nib boy

On the night of December 24 in the lunar calendar, the road was blocked by heavy snow.

Ning Ziyue hurriedly walked into the gate of his own community, and at the same time took out his mobile phone to check the time.Eighteen past three.

If you don't hurry up, it will be too late.Thinking of this, he quickened his pace and sank into the darkness in the corridor.

As early as a week ago, Yao Lu had made an agreement with them that they would go to his house together on the day of the new year.The running-in of the band was actually just an excuse, mainly because his parents had left for a trip to Tahiti and hadn’t come back yet, and it was too boring for him to be at home alone during the holidays.Of course, this person must be in a very unhappy mood.

If you choose this day to be late, you will die on the cliff.

Originally, there was plenty of time, so he and Lin Ran went to the suburbs to see Lin Yan during the day, and after eating something in the afternoon, they immediately drove back by car. Later, people almost walked all the way back to the city.After they broke up, Ning Ziyue thought that at least he had to go home and change clothes before leaving. After all, he stayed in the cemetery all day, and it was not good to go directly to someone's house on such a day.

However, just when he finally stood at the door of his house and had already taken out the key to open the door, the movements that should have been skillful suddenly froze.

In order to prevent Quan'ersi's subordinates from finding any clues, his residence has never been fixed, and he will secretly move every once in a while.And he just moved into this apartment more than a month ago, and even Lin Ran didn't know about it.

He was pretty sure he turned off everything before he left home in the morning.So what's with the looming TV dialogue that's coming through the door right now? ...

……calm.It's too late to back down now.He took a deep breath, hesitated for a moment, then stepped forward and unlocked the door as usual.Holding the key tightly, he cautiously stepped into the dimly lit room. He turned his head slightly, and saw the lazy young man lying on his side on the sofa with his head propped up. Hearing the sound, he raised his eyes to look at him. The outline illuminated by the soft light of the TV was gone. A lot of the usual arrogance and surlyness, I almost didn't recognize it for a while.

"You..." It took a long time for Ning Ziyue to recover, although Ning Ziyue was surprised, he still frowned habitually, becoming more and more vigilant. "How do you know where I live?"

"Don't be so stern. Don't worry, I'm the only one who knows you live here." Su Yang sat up slowly, smiling in the dark. "I really have nowhere to go today, so I thought that if it was you, you probably wouldn't mind staying with me for one night."

Ning Ziyue just looked at him silently from a distance, without answering.

He knew that his parents had already had a new love after their divorce, and they had no time to take care of him except sending money on time. To some extent, his situation was somewhat similar to his own.Today is the new year, no matter how wild a child is, he should know how lonely he is.It's just that I don't understand, the relationship between them is obviously already very tense, what does it mean to come to the door suddenly?Take the initiative to seek peace? ...

The room was quiet for a long time, Su Yang was probably waiting for his reply.Ning Ziyue finally looked away with a blank expression, took off his shoes and walked towards the bedroom. "...It's up to you. I'll sleep somewhere else tonight."

In any case, at least the person in front of him is not hostile, otherwise even if it is a temptation, there is no need to wait until now.

But Su Yang frowned without any joy when he heard the words, followed him dissatisfied and leaned against the door, watching him dig out clean clothes from the closet and change into them. "Where are you going if you're not at home? Are you looking for that brat?"

Ning Ziyue didn't have the habit of turning on the lights at home. After buttoning the last button of his shirt in the dark, he answered calmly, "Where I go is none of your business."

"It doesn't matter why." Su Yang curled his lips coldly, raised his hand and took a sip of the beer in the can, narrowing his eyes slightly. "If you dare to leave tonight, I dare to ask someone to bring it here. Why, you don't think I was showing weakness to you before. It's a pity that I was born not knowing how to ask, but only asking."

What kind of request is it, so nice.This level is already a naked threat.

Ning Ziyue's hand that was about to grab the coat paused for a moment, then he sighed softly.

