I take paranoia as a victim

Xiao Chengming knew that he was jealous, and he couldn't stand him mentioning others. Wasn't it because of Xie Zhao that they quarreled before?

He also specifically mentioned these few people, it's hard to say it wasn't intentional.

Luo Jingshu was sore and angry, but he still didn't dare to say anything to Xiao Cheng, so he could only silently take a sip of the aged vinegar.

Xiao Cheng was deliberately angry with him. He understood that Luo Jingshu was bad, but it didn't mean he would forgive Luo Jingshu for playing tricks.

Even if...he will compromise in the end, he doesn't want Luo Jingshu to get what he wants so soon, as if he is easy to coax.

Thinking of this, Xiao Cheng couldn't help sighing silently.

Not long ago, he had sworn to promise that he would never forgive Luo Jingshu again.

How long has it been? Has he already shaken?

But once he found a reason for Luo Jingshu's behavior, Xiao Cheng could no longer be as determined as before.

How can the love of two lifetimes totaling more than five years disappear so easily?

Luo Jingshu is like his obsession. In the process of taming Luo Jingshu, Luo Jingshu also tamed him.

But he won't compromise so quickly.

Xiao Cheng suddenly remembered that Luo Jingshu said that if he wanted to be his dog, maybe he could give it a try.

It's not for fun, but to let Luo Jingshu understand that although the relationship is not fair, at least the lovers must first achieve equality.

It is impossible for him to be the canary of Luo Jingshu, and at the same time, he hopes that Luo Jingshu can realize how wrong this idea is.

Luo Jingshu didn't know that Xiao Cheng had been shaken, he was actually very afraid that Xiao Cheng would fall in love with others.

He would never give up Xiao Cheng to others, but he didn't want to force Xiao Cheng unless it was absolutely necessary.

What he wants is Brother Cheng's passionate love, not his resentment and indifference.

If there is such a day, Luo Jingshu doesn't know if he can bear it.

Will his brother Cheng look at others with those gentle and smiling eyes?

Will he call others baby, treat others as fragile treasures, and take care of them carefully?

Luo Jingshu tightened his fist suddenly, no, he must not let Xiao Cheng fall in love with others!

He wants to be Brother Cheng's boyfriend, and wants to be called Nian Nian again with a gentle voice by the young man.

"Brother Cheng, they are not good, don't like them."

Luo Jingshu said he was wronged and cautious, but his eyes in the darkness were deep and unclear, like a lurking beast.

"What's wrong with them?" Xiao Cheng was just joking, but Luo Jingshu's promise was so strong that he became a little interested instead.

Luo Jingshu answered quickly, as if he had already organized his words:

"Bai Yiheng is old and has no common topics with you."

"Xie Zhao's family wants him to find a girl to marry and carry on the family line."

"As for the twins, they are your cousins, and you are together."

Xiao Cheng: ...

"I won't talk about Xiaoxi and Xiaonan." Xiao Cheng couldn't help but refute him: "Mr. Bai is so old, he is mature and stable, and he has a unique charm that has been accumulated over time. Besides, he understands the thoughts of young people very well. , there is no obstacle in communicating with me."

He didn't wait for Luo Jingshu to refute, and continued: "As for Senior Xie, he is gentle and warm, and his family relationship is also very harmonious. It may not be unacceptable that he has a boyfriend."

Luo Jingshu was silent for at least ten seconds, and Xiao Cheng could only hear his increasingly heavy breathing.

This person won't be crying because of him, right?

Before Xiao Cheng could think about it, Luo Jingshu said in a hoarse voice: "Brother Cheng, have you really thought about it?"

He answered so quickly, praised these two people, and his words were full of appreciation.

Luo Jingshu's heart was sour, everyone was good in Brother Cheng's heart, only he was a bad person.

"Didn't you ask that? If you didn't ask that way, I wouldn't say that either." Xiao Cheng's drowsiness that disappeared just now slowly rose again.

