I want to reunite with you

That bowl of porridge was too bland and not tasty at all. Kou Xinian watched me cry while eating, and the more he coaxed me, the more I cried. You have to tell the whole story, and let him do whatever.

I can't resist, I'm afraid of separation, afraid of soaking in a pig cage.

"Aren't you feeling well? I'll call the doctor to have a look later." Kou Xinian pressed his forehead against mine, "It's still a little hot. After drinking the porridge, I'll feed you medicine, okay?"

I pursed my lips, and even when I was sad, I was aggrieved by his handsome face and said "hmm".In fact, I don't want the doctor to come, the doctor will just open his leather pouch, pull out the needle and prick it, without asking whether it hurts or not, or whether he likes it or not.

"I drink medicine, not a doctor."

Kou Xinian laughed, "Okay."

Kou spoiled me again in the past, and got up early the next day to leave. I only vaguely remember him touching my forehead with his hand and kissing me. Can't remember.

On the first day of his absence, I arranged for someone to plant the silk tree.

On the second day of his absence, I went to Chengdong Street and asked the old man the price of the pig cage.

On the third day of his absence, I sat at the gate of Kou Mansion for a whole day.

Until the sixth day, Kou Xinian still did not come back.Mingming told me that five days is the return date.I squatted on a low stone pier, looking at the carp ponds, feeding the fish one by one.How do I know how to feed them one by one? It is actually a torment for so many carps.

There are dozens of people in the Kou Mansion, including Xilin Zainei, no one can empathize with me.Because in my previous life, I was the only one in the Jiangnan Sifang courtyard, under the plum tree that was eaten away by moths, counting the days and counting the days waiting for Kou Xinian.

Now, Kou Xiannian has only passed one day, and I start to panic.The feeling of abandonment swept through my heart like a spark.I'm probably sick again, my whole body is numb uncontrollably, or it may be numb from freezing.

I want to find Kou Xinian, and I will go immediately.

With my vigorous temperament, I couldn't wait for a moment, and stood up immediately, but after squatting for a long time, I became dizzy and fell into the carp pond. This is retribution.The colored carps blamed me for feeding them one by one, so they cursed me into fish food.

"It's not good, it's not good, come quickly, the son is looking for death."

"Come and save someone."

"Hurry up."

I can't help but slander, whoever seeks death is simply talking nonsense.A group of maids and women surrounded the bank, and the servants all jumped down, and the splash of water made me blind.

The water was not that deep, and I could barely reach my chest when I stood upright, but my limbs were so numb that I had no strength at all.

As a result, I was sick again.

Kou Xinian was not around, so I couldn't even bear the needling.It is also because he is not here that I am the boss in the mansion, I am not allowed to have needles, I do not want to drink medicine, no one disobeys me, not even Xi Lin.

On the seventh day, Kou Xinian still did not come back.In the middle of the night on the eighth day, I sneaked out of the Kou Mansion dragging my rich head, and went to the Qiangbai Wharf by touching the wall like a thief.

The night is too late, there is no boat to Yicheng, but there is a boat to Yicheng, which is the closest to Luocheng.They gave me a small room to rest, and I was so dizzy that I fell asleep with the hard boards on.

When I woke up, the boatman urged me to get off the boat. It turned out that Los Angeles had arrived.But I couldn't find my baggage, even the jade pendant on my waist was gone.I was so hot that I couldn't get tough with the boatman, so he pushed and pushed me off the boat.

All the valuables on me were gone, except me who was sick.No matter how stupid I was, I realized that I was a thief.However, it can be said that I am the eldest son who only knows how to yell.But in the current situation, no one will let me take a boat for nothing, or keep me overnight, or give me some food to fill my stomach just because I say I am the son of the world.

My self-esteem does not allow me to reach out for it.

Luocheng is a stranger place to me than Yicheng. Although I have never been there, Yicheng at least has my Kou Xinian, which is nothing.

I didn't eat or drink all day, and passed out all night in the dilapidated temple on the edge of the pier.I might be frozen to death in the cold wind in the north again. This feeling is too familiar to me. I have no strength, can't open my eyes, and even breathe very tired.

I don't know if it's a dream or I'm really dead, I saw Moshi again, he scolded me when he saw me, I was also afraid when I saw him, I haven't found Kou Xinian yet, why did he come down again...

I thought I would probably never wake up and someone kick me.

"This is my territory. If you want to sleep, find a place for yourself. Get out!" The beggar kicked me again, and I didn't even have the strength to tell him that I was weak.

The beggar didn't care about my life or death, and threw me out by force.It turned out that the sky outside was bright.There were people coming and going at the pier in the distance, and I suddenly wanted to go back to Jian'an City, Kou's Mansion, let the old doctor give me two injections, drink a few more medicines, and then I would have the strength to find Kou Xiannian.

Thinking of this, I really had some strength to get up, leaning on the wall and taking a few steps to rest and move. The pier was getting closer and closer. I was thinking about how to tell the boatman to get on the boat first and then buy the ticket so that it doesn’t look like fare evasion. Lai Lai.

Leaning against the wall and panting for a while, I accidentally caught a glimpse of a carriage coming to the pier. Because the man driving the horse looked like my Kou Xiannian, I took a closer look.

The carriage stopped at the pier, and my eyes followed him to jump out of the car, watching him take off his coat to cover the face of the woman in the sedan chair, watching him carry the woman out, watching him stepping onto the boat, it was not the boat back to Jian'an City.

Although I was ill, I was sure that it was Kou Xinian.

My heart fell to the bottom in an instant. It turned out that this was the reason why he didn't come back. The woman's white hands hugged Kou Xinian's neck. I couldn't help remembering this image in my mind like a brand.

I couldn't hold it for a while, and slid and fell down the wall. I was a little jealous, but more of a resentment.Kou Xiannian lied to me again and left me again.