At almost seven o'clock in the evening, Su Yang went into the bathroom to take a shower without seeing anyone, and Ning Ziyue took this opportunity to send a text message to Yao Lu on the sofa, saying that he had a fever and could not go tonight.The other party first scolded him as an asshole, and after learning that he had no plans to go to the hospital, he asked him very bluntly if he would die suddenly in the middle of the night when he was alone at home.Before waiting for a reply, Su Yang yelled in the bathroom to bring him a bathrobe.

"There is no such thing." Ning Ziyue replied calmly, and just took a T-shirt from the closet for him.

Three minutes later, the boy came out of the bathroom wearing the loose white T-shirt with a dissatisfied expression. He first glanced at the figure on the sofa, then sat down angrily with a beer.Ning Ziyue stared at the TV silently without speaking, the time seemed to grow longer in the darkness.Finally, someone lost his temper.

"You must hate me in your heart." The water dripped down the neck and into the collar, and the material on the shoulders was already wet.Su Yang whispered, but his eyes did not leave the TV. "It doesn't matter whether you used violence against Lin Ran many times before, or threatened you like today.... If you scold me, I won't fight back."

Ning Ziyue was silent.The boy smiled again.

"...That's right. You have always disdained to scold people. It's like that saying, 'Silence is the greatest irony to a person'."

Turning to stare at him for a moment, Ning Ziyue looked away again. "...You are not the same. Didn't you say that you never want to see my face again?"

Slightly at a loss for words, Su Yang immediately lowered his head and rubbed his eyes mockingly. "Speaking of this topic, I seem to owe you a punishment."

"...I'm not interested in talking about the past."

"You thought you were just letting me go in a good mood, but I don't think there is any mercy in the world that is closer to humiliation." Su Yang always hit the nail on the head when talking to him, but this time he didn't return after the other party fell into a deeper silence. Every step of the way.

The underwater world on the screen is gorgeous and colorful, and the small fluorescent colors flicker in the coral, covering the whole screen with aqua blue.The cold light hit the face, and the shadows formed by the eyelashes and bangs made the boy's facial contours more distinct.There was no longer the sneering curve around his mouth, and Ning Ziyue was slightly stunned by the inadvertent glance at that focused and lonely gesture.

"...you come to me." The tone was obviously serious and solemn, Su Yang should have made up his mind, but his voice trembled in the stagnant air for some reason.

Ning Ziyue looked up in astonishment to see him approaching, with one hand propped on the back of the sofa, the beer can still in hand hanging dangerously by his side, half-closed eyes glanced into his eyes from bottom to top. "Have you been guessing why I came to you tonight. Now, I'll tell you."

"You...are you drunk." Frowning in trouble, Ning Ziyue unconsciously leaned back, raising his hand to push him away.However, the hand was only halfway out, and it was stagnant there.

The boy was staring intently at his face, and the smile on his lips gradually faded away.He saw him approaching little by little, his expression had completely withdrawn the domineering edges and corners of the past, he exhaled gently with the fragrance of wine, and slowly closed his eyes at a distance of smelling the breath.

The movement was as slow as a seduction.No, it was indeed a seduction.

Bewitched by the ambiguous atmosphere, his mind went blank for a moment, but he immediately pushed the other person's shoulder and stood up reflexively.

The beer can in his hand finally lost its center of gravity after the sound of liquid colliding with the metal wall, and fell to the ground with a "slap", and the orange liquid spilled out silently from inside.

The stalemate may last only a few seconds, but the air is so oppressive that it is unbearable.

"...I'm going to take a shower." Apart from avoiding it temporarily, he couldn't think of any other way to cover up those slight panics right now.However, the boy's calm voice sounded behind him and successfully stabilized his figure.

"You think I'm crazy. But if you want to talk about stupid things, I did one two and a half years ago. It's much stupider than this. I wonder if you'd like to hear it?"

The back is silent.Su Yangquan took it as his acquiescence.

"As you know, the reason why I, Su Yang, formed such a bad personality is due to family reasons. Probably the shadow is too deep. I have only trusted one person wholeheartedly since I was a child. However, two and a half years ago, that bastard betrayed the entire gang with the determination to break the boat, and then left without saying a word.

