nib boy

People usually live very empty for a period of time after the new year, especially after the end of the eighth day of the lunar new year, all the festivities and festivities unique to festivals are like a big dream, and disappear after a sharp cooling.

Buried half dead in his homework and struggling for a week, Bai Yuze was so bored at home that he couldn't sit still, and wanted to call someone to go out for a walk.Randomly flipping through the phone book, Xie Zhe hasn't come back since he returned to his hometown, Yao Lu's schedule seems to be very busy recently, Ning Ziyue has been quiet for a long time for some reason, and never shows up among the four people in their group.

The phone book was read from beginning to end, and from back to front.The fingertips paused involuntarily when they passed the letter "L" again, and the temperature of the screen seemed to burn because of this short stay.

I remember that on the night of thirty, he tried to dial Fir Shan's phone after a long time of deliberation. After the first ring, no one answered for a long time.

"...Hello." The environment over there was very noisy, with loud music and excited voices.Bai Yuze was stunned for a moment, and he came back to his senses only after Leng Shan also noticed the unnaturalness of the large silence between them and called his name twice. "Ah... sorry. Where are you, where are you now?"

"In the bar where I usually work."

"Eh? Don't you take vacations during Chinese New Year?"

"...I stayed voluntarily. The bar does not have a holiday for the Spring Festival."

What's the situation... the ones who celebrate the Chinese New Year don't reunite with their families?If the parents can't do it, at least with the elder brother... Is it possible that there is a quarrel?

However, Bai Yuze couldn't ask such doubts to himself anyway, and could only watch the conversation freeze again.

Leng Shan was silent for a moment, then said: "Call, what's the matter?"

"...It depends on what you asked. If you call today, there is only one possibility." Bai Yuze took a deep breath, shook off the unrealistic negative thoughts in his mind, and curled the corners of his mouth. "Happy New Year.……"

As soon as the voice fell, the New Year's bell rang leisurely on the TV, and Leng Shan vaguely heard it on the other end of the phone.It happened to be exactly twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, and all the homeless people in the bar stood up and raised their glasses to celebrate together, sincere wishes to the strangers around them one after another.

But Fir Shan opened his mouth, but it was like a thorn in his throat.It is so easy to blurt out a sentence of "Happy New Year", but it is not a line that he has rehearsed thousands of times in his heart.In the end, there was only a low nasal reply: "...um. Thank you."

Now recalling his tone when he said that sentence, Bai Yuze still feels inexplicably uncomfortable in his heart.So, even though my fingers hesitated on the name for nearly 2 minutes, I finally gave up.After a little deliberation, he had no choice but to call Yao Lu's cell phone with the mentality of trying his luck.

"Yobothieyo——" It didn't take long for the familiar joyful voice to rang in my ears, making it impossible to suppress the natural desire to complain.

"...Please, even if your language talent is amazing, you don't have to just walk the birds when you see people. Are you deliberately trying to make trouble for me?"

"Tsk, the S attribute has been strengthened in the new year. It seems that my general offensive status is dangerous." Yao Lu smiled wildly to himself, looking in a good mood. "Which one made a mistake today and suddenly called Grandpa? It seems that after half a month of separation, I can't restrain my heart full of longing—"

"Yeah, yeah, I can't eat, I can't sleep at night." Bai Yuze calmly lay down on the bed and stretched. "Are you free today? Let's go out and meet. I'm going to grow mushrooms at home all day now."

"Okay." The other party readily agreed, and said without hesitation: "Then you can find me at the bar I took you to last time. I've been here all day. Do you remember the exact location?"

Bai Yuze was suddenly startled.That bar called "Xun", isn't it just...

"You... are there now?" He hesitated, not knowing how to speak.

"Yeah. What?"

"Uh...you, haven't you met anyone you know?"

"Huh?..." Yao Lu sat on the high stool with her legs crossed and uttered a monotone of doubt, her eyes inadvertently flicked over to the paralyzed guy who was frowning and flipping through the piano score in his hand, and suddenly raised her lips with deep meaning. "Ah. Yes, there are... Don't you like other people around? Then let's change places."

