winter suicide plan

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Chen Shuning slept peacefully next to me, it was a rare night without tremors, and he didn't talk strange dreams, but suddenly woke up for a moment, his hands also came back to life, grasped my sleeves tightly again, touched my earlobes, and closed his eyes again .

After repeatedly confirming my existence all night, he was afraid that he might have hallucinations, thinking that this person was imagined by him.

I held him tightly in my arms, always thinking a lot at night, running around.Chen Shuning is moving forward mentally, but his body still remembers his mother who died in his home, and when he sees similar objects and things, his illness will come and go again and again.When I was only a little older, I saw my mother hanging and cutting her wrists at home. It was unbearable to put it on anyone, and it was difficult to get over it.Chen Shuning belonged to the acquired trauma stimulation, coupled with the gradual accumulation of mood disorders, at least ten years of celibacy came here, but the nightmare still persists.

The story can be told in a few words, but the emotions of people in it can never be fully perceived by those who listen to the story outside the event.

I hugged him tightly, put his hands on my face, I gently touched his temples, the corners of his eyes were a little moist, I kissed his forehead, and whispered to him who was sleeping: "How can I love you?" Ah, Aning."

Chen Shuning didn't wake up at ten o'clock in the morning, probably because of taking medicine.His body couldn't eat oil and water, and he was fed porridge at eight o'clock, and he vomited it all up without saying a word, losing the spirit of yesterday's gag.After a while, I developed a fever inexplicably, and the whole person was like being pulled out of the soul, crying and hysterical on the bed, half asleep and half awake.I put my arms in my arms, and he grabbed my clothes on the back, calling my name continuously: "Tang Fengxing."

I replied: "I am."

Chen Shuning continued crying, "Tang Fengxing."

"I'm here."

"Tang Fengxing."

"I'm here."

"Fengxing, don't go, don't leave me, I'm left...you are alone, stay with me, don't go, stay with me...I'm very good, I don't make trouble , I am obedient, don't leave me."

I must have been afraid of being thrown away by his mother when I was a child, and I always didn't make trouble and didn't want to, just obeying everything.

"No, Ah Ning is already very obedient and obedient. I am here, I have always been here." I comforted him softly.

He sobbed for a while, fell asleep on my shoulder, and I put him back on the hospital bed, sighing.

I felt guilty for a while, I could only accompany him this morning, and in the afternoon I had to prepare the materials and prepare for the trial.After investigating for a period of time, it was found that the defendant was the uncle who was a teacher in his hometown, and he was charged with rape.Her mother found a locked file in He Ronglan's broken phone screen. Through technical processing, the password was unlocked. It was a disgusting video.

The shooting angle is very strange, it seems to be hidden in a certain corner, you can see the rusty table legs, you can hear the crying of the girl, and occasionally you can hear the vague male voice in the noise of clicking.

A huge broken voice said: "Uncle, I beg you...you let me go, I won't say it, okay? I beg you."

Her responses were filled with nasty obscenities.

But because of the angle, only He Rongnan's original long hair and half a man's face appeared, kissing her, a big hand bound her, and the table was shaking.

This desk was exactly the student desk that had been placed in his uncle's study for many years.

There are also some blurry candid pictures, this man looks honest, wearing black square glasses, he looks old.When he was called to investigate, he refused to admit that the male voice on the phone was himself.This kind of desk can be found everywhere, with only half of the face, and the girl didn't show her face, how could he be charged with a crime, and she yelled that the dog bit Lu Dongbin, which didn't understand good people.Help her take care of her daughter, but call him a rapist instead.

Let him make trouble, the evidence for the video is not enough, this matter is not over yet, I first asked various questions, repeatedly asked the same question in different forms, and he answered almost the same, as if it was too tight .Using the video as evidence, I used a search warrant with the local police to search the study together.Unexpectedly, there is a box hidden under a large potted stone that is about to wither under the study window, and the box has a password.Show him the box, but he won't admit it's his box.Since it is an unclaimed box, as incompetent can use the right, then this object is used as evidence to forcibly unlock it.

