nib boy

The sudden door visit that day ended with Xie Zhe slamming the door and leaving.

Chen Ye watched his furious back disappear at the stairs, hesitantly looked back at the dark open door behind him, but still did not follow.

Xie Zhe walked all the way home, maybe he was too angry, but he didn't feel cold at all.After returning home, Bai Yuze asked about Chen Ye's whereabouts, but he only perfunctorily said that he had sent her away by car.

Bai Yuze still had no doubts, the two had dinner together in peace, and then took a shower and went to bed.Nothing to say all night.

The next morning, when Bai Yuze saw Xie Zhe frying eggs listlessly in the kitchen with two appalling dark circles under his eyes, he was really taken aback. "What's wrong with you? Did you stay up late watching porn??"

Xie Zhe himself had a dazed look on his face, and almost forgot to turn off the fire when he was not paying attention. "It's nothing... Probably because I was too worried about my future, I didn't fall asleep all night. Haha."

It's just bullshit.Bai Yuze rolled his eyes, helped him arrange the dishes and said casually: "I'm going home later, and I'll go straight back to school after I get my schoolbag."

"Alright." Xie Zhe didn't respond after hearing this, and yawned wearily. "I have to take a short nap at noon...wake up before starting."

"Well. See you in the dormitory tonight, and we will go out for dinner together then."

"OK.……"

Although it is simple to say, Bai Yuze still has no idea about going home.His parents are at home on weekends, and he doesn't know how they will react when he walks in the house, picks up his schoolbag, says "I'm leaving" and then steps out, at least for the time being he can't think of anything else to say .

So I could only comfort myself silently in my heart: everything will be fine in a few days.How can there be overnight hatred with relatives?

And the facts have proved that Bai Mu is indeed a very reasonable mother.That night, Bai Yuze received a text message from her, in which besides the same trivial instructions as usual, he also tactfully admitted his mistake.The original words were: Her words were indeed too extreme that day. She knew that friends could not be replaced by anything in Bai Yuze's heart, so she apologized for that.In addition, she has actually seen all his efforts, and hopes that he will not give up and continue to work hard.

After closing the phone, Bai Yuze's eyes felt a little hot.

Even though they had quarreled, had a cold war, and felt so angry at that time—even if the same stubbornness flowed in their bones, and this persistence did not allow either party to bow their heads easily, they were his blood relatives after all.In this world, is there anything stronger and more indestructible than the bond of blood?

Many times you think that you can't understand each other, but both of you are not on the right channel.Correct communication is not impossible, you just haven't tried it.

Entering December, the city encountered a rare snow disaster in decades.

All major middle and primary schools have followed the instructions of the Municipal Education Bureau to suspend classes and close schools. Only the hard-working high school students are still fighting for their vague dreams and homework.

Although the director repeatedly forbade the students to walk around the playground between classes in the school radio, the boys who were so free to grow mushrooms secretly went to the door to have a snowball fight, and didn't go back in a mess until the bell rang.

This day, Yuhuan made a point of saying this before school was over, "How old are you and you are still so playful, are you stupid? My son doesn't play this game anymore." Almost helpless.

"I bet Yuhuan's son must be a standard gentle [hmm] wife." Xie Zhe said so firmly, Bai Yuze turned his face and stared at him contemptuously. "Stop trying to extend your claws to the pure and innocent young man, okay?"

After the speech, Yuhuan announced that she could go to the cafeteria to eat.The students swarmed up and pushed towards the door, Bai Yuze habitually turned his head and asked Leng Shan: "Are we together today?"

The boy raised his eyes and stared at him silently for a few seconds before hesitating and slowly nodding. "...Mmm." His gaze turned to Xie Zhe who was standing in the aisle, he just glanced at Fir Shan lightly, without making a sound.

Since the results of the mid-term exam were released, the relationship between Leng Shan and Bai Yuze has become much more harmonious than before. Apart from simple questions and answers in homework, they have gradually communicated in private.