Since the breakup, it seems that he has never talked to Luo Jingshu in such a relaxed tone as today.

Xiao Cheng is unwilling to admit that he is a soft-hearted person, but he always has a special feeling for Luo Jingshu. ?

He has always been resolute in his rejection of Xie Zhao. No matter what Xie Zhao said, Xiao Cheng never gave him a response.

But Luo Jingshu is different.

Xiao Cheng has liked him for so long, it seems that his soft heart towards him has become instinctive. ?

Even though Xiao Cheng knew in his heart that Luo Jingshu was not as innocent and harmless as he made out, he didn't feel that he had been fooled.

All he cared about from the beginning to the end was Luo Jingshu's deception and trickery.

He was so angry that this person obviously didn't like him, but still pretended to love him deeply, watching him be obsessed with him coldly. ?

Apart from anger and resentment in Xiao Cheng's heart, there was actually grievance and bewilderment in his heart. He didn't know what he had done wrong to make Luo Jingshu play hard on his feelings. ?

Now he finally knows, although he still can't forgive Luo Jingshu's casualness, but he finally eliminated some grievances. ?

"Brother Cheng."

Luo Jingshu just read these two words, and a wave of fiery emotion surged in his heart. ?

He silently recited it several times in his mind, the smile on his face became more and more gentle and sweet, and he saw some beautiful scenes. ?

He was quite drunk, and the air conditioner in the room was fully turned on, Luo Jingshu unconsciously tore his clothes, and murmured, "Brother Cheng?"

He seems to have seen Xiao Cheng.

Xiao Cheng probably didn't know that Luo Jingshu stood upstairs and watched them for a long time in the shopping mall this afternoon.

He saw Xiao Cheng smiling happily, talking to the people beside him with crooked eyebrows.

I also saw that he was obviously impatient, but he still didn't push Xiao Yixi away.

Luo Jingshu has never been so jealous of someone like that moment.

He was even more envious than when he was beaten black and blue by his adoptive father when he was six years old, and when he saw the children downstairs being held high by his father.

After all, he knew at that time that the father's love did not belong to him.

But brother Cheng, he obviously had the love and tenderness of the other party.

Having it and losing it is always more painful than not having it at all.

He murmured vaguely, and there was a layer of water in his eyes.

Xiao Cheng's ears were a little hot, maybe the surrounding environment was too quiet, Luo Jingshu's voice came from the earpiece, as if talking next to his ear, Xiao Cheng even felt that he could feel the heat of the other person's breathing.

There was also a growing gasp.

In fact, after a careful calculation, there are not many intimate behaviors between them, except for the one before the relationship was confirmed, there are very few kisses in normal times.

Xiao Cheng frowned lightly, he endured and endured, but he still couldn't hold back: "Can you stop panting?"

I don't know, I thought he was doing something on the other end of the phone.

Luo Jingshu hummed aggrieved twice, it was no wonder that Xiao Cheng couldn't stand it, probably very few people could refuse such Luo Jingshu.

With the face of the original ceiling, his voice was hoarse and soft, with a strong hint of coquettishness, "Brother Cheng, I feel uncomfortable."

Although Xiao Cheng didn't see the situation on his side, he could imagine it.

"If you feel uncomfortable, go wash your face with cold water."

Luo Jingshu was just drunk.

Xiao Cheng yawned while talking.

He was already very sleepy. If he hadn't been concentrating on thinking just now and forgot his sleepiness for a while, he might have fallen asleep a long time ago.

"I don't want to move." Probably because Xiao Cheng's attitude was too gentle tonight, Luo Jingshu was rarely relaxed.

In normal times, he probably wouldn't dare to act like a baby with Xiao Cheng like this.

Brother Cheng not only ignored him, but also told him to get away.

"Then go to sleep." Xiao Cheng rubbed his temples, "I'm sleepy."

Before Luo Jingshu could speak, he was about to hang up the phone.

Luo Jingshu guessed his intention, and said the last word before Xiao Cheng hung up the phone.