It is full of photos of girls, some in school uniforms, casual clothes, and some without clothes, all from sneaky perspectives.The teacher is not married. There are various girls in the photos, but they are all the same age.The teacher is the only one who detects the fingerprints on the photos.They are relatives and teachers, and they look well-dressed.In the end, he saw the photo and admitted the fact that he was a criminal, shouting that he regretted it, he didn't mean it, and he didn't want to go to jail.Knowing the law and breaking the law, living for so long is also a law blind.

The evidence is collected properly, and the matter is a criminal case, infringing on sexual rights, and the subject is a minor, protected by the "Minor Protection Law", but the party is no longer present, and the parents are asked to attend the trial as agents.

According to the procedure of the lawsuit, various documents and trifles need to be dealt with during the stage from investigation, review and prosecution to first instance and second instance.

This person's behavior violated social morality, and public opinion has also risen, which is extremely beneficial to the plaintiff on my side.Although this person's behavior is punishable, during the trial, he kept asking questions and stating the main facts and circumstances of the conviction and sentencing involved in the other party.It took almost a month for this lawsuit to be settled. After all, it was not a high-IQ crime, and it was not complicated to deal with.It's just that the girl's name keeps appearing in court, and it sounds sad.

The second trial is over and I am out of court.Chen Shuning was sitting beside the pillar, even though he was wearing a scarf, his cheeks were red from the freezing wind outside, the tops of his ears were red, and the bottoms were white.

This is to pick me up?

I walked over and knelt down to cover his ears.He was scared, woke up and looked at me.

I rubbed his cold hands and said, "Why are you waiting for me outside? It's so cold."

He hugged me, his body was shaking, he seemed to be cold, and he said with a little aggrieved: "You don't come to pick me up when I leave the hospital. But it doesn't matter, if you don't come to pick me up, I will pick you up."

Chen Shuning's smile flashed in front of my eyes. It looked like a malnourished face, but he was energetic. I wondered if it was because he talked too long in court and didn't eat lunch. I couldn't see it clearly. I hope he can smile sincerely all the time. The smiling sun.

"Don't be self-willed, the fever just got better." I went back to see him in the middle of the night every day, and the fever stabilized after a few days, but I lost weight again.

"I... am not willful, I just want to..."

"Thinking about what?"

"I don't know. I'm very scared. Even thinking about something makes me uncomfortable." Chen Shuning's eyes turned red as he spoke.

"Is it because I feel uncomfortable because of not seeing me, or because of He Rongnan's matter. This is the way it is. You should not want to hear it, so you didn't go in for the hearing."

"Well, it hurts not to see you, and it hurts me too." Chen Shuning was discouraged all of a sudden, his shoulders slumped, his eyelashes fluttered, and he tried not to let tears fall.

I wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes distressedly: "What can I do to make you less sad?"

"Kiss me, kissing stimulates dopamine, maybe I don't want to cry, I can be happier, I just saw you when I opened my eyes, I am very happy."

I pulled him up, put on the hat, pulled him to the corner behind the post, and kissed him lightly once.Just after we separated, Chen Shuning came up again and touched my earlobe, which made my heart go numb. He raised his eyes and said, "Can I kiss again?"

After we finished speaking, we kissed again, wanting to do it a third time, but someone walked by, and we separated in a hurry.

I took his hand and said, "Would you like to visit her at the Moth Cemetery?"

Chen Shuning glanced at me sideways, and squeezed my hand hesitantly: "I'm afraid I won't be able to control my emotions when I get there. I haven't gone back to see my mother's tomb for several years. I can't bear it. With the photo above, I can't control myself."

"It's okay, I'm here. If you really don't want to, then let's go home. Don't force yourself to do it. It's not a mistake not to do it. It's not good to blame yourself. We agreed, don't blame yourself without reason. "

He stood, frowned, kissed me on the cheek again and said: "Okay, you must stay with me, you can't go, you must be within my sight. Then let's buy her a bouquet of flowers."

"Well, let's go." I kissed the back of his hand.

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Tang Fengxing's perspective