From Bai Yuze's point of view, this kind of development is logical and nothing unnatural, but Leng Shan has vaguely thought of quitting.But it's very contradictory, he can't deliberately keep the distance between the two of them as before, and with the lesson from last time, he can't bear to see his disappointed and gloomy eyes anymore.

what to do.This time, before any of them get stuck, they will always find a way to get out.Otherwise, when it comes to the end of the road, the ending will be beyond redemption.

In this way, the two continued the pull of you advancing and retreating, one simple and reckless, ignorant and fearless, the other hesitating and struggling.

In fact, Xie Zhe, who was a bystander, could clearly see Leng Shan's current predicament, but he didn't intervene for a long time.It stands to reason that he didn't need to hesitate and be soft-hearted, but he had to admit that what he saw at Fir Shan's house that day deeply stimulated him.In the past, she never thought that in order to ensure the safety of her loved one, Leng Shan would make such a concession to the person she hated most in her life—it was none other than Leng Shan.

He is obviously such a proud and cold person, but he doesn't hesitate to sacrifice his own body...He could hardly think about it any further.

I thought that the biggest victim in that accident was Bai Yuze, but now it seems that I was wrong.The two cannot be compared side by side, because drawing either conclusion would seem like irrelevant blasphemy.

In any case, pain is pain.After stopping the bleeding and leaving a scar, looking back, isn't it the same? ... On the contrary, it was me who saw everything too simply.In a way, he was wrong.

However, it is far from throwing in the towel.

Not intervening now, but waiting for the time.What he has to do is to stay by someone's side and give him the warm support that he never left from the beginning to the end.

Feelings are earned by yourself.Xie Zhe doesn't want charity from others.

After all, he was once such a proud person.

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On Christmas Eve, the snow that lasted for nearly half a month finally stopped.

It was Christmas Eve, but due to the working day, the students naturally couldn't get a holiday.The whole day of classes made them dizzy, their homework load doubled instead of reduced, and they all drooped their heads and complained after school at night.

Bai Yuze and Xie Zhe had just left the teaching building, and were yawning side by side as they walked towards the dormitory, when an excited voice behind them stopped them: "Hey—will you go out with me tonight?"

"No, no. Are you kidding me? I have to fight until the early morning just for homework today." Xie Zhe didn't even bother to turn around to look at people, and simply refused.

"Tch, homework dog." Yao Lu sneered, then went up to hook Bai Yuze's neck, affectionately: "...Xiaobai?"

Turning his head away with an embarrassed smile, Bai Yuze looked puzzled: "That's what... Yaoer, look, tomorrow is Christmas, and if we really want to go crazy, it won't take a day or two... Right?"

Yao Lu was disappointed and angrily pointed at the backs of the two of them and raised his eyebrows, saying: "The adulterer whore [uh huh] woman! Hmph, don't drag me down, I'll be happy alone." After saying that, she turned around and left angrily. .

Bai Yuze and Xie Zhe looked at each other suspiciously, thinking that something is wrong with this person today, it is rare to see him so irritable.

"Hey...wait, wait!" After hesitating for a moment, Xie Zhe stopped the displeased figure from a distance, and asked, "Where is Lao Ning? Let him accompany you. Anyway, going back to bed will be playing games all night." .”

"Hmph, talk about that nonsense, that guy disappeared after school." Yao Lu had already reached the door of the building, supporting the heavy glass door with one hand, raised the other arm and waved at them indiscriminately. "Okay, hurry up and go, I'll come back after shopping alone."

Bai Yuze also frowned and waved at him, still worried: "You should come back soon too! It's such a cold day."

"Understood." The boy responded casually, pushed open the door and walked into a world of ice and snow.However, before he took a few steps towards the back wall, the phone in his pocket vibrated violently. "……Hello?"

"Little green, it's me."

"...Mom." When he came to the dark corner of the building, he stopped slowly and fumbled for a cigarette with his back against the wall. "What's up?……"

"Actually, it's nothing... Isn't it Christmas Eve today? Knowing that the school won't let you go home, your dad and I just wanted to at least call and talk to you. It's been cold these days, so don't just try to be cool, Wear more yourself."

The eyebrows and eyes illuminated by the flames instantly gave people the illusion of softness, Yao Lu silently lit the cigarette, silently exhaled the white mist that was still warm, half-closed her eyes and slightly raised the corners of her lips. "...Ah. Got it. You two too, your joints are prone to cold, so remember to close the windows at night."