"Brother Cheng."

"Happy New Year."

When he left the mall during the day, he also said this to Xiao Cheng.

Xiao Cheng's mood was quite different when he heard the same words.

During the day, he had no guilt towards Luo Jingshu, and when he heard these words, he didn't feel any fluctuation in his heart.

At that time, he even hoped that Luo Jingshu would leave sooner, after all, with Luo Jingshu around, the twins would not stop.

But hearing this sentence now, Xiao Cheng had to admit that he was not completely indifferent.

It's all because Luo Jingshu said that he was too pitiful. He was alone in his last life, and after taking revenge on his enemies, he couldn't even find a reason to live.

It seemed that he was no longer alone in this life, but he still felt lonely. In such a lively atmosphere like the New Year, he couldn't find anyone to accompany him.

Xiao Cheng was silent for a while, but still replied in a low voice: "Happy New Year."

This time he didn't hesitate any longer, and hung up the phone after speaking, not giving Luo Jingshu a chance to continue talking.

Luo Jingshu heard a beep in the microphone, and then his ears became quiet. He let go of the phone and moved his fingertips, as if he touched Xiao Cheng's figure.

"Brother Cheng..."

How can you be so gentle and soft-hearted?

Obviously he has done all the bad things, Brother Cheng has no obligation to help him at all.

But after knowing what happened in the past, Xiao Cheng still softened towards him.

Luo Jingshu sighed, he was glad that he loved a gentle person, and reunion is not hopeless.

But at the same time, Luo Jingshu felt distressed again.

His Brother Cheng is always so easy to coax. He was cheated once, but he is still willing to treat him with his sincerity.

How ruthless was he in the past to wantonly deceive such a fiery and pure person?

Luo Jingshu bent his fingers, as if he was grabbing something.

He slowly closed his eyes.

This time, he will never let Xiao Cheng down again.

He wants to bring the young man back, so that all Xiao Cheng's tenderness and tolerance belong to him alone.

Xiao Cheng didn't sleep well this time, he slept soundly in the first half of the night, but dreamed in the second half of the night.

The dream seemed to have happened before. Xiao Cheng didn't know when it happened, but he always felt very familiar.

It seems that he is not the only one, it should be in the dining room, everyone is sitting around eating together.

Xiao Cheng couldn't see everyone's faces clearly at first, until He An's voice suddenly sounded from behind, and he finally saw the scene in front of him clearly.

It was indeed He An who was talking to him: "Cheng Cheng, when will you bring your partner back to show mom?"

Beside her was Xiao Yu, who was also looking at Xiao Cheng with a smile at the moment.

Xiao Cheng wanted to speak, but found that his body was not under his control. He seemed to be watching all this from the perspective of God.

Xiao Cheng only heard himself answering: "It's still early."

His voice is deeper than now, and his face is more mature.

"It's not too early, you're almost 24." He An laughed, and added: "Of course, mother is not urging you to get married so early, but you have to fall in love first."

This time he remained silent for a longer time, until Xiao Cheng thought he would not answer again, and finally heard his own voice.

"Wait a little longer, give me another half a year."

Xiao Cheng suddenly woke up from his dream. The curtains were tightly covered, and the light in the room was dim, so he couldn't tell what time it was.

There was a fine layer of sweat on his forehead, his chest heaved and heaved, and he was panting heavily.

Xiao Cheng tried his best to recall the details of the dream, but he couldn't see clearly when he was dreaming, but when he woke up, it seemed that the scene happened right before his eyes.

Xiao Cheng was very concerned about what he said in his dream.

half a year?

He frowned, why half a year?

He An said that he is almost 24, so this is what happened in the last life.

Xiao Cheng calculated the time in his mind, Luo Jingshu was almost 24 years old when he died.

At this point in time, wouldn't it be that Luo Jingshu was about to set fire to himself and commit suicide?

Is there any connection between this?

The only person he likes is Luo Jingshu, and the only person he is willing to take home to show to his mother is Luo Jingshu.