"It was raining heavily that night, and the gang was in a mess because of Tiaozi's surprise attack. There were even more people who were shot and killed on the spot. Because of the news that person released in advance, I took advantage of their chaos to escape from the beginning. Come out. But at that time, even if I escaped, I didn’t know where else I could go. It seemed that I didn’t even have the only place to stay overnight. I never cared about those things that have no sense of reality. Why was it so painful at that time? Looking back now, it should be the despair after being betrayed by the only person I trusted.

"That night I was drenched and walked down the streets, and at first I had fantasies that maybe he would come back when he changed his mind, maybe I could see his always indifferent but reassuring face at the next corner. So I kept walking, walking all night, only stopped to drop a coin when I encountered a phone booth, and wanted to ask him why he didn't even take me with him when he ran away. At that time, I didn't know that he had already changed his number, and walked all the way He kept calling, but no one answered.

"Later, I got connected. Because I knew that as long as he made the decision, he would never look back. Even if he betrayed him."

Ning Ziyue didn't move at all while listening to him, because his back was facing him, so he couldn't reveal the wavering in his eyes.But the silence finally angered the other party.

Su Yang approached slowly, and said step by step: "...why do you think I hate you so much? Why do you think I go to trouble that kid so often? Do you think that if I only regarded you as a big brother or a brother back then, Can you still humbly beg a traitor to fuck me like today!!"

After all, he didn't wait for Ning Ziyue to finish turning around, he had already grabbed his collar desperately, and kissed him with a desperate gesture.The lips and tongue seem to have become sharp swords at this time, used to fight against the aliens who forcibly invaded.

The scorching temperature temporarily melted whoever refused whose persistence, the distance between the lips diminished, and the flustered blue.

What is the emotion that is rolling violently in his chest, Su Yang has no way to say it, and absolutely can't say it.

It's not that I hate it, and it's definitely not that I like it. It's not something that can be explained so simply.It's not the kind of colorful milk foam on the coffee, not the kind of simple and simple thing.

Not something crude like carnal love, not something that is easy to get, not something that is very satisfying.

It's not the kind of thing that is full of good intentions, without the awareness of "it doesn't matter if I let go, as long as he lives well", it's not the kind of thing that is full of reason.

So what's on your mind right now?I want to kiss him and bite him, I want to skin and tear him apart, and then sprinkle my own blood into it; I want to tear him up and grind him, and bury him in the soil with my own blood and tears; I want to I want to make him miserable but I want to make him happy; I want to take revenge but I want to hold him tight and never let go. I feel happy even if I am thrown into hell in the next second, as long as I have him by my side.

That's right, it's the kind of dirty and selfish thoughts, gentle licking and vicious gnawing, things that are naturally contradictory but inseparable.

It may be too extreme and ugly, but that is love.

If you can't understand the things in each other's hearts, then just seal them up and don't mention them again. ...

When the solid door was kicked open from the outside, the whole room was filled with the suffocating blue of the seabed, and the two figures on the side of the wall that almost overlapped each other had just experienced stagnation of breathing. danger.

The shocked gazes of the two reached the entrance at the same time. Even in the dim light, they could barely make out the delicate and feminine contours of the person's face, and the closed lip line was damn beautiful.

The room suddenly fell into a dead silence, and even the TV program quietly suppressed the sound.

Seeing that no one made a sound for a long while, Yao Lu put one hand on the door frame and curled her lips into a sneer, her voice so cold seemed to be sprinkled with ice.

"...Looking at this situation, it's not so much a fever, it's better to say that you are burning yourself. Ning Ziyue."

So now in this world, the two people who can press him word for word, name and name, are all in front of us.

Ning Ziyue was still silently looking in the direction of the door in the dark corner, the faint light in the corridor slowly came in from behind the tall figure, but it couldn't cover the anger that the other party had revealed.Su Yang next to him was unwilling to let go of his shirt, even though he had already forgotten that the person in front of him broke into the house for no reason and had a relationship with him once, the instinctive hostility in his body was always stronger than his memory More sensitive Dengxian.

