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Cui Zhannan hung up the phone resolutely, holding the thin and frivolous mobile phone tightly in his palm, as if he wanted to deform it.He took several deep breaths before gradually relieving the dull pain in his chest. Originally, his eyes were darkened, but it was only now that he gradually became clear.

Cui Zhannan sat back in the driver's seat tiredly, raised his hand and pinched the bridge of his nose.

He didn't expect to see Shu Jianlin again.

They were still underage children when they met.On the first day of high school, he noticed Shu Jianlin sitting in the last row.

Shu Jianlin looks very handsome.

He is an art student, and he always has half-length hair. He looks like a proper literary youth when he sits there, and he looks... a bit indisputable.If it wasn't for his protruding Adam's apple and flat chest that reveal his masculinity, Cui Zhannan might really have thought it was a taller girl.

Shu Jianlin's personality is different from his cheerful and lively temperament.The two of them were the two tallest boys in the class at the time, so naturally they both sat in the last row, and they were still at the same table.They are both extroverts, so it's easy to play together.

At that time, Cui Zhannan hadn't opened up to men, and his love life was at most starting or ending relationships with different girls.

But Shu Jianlin, he is a natural.He fell in love with Cui Zhannan at first sight.So being friends and buddies with him also has a purpose.

Shu Jianlin knows how to move people's hearts.Cui Zhannan had no resistance to his beauty, so he was easily hooked up by Shu Jianlin later on.

Shu Jianlin was the first person Cui Zhannan was enlightened by, and also the first boyfriend in his life, the first man he ever had... the first man.

Shu Jianlin has a cheerful personality, knows a lot of friends, and loves art. He is the kind of child who is not a good baby at first glance.But in fact, he takes feelings very seriously.

Cui Zhannan felt that the two and a half years he talked with Shu Jianlin was the most experiential love he had ever had in his 28 years of life, and it was even more unforgettable than his first love at the age of 12.

It was an innocent, carefree time.He no longer lingers on starting similar relationships with different girls, it seems that only Shu Jianlin is in his world.They play basketball together, swim together, eat at roadside stalls together, and skateboard together on the square.

They held hands in the sunset and kissed in the summer breeze.And Shu Jianlin also gave him a very novel sex/love experience.On the night of his birthday, when they were 32 days away from breaking up, he took possession of Shu Jianlin in a room filled with the sweet aroma of cream cake.

At that time, he thought about the word "a lifetime". He felt that Shu Jianlin was the one he loved the most in his life. He thought that he was the one who could accompany and support him for a lifetime.But then, everything changed.

Cui Zhannan never thought that their separation would be for that reason.For more than two years, they resisted the eyes of the world, and resisted the obstruction and pressure of Cui Zhannan's family.They made their troubles known to everyone, but they still held each other's hand tightly.Cui Zhannan felt that nothing in this world would separate them.

But fate, it only picks the weak point and gives it a hard blow.

They had a brief but extremely sweet love life after that birthday.Shu Jianlin successfully passed the art examination and had the opportunity to enter the Academy of Film and Television for further studies.And long before that, Shu Jianlin had already participated in the shooting of many commercials and micro movies during high school, and he was better than many students in the same period.But Cui Zhannan knew that he was not satisfied with the status quo.

Shu Jianlin has an ambition, and what he wants is far more than that.

Later, Shu Jianlin caught the eyes of a certain director through an advertisement.Later, he used this to get acquainted with many powerful people.However, if he wants to use the influence of these people to develop his career, he must sacrifice.

And Shu sees that Lin's family background is ordinary, apart from good looks, there seems to be nothing for others to look up to.

Shu Jianlin didn't agree, but he... hesitated.He wavered.

At that time, Cui Zhannan was not a well-known rich man in City B. At that time, Yuemei was still in the development stage, and Cui Zhannan was not as powerful as he is now.At that time, Cui Zhannan was just a young master from a wealthy family, and he didn't have the ability to help Shu Jianlin broaden his career path.

Facing the test of human nature, the young couple still failed to pass this test after all.They bicker, abuse, hysterically.Cui Zhannan thinks that Shu Jianlin has betrayed their feelings spiritually, and Shu Jianlin feels more and more that it is a stupid decision to give up a good future because of such selfish and paranoid Cui Zhannan.

Young people who are immature and immature have very little tolerance. They wish to use the most vicious language in the world to hurt each other, so that that person can also taste their own pain.

In the endless quarrels and hurting each other, their love that had just begun seemed to come to an abrupt end, in an extremely tragic and embarrassing way.

Later, he never saw Shu Jianlin again at school.He has passed the art test and his future is clear. If it wasn't for Cui Zhannan, there would be no reason to come to school again.

Cui Zhannan has a bad temper and a bad personality, sticking to the word "dignity" with his head held high and unwilling to give in.He deleted Shu Jianlin's contact information, which was the couple's mobile phone number that they went to the communication business hall to set up together.He was heartbroken by Shu Jianlin, and he also hated him to the core, and he wanted to have nothing to do with him forever!