Why was I so sure in my previous life that things will definitely turn around after half a year?

No, it's not certain, maybe it was just his guess at the time.

But why did he guess half a year later?

Xiao Cheng suddenly had a bold idea in his heart, maybe he had already guessed something in his previous life.

If the truth of the matter is really as what Luo Jingshu said, in his previous life, because of the restriction of the plot, he obviously wanted to save Luo Jingshu, but he couldn't do anything.

Then the half a year later he said, is it the time when the plot of the original novel ends?

Xiao Cheng still remembered that when she was listening to that female classmate talk about this novel, she said that the final ending didn't seem to be very happy, but she didn't say much about it.

Perhaps the self in the previous life discovered through observation that the original plot will end in half a year.

Then he must have thought at the time, is it possible that he won't be restricted by the plot when the original book is over?

Whether it was true or not, he must have expected it back then.

So he gave He An a time, and he also gave himself a deadline.

Half a year.

At that time, he must have wanted to wait half a year before verifying his conjecture. Whether it was true or not, at least he never gave up liking Luo Jingshu.

Xiao Cheng lifted the quilt and let out a deep breath.

Perhaps in his previous life, he was not unaware of Luo Jingshu's true face.

Otherwise, how could he be sure that Luo Jingshu would not be with Jiang Ying in half a year?

But soon, Xiao Cheng overturned this guess.

He thought that he was not a good person, maybe he wanted to wait half a year before snatching Luo Jingshu back.

No matter what he thought before, one thing is certain, he must plan to make a move in half a year.

It's just that in his previous life, he probably never expected that Luo Jingshu would choose to commit suicide.

He didn't know if he in his previous life had verified the guess that he would not be restricted by the plot after half a year. Maybe Luo Jingshu committed suicide before he verified it.

A feeling of suffocation suddenly rose in Xiao Cheng's heart, and he even felt that he smelled a strong smell of smoke.

Luo Jingshu left that world with a resolute and straightforward attitude. Did he ever think that maybe the person who rejected his help several times never actually gave up on him.

Maybe there was just a miss between them.

If Luo Jingshu committed suicide later, would Xiao Cheng have a chance to save him?

Will they have a happy ending?

Xiao Cheng was irritated by this speculation, his nose sore, as if his love in those years was not fruitless, but just lost to coincidence.

Xiao Ziyue said that he often dreamed of a big fire before, maybe he died in that fire in his last life.

He wanted to rescue Luo Jingshu from the fire, but in the end he died with him.

Xiao Cheng took a deep breath, touched his cheek with his fingers, and suddenly felt a little wet water.Only then did he realize that he had shed tears unconsciously.

Xiao Cheng shook his head, forcing himself not to think about those things.

The things of the previous life have passed away.

In his previous life, he was a complete loser, and everything in love, friendship and family relationship failed to a good result.

So God gave him another chance just to make up for his regrets?

The family must have been devastated after his death.

What Xiao Cheng is most sorry for is his family. Whether it was the last time or this life, he has intentionally or unintentionally hurt those who love him.

What he should compensate most is his relatives.

Xiao Cheng wiped away the tears on his face, and his uneasy heart sank back into his chest again.

No matter what happened, his belief never changed.

Live a good life and cherish everything you have.

After tidying up his mood, Xiao Cheng finished washing as quickly as possible, and turned on his phone to see that it was only 08:30.

During the annual holidays, no one has to go to work, and usually they don't get up for dinner until nine o'clock in the morning. Xiao Cheng still wakes up early.

When he left the room, the corridor was quiet, and he didn't see the butler until he went downstairs.

"Xiao Cheng woke up."

The butler said, "Would you like to serve dinner now?"

"No, just wait."

Xiao Cheng sat down by the sofa, and there were fresh fruits on the table. He squeezed a grape in his hand, and suddenly remembered the scene when he went to the fruit garden with Luo Jingshu in his mind.

