error

buzzing in my ears...

"you're awake."

Someone accompanied me beside the hospital bed, and calmly stated the fact that I woke up. I followed the sound and turned my head to look, not without feeling guilty and ashamed, because of those unbearable layers of dreams.

"How many days? How many days have I slept?" I asked.

"Seven days in a coma, almost oppressing the optic nerve, you almost went blind."

He still calmly stated those empty and misty facts. After listening to it, I suddenly wanted to laugh out loud, so I did the same, laughing until my chest and lungs were about to burst before I stopped.

Those who want to live can't live, but those who want to die can't die, god damn it!

"She was the one who fired the shot, right?" He continued to speak with certainty.

"She and those people have the handle in your hands, right. Say it, and the matter will be over."

"No, I'll chew up and swallow all the secrets and take them to my grave!" I declined his offer.

"You won't have a second life." He began to look at me indifferently.

"Then what do you want baby~ Repeat what you did three years ago? It's so funny!" I couldn't help laughing again.Thus, the negotiation is over.The door of the ward was opened.The person who really accompanied me for seven days came in with the police who took my record.

"Hey! The uniform is so handsome!" I whistled and looked at the person as before, while Zhao Boyang, who was standing by, frowned.

"Thank you." The young policeman responded shyly, hesitantly looking back and forth between the other people in the ward and me.

"We're all going out first." Zhao Boyang tactfully pulled the calm-faced Wen Tao and Mo Yan out of the ward. The moment the door closed, I read threats from his eyes.

"Long time no see, Officer Xia!" I put on my mask again and smiled.

"Long time no see." He replied.

The nightmare never ends, the child from hell came back to me, I was silent, watched him approach, then closed my eyes again trying to return to the endless loop of dreams...

"You said, I'm an idiot... Now... I'm back to find you..." His voice sticking to my ears sticks to my tense nerves, I know, it's time for me to redeem my sins up.

"I apologize." I still closed my eyes, and finally fell into a dream again.

Dreams and reality overlap, and it is hard to tell which is a dream and which is reality.Shaking body and those clear textures and sweat stains... the annoying smell...

"Aurora!" I stretched out that hand, my nails had already been restored to their original neatness, and I called out to her who was somewhere...

"You're distracted!" The child who came back from hell bit my neck, trying to drink up my blood, and I began to recite her name silently, and gradually recalled everything she had done to me. I don't think I need to go to hell anymore, because she is my jailer...

"Tong Mu...she...is Tong Mu..." I opened my eyes, and that's all I could tell him.

"Let's move on!" He was obsessed with the past, ignoring my compromise.

"And...Xiao Ling...his website...TA-TA...there are...problems..." I surrendered under self-blame and fear, at this moment I suddenly realized that I no longer wanted to die .

"Go on!" He still didn't let go.

Silence wets everything, and time is imprisoned stickily.Suddenly, I seemed to see Xiao Ling's shadow on his face. That expression was no longer the expression a person should have.He's come to take revenge on me, I'm damned, but... the only person who shouldn't hate me is him for sure... I don't owe him anything!

"Call out, call for help, they can all hear you..." This is the countless inducements in the nightmare...

"I declare in advance, you don't want to attack the police!" Seemingly seeing my brewing motives, he stopped, looked down at the me who was still no longer like the original me, and said those words coldly: "Go to hell!"

"I beg you……"

"What? What did you say?" He looked at me in surprise.

"I said... I beg you..." I repeated.

"You beg me?" He calmed down and laughed cruelly at my stupidity.

There is no bottom line, it has been broken, I am a coward, I am actually afraid of hell and the world!I don't have the courage to face it!I...don't want to die...because life and death...are hell...

"I beg you..." I looked at the expression on his face that was no longer his, and repeated it again, almost when I was thinking about whether I should give play to the innate acting skills of a liar, but he made a quick gesture In reply to my response...

First punch!

"How dare you fucking beg me!"

Second punch!

"Why don't you die! You dirty scum!"

Third punch!

"Go to hell, bastard!"

Fourth punch!

"Do you know the attitude of asking for help!?"

at the same time……

"Help!!!! Help me!!!" I started to shout for help, he hurriedly covered my mouth, and then, I bit him.

"Help!!!! Help me!!!!"

"I don't want to die!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"I don't fucking want to die!!!!!!"

There was another "bang!", I thought I was back in a dream, but here is still the chessboard, that move, this time, I went first...

"Help me!" I stretched out my hand for help to the people who had already appeared at the door, I began to play the role of a liar, I began to show my timidity and cowardice.They all looked at me with shocked eyes, none of them shot first, but the crazy guy who was looking for my atonement had already stopped, and he was also shocked, looking at me full of confusion and disbelief.

"Please...I apologize...I'm sorry...I don't know...I don't know...why..." My acting skills are still working like that, I finally believe the fact that I am a liar, I don't know now Could she be watching this scene in secret?I want her to watch, I will fool her eyes that know me so well... I will fool her!

"I'm sorry... I'm really sorry!" I fell off the hospital bed from the curled up state, crawled to his feet, and hugged his leg...

"Sorry! Don't kill me! Please! Please! Please!"

His eyes are now filled with various emotions, surprise, disappointment and joy...

They all stared blankly at me, who started to apologize and cry bitterly like crazy, but no one offered a helping hand, just as I expected, it was exactly the same as three years ago... My peripheral vision glanced at Zhao Boyang... People When everyone is gloating or surprised at my embarrassment, only he is thinking...

Have you been seen through...

I felt uneasy, if Zhao Boyang could see through my acting, would she just think what I did was a joke?

No... I have to continue...

"Please..." I buried my face in the crook of my arms against the ground.

As if to match my acting skills, he pulled me up and fell into an unknown pride and pride.I looked desperately at his cruel and playful expression, which was exactly the same as Xiao Ling's, and I didn't know whether I should make up my mind to finish this scene, or... I should burn the boat and let everyone finish together!

"I'll forgive you if you lick my xx!"

As expected, the request is too much, I think I may not be able to continue acting...

"Lick it! I'll forgive you if you lick it! They too!" He grabbed me, just like what I did to him back then, and whispered viciously in my ear: "Lick it, so I will let it go you……"

Just when I was hesitating, a small face appeared behind the door, which made me make up my mind that the play must continue...

I silently looked at Zhao Boyang, Wen Tao and others standing at the door, and asked them for help with my eyes, but I was still indifferent...

In the end, I looked at him who was still smiling distortedly again, and viciously made a move towards me with that obscene gesture...

So I knelt between his crotch...

"Stop!" Mo Ran appeared as expected, followed by Wen Jie, who was staring at me with research eyes... This old pervert!old monster!I began to lose control of my emotions, but I could only cover it up with trembling...

"What's wrong with you!? Are you alright!?" Mo Ran's sudden appearance interrupted his revenge, he watched Mo Ran help me back to the bed, put me back into the hospital gown, he could only grit his teeth Stand still.

"Brother! Why are you doing this!" Just like three years ago, this little girl defended me with unreasonable persistence. I understand that it is not good to use her, but I have no choice.

"How are you?!" When Mo Ran asked me again, even I didn't know what was going on.The lie made me lie to myself too. I couldn't stop my tearful eyes and trembling body. This body could no longer bear these stimuli.I feel guilty about that, it's not my body after all.

"Ouch..." I pushed Mo Ran away and vomited out, the yellow bile kept surging forward, emptying my body...

It was dark before my eyes, and my play finally came to an official end.

She must have seen it, right?

Don't know if it worked?

At the end of my consciousness I happily imagined her equally shocked expression.

……

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