"Ah... no, no, no, that's not what I meant. Then I'll go out in 10 minutes. I'll see you soon." He hung up the phone in a hurry, sighing inwardly, almost self-defeating.He jumped up from the bed like a carp, feeling a little happy in his heart.

finally.Finally got to see him again.

On the other hand, Yao Lu put down his cell phone with a cunning smile, and found that Leng Shan was staring straight at him with his head tilted, and immediately regained his fierce look: "What are you looking at me for? Look at the music score! Don't think that you have made a little progress recently, so you will start screaming." You are still far away from being a teacher!"

Leng Shan didn't bother to pick up the quarrel at all, she turned her gaze and continued to look through the pile of bean sprouts on the paper according to her words, and after a while, she calmly said: "Someone wants to come to you?"

"Do your shit."

"...There is no such rude master in the world."

"There is no apprentice who dares to talk to the master like that."

"That's because you don't have prestige."

"...Stinky boy, don't you want to mess around anymore?! Just come here if you want to fight!"

Fir Shan gave him a final cold look with obvious disdainful eyes, calmly picked up the scattered paper manuscripts on the keys, inadvertently tilted his neck slightly, and made a crisp joint sound, and there was already a hint of provocation on his lips. "……Anytime."

Fortunately, there was no one in the bar in the afternoon. Boss Qi was wiping glasses behind the bar some distance from the stage, then shook his head slowly, not doing anything to the two who were at war with each other almost every day.

"...Two enemies."

When Bai Yuze stepped into "Xun", there were already more people in the bar, and the depths of it were still dim and chaotic, which made him feel uncomfortable.

Sure enough, he was stopped by the dedicated waiter at the door and questioned carefully. Bai Yuze was powerless and was racking his brains to make up a lie to sneak in, but a person came out with a smile, stepped forward and hugged the two of them. full of.

"Why did you come here at this time? It's not because of your intermittent road blindness again." Yao Luchongni leaned up to rub his forehead, and before Bai Yuze could make an excuse to refute, he turned to Gu Mingye, who was blushing on the other side, " Brother, I was looking for you. Old Qi called you in to help move the wine box~~"

"Why are you still standing in a daze, let's go." So under his blunt leadership, the two quickly followed in without any objection.On the way, Gu Mingye peeked at Bai Yuze again, feeling a little concerned about the way Yao Lu greeted him affectionately just now, but at least he held back and didn't show it.

The light in the bar hall was really dark, no different from the effect at night.Bai Yuze was very surprised that the business of this bar was so hot that it was almost full even during the day - there must be some reason.

"Xiaobai, you go to sit at table No.11 first, I have already reserved that seat. I will find you after I finish helping my brother move things." Yao Lu interrupted his meaningless meditation, talking He rushed to the front row and pointed in a certain direction. "Want something to drink? I'll bring it to you when I get back."

"Hmm...Gin and Tonic is ready." He watched Yao Lu and the young waiter walk straight to the bar side by side, and turned around with a headache and squeezed into the dark crowd, stretching his neck to look at the people on each table. number number.Of course, at the same time, he never forgot to look hard towards the dance floor through the gaps in the crowd, trying to find someone's familiar black figure.If it was a holiday, maybe he would come to work full-time.

In the end, after walking around for a long time, he couldn't find the No.11 table that Yao Lu mentioned. When Bai Yuze was in a state of desperation, the melancholy and silent prelude rang so abruptly in his ears.

When he raised his eyes for a moment, he saw him standing far away in the middle of the prototype stage, with his hands freely interspersed and changing the sound of the piano, his calm and deep eyes wandered around the audience, but at the end, he suddenly stopped at himself. face.In an instant, the heart beat wildly.

There was a slight surprise in those eyes, a whisper of joy and a tenderness that would defeat itself without a fight.It's a pity that the distance is too far, and there are so many emotions in it, but Bai Yuze has no way of knowing it. He just connects his eyes to it like a maniac, and all his rationality is suddenly defeated. ...

Scarsmakeuswhoweare

Hey. Tears all fall the same

Weall feel the rain

We can't change

Everywhere we go, we're looking for the sun

Nowhere to grow old. We're always on the run

They say we'll rotin hell, but I don't think we will

They've branded usenough. Outlaws of love...

