in the gap between the bed and the wall, seeing Meng Du's ferocious face when he lost his temper, he didn't look like a docile Omega at all.

Meng Du seemed to be very angry, and he couldn't reach Meng Yinan in the gap, so he poked Meng Yinan with a piece of cracked plastic clothes hanger, beat him, and said that since he felt dirty, you still eat mine and use mine , why not die.

But after saying these words, Meng Du knelt on the ground and cried. He knelt on his stomach, his head lowered to the ground, and when he gasped, his body heaved slightly, as if kowtowing to someone.Looking helpless, Meng Yinan was scared and at a loss.

After that day, Meng Du changed his previous stance and said that he would never be aggressive with Meng Yinan again, but wanted him to grow his hair.

Meng Yinan didn't think boys should have long hair, and was very resistant, but Meng Du couldn't hold back his posture getting lower and lower, almost coaxing and begging.

Meng Yinan was soft-hearted but not tough, and couldn't stand Meng Du begging him. He was very soft-hearted, and in the end he kept it. He thought it was just hair. If he could live a peaceful life without quarrels, that would be great.

But he soon found out that he was wrong.

After less than a year of peace, Meng Yinan discovered that the Alphas and Betas brought by Meng Du had taken a fancy to him, and some even made a move, saying that Meng Yinan looked like an Omega without differentiation, but compared to those Omega , Meng Yinan is small and cute, a mini Omega.

Meng Yinan was good-looking when she was a child, but those people would not be so unscrupulous before growing long hair.Maybe because Meng Yinan was young, at that time he was mostly teasing and laughing, and no one really hit him.

But probably from then on, Meng Yinan's heart began to turn cold.

He gradually realized that Meng Du had never really loved him, or felt that his adoptive son had lowered his low standard of living, and wanted Meng Yinan to use dirty means to earn money like him, and then supplement the family.

But no matter which one, Meng Yinan has been suffering for a long time, not understanding what he did wrong, and hating why Meng Du didn't love him, why he acquiesced to those dirty people to harass him.

Then came the age of ten.

It was also in that year that Meng Yinan felt completely chilled.

When he came home from school one day, he was suddenly pressed on the sofa by someone hiding behind the door, who rubbed his neck with beard stubble full of alcohol.

Meng Yinan felt terrified and disgusted at the time, but somehow remained calm. It seemed that he had been molested many times, and it was not surprising that someone would actually come forward.

Perhaps Meng Yinan was indeed born to be an Alpha, stronger than his peers, and he finally had some advantages in his life with a low luck value. The person who forced him that day was a Beta, and there was another Ceramic fruit bowl.

Meng Yinan always remembered the feeling and muffled sound of the plate breaking into the flesh, how angry and chilling he was, and how desperate he was, he was a little wolf who would bite people to death, and finally managed to protect himself.

After that day, Meng Yinan learned to fight.

After Meng Yinan grew his hair, Meng Du really didn't hit him again, so Meng Yinan never cut it.

But not beating or scolding does not mean that Meng Du has become better. One day, he suddenly discovered that Meng Yinan was ten years old and was about to enter the puberty stage. In a few years, he would reach the age of differentiation, so he changed his way of action and started Try to instill in Meng Yinan the goodness of being an Omega.

But after finding out that Meng Yinan could fight, he was more gentle with Meng Yinan, not too harsh.

Therefore, after Meng Yinan was ten years old, he and Meng Du had a relatively peaceful relationship.

After that, Meng Yinan grew up, and Meng Du didn't know how to hook up with rich people, so he stopped bringing people back to do it. Later, the two rarely had direct conflicts.

But Meng Yinan always hated Meng Du for bringing those people home, and ignored their ill intentions towards Meng Yinan, so in those few years he began to imprison himself, his attitude became bad, and he was extremely indifferent to Meng Du.

And no matter what you do, you start from the perspective of opposing Meng Du. Every time you do something, you think about what Meng Du will think and say. If you feel that you can get angry with Meng Du, Meng Yinan will regard it as a small victory for yourself.

In this way, until Meng Yinan was 14 years old, Meng Du's show operation basically turned into a trivial matter in daily life, and the young Meng Yinan repeatedly learned that his existence was meaningless and was never given priority.

During that period, something happened that directly led to Meng Yinan's difficult division.

Since the average age of differentiation is between 16 and 14 years old, Meng Du probably felt that the best time to intervene in gender was at the age of [-], so he frequently bought strange medicines for Meng Yinan to use.

At first, he lied to Meng Yinan that it was a health product, saying that he was about to decompose, and it was a kind of protection for the glands, and there would be no harm in taking it.

Meng Yinan was a little taken aback when he heard it at first, but he quickly saw through Meng Du's thoughts, and then saw that he threw the medicine bottle once.

Seeing that he was unmoved, Meng Du thought of a dirty trick, which was to inject Omega pheromone and differentiation-promoting injections into Meng Yinan's undeveloped glands.

Meng Yinan thought about it later and felt that Meng Du was really crazy. He dared to do such a thing, but he failed. Meng Yinan woke up right after the injection started. Later, there was a lot of conflict, and Meng Yinan almost got involved. hit him.

……

After that, the intersection between the two gradually decreased, and even under the same roof, they basically avoided it and couldn't see each other.

Then it was 15 years old to Meng Yinan.

Before the autumn when Meng Yinan was 15 years old, it seemed that nothing significant happened that needed to be remembered.

Looking back carefully, he himself felt that the first half of the year was uneventful.

But thinking about it later, it is probably because a major event in his life will happen next, which is the biggest turning point in his life, so comparing the two, everything before it becomes less important.

At the end of the summer of that year, he went to a strange city called Lincheng and lived in a stranger's house.

If I have to say, nothing good happened in this city at the beginning.

Meng Du found a rich family, but he was still vain and hypocritical, unilaterally pretending to be a good father, which was even more suffocating than the life of not talking to each other during the Cold War, which annoyed Meng Yinan to death.

Meng Yinan transferred to a rubbish class, was bullied by childishness, was splashed with water, and was thrown with chalk dust. At that time, he felt that such low-level behaviors were no longer filmed in TV dramas, and he was speechless.

And the weather in this city seemed to be against Meng Yinan.

That year, the autumn tiger in Lincheng was not very powerful. It was only hot for a few days in September and then the temperature dropped rapidly. It rained every day in early October, and it was much colder than in previous years. It was so cold that even people wearing long sleeves shivered.

So at first, Meng Yinan didn't think this was a good place at all.

To put it bluntly, he went from a poor and unhappy place to a rich and unhappy place, except for some stinky money that was still inseparable from Mengdu, nothing seemed to have changed.

Meng Yinan is extremely incompetent, unable to leave the person who wants to leave, and cannot get the freedom he needs.

But it was that rather freezing autumn, in this city that he didn't feel very good at first, and even in the rain that made him drenched all over his head and face, he met his good luck.

I still remember that the rain was very thin that day. It was obviously not heavy, but it didn't take a while to drench the whole person.

Meng Yinan was also a little unlucky that day. He was bullied by his classmates, and he came back from outside pitifully, shivering from the cold.

But just as he arrived at the door of Mu's house, he noticed that the lights seemed to be on upstairs.

The warm lights spread out in the misty rain, turning into a mass of soft light, like a flickering fire.

Meng Yinan raised his head, squinted his eyes, and suddenly felt that it was so warm there.

Then, in the fine rain and fog that filled the sky, I saw someone walking to the window and standing in the radiance.

At that time, he didn't know that this person who looked a little indifferent and silently looked down on him would treat him very well in the future.

It will be his brother.