lonely patient

Wen Luming probably didn't expect that the "entrepreneur" would be me. When he saw me in the auditorium's living room, his face showed a momentary surprise that he didn't hide.

Due to the large number of people, he didn't say anything, and I didn't take the initiative to talk to him, as if I really came back to repay my alma mater with nothing else in mind.

The teacher in charge of the process introduced me one by one. When I arrived at Wen Luming, he said: "This is the youngest full professor in our School of Chemistry, Professor Wen Lu Mingwen."

I put on a decent smile that I have rehearsed many times, and I took the initiative to reach out and say, "Hello, Professor Wen."

Wen Luming's eyes were deep, as if he wanted to uncover my appearance and see through my heart. After looking at each other for a few seconds, my heart beat faster, and I almost lost the battle.

Fortunately, in the end he still held my hand: "Hello."

I think he must have noticed my nervousness, and frowned slightly when shaking hands.

The ceremony was very simple. After the principal thanked me on behalf of the teachers and students, everyone took a photo together to complete the ceremony. Afterwards, I held a banquet in the banquet hall of the school. I didn't wait for anyone to arrange it, and I took the initiative to sit next to Wen Luming.

Probably because I am young, the leaders and teachers are very relaxed. An old professor joked that he did not expect that the one who funded the construction of the new laboratory building for the School of Chemistry would be a student who graduated from the School of Philosophy. Now the old men in the Philosophy Department should be jealous up.

"Scientific progress promotes economic development, but the superstructure benefits in the end." I said with a smile.

The old professor also smiled: "The kid is enlightened."

The atmosphere in the school is always simpler than in the business field. I gradually became less nervous. When I turned to Wen Luming, I found that he seemed to be distracted.

"Professor Wen." I couldn't help but whispered.

Wen Luming looked over, with complex and unspeakable emotions in his eyes, suddenly he stood up, and said in a voice that only the two of us could hear: "Come with me." Urgent thing to go back and take a look.

"Go, the experiment is important." The dean said.

I had no choice but to stand up, "I'll see off Professor Wen."

A teacher who didn't understand was about to say something, but the principal waved his hand, "Young people have something to talk about, let Xiaoyan go. Let's eat ours."

Wen Luming and I left the banquet hall one after the other, and he stopped as soon as we reached the elevator, turned around and blocked me by the wall.I was caught off guard and took a step back, hitting my back against the cold wall.

"Professor Wen." I met his gaze, my eyelashes fluttered a few times unconsciously, and asked calmly, "Is there something wrong?"

"What are you messing around with again?" Wen Luming asked, frowning.

He asked me so bluntly, as if he had no patience to detour with me.I was discouraged all of a sudden and said, "I didn't mess around."

"Isn't this a nonsense?" Wen Luming seemed to be annoyed, and seemed to have nothing to do with me, and asked, "Okay, why do you want to contribute to the Institute of Chemistry? If it's because of me, Yan Qiao, I said that we have... ..."

"I know you said it, but I don't want to." I looked at Wen Luming, and the mature calm that I had pretended for a day finally couldn't hold back, "I just hope that when you are in school, you can think of it every day when you come to the laboratory. Me. I didn't use my family's money, and I didn't tell others about my relationship with you, is that okay? "

Wen Luming didn't speak.

I have never been so low-key to anyone, I know I did something wrong, no matter what I should do, but in the face of Wen Luming's alienation and rejection, I still inevitably feel aggrieved, unconsciously clenched The soft flesh of the lower lip.

After a long time, Wen Luming asked, "Why?"

He looked at me and asked word by word, "Why did you do that?"

Ding.The elevator door opened, and a few students came out, and they quietly cast curious eyes as they passed by.

As an alpha, Wen Luming's aura is too harsh, he turns a deaf ear to everything around him, and stares at me with deep eyes, as if he won't let me go unless I tell the answer.

"Because I..." I retreated steadily under his gaze, remembering what countless people have said to me these days, to face it and be honest.

--"because I like you."

Finally, I threw away the last piece of armor and offered my own weakness.

"I'm in love with you, Wen Luming."

I looked at him, and mist gradually formed in my eye sockets, "Is it too late to tell you now?"

Liking should be a sweet and happy feeling, but the moment I said it, I was only sad and uneasy.

Because I know it's too late, even if he doesn't answer, I also know it's too late.

There seemed to be regret in Wen Luming's eyes, and there was a fleeting moment of tenderness and affection.He shook his head very slightly and said:

"That's too late."

"I managed to convince myself to give up, and it was impossible to allow myself to look back."

I thought it would be such an answer, but when I heard it from his mouth, I still couldn't resist the sadness and pain.It was as if someone had drained all the oxygen around me, and the feeling of suffocation engulfed me from all directions, wringing my heart into a shriveled sponge.

I didn't let myself cry, I tried my best to put on a smile and said, "It's okay, I... I can chase you."

"I will change whatever you don't like. I will find a way to solve the marriage contract, and I will never be with others again. Everything in the past is my fault. In the future, I, I will never make you angry... ..."

My voice gradually decreased. Although I didn't cry, the feeling of choking forced me to stop, and I tried to take a deep breath to calm my emotions.

But the more it is like this, the more I can't look at Wen Luming again, every time I look at him, my heart hurts a little more. ——He really doesn’t seem to care about me anymore, otherwise why would he let me be so sad?

In the end, I lowered my head and clenched my cuffs tightly, my voice still choked with sobs: "...I'm sorry, I know I was wrong."

"Yan Qiao..." Lu Ming's arm moved at the end of his line of sight, as if he wanted to raise his hand to touch my cheek, but finally stopped in mid-air.With a sore nose, I took the initiative to approach him, and gently pressed my face against his palm.

Wen Luming froze for a moment, then hesitated for a long time, and touched the corner of my eye with his thumb.

"You don't have to," he said, "you won't be happy that way."

His palm was still as dry and warm as I remembered. I closed my eyes, moved closer to him with nostalgia, shook my head and said, "I know you are very disappointed in me, and you don't want to believe me anymore."

"I'm not disappointed in you." Wen Luming interrupted me softly, "It's just...the two of us are too different. Maybe you can endure that kind of monotonous and peaceful life for a year, but what about ten years, longer? , I don’t want to lose you when I love you more in the future.”

"But don't you have any regrets now?" I raised my head, holding back my tears and asked him, "We still have a lot of things to do and places we haven't been to, please give me another chance..."

I would rather Wen Luming say that he doesn't like me, hate me, and tell me to stay away from him, than he can rationally say that we are not suitable when he knows he loves me.

This made me feel even more hopeless and powerless, because of his sobriety, and also because of my belated awakening.

He didn't answer me, but his gaze revealed struggle and hesitation, but he still gently lowered his hand, as if a kind of rejection.

My heart was empty, and I didn't dare to continue to press. I took half a step back, lowered my eyes and said, "Next Sunday is my birthday."

"En." Wen Luming said in a low voice, "I know."

"Can you...can you spend my birthday with me? It's just the two of us." When I asked this sentence, I was weaker and more nervous than I expected. Fearing that he would refuse, I almost eagerly added another sentence: " I don't want a gift, I just want you to spend my birthday with me... Please."

The air froze for a few seconds, Wen Luming was not that cruel after all, he hesitated for a moment and gave me the answer I wanted: "Okay."

While I breathed a sigh of relief, I also felt sour in my heart, so I tried to smile at him and said, "Then we'll see you next week."

The author says:

Thank you for the new cover~

By the way, push the new article "Despicable Delusion"