you restrain yourself

The two clinked glasses and sat drinking beer in the night breeze.

Ji Shuyan's capacity for alcohol is really not good, the beer Duan Zhi bought has a high alcohol content, and there is vodka in it. Although one can will not make you completely drunk, but you still feel a little dizzy, and you even talk more than before.

He originally wanted to comfort Duan Zhi, but for some reason later, it turned into him talking to Duan Zhi about the bad things in the hospital.

Complaints from patients, performance indicators are too high, and various expenses are very annoying. He does not want to succeed as the dean in the future at all.

"I didn't want to take over," Ji Shuyan blushed, "I chose to be a doctor, but I don't want to take over a hospital, nor do I want to inherit the family business, but what if I don't accept it." Sad, with red eye circles, "Ji Yuan's mother is gone, my sister, Ji Mingyou is gone, and my brother-in-law who is a doctor like me is also gone. My parents have only one child left for me. Because of my sister's matter They were in too much pain, my dad himself was admitted to the hospital, and there was another Ji Yuan who needed to be taken care of, I had no choice at the time."

He took another sip of wine, his voice was even a little aggrieved, and he stared blankly at Duan Zhi, "I originally wanted to open a small clinic, and after working hard for a few years, I'll start a small clinic, be in charge of the business, and go to get off work." Get off work and see the neighbors."

But all this is impossible.

From the moment his sister left, his world has changed drastically. After so many years, he will feel tired and miss the time when his sister and brother-in-law were there, but he can no longer turn back.

The only consolation is Ji Yuan.

His Ji Yuan, the one left to him by his sister, has grown up well, and has become so lively, cute and lovable.

If he had anything to be proud of, it was how well he had raised the child.

Duan Zhi also found that Ji Shuyan was a little drunk, he hesitated, and vainly embraced Ji Shuyan's shoulder, and gently pushed Ji Shuyan so that he could lean on his shoulder.

For the first time, he hated the age difference between himself and Ji Shuyan so much. He was too young to protect Ji Shuyan.

All he could give Ji Shuyan was such a short shoulder rest.

But Ji Shuyan was quite happy to rely on him, he put all his body weight on Duan Zhi, and rubbed his face against Duan Zhi's clothes.

He drank the last sip of wine in the beer can, and when he found that there was no more, he shook down dissatisfiedly, and muttered, "Why is there no more?"

Turning his eyes, he found that there was still half a can in Duan Zhi's hand, and immediately stretched out his hand confidently, "Give me a sip."

Duan Zhi didn't really want to give it, he was almost drunk now, and he didn't know what would happen if he let Ji Shuyan drink it again.

"Stop drinking," he coaxed, "Can I get you orange juice?"

Ji Shuyan frowned, and said in disgust, "Who wants orange juice, it's boring."

He snatched the beer from Duan Zhichi's hand, gulped it down, and when he was satisfied, he put the beer can on the table.

The night wind blew over, and the scent of sweet-scented osmanthus was intoxicating, making his dizzy mind even more confused.

He hadn't been drunk for a long time. He put one hand on the table and his chin, and looked at Duan Zhi thoughtfully. Although his face was red, his eyes were quite clear. It must be said that he was almost drunk.

Duan Zhi was amused and asked, "What's wrong?"

Ji Shuyan raised his chin, and said surprisingly, "Actually, I know who you like."

Duan Zhi was lighting a cigarette, the slender cigarette was held in his slender hands, the scarlet end flickered on and off, he was as handsome as a movie poster.

But in the next second, he almost choked on the smoke because of Ji Shuyan's words.

"You know?" Duan Zhi frowned suspiciously.

Ji Shuyan nodded affirmatively.

He fiddled with the tab on the can, and didn't know how to speak. He was Ji Yuan's parent, so he definitely wanted to persuade Duan Zhi to give up, but this young man was arrogant, and if he said something wrong, it would have the opposite effect.

Especially Duan Zhi came out to his family, although Duan Zhi didn't say the reason, but he can guess, it must be because of Ji Yuan.

From this point of view, he felt that Duan Zhi was quite responsible.

Thinking of this, he looked at Duan Zhi with more sympathy, and his words became more gentle, "Although you have no chance with him, and I won't agree, but don't give up on yourself, there are many people in the world, you will always meet A suitable one. There is no grass anywhere in the world, don't be discouraged."

The more I heard this, the more wrong I became.

Duan Zhi frowned, "Wait a minute, tell me first, who do you think I like?"

"Ji Yuan," Ji Shuyan took it for granted, "I can see it all, but don't worry, I won't tell him. Although I don't approve of you falling in love with Ji Yuan, there is nothing wrong with having a secret love," he considered Not wanting to hurt Duan Zhi, he took a soft breath, "You are a good person, without Ji Yuan you can..."

But Duan Zhi interrupted him, his face darkened, "Do you think I like Ji Yuan?"

Ji Shuyan didn't understand why Duan Zhi suddenly changed his face, and nodded blankly.

Duan Zhi snorted lightly, "Why do you think so?"

Ji Shuyan blinked his eyes. Speaking of this, the evidence is really not enough, but he believed in his own judgment, and told Duan Zhi one by one, "You two are about the same age, you have a good relationship with him, and you take care of him. We are also very happy together. But you didn't tell him that you have a sweetheart, but you told me, so you must want to start with me and vaccinate me in advance."

But he will not be fooled.

This is his precious Ji Yuan, it is impossible to give it to anyone casually.

Ji Shuyan praised his wit in his heart.

But he couldn't relax soon. He found that Duan Zhi on the opposite side had completely suppressed his smile, and was looking at him gloomyly. His bright amber eyes were stained cold by the moonlight, like a lake hidden under a cliff. , was bitingly cold.