After Yao's mother chattered a lot, the phone was transferred to Yao's father.Yao Lu listened quietly, staring up at the night sky dyed dark crimson by the street lamps, and occasionally said "hmm", the smoke dust that was shining faintly between her fingers accumulated a lot, and gradually peeled off sporadically.

The cigarette was a little hot, but he didn't want to throw it into the freezing snow anytime soon.

After hanging up the phone, Yao Lu stared down at the line "home 28 minutes and 13 seconds" on the call record for a long time, then put the phone into his pocket together with his hands that were about to freeze, and took a deep breath of the cold winter. air.

"Get out of here! I don't have a fucking son like you!"

"Who do you say you are like... Who do you say you are like! How can it be so difficult for you to listen??"

"If I had known that something like you would be born, I might as well have killed it when I brought it home from the hospital!"

"... If you dare to touch my piano, I'll show you my mother's death!!"

"Parents?... Ha, are you so shy and call yourself parents like this? How touching are the 'parents' who have been hated by your own son for more than ten years!!..."

Under the sudden stabbing pain in his heart, Yao Lu recalled his trance thoughts.

Recalling this kind of thing, even if you close it and don't read it, it will just be repeated again and again. — can't change anything.In fact, he already knew this truth.

When did I learn not to hesitate and look back.When did I realize that the deeper the love, the more it hurts.When will I finally be able to smile and spit out soft and concerned words from the same mouth that I used to vent my hatred.

Young children are always clamoring to grow up.Yes, being an adult has its benefits.However, it's better not to think about "growing up" so beautifully.

When people learn to be independent, they will always become rebellious, and at the same time they will learn paranoia. The extreme of paranoia is endless quarrels and mutual harm with relatives.

If you had known this earlier, if you had known that growing up was such a hard and painful process, would you still be so eagerly looking forward to its arrival?

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I don’t know how many times, I finally stopped an empty car on the cold street where there are fewer and fewer pedestrians. After hearing the distant and gloomy destination, the old master slowly shook his head to express his helplessness. It's too far away.

Lin Ran stamped her almost numb feet on the side of the road in disappointment and anxiety, raised her wrist to look at the time, and hesitantly clenched the phone in her pocket.

How to do how to do.It was so late, he must have been waiting impatiently.

Reluctantly turning around, the boy had no choice but to hurry towards the next intersection, turning his head to look at the blurred end of the road in the distance, trying to find the sporadic cold light on the top of the taxi.

From the shops and restaurants lined up on the side of the road, the cheerful melody of "Jingle Bells" overflows from time to time, and the brightly colored paint on the floor-to-ceiling windows is intertwined to form a swashbuckling English language.The pendants and bells hanging outside the door swayed gently in the cold wind and made a crisp sound, hitting Lin Ran's restless heart one after another.

Something was easily aroused by the beautiful scenery along the road, he just stared at it and slowly lost his mind, and he didn't even notice the unfriendly figure not far behind him who had been following him for a long time.

When the stalker finally got impatient with this unchallenging competition, Lin Ran was suddenly thrown down on the cold and dark corner, and before he could react, his chest was firmly stepped on by a foot.Panting and struggling for a long time, he looked up in embarrassment, trying to identify people from a bottom-up perspective.

The sharp chin of the young man was slightly cold because of the sneer, staring indifferently at his panicked eyes, Su Yang leaned down to draw the smile on his lips deeper - he likes to see others because of his And the look of fear.

"...Yo. It's so late, who are you going to see?"

Quietly pursing her lips, Lin Ran's face was pale but stubborn and silent.

Seeing this, the domineering young man was even more upset, and he exerted more force on his feet, until Lin Ran bit his lip in pain and frowned, his deep and cold voice was quenched again: "Are you dumb or deaf? Let me ask you a question." , didn't you hear?"

"...I don't need to answer you." Knowing that doing so would only put him in a more dangerous situation, he still mustered up the courage to say it.No matter how incompetent he is, the bottom line of self-esteem has not been lost.