Hearing his perfect, almost desperate, yet affectionate singing voice, Bai Yuze met his eyes motionlessly from beginning to end, and when the song was over, there was thunderous applause, and a sense of renunciation suddenly appeared in his heart. Crazy impulse.

He was so impulsive that for a moment, he had the stupid and obsessive thought of "does he also like me?"

However, maybe it's just obsession... that's all.

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After tossing in confusion for a long time, Bai Yuze finally found the No. 11 table under Yao Lu's bag.

After the end of the song, Fir Shan came down from the stage and walked through the crowd, and straightly pulled out the chair and sat in front of him.Bai Yuze looked up at him stiffly, feeling a kind of retreat in his heart.There is no way to calmly face this person's quiet and deep eyes, from the beginning to the present.

"Why are you here?" He asked, the V-neck of the black sweater outlined the looming collarbone.

"I... came to find someone."

"This is not where you should be."

"how about you?"

Leng Shan stared fixedly at his somewhat serious face, then lowered her eyes and slightly curled her lips. "...Because I have nowhere to go but here."

"Does your brother know that you sing in the bar every night? Why make yourself so hard?"

Shaking his head slightly, all his expressions were hidden in the darkness that looked like nothingness, but he just smiled wryly. "……You do not understand."

"If you don't tell, how will others understand?" Bai Yuze felt that this person's deep autism was hopelessly incurable.Although it may be true that the real pain cannot be expressed in words, there is really no other fool in the world who would rather be crushed than others to bear and share it for him.

Leng Shan looked up at him and smiled, then got up without saying a word. "I'm going to sing for a long time. There are many people in the bar, so you can go back after a while." Before Bai Yuze could stop him, he turned around and disappeared.

It didn't take long for the low and slow singing to linger on the huge dance floor again, and Bai Yuze suddenly felt a little short of breath when he heard it.When Yao Lu came back to sit across from him with the wine glass, Bai Yuze finished the glass patiently, with a slightly uncomfortable expression on his face. "I'm going to the bathroom."

"What, want to throw up? Do you want me to accompany you?" Yao Lu frowned and looked at him.

He stood up and waved his hands wildly. "It's okay, it's just a little chest tightness. It's too noisy here, I'll just go out and take it easy."

"That's fine. Don't go into the women's toilet by mistake." Yao Lu watched him squeeze out of the aisle with uneasiness, and filled her cup with a helpless sigh. "What's going on with this kid..."

Bai Yuze went straight to the sink after entering the bathroom, pouring a handful of cold water on his face, he became sober.

Never been so sober.

I can't stand it anymore.I can't bear to see him wandering alone in the dark world.Somebody has to pull him out, and if his brother can't—me instead.It doesn't matter if you are rejected again, even if you are alienated or hated, you will admit it.As long as he can understand, there are still people in the world who are willing to stand by his side...

What I seek is never a result, but no regrets.

Water drops kept sliding down the contour of the brow bone, and Bai Yuze stared intently at himself in the mirror whose eyes gradually became firmer.He has already decided that he will stay here until Fir Shan leaves.On the way back, he had to pour out what he wanted to say.

I don't know if it was the previous self, what choice would I make at this time?Does he have the bravery he has now?

"Tsk. It's been a long time, why haven't you come back? Even if you have been wanting for a long time, you must have blown too much." Yao Lu's bottle of wine was half down, and she gradually became restless.After holding back his temper and waiting for a while, he finally took out his mobile phone in anger and called the missing person, but it turned off.

"Fuck." He cursed, put down his phone, and was about to leave his seat and go to the bathroom to find someone, but was stopped by a figure that appeared out of nowhere.

"Hello. Can I sit here?" The man with a perfect figure in a casual suit on the opposite side looked no longer young, but his face was unexpectedly handsome, and his smile was gentle and refined.He was standing beside Bai Yuze's seat right now, looking into Yao Lu's eyes and asking politely, followed by several strong men with fierce expressions.

Do you still come to strike up a conversation when you are old?Yao Lv sneered coldly with displeasure, and raised his chin slightly. "What if I say no?"

