The taste of love is bitter

"Wu Qiong...I'm sorry...I'm afraid I'm going...to see my mother. I can't be with...you in the future. But, to be honest...it's really happy to be with you...During those days...it was I... am the most... the most beautiful in my life, ahem... I, Ruan Yuchen... I have never... been so... so embarrassed in my life, and now... now I am going to die... so ugly!"

"It's not ugly, it's good-looking, you've always been handsome, very handsome!" I said as I looked at him with tears streaming down my face.

"Ahem...Wu Qiong...I...maybe...maybe I won't be able to take care of...you anymore, let you and...godmother...disappointed, you promise me...to...take good care of yourself, otherwise...I...cough cough ...I will never let you go... You, cough cough... hiss... is it true... it hurts, cough... Wu Qiong... I... I was wrong... I am a bastard... I shouldn't say that we broke up... I broke up, forgive me... Cough...cough cough...forgive me, please?"

"Stop it, stop it! I forgive you, forgive you!" I interrupted him desperately, but he still kept talking to himself.

I really... really want to hear your...voice again, cough...see you again...cough cough...a glance, unfortunately...I...can't go back, Wu Qiong...take care of...cough cough...take care of yourself, I...I'm not here...you To...for me...to live well!Remember...you said...cough cough cough cough...said?Even if you are dead...you want me to...live well, now...I...I want to tell...you...cough cough cough...I am dead...you...must...also live well, otherwise...I...cough cough cough cough... Dead...cough cough...unknown...eyes! "

"You won't die, Ruan Yuchen, cheer me up, you won't die!" Every time he coughed, it was like a sledgehammer hitting my heart directly, the sound was so piercing.

"Wu Qiong...I...no...cough cough...I don't have the energy to speak...It really hurts, let me sing a song for you...cough cough cough cough cough...song! Your favorite...cough cough...Shui Mu Nianhua... ...cough cough cough...one...cough cough...I have you all my life...cough cough cough..."

I saw that the corner of his mouth was bleeding, and he slipped and fell to the ground slowly. Finally, I couldn't help it. I went forward and wanted to hug him, but I passed through his body and flew away. I watched him gradually become transparent. His body and heart seemed to be pierced by countless steel knives. I desperately wanted to keep him, but I still couldn't touch his body. Tears were like a flood that burst a bank. I sat on the ground powerlessly and heard him continue to say.

"Bah! Cough cough...what, so... so much blood...cough cough...all...wasted...cough cough...Wu Qiong...I...cough cough cough...I love you..."

Blood kept spilling from his mouth, his clothes were soaked in blood, but his expression didn't show any pain, on the contrary, he kept smiling, just as handsome as before.

"Wu Qiong...Listen up...this is...cough cough cough...it's the last time I...for you...sing...cough cough cough...I sang..."

"Don't sing, Ruan Yuchen, save your strength, don't sing!" I cried and begged him.

"...Because I dreamed that...you...leaved...cough cough...I woke up from...crying...cough cough cough...watching the night wind...blowing...window sill...can you...feel...my love …cough cough cough cough cough cough cough cough cough cough cough cough cough cough wait until the old age...cough...are you still by my side...look at those...swears...lie...follow the past...slowly...diffuse...cough cough cough...how many people... Cough cough cough cough...cough cough cough..."

"Stop singing, please stop singing! Please..." I was crying so hard that my voice was hoarse.

"...how many people...how many people...cough...hehe...damn...forgot the words...Wu Qiong...I... miss you so much...I...I love you...cough cough cough...I...I...so...love you...forget Forget me...forget me...cough cough cough...find someone who loves you more than me...forget me...in the next life...in the next life...we'll still be together...cough cough...see you...never leave..."

I sat there looking at him, letting tears flow, "Ruan Yuchen, I will never forget you, we will still be together in the next life!"

"Wu Qiong...I...love...you..." His voice became smaller and smaller, and finally he closed his eyes.

"Ruan Yuchen!" I yelled and wanted to hug him, but there was still nothing in my hand, watching his slowly becoming transparent body, dissipating little by little, and finally disappeared. "Ruan Yuchen! You bastard, come back to me! Come back!"

"Wu Qiong, wake up!" I heard someone calling me, and I suddenly opened my eyes, and my eyes were pale, before my brain could react, and then I fell into darkness again.