Before, he could avoid thinking about the details of his relationship with Luo Jingshu. What happened yesterday was like a raging flood. After the dam broke through, all emotions poured out, and they could no longer be stopped.

Xiao Cheng couldn't help thinking about the sweet memories from a few months ago, which were mixed with Luo Jingshu's deceit and indifference.

These complex emotions made Xiao Cheng's expression particularly beautiful, as if he couldn't help laughing, but there was a bit of gnashing of teeth in his expression.

He An was the second to get up.

"Cheng Cheng?"

She sat down beside Xiao Cheng, "Why did you wake up so early?"

"Last night I went to bed early." Xiao Cheng ate grapes just now, and there was still a smell of grapes in his mouth. He was lazily leaning on the sofa, feeling very comfortable.

Seeing that he was in good condition, He An felt relieved.

"By the way, I might trouble you with something later." He An smiled, "Zi Yue told me last night that she wanted to raise a dog in our house."

There is a large grassland behind the Xiao's villa, which is the most suitable for raising dogs.

However, He An and Xiao Yu are both busy with work and have no time to take care of small animals, and both of them have a unique idea that it is best to raise a dog by yourself and give the pet enough companionship.

The couple often travel on business, obviously not meeting this requirement.

"Why do you suddenly want to have a dog?" For some reason, Xiao Cheng suddenly thought of someone again.

His tone was subtly unnatural, but He An didn't hear it.

He An sighed: "This is the New Year's wish that Zi Yue mentioned to me."

Xiao Ziyue has always wanted to raise a large dog, but she is very busy with her studies and has no time to take care of pets.

"She is in her third year of high school, where does she have the time to raise pets?"

He An has obviously talked about this issue with Xiao Ziyue, "I'm not very busy with work in the next year, so I'll take care of her for a while, and let her take care of her after she graduates from the college entrance examination."

"Then why don't you just wait until after the college entrance examination?" Xiao Cheng didn't understand.

He An couldn't help laughing: "Which child doesn't want to be satisfied immediately after having a wish?"

"After you watched cartoons when you were young, you asked me to take you to see the snow on a summer night."

Xiao Cheng blushed, he didn't remember this at all.

But it was precisely because he had forgotten that Xiao Cheng felt regretful.

He An must be a very gentle mother, as can be seen from her attitude towards Xiao Cheng and Xiao Ziyue.

She never refuted the children's naive ideas, although some things were indeed too naive in her opinion.

What Xiao Cheng got most from her was encouragement and support.

He An is very defensive, but never blindly.

She has the correct concept of right and wrong, and has her own principles.

Xiao Cheng is extremely grateful to the people around him, each of them has brought him infinite strength.

Wearing books seems to be a gift from God to him.

Because he was too lonely in the previous life, after transmigrating into the book, he had a gentle mother, a serious but not strict father, and a lively and lovely sister.

In addition, he also met many people who were kind to him.

Xie Zhao, Bai Yiheng, and even twins.

In fact, Xiao Cheng never felt that he was a brave person, because before wearing the book, he was alone and had too little, so he was even more afraid to try, afraid of losing the little warmth he had left.

The last time Xiao Cheng found air tickets and photos in the apartment, he actually doubted that he didn't think he could love someone bravely and fearlessly for five years.

Still a love with no future in sight.

But at this moment, he suddenly understood why he was so brave.

Because after wearing the book, he is surrounded by love, he grew up in happiness and being loved, no matter how many times he fails, someone will always love him.

He will never be alone.

Xiao Cheng's eyes were sour, and he was almost on the verge of tears.

When He An turned his head and saw his son's red eyes, he was shocked.

"What's going on here?"

Could it be that he was so embarrassed that he cried when he talked about his embarrassment?

"The grapes I ate just now were a bit sour." Xiao Cheng rubbed his eyes, "Mom, what did you want me to do just now?"

"By the way, I want you to accompany Ziyue to buy a puppy."

He An patted Xiao Cheng on the shoulder, "Your father and I have something to do this morning, so we can't go with you."

