lonely patient

I heard from Qin Bei that there has been cooling and heavy rain recently, so I want to go see Xu Yang before that.

It happened that the next morning the weather was fine, so I went to the back mountain to pick sunflowers and zinnias, and made a bunch of orange pink ones.Xu Yang used to like summer, and he liked warm and lively things. He was completely different from Wen Luming in his bones.

Probably this is why I can live in peace with him for a few years with such a bad personality, but we have been together with Wen Luming for just over a year, and we have scarred each other.

I brought flowers and the wine I begged from Zhang Laodao, sat in front of Xu Yang's tombstone and talked to him without saying a word. I said that I almost got married and fell seriously ill again. In just a few months, my life has been turned upside down. .

"After I got the diagnosis certificate, I wondered if it was you who missed me." I smiled at the photo on the tombstone, "You think, Yan Qiao has never chased me like this, why, no, I disagree."

Xu Yang was still smiling, as if he was blaming me for talking nonsense.

"...Just kidding." I gently touched his face, "I know you want me to be safe and healthy more than anyone else, but I'm sorry, I made myself like this... When I go over there and see you, I personally apologize to you."

"Sometimes I can't help but think, it's fine if Wen Luming didn't find you that day, I died with you, and the death date is the same day."

"Do you think I'm really bad, no one has ever really loved the whole real me except you."

"I tried my best to change for Wen Luming, but he didn't seem to be satisfied..."

"Loving someone is so tiring...Fortunately, this is the last time."

……

The weather on the mountain changed as it said, and it didn't take long before the sky gradually became overcast.Zhang Laodao called to urge me to go back, so I had no choice but to say goodbye to Xu Yang and promised him to come see him again when the weather cleared.

"Now I'm so close to you that I can visit you often," I said.

Back to the Taoist temple on the front foot, it started to rain on the back foot.I helped Taoist Xiao Han move the flowers in the yard back, and after running back and forth a few times, I was out of breath and almost couldn't stand still because of the stomach pain.

This body seems to be really bad... I thought helplessly.In a few days, I may be in pain all night long and can't sleep. Even if Wen Luming holds a wedding, I don't have the extra thought to be sad.

Counting the days, it seems to be coming soon.

Thinking about it, I vomited blood again.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier. I sat under the eaves wrapped in a blanket and watched the torrential rain wash away the old blue bricks into new green.The old locust tree in the yard was swaying in the wind and rain, the locust flower was knocked to the ground, and the rain seemed to be tainted with a delicate fragrance.

A steaming teacup was passed in front of my eyes, and the little Taoist said softly: "It's cold here, layman, please come in early."

I took it to thank you and said, "I'll watch it for a while."

——For this kind of rain, it’s one less time to watch.

My nostalgia for the world gradually dissipated with Wen Luming's departure. Those hustle and bustle and strong love and hatred are like the rain outside the eaves at this moment, and I am just a short-term rain watcher.

The little Taoist sighed and said, "I can't go down the mountain for a few days."

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Master said that the rain was too fast, it washed away the hillside and the mountain road was blocked."

"Well……"

"Layman, your phone." The cell phone rang in the room, and the little Taoist reminded me.

I got up and tightened the blanket, went back to the room and found the phone, it was Qin Bei.

"Hey?"

"Qiaoer," Qin Bei's voice was inexplicably impatient, "Did Wen Luming look for you?"

"Teacher Wen? No..." I couldn't help wondering, "What's wrong?"

There was a moment of silence on the phone, only the sound of dull breathing, I can even imagine Qin Bei walking around in annoyance at home, "He...I..."

I inexplicably had a bad premonition and asked, "What's the matter?"

"That's right," Qin Bei gritted his teeth and said, "He may have seen that you were sick, so he went to the hospital to check your medical records, but private hospitals are highly confidential, and it is impossible for doctors to disclose the patient's privacy, and then he found me. ... I, I got into a fight with him in a fit of anger and exposed your illness... I'm sorry I didn't mean it, I was just too angry..."

Listening to Qin Bei's words, my head buzzed, "Did you tell him...?"

"I really didn't mean Yan Qiao," Qin Bei said irritably, "and he will know sooner or later, how long can you keep it a secret?"

I gripped the phone tightly and took a deep breath, forced myself to calm down, and asked, "Where is he now?"

"I don't know...he drove away directly, so I asked you...I don't think he looks as heartless as you said, is there some misunderstanding between you..."

I didn't hear what Qin Bei said behind me. I hung up the phone, grabbed my coat and ran out. I bumped into Taoist Xiao Han outside. He hurriedly stopped me and asked, "Where are you going, Layman? It's such a big deal." Can't go out in the rain!"