"Wu Qiong, go back! Live well, go back!" Ruan Yuchen appeared again, he looked at me anxiously, and kept urging me.

"I want to be with you!" I grabbed him, and I could actually touch him.

"Wu Qiong, don't be stupid, go back, go back and see me for the last time, okay? Go back!" He begged me bitterly.

"Okay, you wait for me at Naihe Bridge, I won't let you wait too long! Wait for me!" I let go of his hand.

"Nonsense! Wu Qiong, if you don't live well, I, Ruan Yuchen, won't know you!" His face suddenly became ferocious.

"Ruan Yuchen!" I looked at him in horror.

"Get out of here, get out!" He pushed me hard, and I fell to the ground hard, as if a nerve in my brain was suddenly broken, I felt a headache, and then my eyes lit up.

I slowly opened my eyes, all kinds of tubes were inserted into my body, and there were ticking sounds from various instruments. I looked at the ceiling blankly, knowing that I was in the hospital, but what happened to me?I tilted my head and looked around, when I heard my mother's anxious voice.

"Doctor, why does my son keep waking up? There is no way to continue like this!"

"I'm sorry, we have tried our best. The patient's survival consciousness is very weak. To put it bluntly, he subconsciously does not want to wake up. If this continues, he may become a vegetable. His current situation is not very optimistic. The medicine will not last long. His The heart is failing, I suggest you start looking for the heart now, he needs a heart transplant, but the success rate is only 50.00%. Think for yourself, he is in this situation, maybe he has only a few months to live, and this I'll be in the hospital for a few more months."

Then there was silence. I heard my mother's sniffling and my father's comforting voice. My mind was in chaos. How could I have made myself like this?Haven't I been fine all along?Why is he dying all of a sudden?At this time, the door opened, and I saw the senior come in. He saw me looking at him, and the plastic bag in his hand fell to the ground with a snap, and then he shouted towards the corridor, "Uncle, aunt! Wu Qiong woke up!"

I heard hurried footsteps, mom and dad rushed in, saw me wake up, mom's tears kept falling, dad wiped his face and said, "Stinky boy, you are willing to wake up! "

I looked at the emaciated and disfigured parents, and felt unspeakably uncomfortable, "What's wrong with me?" My voice was very dry, and the words I said were out of tune.

"..." Mom looked at Dad, and Dad looked at Mom, but no one answered me for a while.

"Wu Qiong, you have been in a coma for half a month, do you know that? You woke up once in the middle, and then you passed out again when you opened your eyes. We were all worried about you, and uncles and aunts didn't take much rest. It's all right now, you Just wake up." The senior said standing on the other side of the bed.

I looked at the sunken eye sockets of the senior, the blue eye circles, the thin cheeks, and the white and bloodless lips. It seemed that the whole person was in a bad spirit.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"It's okay, uncles and aunts are more worried about you." He said with a smile.

"It's good to wake up, it's good to wake up!" Dad repeated this sentence over and over again, but mother never said anything, just kept crying.

I raised my hand to wipe away her tears, but I had no choice but to have too many needles and cardiac instruments, not to mention my body was so weak that I couldn't lift my hand at all.My mother was sitting on the edge of the bed, holding my hand, and the tears couldn't stop flowing. I knew why she was crying. She was afraid that I would not live long, and that I would leave her. Yes, I thought life and death were nothing, but I love you How sad and sad people are!

Thinking of this, I suddenly feel empty and my head starts to hurt, as if someone who is very important to me has left, but I can't remember who he is, I am very sad, but I can't think about it, the more I think about it, the more my head hurts , The heart also began to feel uncomfortable.

In the next few days, my parents took turns to accompany me, and the senior came once in a while. Every time, I looked very tired, my condition became worse and worse, and I was always hesitant to speak, as if I wanted to say something. I don't know where to start.Finally, one time, when my parents were away, I grabbed him and asked him if he was hiding something from me. I knew that my health was very bad. I'm just a little earlier than others.

He frowned and looked at me. After a while, he took out a mobile phone from his pocket and said, "I've been thinking about whether to give it to you. This is the last thing he left. I think this is all about your memories." , it’s better to leave it to you.”

Looking at that mobile phone, I felt very familiar, and I saw it somewhere, but I couldn’t remember it, and my head started to hurt again. I rubbed my forehead, held it and asked the senior, "Whose...is this mobile phone? That'he' is Who? Are we familiar? I can't remember at all!"