"It's okay, then I'll take her there."

Xiao Cheng said, suddenly remembered something.

"Are Xiao Yixi and Xiao Yinan going too?"

He An showed a bit of embarrassment on his face, "Don't you want to?"

If nothing else, the twins will follow.

"No reluctance, I just asked casually."

Xiao Cheng has already guessed, and there is nothing wrong with bringing them along. Xiao Yixi has a lively personality, and it is quite interesting when he is not a monster.

Xiao Cheng thought of his outfit last night, and his head started to hurt again.

Later he was too sleepy and forgot to ask Luo Jingshu about it.

Xiao Yixi sneaked into his room, wondering if it had anything to do with Luo Jingshu.

"Then you go together."

When Xiao Yixi learned that she could go out with Xiao Cheng again today, she almost jumped up for joy.

At home, he couldn't stick to Brother Cheng all the time, Brother Cheng always hid in the room and couldn't come out.

It's different outside, he can walk next to Brother Cheng.Xiao Cheng generally wouldn't flinch at him in front of outsiders, unless he really went too far.

When going out, Xiao Yixi habitually held Xiao Cheng's arm, stretched out her hand, but stopped suddenly.

Xiao Cheng was stunned for a moment, and suddenly became vigilant, "What's wrong with you?"

He thought Xiao Yixi was going to play tricks again.

Xiao Yixi's expression was a bit subtle, he forcibly changed the direction of his arm, from holding Xiao Cheng's arm to embracing Xiao Cheng's shoulder.

Xiao Cheng:? ?

"It's more comfortable this way." Xiao Yixi cleared her throat, and looked back at Xiao Yinan, "Brother, you're right."

Xiao Yinan hesitated to speak, and finally nodded slightly.

What he didn't say was that Xiao Yixi's posture looked a little weird.

Although Xiao Yixi told him to show an aggressive side in front of Xiao Cheng, he is a few centimeters shorter than Xiao Cheng after all, isn't his arm sore from this posture?

Xiao Cheng always felt numbness in his back. He suspected that Xiao Yixi was playing tricks in the dark. Why did this person suddenly act strangely today?

Xiao Cheng didn't need to drive today. After he got in the car, the twins looked at each other, wanting to grab the seat next to him.

"Ziyue, come here." Xiao Cheng beckoned to Xiao Ziyue.

Xiao Ziyue sat in under the gaze of the twins, and sighed deliberately: "Oh, there is no room in the car, you can only go to another car."

The co-pilot was a bodyguard, and the twins stood there for a while before going to another car.

Xiao Cheng laughed: "Why are you angry with them?"

"Who told them to keep robbing you from me?" Xiao Ziyue leaned comfortably on the seat, and suddenly heard a ding dong.

She turned to look at Xiao Cheng, "Brother, is your phone ringing?"

Xiao Cheng took out his cell phone from his pocket, it was a text message.

After he clicked delete, he subconsciously opened WeChat with his fingers, and the top message was apparently sent by Luo Jingshu.

After waking up, the man still remembered what happened last night, so he came to chat with Xiao Cheng with the cheek.

Seeing that Xiao Cheng didn't reply to him, Luo Jingshu sent many messages in succession, one every ten minutes.

[Xiao Cheng: . 】

He was left speechless, and he was never so tired when he was in love.

Isn't it just that he didn't reply to his message in seconds? As for bombing him again after a while?

Was it because he was too gentle last night? Luo Jingshu seemed to have forgotten that the two of them haven't gotten back together yet.

Luo Jingshu seemed to be guarding the phone all the time. After Xiao Cheng replied, he immediately sent two more messages.

【Luo Jingshu: Brother Cheng, good morning! 】

【Is there any arrangement for today? 】

There is also a cute emoticon attached, which is exactly the set of emoticons that Xiao Cheng saved with him before.

Xiao Cheng thought for a while, and replied to him solemnly:

[To buy a puppy. 】

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