"I'm going to find someone." I broke away from him and said, "I'll be right back, leave me alone."

What else did he want to say, I have already run out in the heavy rain.Sitting in the car, I called Wen Luming over and over again, but he never answered. Thinking of the landslide that the little Taoist said, I felt anxious, stepped on the accelerator and sped out from the back door of the Taoist temple.

I didn't realize that my hand on the steering wheel was shaking.

Wen Luming, you'd better not come to me.

I gritted my teeth and stared at the road ahead.

You better be flirting with Xia Yi so you don't answer my calls.

You better be.

The rain was in a hurry, and the bean-sized raindrops hit the car glass densely, and branches fell from time to time.There is no such difference between going down the mountain in this kind of weather and risking your life. Besides, I was only driving an ordinary trot. For a few moments, I felt that my wheels had left the ground and I was about to fly off the cliff.

Thinking about Wen Luming, I don't feel scared, I'm just worried that if something happens to him, I won't be at peace until I die.

I don’t know how long it took before there was a collapse mark on the road ahead. I pulled over and got out with a flashlight. The cold raindrops hit my face and my eyes were blurred. Climbing up the landslide step by step, I finally saw a familiar black car behind the falling mountain.

"Wen Luming..."

My throat tightened, and warm tears fell with the rain.

The body of the car had been dented, and it was pitch black inside the car, with no one to be seen. A huge panic surged in my heart, and I stumbled and ran over, but I didn't notice my foot slipped, and fell heavily in the mud.

it hurts...

I gritted my teeth and got up, took a few steps and fell again, and finally climbed to the car on all hands and feet.

The car door was locked tightly, and the flashlight shone in, and I saw Wen Luming's peaceful sleeping face.He leaned on the seat with his head down, his eyes closed tightly, and the wound on his forehead was slowly bleeding, as if he felt pain even in a coma. He frowned slightly, and his temples twitched slightly from time to time.

"Wen Luming..." I slammed on the car window hard, but the people inside didn't move at all.

"Wen Luming, wake up! Wen Luming..."

……

Why did you come to look for me, why did you refuse to let me go until now...

I collapsed on the window of the car in the torrential rain and cried, and when I was tired from crying, I remembered that I was still holding the flashlight.

"Yes, the flashlight..."

I imitated the way in the movie, held the flashlight instead and smashed it hard, one after another, and finally smashed the co-pilot's window into pieces.

The car door opened, I didn't care about the injuries on my body and hands, I climbed in and hurriedly unbuckled Wen Luming's seat belt, hugging his head to check his injuries.

Fortunately, the wound was not deep and did not hurt the eyes.

Looking at the face so close, I felt dazed, gently wiped off the blood on his face with my hands, and then pressed my lips to his forehead in a mysterious way.

Only for a moment, I remembered that he was already someone else's husband.

Shame and self-loathing instantly wrapped around my heart, I let him go, and raised my hand to wipe off my hickey.

"Sorry……"

I got out of the car and walked to the other side, opened the door, half dragged and half hugged Wen Luming out of the driver's seat, put him on his shoulders, and let him lean on me.

It was pitch black in the front and back, and the rain seemed to have eased a bit. I supported Wen Luming and walked in the mud with deep feet and shallow feet. I don’t know when he woke up and murmured my name: "Yan Qiao ..."

My car was parked right in front, Wen Luming was taller and heavier than me, I was already exhausted and teetering on the verge of falling, my eyes felt dizzy for a while, and a fishy sweetness welled up in my throat.

Looking back at the collapse and mud behind me, I couldn't believe how I got Wen Luming here.

"Yan Qiao." He called again.

"I heard..." As soon as I opened my mouth, I could no longer suppress the blood gushing out of my throat, and spit out a big mouthful.

"What's wrong with you?" Wen Luming's voice was a little sober, and he grabbed my arm and asked.

I shook my head, leaned against him to barely stand firm, and said weakly: "It's okay..."

Mishaps always happen suddenly.

When the soil and stones rolled down from the top of the head with dead branches and leaves, I used the fastest reaction speed in my life to throw Wen Luming down, rolled him to the side of the car, hugged his head and protected him tightly Down.

Something hit my back and head, and something tore through my clothes and pierced my flesh. The pain came one after another. My eyes went black, and I felt like I was turned into a pile of pieces.

In the chaos, I thought, I have suffered the pain of my lover dying in front of my eyes, should Wen Luming have to bear it now...

No, he doesn't love me anymore.

I suddenly feel lucky.

He doesn't love me anymore, he won't be so painful.

I closed my eyes and smiled, and slowly fell into Wen Luming's arms.