The taste of love is bitter

Early the next morning, I asked my roommate to ask for leave for me with red and swollen eyes. I was really in no mood to go to class. I didn’t eat breakfast, and I didn’t even get up. Ruan Yuchen, I sneered and thought, what's the matter?Want to explain now?It's too late, I, Wu Qiong, haven't reached the point of lowliness yet, I have to rely on a face similar to others to get love.I pressed the hang-up button and decided not to think about him, but the phone rang again, and I turned it off impatiently. Instead of listening to his explanation, softening my heart and forgiving, and then facing greater sadness, it is better to make a decisive decision at the beginning. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain .Maybe my mother is right, the love between us is unethical, so it's okay to break it, since it was wrong at the beginning, there is still time to change it now.Just think that my hormones are too high in adolescence, and I fell in love with the wrong person. Maybe I will forget it in the future, maybe I will leave tomorrow.

My phone has never been turned on again, and Ruan Yuchen has never come back, and I have returned to my study life alone, eating, going to class, sleeping mechanically every day, and living in a daze.I still remember the notes. I listened hard and memorized what the teacher said. After class, I suddenly found that I didn’t remember anything. Even looking at the notes, I didn’t know what I was remembering. I don't understand at all.

After half a month like this, one day the senior came to the school suddenly, he found me and asked me why the phone was always turned off, I said no one called me anyway, and always forgot to charge it, so I simply turned it off and didn’t use it. Hmm, then silence.I think he is not in good condition, he has heavy dark circles, and he has lost a lot of weight. In fact, I look like I have just recovered from a serious illness. I asked him why he came to school suddenly, and he said he was here for Ruan Yuchen. on leave of absence.

Hearing this name, I felt a pain in my heart. I really didn't want to see you anymore. I didn't even go to school anymore. I even asked my seniors to help me when I was suspended. Is it true that you listen to me like this and don't communicate with each other forever?I smiled wryly and asked, "Is he... all right?"

The senior looked at the corners of my mouth that were forced to pull, sighed, shook his head, looked at me with a serious expression, and said, "Wu Qiong, I know everything about you and him, and I think you know about us too." , my younger brother is very stubborn, but he is very affectionate. I am also very sad and guilty about my mother's death. My birthday is my mother’s memorial day, and Ruan Yuchen also lost her mother a few days before her birthday because of me. We are very taboo about this special day. But recently, my grandma was ill. We went back to see her. She was in a very bad condition. , sometimes confused and sometimes understanding, we have to be with her all the time.

In those few days, the relationship between Yuchen and I eased a lot. Later, he told me about your affairs. Although I don’t understand your love, I still understand the sincerity in his love. This time he is I really love it. Half a month ago, my grandma finally survived and passed away.I don't know what happened between you two, but Yuchen answered a phone call on the day my grandma passed away. I think it was you who called. He was already very sad. In the past few months, he has lost a lot of weight. Daquan, the death of his grandma hit him hard, and he was close to collapse at that time.

I don't know what you said, hung up the phone, he hid in the corner alone and punched the wall with blood on his hands, I barely stopped him, but he hugged me and cried, the first time I saw him Crying, even when my mother left and grandma left, he didn't shed a single tear, but that day he hugged me and cried until his voice became hoarse.

I asked him what was wrong, but he just repeated a sentence, he said, you will not forgive him, you are finished.I didn't know how to comfort him at the time, so I could only let him cry, maybe he would get better after crying. "

At this point he stopped for a while, I kept my head down and listened without any emotional ups and downs, would he be in pain?Will he cry too?Then after he understands the kind of dedication, but is told that you are just a substitute, what is that feeling like?I have lost my tears and emotions for a long time, and now it is like listening to someone else's story, applauding for the wonderful place, and then laughing, it's over, I'm back to my life, that's all.

"You came to me today just to talk about this?" I looked up at the senior, and said, "Then let me tell you, I don't want to continue to be regarded as someone else's shadow, to be loved sadly, I am me, with It has nothing to do with anyone, so what he said is right, we are done, and he is now out of school, and we will never see each other again, isn't it great?" After finishing speaking, I sneered.

"Wu Qiong, listen to me." The senior looked at me with a painful expression, "After grandma's funeral was over, he hurried back. He said that you didn't answer his call, and the phone was turned off. He was afraid that something might happen to you. ,result……"

I stared blankly at the senior, feeling that something bad would happen next, suddenly panicked, and didn't want him to continue talking.

"In the end, because I had to deal with other things, I didn't come back with him, and the passenger car he was riding... when he was crossing the mountain road, the brakes of the car failed and turned down the hillside, and no one in the car survived... We found him When he was there, he was still holding the phone in his hand, and the last one he dialed was your number..."

There was a buzzing in my head, I didn't hear what the senior said next, I just felt my ears buzzing, my brain went blank, my throat was dry, I kept swallowing saliva, but it still couldn't be relieved, I wanted to be dried in the machine I had a cramping pain, and my stomach was churning, but I couldn't vomit anything. I coughed so much that my tears fell down.The senior held me, as if to comfort me, I only saw his mouth moving vaguely, but I couldn't hear the sound at all, I shook my head, smiled, and told him that I was a little tired, and I was going back to the dormitory to sleep, yes, I I'm so sleepy now, I'm going to sleep, I must be dreaming, when I wake up from sleep, I will find that nothing happened.

When Ruan Yuchen comes back, I will tell him that I forgive him. No matter who he took me for before, he loves me now, Wu Qiong. I don’t care about anything. I want to go to university and work together with him. At that time, I will confess to my mother. If she disagrees, I will run away from home. As long as Ruan Yuchen is by my side, I am not afraid of anything.I want to live with him, I want to walk with him, I want to walk with him until the gray hair, we are both old men, and then remember the present together.

Thinking about it, I laughed, because I turned around and saw Ruan Yuchen, in a white casual suit, with a short cropped hair, he walked towards me with a smile, look, I said he will come back, I said everything is fine It's a dream, no, did he appear all right? He's back.I hurriedly stood up and ran towards him, but I swayed and felt my eyes go dark. Before I fell down, I heard him calling my name anxiously, and said silently in my heart, Ruan Yuchen, I love you, don't leave!

When I opened my eyes, there was chaos in front of me, and I couldn’t tell the difference between heaven and earth. I felt light in my body, and I didn’t know where I was going. Suddenly, a light appeared in front of my eyes, and a figure appeared in front of me. I also know this person who was burned to ashes. !I called him loudly, but couldn't make a sound, and he didn't see me at all, just looking for something blankly, as if he was very anxious.

I stared blankly at him, thinking, Ruan Yuchen, you are back, why can't you see me?Are we really just face to face without seeing each other?

"Wu Qiong, please forgive me, please?" He seemed to be talking to himself, and I immediately burst into tears, I forgive, as long as you come back, even if you say you still treat me as Zu Xiaoyu now, I will forgive you too!