"Can you give me a reason?" The smile on the man's lips remained undiminished, but the expressions of the people behind him changed, and they stared fiercely at Yao Lu as if they wanted to skin him.

He was disdainful, not afraid at all.Rao is smiling like a flower, and his long and narrow eyes are full of arrogance and provocation. "I'm really sorry, I'm born to feel sorry for my uncle..." Before he finished speaking, someone beside him suddenly grabbed his hand and pulled him back. Yao Lu lost his balance in a hurry, and barely managed to stand still after taking two steps back .

"Who the hell dares to touch me—" He raised his head and said angrily almost immediately, but suddenly became dumb when he saw the profile of the person in front of him clearly.

Leng Shan was looking at him sharply with his head tilted, with a hint of warning in his expression.Yao Lu couldn't help being slightly stunned, and heard Gu Mingye, who had just rushed over after hearing the sound, respectfully call the man with an unnatural smile: "It's been a long time since I saw you.... Fourth Lord."

The man known as the fourth master only smiled slightly after taking his seat, without looking at him, his eyes lingered between Leng Shan and Yao Lu behind him, probably waiting for the other party to speak first.

Leng Shan also seemed to understand his intentions, and calmly explained to Yao Lu after a brief silence: "He came here for the first time, and he didn't understand anything, and he didn't intend to offend. I'll let him pay attention next time."

"You can drink whatever you want today, it's considered the boss's treat. Don't worry about this unpleasantness." Gu Mingye also took up the conversation in time, although he was smiling, his back was sweating coldly.

The man glanced at Yao Lu who was blocked by the fir tree again, and then his eyes stayed on the overlapping hands of the two, and his expression suddenly became subtle.Cursing his lips, he picked up the cup that Yao Lu had used earlier, and Gu Mingye immediately approached to pour the wine knowingly.He took a sip without haste, and then raised his eyes to look at Fir Tree again. "This one, could it be your...?"

The end of the story is not finished, it is extremely ambiguous, but the meaning is self-explanatory.

Gu Mingye was taken aback when he heard that, and turned his head to look at the two of them blankly, while Yao Lu finally couldn't bear it anymore, and stepped forward with angry brows, and was about to rush forward to punch him regardless of 21, but Leng Shan's hand A sudden force stopped his movement.

Seeing Leng Shan frowning and not speaking for a long time, the man took him for acquiescing, and comforted him with a warm smile: "Don't worry, I offended you just now. If I had known that he was your friend, I wouldn't have bothered rashly."

Yao Lu was still staring at him, watching Shi Shiran get up after he raised his head and drank the glass of wine in one gulp. "I'm here today to discuss something with Boss Qi, so I'm sorry." Before leaving, the man took one last deep look at him. "Then... goodbye."

"Who the hell is going to say goodbye to a man like you who is impotent just by looking at his face!" When did Yao Lu suffer from this kind of uselessness, and after recovering, he yelled angrily at the passers-by across half of the dance floor, Too bad it was overshadowed by the music.He shook off Fir Shan's hand with the lingering anger, turned around and found that Bai Yuze had been standing silently behind them for an unknown how long, and was momentarily stunned. "Xiaobai... when did you come back?"

Hearing the sound, Leng Shan looked back in surprise, Bai Yuze just looked at him silently for a while, lowered his eyes and smiled.He suddenly remembered his answer when Xie Zhe told him that Leng Shan liked someone else last time.

"The real opponent is still in the dark."But is there a boundary between light and darkness?

When he sang the first song today, he thought that his own shadow had existed in those eyes that were both cold and tender at the same time, but now that he thinks about it, at that time, the back of him was also within his line of sight, and he was always watching Isn't the person who is watching is Yao Lu who is helping out at the bar! ...

The cruelty of reality is always enough to crush all the determination and courage put together so hard.

Cannot ask words that are trying to confirm, for fear of being confirmed.

He is not someone else, but a poison that has already infiltrated into his blood and can no longer be quit in this life.

Standing beside him is not someone else, but his brother who is destined to never be separated from him.

This is really the most ironic multiple-choice question in history.