"Who are you?" At the end, Su Yang asked the uninvited guest coldly, with an unnatural blush on his lips.

Yao Lu could hear the provocation in the other party's tone, but this time she was not in a hurry to fight. She just slowly took out a cigarette and put it in her mouth without lighting it, and said leisurely: "...No one."

The tones became calmer and calmer, but an atmosphere of urgency had quietly spread.

The two are really very similar in some places.Ning Ziyue, who temporarily became a bystander in the room, can see clearly from outside the circle.

Beautiful, and stubborn—beautiful, okay, but stubborn, the most troublesome.

"I don't know what devotion you have done before, and no one responded even if I knocked the door down. Of course, I don't want to blame anyone-I am too stupid to think that someone It’s so easy to die suddenly with a high fever. But this door is too fragile, and its quality is defective, so I won’t pay for it.” The person who spoke the above words calmly with a cigarette in his mouth said, looking up at Ningzi for the first time tonight Yue's deep eyes.

"Also, don't make up such wicked excuses next time you have a lover. Deceit is much worse than breaking an appointment." While turning around neatly, he took out his lighter and lit the cigarette with a "click". I can't tell my emotions from my back. "……gone."

Listening to his footsteps gradually disappearing in the depths of the corridor, Su Yang let go of his fingers, and his eyelashes were buried in the shadows. "...Aren't you going after him?"

"...No need." Ning Ziyue's tense nerves eased a little, and then he tasted the sweet taste of blood in his mouth, probably bitten by Su Yang earlier. "Besides, he didn't give me room to explain."

It seemed that he didn't intend to bring up the details of the previous kiss, and slowly turned around to open the bathroom door. "Just go to your room and rest. I'll sleep in the living room tonight."

Seeing that he was unmoved, Su Yang became uncomfortable, poked his neck and blurted out mockingly: "Why, because I was bumped into by that person, I thought of avoiding it? Who is he?"

Frowning slightly with his back turned to him, Ning Ziyue sighed and said in a low voice, "...just friends. Just like you."

Just like you. ...

He couldn't help being stunned outside the door, and he watched him close the door silently in front of his face, and the pain gradually rising made his chest suffocate.

"Haha...just a friend..." He bowed his head and laughed outside for a long time, then rushed to the door and shouted sharply: "Then why don't you go to your friend's place quickly, what's wrong with staying here! Do you have sympathy?! You don’t need that kind of thing!!”

It was quiet inside for a long while, before Ning Ziyue's voice was heard, still calm. "...I'm not around, he has someone to accompany him tonight.

"But you didn't..."

Su Yang was shocked, then bit his lip and clenched his fist silently.

Why on earth are you so indulgent to me.

Did the person inside already know the fact that he never complained about him in his heart.

Can't complain.How can I complain about you. ...

He was glad that there was a door between them at this time, and all weak expressions could not be seen.In his eyes, he was still that arrogant, perverse and violent brat.It doesn't matter if you deserve a beating or hateful.

Just don't pity me.

My self-esteem does not allow myself to be frank and humble in front of the people I care about the most.

Late at night.

Ning Ziyue lay on the sofa for a long time unable to fall asleep, so he took out his phone to check the time.After a little hesitation in the light of the screen, he still sent a text message to Yao Lu.

"I'll be there early tomorrow morning."

No apology.

Apologizing now is probably just adding fuel to the fire.

There was no movement for a long time, but he knew he must not be asleep.

At first he wanted to let it go like this, but he didn't know which muscle was wrong. After half an hour, he turned on the phone and stared at it for a long time, and sent another one in thought.

"Stop pinching cigarettes with your hands..."

After the fireworks bloomed outside the window, the falling flames filtered mottled shadows on his face, and finally disappeared.

Throughout the night, he did not receive any reply from Yao Lu.

The author has something to say: I will be traveling for a week, so the update will be postponed.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone~