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Cui Zhannan felt a "thud" in his heart, and the mobile phone in his hand moved up slowly, and the light of the flashlight gradually climbed from the young man's chest to his face.

Cui Zhannan was speechless in a daze.

Fu Xinglin lost weight.

But I haven't seen him for half a month, and he seems to have lost a lot of weight.The cheeks were sunken, and the eyes, which were usually clear and pure, seemed to be covered with a layer of haze at this time, gray and bulging.

Even if he just glanced at Cui Zhannan, he knew that Fu Xinglin's current condition was not very good.

"Xinglin?"

Fu Xinglin frowned unconsciously, and raised his hands to cover his eyes.So Cui Zhannan immediately turned off the flashlight of his mobile phone like a child who has done something wrong.

After the only bright light disappeared, the surroundings fell into darkness again.They could barely see each other's face clearly with the faint moonlight, but they couldn't see the expression on each other's face clearly.

Cui Zhannan heard Fu Xinglin's voice sink a bit, and asked calmly, "Why are you here?"

Cui Zhannan coughed uncomfortably: "Then what, I came to look for you. But you were not at home... I have been waiting for you at your house, thinking that you would not be back until very late."

Fu Xinglin still stood there motionless, without answering.

Cui Zhannan touched his nose uncomfortably: "Well... are you hungry? Auntie has cooked the meal, and I'll wait for you and uncle to come back. Hurry up and go home for dinner."

Fu Xinglin was still silent, but after a few seconds of silence, he raised his leg and walked away from Cui Zhannan and walked straight towards his home, without any intention of waiting for Cui Zhannan.Cui Zhannan was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly followed without thinking too much.

For Cui Zhannan's arrival, the old couple of the Fu family seemed very happy. During dinner, they also greeted Cui Zhannan to eat vegetables and drink soup at the dinner table. The enthusiastic appearance was really like treating a daughter-in-law who came to the house for the first time.What bothered Cui Zhannan was that Fu Xinglin was silent throughout the meal.

He just lowered his head and picked the rice in his bowl, turning a deaf ear to the conversation between Cui Zhannan and his parents. After eating, he said "I'm full" and went back to his room first.

"This child..." Father Fu glanced at the closed door, and smiled apologetically at Cui Zhannan, "Don't mind, Xiao Cui. Xinglin is usually very polite and sensible. It may be these two days I'm in a bad mood. Come on, let's leave him alone and continue to eat, the stewed pork vermicelli made by your aunt is always delicious, hurry up and eat more!"

"Okay, thank you uncle..." Cui Zhannan smiled and took the food brought by Fu's father, looked at the closed door, bowed his head and continued to eat without saying anything.

After dinner, Cui Zhannan took the initiative to help the two old people clean the table and wash the dishes. Later, the two really couldn't see him as a guest, so Fu's mother called Fu Xinglin out of the room and forced him to eat with him Cui Zhannan, who was sick, went out to eat outside.

Fu Xinglin remained expressionless and did not raise any objection to this, silently put on his coat and picked up the flashlight, glanced at Cui Zhannan, said "Let's go" and walked out of the house first.

Cui Zhannan was stunned for a moment, and then hurriedly followed.

Fu Xinglin's house is not completely rural, this place is more like the junction of the county town and the countryside.Coming out of Fu's house, he walked through a small path without street lights, and then came to an empty avenue.A few cars drove past here and there, and street lights every ten steps illuminated the road ahead into spots of light.Cui Zhannan has been following Fu Xinglin since he left the house.

Fu Xinglin didn't say to stop and wait for him, and didn't look back at him, he just led the way in such a silent manner, it seemed that he was really just leading him out for a walk to digest food.

Cui Zhannan raised his face to look at the thin and tall boy in front of him, and suddenly speeded up to catch up, grabbing Fu Xinglin's wrist from behind.

Fu Xinglin stopped, turned around and looked at him.

"Don't ignore me." Cui Zhannan looked into Fu Xinglin's without hesitation.

The corners of Fu Xinglin's eyes twitched invisibly.He didn't speak, and didn't push Cui Zhannan away, just looked at him in silence.

Cui Zhannan took a deep breath, and said slowly: "I'm sorry Xinglin, I didn't stay by your side when such a big incident happened. I... I accompanied my dad to go abroad some time ago, and a relative in the family died of illness, so this time I've been busy with these things abroad. I really don't know, if I know that something like this happened, I will definitely go back to China as soon as possible. Don't be angry with me, okay?"

Cui Zhannan rarely talked to others in such a low voice, and Fu Xinglin had never seen him like this.Cui Zhannan has always been a proud and beautiful peacock. He seems to be born to accept the admiration and admiration of everyone, and no matter what happens, he will not let his proud head bow.

But right now, in front of Fu Xinglin, for the first time... the first time he bent his back for him.Fu Xinglin suddenly felt his nose sore, and he immediately turned his eyes away, not wanting Cui Zhannan to see the trembling in his eyes.

After a moment of silence, Fu Xinglin said in a calm voice, "No one expected this to happen. I never blamed you for not being by my side."

Cui Zhannan's eyes lit up.

"Brother Nan, do you think the problem between us is just this?" Fu Xinglin adjusted his expression and turned to look at Cui Zhannan, his eyes were cold, "Brother Nan, why did you come to me?"

"I……"

"Don't you hate me sticking to you the most? Don't you want me to disappear as soon as possible? I have already disappeared as you wished, and you...why did you come to find me?"

Cui Zhannan was stunned by Fu Xinglin's barrage of words and was speechless for a while.

Fu Xinglin lowered his eyes desolately: "Brother Nan, I'm in your heart...is it not important at all?"

"Nonsense!" Cui Zhannan immediately replied, "As you said just now, if you are not important in my heart, I would be so cheap to come all this way to find you? If I wasn't worried that you cared about you, I would be free and throw away my work. I got off just to come and see you?!"

There seemed to be tears in Fu Xinglin's beautiful eyes. He looked at Cui Zhannan without blinking: "Then why did you treat me like that?"

Cui Zhannan was stared at by Fu Xinglin with such accusatory eyes, and felt as if his whole body was being pricked by needles. Suddenly, he thought of something, so he said, "Did you misunderstand me and Shu Jianlin?"

This is currently the only reason Cui Zhannan can think of. After all, nine out of ten times the two quarreled before because of Shu Jianlin.

Cui Zhannan immediately grabbed his other hand as well: "Xinglin, you really misunderstood. Did you see the Weibo post he posted? Heaven and earth, I really went to see him that day to make things clear. I I want him to give up completely, and I want him to know that the person I like now is you. If I knew that that Weibo would cause so many things in the future, I would not go to him that day! I didn’t mean to do this. I'm keeping it from you. First, we had to quarrel when we talked about Shu Jianlin. Second, I went abroad without stopping, so I didn't have time to tell you. Brother Nan did something wrong. I reflect on it Xinglin, I really really like you, only you, let's stop getting angry because of irrelevant people, okay?"

Fu Xinglin's dark pupils kept trembling because of Cui Zhannan's words of "like". He just looked straight at Cui Zhannan without saying a word.

Cui Zhannan moved closer, rubbed Fu Xinglin's cold hands with his big hands, and lowered his voice a little: "Xinglin, I'm really worried about you. Don't you understand what I mean by coming all the way here to find you?"

Fu Xinglin heard his heart beating faster: "What do you mean?"

Fu Xinglin's expression was too calm, so for a while Cui Zhannan was still a little uncertain whether he really didn't understand or was deliberately playing dumb to tease him.But now Cui Zhannan likes Fu Xinglin a hundred times, and he is willing to go along with him and spoil him according to his ideas.

"What else can it mean? It means that I like you and I want to chase you back."

"You've said that before, but you still lied to me."

"I... When did I lie to you? It was you who never believed me. "

"Yes, I'm sensitive and suspicious, so don't talk to me." Fu Xinglin directly shook off Cui Zhannan's hand, turned around and walked forward.

"Hey!" Cui Zhannan hurried to catch up, and hugged Fu Xinglin from behind without saying a word, wrapped his arms tightly around his chest, and imprisoned his two arms, "Why don't you lose your temper after a few days? ?”

Fu Xinglin struggled twice but did not break away: "You let go of me."

"I do not!"

"You don't think it's embarrassing for two big men to talk about it on the street, but I also think it's embarrassing!"

"Who is this black light? Besides, I'm not afraid of being seen."

"You..." Fu Xinglin was speechless at his shamelessness.

Cui Zhannan quickly tightened his arms, raised his feet slightly and rested his chin on Fu Xinglin's shoulder, leaned over and kissed Fu Xinglin's side face.

"What are you doing?!" Fu Xinglin wanted to escape but couldn't. Cui Zhannan forced his face to turn red.

"Xinglin, I know that my past emotional experience made you feel insecure in our relationship. And... and after being with you, I have done a lot of things wrong. I don't know how to do it for you to forgive Me. I can’t change what happened in the past, but I can make the decision in the future.” Seeing that he was no longer struggling, Cui Zhannan maintained the posture of embracing him, turned around and stood in front of Fu Xinglin, without blinking Looking into his eyes, "I... I haven't tried to have a long-term relationship with someone, nor have I tried to plan the future with someone, but I want to try with you. I mean, don't you understand? "

Fu Xinglin opened his eyes wide, and just looked at Cui Zhannan's slightly nervous face, unable to speak for a long while.

He was actually very happy that Cui Zhannan would come to Jiang County to find him, and now that he could hear these words from his own mouth, he felt his heart was about to jump out of his throat.He never thought that he would really hear these words from Cui Zhannan's mouth one day.Everything he was looking forward to came so suddenly that he couldn't believe his ears.

But...but...

Cui Zhannan waited nervously for Fu Xinglin's answer, but this kid didn't even fart.So he couldn't wait any longer, his ears were red, and he shook the boy's arm: "Anyway, give me a response? I've confessed to you."

Fu Xinglin looked into the man's expectant eyes, and then the expression in his eyes faded little by little.

"Brother Nan, am I still qualified to stay by your side?"

"what?"

"You're right. I'm nothing. I'm so cocky and vain. I thought I'd be successful in anything. But it turns out, I can't. I'll never catch up with you, I'll never be you Asylum, I don't even have the qualifications to protect you. Can I still... imagine the future with you?"

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