Sure enough, Su Yang's face immediately sank when he heard the words, and his eyes could not hide the anger. "What did you say kid?"

Why, how dare he speak to himself in such a tone? !He is obviously a waste who can only hold back people - Su Yang clenched his fists, and the slight sound of his knuckles due to excessive force was clearly audible in the quiet atmosphere.

After a long dead silence, Lin Ran thought that he might get a fatal punch at any time, but when he looked up, he found that Su Yang's angry face had been replaced by a calm smile at some point.

"...As expected, you have been allowed to live for too long. Last time, Fourth Master's men should have directly killed you." He slowly opened his lips, raised his feet and took a step back, turning around and blending into the darkness.

...is this going to go?Could it be that he regained his life again?

Lin Ran couldn't believe it, the joy of the rest of his life made him not even feel the pain in his chest.But before he thought about the luck carefully, the proud and stern face of the man came back into sight again, holding the thick wooden stick he just picked up from the ground in his hand.

So he understood.This is where the real punishment begins.

Su Yang didn't even bother to talk about the preface of the beating, he just condescendingly raised the seemingly extremely strong weapon and swung it out.The excessive nervousness caused the boy who fell into the snow to close his eyes suddenly, and gritted his teeth to prepare for the coming severe pain.He had already thought about it, crying was too embarrassing to allow it, and he must not beg for mercy easily before the bone was broken.

Su Yang wanted to laugh seeing his death-defying face, but the pleasure of violence could not stop him. He only heard the wooden stick make a muffled sound in the air, which was definitely enough to knock people unconscious.

Of course, how hard and how to beat.why not?If the scars he left were enough to make that person angry again... that would be great.

Laughing sarcastically, Su Yang could almost imagine that the person's usually expressionless face was forced to look cold and stern by himself.

see.The more you cherish, the more I will destroy it for you to see.What can you do to me?

It's not that easy for me, Su Yang, to give up.

With a heavy muffled sound, Lin Ran's dark pupils shrank violently unconsciously, and it was not until several seconds passed that he realized that there was no pain in his body from being hit.

The part of the field of vision that suddenly darkened was blocked by a tall figure. Although the man was thin, he gave Lin Ran behind him a feeling of inexplicable peace of mind.

Eh... this figure... have you seen it before?

Yao Lu first maintained a slightly bowed posture and calmly rubbed the arm that had just blocked the wooden stick, then slowly straightened up, elegantly hooked the plaid scarf that had slipped off his neck and put it on one shoulder again, Raising his eyes and smiling dazzledly.

"It's Christmas Eve, it's not good to fight. Is there any deep hatred that we can't talk about?" He smiled and took a step forward. In contrast, Su Yang retreated vigilantly, with a hint of threat in his eyes. "...Which fucking onion are you? What right do you have to meddle in our affairs?"

Yao Lu shrugged meaninglessly and stopped approaching. "Brother, I'm just a passer-by. When I passed by a fork in the road, I unconsciously glanced at this familiar scene that looked like violence. Hey. Based on the principle of splitting half of the meeting, I wondered if I could wait for you to finish. Let my brother and I also take the opportunity to have a good time."

Before he finished speaking, Su Yang's face turned green, and Lin Ran, who was full of gratitude for recognizing Yao Lu just now, suddenly turned pale and shrank back.

"Ci'ao, are you blind? I don't bother with this kind of stuff at all, okay!" Su Yang yelled angrily with his neck down, and smashed the wooden stick in his hand to the corner of the wall at will.Since they were all discovered by passers-by, the unilateral violence could not continue.

"Eh? Could it be that I misunderstood it?" Yao Lu blinked pretending to be puzzled, Yao Lu thought for a moment, then raised her head with a narrow smile. "Ah——I see. Since it wasn't rape[hmm], you hit him so hard—he must have been fucked by him before—!"

"..."

Ever since Su Yang saw the disgusting smiling person in front of him, he was still screaming in his heart that "men who are more handsome than me must die", but now the only thought left is to turn around and leave.

Fuck, he hasn't yet found anyone other than that guy that makes his prostate blaze with such deep sadness as this bastard in front of him.

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