After five o'clock in the morning, the bar was finally closing after seeing off the last wave of customers.

Fir Shan was still silently sitting in front of the bar, motionless, the glass in front of her was already empty, and she didn't know how to refill it by herself.During this period, Jin Ke called him a few times, but all of them were ignored, and then there was no movement.

Yao Lu sat two seats away from him, and his mouth was almost never idle all night.There are piles of wine bottles under your feet, but I am still calm and breezy. "It's almost done. It's been a night, everyone has left, no matter how sad you are, this misunderstanding will not be resolved."

Unexpectedly, he didn't get an answer. He silently played with the wine glass, and said again: "Hey, I don't know if you can see it... That kid obviously likes you too. You are really calm, don't rush to overwhelm What are you waiting for?" He easily sold his brother.

"...I can't be with him." Fir Shan was vaguely drunk, but conscious. "It's not that I don't want to, it's that I can't."

"Why, do you care about your gender?"

"No." His answer was naturally no. "Like... means that no matter what he becomes, male or female, I only like him. The reason for backing off is just to let him stay on the edge of the cliff for a while... even if it is a few Seconds are fine."

Fir Shan held the wine glass in silence for a long time, then turned her face to the side and said, "You...don't object to such things?"

"How should I put it... After seeing it a lot, I will naturally accept it. Uncle is also gay." Yao Lu yawned while holding her chin. "You say so much, but you just don't want to confess. Master can help you convey it."

"You'll kill him." He whispered.

"At least let him die clearly and happily." Yao Lu also turned to look at him, the cool light reflected in the bottom of his eyes. "You know he likes you, but you hide the fact that you like him—don't you think it's unfair? Give him a chance to choose? Excessive protection will only make him be played like a fool!"

Fir Shan pursed her lips tightly, feeling a little shaken in her heart.

"Believe me, sometimes, people would rather get hurt than be cheated." After another glass was drained, Yao Lu threw the empty bottle to his feet, frowned and decided not to drink anymore.

"You also know that if he takes the initiative to speak to you, you can't refuse it... That's why you never give him a chance to speak. Then, I already know your weakness."

Leng Shan opened his mouth and hesitated for a moment, "Why do you..."

"Why help you? Don't get me wrong, I just want Xiaobai to stop torturing myself for being so weak like you in the future. Frankly speaking, I don't hate you so much."

He didn't make a sound, only felt that there were quite a few people who hated him.He made a slightly listening look, but he wanted to know why this person hated him.

"There is actually only a thin line between a loyal dog and a vicious M. You like mental self-abuse and no one stops you, but seeing you hurt and silently cherishing you will be hurt by it, but you don't understand at all. I hate this kind of thing. people.

"Have you ever heard of an attribute called the Virgin? What a coincidence, I think it's time to call you a priest in the future."

As soon as the ending sound dissipated in the air, Fir Shan took a deep breath.

Yao Lu quickly took the opportunity to start counting in his heart, guessing how many seconds he would explode into a rage.But unfortunately, did not wait.

"...Thank you." Fir Shan's tone was unexpectedly calm, even a little... eased?What the fuck, this situation seems to have opened the door to a new world.Is it really shaking M?The type who gets excited and even ejaculates unknowingly when he gets scolded more badly? !

"Being, be polite..." Yao Lu couldn't help feeling guilty for a while, and planned to change the subject as soon as possible before the atmosphere turned cold.

"By the way, I haven't had time to ask you who the wretched man who hit me up with was before, and you all dare not show frustration when you see him. If it weren't for that bastard Xiaobai, you wouldn't have misunderstood him." Speaking up He couldn't contain his anger.

Fir Shan sighed, with a dignified expression. "He's a coward. He has basically done anything illegal. When I first came here, I saw that he was in contact with Boss Qi. Be careful in the future. It's better not to provoke people on the road."

Quietly lit a cigarette, he thought slowly and said: "I don't know what his real name is, this kind of person likes to call him nicknames outside. Everyone he knows calls him Si Ye, his full name... I don't remember." If it's wrong, it should be called Quan'er Si."

With a sound of "clang", the cup in Yao Lu's hand fell to the ground with a clang.

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