He was inexplicably a little scared, and he didn't know why, so he took a step back.

"Why are you doing this..." Ji Shuyan was not very happy, "You don't have to be so fierce if you get exposed by me, and I didn't, I didn't say anything."

But he didn't know that every word of his was like a needle piercing Duan Zhi's nerve.

Duan Zhi took a puff of smoke, and the mint smell dissipated in the air, stimulating the brain more and more.

He's not as bad at drinking as Ji Shuyan, he's always been sober.

He clearly understood every word of Ji Shuyan.

Ji Shuyan actually thinks that he likes Ji Yuan.

He almost laughed out loud, there is nothing more ridiculous than this in the world, he hid his head and tail by Ji Shuyan's side, obediently suppressed the greed in his heart, he played the role of a harmless junior gently and patiently, He tried his best to win Ji Shuyan's favor.

He had never been so humble in his life. When he was making a wish in front of the Buddha in the afternoon, he was still thinking that it would be great if Ji Shuyan could like him, not too much, just a little.

But in the end, Ji Shuyan felt that he liked Ji Yuan.

Just because they are about the same age.

This is nothing short of a joke.

He bit his cigarette, looked at Ji Shuyan coldly, he was not drunk, he was always sober, but the alcohol was still flowing in his blood, burning him all over.

He stared at Ji Shuyan, blinking his long and thick eyelashes.

This man who was older than him had an innocent face that didn't match his age. He was thin and tall, as beautiful as a pearl washed in a lake, warm and cold, making people dare to look at him from a distance and dare not blaspheme him.

But he clearly remembered the last time in the hotel, how Ji Shuyan grabbed his sleeve helplessly, begged for mercy, kissed him like a seductive fairy, but when he was sober, his face was innocent.

It's the same now, Ji Shuyan didn't have to do anything, but leaned on the sofa, his cheeks were pink with drunkenness, and his eyes were wet looking at him, which easily aroused the desire in his heart.

Duan Zhi extinguished the cigarette in his hand, the red cigarette butt was extinguished in the black ashtray, but the smell of tobacco still remained in the air.

He slowly approached Ji Shuyan, so close that he almost pushed Ji Shuyan into a corner, and he could easily cover Ji Shuyan under him.

"Uncle Ji," he smiled at Ji Shuyan, his beautiful amber eyes were not warm, "You guessed wrong, I don't like Ji Yuan, I only regard him as a buddy."

No matter how dull Ji Shuyan is now, he still feels that something is wrong.

He looked at Duan Zhi, and felt that he was dangerous and strange, he had never seen such a gloomy and indifferent Duan Zhi, the look in his eyes seemed to chew his bones, and then swallowed him.

But the way out had been blocked by Duan Zhi, and he was almost held in Duan Zhi's arms.

"Do you want to know who I really like?" He heard Duan Zhi ask again, his voice was soft and hoarse, like a whisper between lovers.

Ji Shuyan felt a shudder down his spine, and instinctively shook his head.

He didn't want to hear it, he didn't think it would be a good answer.

But Duan Zhi chuckled, "It's late."

Duan Zhi grabbed Ji Shuyan's wrist and pressed it heavily on the sofa. Ji Shuyan exclaimed, and before he could speak, his lips were blocked.

Wet red lips, mixed with malt aroma and cold mint tobacco, warm bodies pressed together tightly, Duan Zhi stuck one leg between Ji Shuyan's knees, tightly confining him under his body.

The pillow on the sofa was kicked to the ground. The gray pillow was embroidered with pink acacia flowers. It rolled to the side in a dusty state. No one cared about it, but a hand hung down beside it. It was as white as jade, and the back of the hand could be seen clearly. The blue blood vessels scratched weakly in the air twice.

Ji Shuyan pursed his lips as hard as he could, but his teeth were still pried open.

This is not a warm kiss at all. It is completely different from the last playful kiss. It is mixed with a trace of violence, hiding the long-suppressed lust that has no place to vent.

Duan Zhi pressed Ji Shuyan's shoulder, brutally and arrogantly, so that Ji Shuyan could only bear it with his neck up.

He felt stupid as hell.

If he pretends to be innocent and cute, or acts considerate and gentle, will Ji Shuyan look at him more?

Will not.

Ji Shuyan would only treat him as an immature bastard, insignificant, and didn't need to be considered on an equal footing at all.

Ji Shuyan was gentle, patient, and even sympathetic to him.

But Ji Shuyan will never love him.

He could only personally break all of Ji Shuyan's trust in him, and the love that might not exist.

Duan Zhi closed his eyes, touched Ji Shuyan's soft short hair with one hand, and lightly brushed Ji Shuyan's eyebrows with his thumb, like a gentleman who is good at flirting.

But his expression is completely different, his eyes are full of desire, like an unsatisfied beast.

The way he looked at Ji Shuyan was actually not innocent.

He tried his best to restrain himself until now, but it still fell short.

He let go of Ji Shuyan.

In October, the smell of sweet-scented osmanthus is so strong that it can't be scattered all over the courtyard. It is so sweet that the flowers the size of rice grains fall on the ground, and they are almost invisible, but they leave a faint fragrance.

Ji Shuyan lay on the sofa, his chest heaved and heaved, panting heavily, and looked at him in disbelief.

Those eyes were unfamiliar, defensive, colder than the first time they met.

Duan Zhi only felt that his heart was empty.

He helped Ji Shuyan gently wipe off the trace of blood. In the kiss just now, Ji Shuyan bit his lip, but the blood also stained his own.

In the evening wind of October, he whispered, "The person I like is you, Ji Shuyan."