The senior looked at me in surprise, "Wu Qiong, don't do this, don't force yourself, don't leave the pain to yourself, avoiding the problem won't solve it!"

"What are you talking about?" I smiled and said, "I'm not escaping, I really don't know, take your phone away, I won't take things that don't belong to me."

"Wu Qiong! Do you think that Yuchen can walk steadily? What he wants is your happiness, not you giving up on yourself. Don't think that your parents can't see it, and neither can I. Your current state is terrible. Don’t you just want to die? Well, let me tell you, I won’t let you die, you don’t have the right to die!” The senior yelled at me.

"I didn't!" I covered my ears and didn't want to hear it, but his words still fell into my ears word by word.

"Let me tell you, Yuchen signed an organ donation for you a long time ago, and his heart is only reserved for one person, that is you! He thought that one day when he was gone, his heart would save you, but he still didn't wait. That day, when we found him, all the organs of his body were dead, he had been dead for three days! His last hope was not fulfilled, but don't worry, I will help him realize it, I will not Will let you die, and won't let him leave disappointed."

"Don't say it, please don't say it!" My tears burst once. When I woke up, I really couldn't remember why I came to the hospital or what happened, but later, I still I remembered, but I chose to escape.I'm going to die in a few months, Ruan Yuchen won't wait too long, so I will try my best to spend more time with my parents in the last time, I am not a filial child, I owe them my life I just want to pay it back in the next life.

"Wu Qiong, live well, for Yuchen, for your parents, for... me!" This was the last sentence my senior left me, and I didn't understand the meaning at all.

A month later, I was transferred to a hospital and went to Beijing to receive a heart transplant. I asked my parents where the heart must be very expensive, and we couldn’t afford it. My mother told me not to worry.I have never seen the senior again. I was very nervous before the operation. I don’t know why. I just wanted to hear the voice of the senior. He told me not to worry, everything will go well, he will always be with me, and I will see you after the operation is over. To him, I believe it.

The operation was very successful. After the exclusion period, I was able to walk around at last, but I never saw my seniors. Every time I asked my mother, my mother said that he might be very busy with his studies. It is understandable that the stage is very desperate.Calls are not answered, so we can only send messages to communicate. I always feel that there is something wrong with him, but I can't tell what is wrong. He told me not to think about it, take good care of my body, and come to see me when he is not busy. A little disappointed, but didn't say anything.

In a blink of an eye, three months have passed, and my body has recovered well. The doctor said that I can be discharged from the hospital. At that time, I was so excited that I wanted to cry. After 18 years, I can finally live like a normal person. If Ruan Yuchen knew, would he Will you be happy?Thinking of him, I feel sore, Ruan Yuchen, do you know?I can make a snowman and have a snowball fight, I can also play basketball, football, and I can participate in the sports meeting, but where are you?Without your company, it feels like life is boring, how are you?alone there?I'm sorry, I broke my promise, I said I won't let you wait too long, but I still choose to live, Yuchen, forgive me, I will never leave in the next life, we must be together, wait for me!

After leaving the hospital and returning home, there was an endless stream of relatives who came to congratulate me. I was so annoyed that I was in a mess, so I lied that I was not feeling well, and hid in the house by myself. He didn't return either, his heart was in a mess, the senior wouldn't ignore me, not to mention that it's been more than three months since my operation, so there's no reason for him not to come to see me.

I didn’t have much appetite at night, and couldn’t fall asleep for a long time because of my senior’s problems, so I picked up my phone and sent a message. At this time, I heard a slight ringtone from the living room. Because the night was very quiet, I could hear it clearly.I didn't care, I didn't reply to the text message for a long time, and I sent another one asking what's wrong, the ringtone rang again, I had to wonder, there is no such coincidence in the world, to confirm that the number I sent is correct, so why is it me every time? After sending a message, that bell only goes off?

I had a bad premonition in my heart. I got up and went out with my mobile phone. My parents were already asleep. I picked up the phone and dialed the senior's number. Sure enough, the bell rang after a while.I searched for the sound, and finally found the senior's mobile phone in my mother's coat pocket. I looked at the mobile phone in my hand blankly, and the ringing sound continued.At this time, my mother heard the ringtone of the phone and came out in a hurry. Seeing me holding the phone, she froze at the door, but did not speak.