lonely patient

The atmosphere during the meeting was harmonious, except that Wen Luming ignored me all the time.

He doesn't drink, I drank two glasses with Uncle Wen, when he was about to pour the third glass, he was finally willing to give me a look, and asked lightly: "Is your injury healed?"

I froze for a moment, lowered my head and said, "It's okay..."

"Injured?" Auntie looked worried, "Where is the injury?"

"Fracture." Wen Luming answered for me.

"Why didn't you say it earlier?" Auntie reproachfully took my cup away, "Don't drink any more."

I had no choice but to agree: "I forgot..."

Of course I haven't forgotten.

There was still a dull ache in my chest when I talked and coughed, but I just tried to impress his parents the best I could by pretending nothing happened all night.

Not long after the meal, Xia Yi got up to say goodbye, I couldn't hide my surprise, and looked at Wen Luming suddenly.

He was putting on his coat, and while putting it on, he said to Aunt Wen: "I'll take Xia Yi back to school." After he finished speaking, he seemed to glance at me. I don't know what this look means, maybe it's telling me to go too...

"I..." I opened my mouth.

"Xiaoyan will be here tonight." Aunt Wen said, "The room has been cleaned for you."

I didn't dare to agree without authorization, and looked at Wen Luming again.Wen Luming didn't make a statement, but my aunt noticed my movement, embraced me and said, "See what he does, it's settled."

So Wen Luming went to see Xia Yi off, I stayed with a dazed expression, and sat between the two elders to watch the Spring Festival Gala with them.Belle had been sleepy for a long time, nestled on another sofa and fell asleep.

When Wen Luming came back, Uncle Wen couldn't hold it anymore, he yawned and waved his hands and said, "I'm going to sleep first, I'm old and I can't bear it anymore."

After putting me down, Aunt Wen also went back to her room to sleep.I sat alone on a strange bed, thinking of Wen Luming who was separated by a wall, wondering if it was because of drinking that my stomach hurt.

He ignored me when he came back.My aunt found his pajamas for me to wear, but there was no familiar temperature and smell on them, and it was as cold as the weather outside the window.

I didn't feel sleepy, so I got up and got out of bed, wanting to secretly smoke a cigarette on the balcony of the living room.Just as he stepped out of the door, he bumped into Wen Luming who was about to go in at the door.

"Teacher Wen." I unconsciously took a small step back.

Wen Luming looked indifferently, and said, "Yes."

Looking at each other without embarrassment for a moment, I remembered the back view of him sending Xia Yi away not long ago, and tried to ask: "Has Xia Yi gone back, you..."

As if he could see through my thoughts, he said, "He's just my student. I couldn't go home for the New Year's Eve because of something in school this year, so I asked him to come to my house for the New Year's Eve dinner."

I breathed a sigh of relief, "I thought..."

"Why?" Wen Luming said with imperceptible displeasure in his tone, "Yan Qiao, I'm not you."

These words were like a sudden slap on my face. If I remember correctly, this is the first time Wen Luming said such words to me.

"Yes, you're not me, I can sleep with anyone." I suddenly didn't know whether to laugh at myself or whom, "Didn't you already know?"

I don't care if I hurt eight hundred enemies and one thousand, I don't feel good, and I don't want Wen Luming to be happy.

"I remember you asked me, what do you think of you," I smiled indifferently, and continued, "Of course it's a gun. Friends. Otherwise, what else is it, a lover? I said I would not fall in love with anyone .”

Wen Luming's complexion became ugly to the naked eye, and I was sore and relieved, I forced myself to look at him and said, "You can still find me if you need it. Although my private life is messy, I am not sick."

"Yan Qiao," Wen Luming finally got angry, "If you can't speak, just shut up."

I had never seen him really angry, and I was terrified, but it was nothing compared to the other emotions.

Taking advantage of the strength of wine, I walked up to him, put my palm on his chest, lowered my eyes and said, "It's okay now."

Touching the familiar body temperature again, my nose was sore, and I almost couldn't hold back my tears.

Those shells of being brave are all fake, I don't want to quarrel with him at all, after enduring so many days of being bedridden, I didn't come to quarrel with him.

But why can't I control myself...

"Yan Qiao." Wen Luming held my wrist and stopped me from moving.

His strength was out of control, as if he wanted to crush my bones.I raised my head, endured the pain and forced back my tears, smiled lightly at him and said, "But I think so. Can't I?"

Wen Luming looked down at me, didn't know whether he was angry or what, and said slowly: "We have already..."

"Aren't we Pao. Friends?" I didn't want to hear those two words, and looked at him almost beggingly, "Just once. Please."

He didn't reject me after all.

I'm not sure about the love that Wen Luming said, but I can be sure that the physical reaction won't lie, he still has impulse towards me.

I was more tense than ever before, so that it was difficult to get pleasure other than pain.Concerned that my bones did not grow well, he moved carefully, slowly torturing me one by one, prolonging my pain infinitely.I was finally able to let the tears flow, but he thought they were the same as before, tears falling out of joy.

"Wen Luming..." I called his name, whimpering and said no.He didn't comfort me, let alone kiss me, he just made love to me in silence as if he had completed the task.

I knew something was different, after he said he loved me, his love was gone.

"Wen Luming." A large tear welled up in my eye sockets, and I finally couldn't hold back the question that has haunted me day and night these days: "Do you really love me?"

He sat at the end of the bed, got dressed in silence, looked back at me, and said, "So what if I love you?"

"Yan Qiao," he said with deep eyes and a calm tone, just like that day in the hospital,

"I knew from the beginning to the end that the two of us are not suitable. I have had you for a short time, and I am satisfied."

"As for ending here, I expected it. I have no regrets. You can move on."

"What is... from the beginning to the end, what is expected..."

I must have hurt my head in a car accident. Why can't I understand what he said?

Every night we sleep together, every day we spend together, what is he thinking, is he planning the end with me?

And what was I thinking at that time, I was thinking that the flower shop at the crossing had a new eustoma, remember to bring a bunch home tomorrow.