Later, Shu Jianlin, who had just entered his freshman year, had already made his mark in the entertainment circle, and he seemed to be a well-known rising star.He started to have scandals with actresses, and formed a CP, and there were gossips in the market that he was not clear with certain directors and producers.Miscellaneous information fell down like snowflakes, seemingly true and false, but each one was tormenting Cui Zhannan.

He was eager to know news about Shu Jianlin, but he was also afraid to know news about him.He couldn't stand himself being suspicious all the time, couldn't help himself guessing whether this news or that piece of gossip was true.He felt that for nearly a year, he was completely immersed in darkness, and all his emotions were out of his control.

Finally, in the early summer of that year, on his birthday, at the moment when he was hopelessly looking forward to the phone ringing, he saw the latest news about Shu Jianlin.

He announced his relationship, with a young actress his own age.

Cui Zhannan was originally a straight man, and he was turned away after meeting Shu Jianlin.Or maybe he wasn't a pure straight man in the first place, but it was Shu Jianlin who discovered and inspired something in him.But it is undeniable that, to a certain extent, Shu Jianlin is also his first love, a very important role in his life, and the first person he truly loves in his life.And this category includes both men and women.He invested all his youthful love on him, but all he got was sadness and pain.

He lost, lost completely.

He was fed up with being manipulated by Shu Jianlin, so the day after Shu Jianlin announced his relationship, he decided to study abroad.

In fact, the family has long planned for him to study abroad.Parents wanted to stop them and throw him abroad the first time they found out he was ambiguous with a boy.But this time Cui Zhannan took the initiative to ask, which was exactly what his parents wanted.So he went through the formalities for studying abroad very smoothly, and boarded a plane to a foreign country, completely away from this sad place.

In Cui Zhannan's 28 years of romantic life, the years with Shu Jianlin can be said to be his most innocent time.Even though he didn't want to admit it, he had to admit that there was indeed a reason for Shu Jianlin to be so indulgent and lustful later on.It was Shu Jianlin who hurt him so much that he couldn't believe that love dared not put his sincerity in another person's hands without reservation.

He felt that he must have lost his head at the beginning to be dazed by Shu Jianlin. He had a great life waiting for him, and there were obedient and well-behaved boys at his mercy.And he doesn't need to worry about whether he will be let down by the other party, because everything is in his hands.

As if he was fighting against his past self, all the male partners he found came against Shu Jianlin's characteristics.Shu Jianlin is one year older than him, Shu Jianlin is tall, Shu Jianlin has a cheerful and lively personality, and Shu Jianlin has single eyelids.So he just wanted to find a boy who was younger, not as tall as him, reserved and quiet, with double eyelids.

In fact, after so many years, Cui Zhannan has forgotten this past event in his past memory.He felt that he didn't love Shu Jianlin for a long time, and he didn't think of him for a long time.It seems that since he returned from studying abroad, he has been immune to all the news and developments of Shu Jianlin.

He thought he had completely expelled Shu Jianlin from his life.

But God prefers to joke with him, and after going around, we will still meet each other.

It was not until this moment that Cui Zhannan clearly realized that in fact, Shu Jianlin would still affect his emotions, and he would still subconsciously care about Shu Jianlin.

Perhaps looking at it optimistically, at least compared to the time when he was dying for Shu Jianlin, he is now very calm.And... Shu Jianlin's weight in his heart is far less important than it was back then.

After hanging up the phone, Cui Zhannan sat silently in the dark car for a long time.In the boundless silence, he seemed to have thought a lot, but it seemed that he was just in a daze and didn't think about anything.He then started the car and drove home.

In the evening, he called Zhao Yi: "Secretary Zhao, I won't go to the company tomorrow if I have something to do. If it's not urgent, discuss it with Vice President Liu. If there's something urgent, call me again."

Cui Zhannan usually has other things to do, and sometimes he doesn't come to the company for a day or two, so Zhao Yi doesn't find it strange at all.After all, Yuemei is already a mature company that can operate automatically, and it doesn't make much difference whether the boss is there or not.

"Alright Mr. Cui."

After hanging up the phone, Cui Zhannan turned off his mobile phone and took off his clothes while walking to the bathroom.By the time he got to the bathroom, there was nothing left of him.He turned on the shower head and let the slightly cold water fall on himself.

The water heater hasn't had time to heat the water yet, and it's actually quite unpleasant to be drenched in cold water in this late autumn season.But Cui Zhannan stood stiffly under the shower as if he didn't feel anything, as if he wanted to wake himself up in this way.

He willfully cut off all contact with the outside world. He only wants to stay at home by himself tomorrow and see no one.So he didn't receive a call from Chang Hui.

But Chang Hui, who couldn't get through the phone, directly made up his own mind. After contacting Fu Xinglin, he gave Yao Junze an extra class.