I was overdressed, but the beggar drove me out and snatched my robe, and let me lie in the thick unmelted snow in the corner, and the thin shirt could not keep out the cold.I remembered the experience of being frozen to death in my previous life. The feeling of being near death gradually overlapped, and being numb from the cold would not be too painful, but the feeling of being powerless and fearful when I was slowly deprived of breathing.

Fortunately, I saw Kou Xinian for the last time in my life. I found him, and I no longer regretted it.

"Look here is a man, is he dead or not, is he dead..."

"Hey, how old is this year? This child looks pretty, how could he freeze to death..."

"Should I report to the official?"

"No, someone will come to search and throw mass graves in a while."

……

I seemed to have slept for a long time, but my soul was not out of my body, I didn't go anywhere, and I didn't see Moshi. I vaguely heard the sound of the teacup being crushed, which was very soft and clear.

"...My lord, calm down, the little one is really helpless, the son is dying, I hope my lord mourns..."

"Next!" It sounded like Kou Xinian's voice, but it didn't quite resemble it. How could it be so cold and deep down to the bone, I was a little scared when I heard it.

Then someone should have touched my wrist. He was shaking so badly that it hurt my wrist.

"My lord, please spare me, my son is useless to return to heaven... The little one--"

"Next!!"

I don't know how many of them came one after another, and I don't know what they are doing. I can't open my eyes to see, I feel my throat is itchy, and I want to cough, but I can't cough up.

I realized that I didn't seem to be... dead.

After all, souls don't have itchy throats and want to cough.Now that I am not dead, I miss Kou Xiannian again, I miss him, think of him holding me, I am so cold, the temperature in Kou Xiannian's arms is just enough to meet the warmth I want.

Thinking that he might be holding another woman, I was so angry that I didn't want him again.I was really domineering, I rolled on the bed with someone else, but he was not allowed to hug someone, and then I cried...crying and coughing, my throat was bloody, and I was choking hard to breathe. It was at this moment that I opened my eyes .

There was a fist-sized slit in the black curtain, and the candlelight was faint. Why was it always inexplicably bright and inexplicably dark?I couldn't help coughing a few more times, my throat hurt badly, and I spit out a few more mouthfuls of blood. I learned from the past and held my breath first, so I didn't get choked again.

"Hengshi, you're awake..."

I squinted my eyes to look at Kou Xinian, he seemed to have cried.

Wearing the red and black robe that I was at the pier that day, I couldn’t allow me to say anything, and a bunch of old doctors poured in one after another. They pulled out the needles, passed the needles, and needled them. Became a hedgehog.

The needles were withdrawn in a daze and everyone went out. Kou Xinian didn't know when he would come back, but he was finally willing to lie on the bed and hug me.I squinted my eyes to look at him again, opened my mouth but couldn't speak.

"Hengshi..." Kou Xinian faced me, rubbing my face with his palm, and said, "Don't sleep, just open your eyes and look at me, okay?"

Kou Xinian couldn't refuse me, and I couldn't refuse him in the same way. Who made him look so good-looking.But I couldn't control myself, the spit out blood had already been cleaned up, I looked at him powerlessly for a moment.

Not only did he cry, but he also didn't close his eyes for several nights, and his eye sockets were bloodshot.

"You... lied to me." I was very tired, but I still wanted to accuse him aggrievedly.

Kou Xinian kissed my eyes and said: "It's my fault, it's all me, Hengshi waits for you to recover, beating or scolding, whatever, as long as you recover."

"Kou Xiannian, I hate you."

"Okay, then you will hate it, don't sleep, just pinch and bite me, okay?"

"Hmph." I ignored him, I didn't have any strength, how could I pinch and bite him.

He put my hand on his ear, "then you pinch the earlobe to play."

"I'm sleepy when I hold it!"

Hearing this, he immediately held my hand in his palm and put it in his arms, "Don't sleep."

I didn't know until a long time later that Kou found many doctors for me in the past year, half of them were thrown out of the house, and half of them were rewarded.The doctor who received the award said that I can't let me sleep tonight, I'm afraid I won't wake up again, so Kou Xinian refuses to close my eyes for a few more seconds.

That night, Kou Xinian coaxed me to talk to him, and only after dawn did he let me fall asleep.When I woke up again, I had some strength, and besides being cold, I was only hungry.

Kou Xiannian seemed to know that he prepared a table full of meals for me, which looked rich but were actually filled with soup and water.

After being raised like this for half a month, it was only when I was able to get out of bed and walk that I realized that I was still in Los Angeles.

This mansion does not look like it has been inhabited all year round, and I thought of the word 'waifang'.Could this be the house where the woman lived?

Just as I was thinking, Kou Xinian came back from the outside and saw me standing still in front of the window. He hugged me from behind and whispered in my ear, "Hengshi, how do you feel today?"

This is what he asks every day.

But I didn't rush back to him, but turned my face and said: "The day I'm going to die——"

"Hengshi!" Kou Xinian hugged me even tighter, and said like an order: "Don't say this word again, I don't like it."

I nodded, and asked angrily, "Is this the house you built for the outlaw?"

Kou Xinian let go of me, "What?"

I just glanced at him and started to walk away.Kou Xiannian, that annoying bastard, not only didn't give me the slightest explanation, he kissed me against the window, forced me to open my mouth, and that's not considered a bite, even though it wasn't severe, it was still a bite!

"You see, are you jealous?" Kou Xinian asked.

With a hot face, I said confidently, "I'm just jealous, how about it?"

I'm already like this, Kou Xinian not only doesn't coax me, but also laughs, and kisses me while smiling, the kiss is so gentle, it makes me refuse to give up and continue to be unwilling, how can there be such an annoying person like him!

"She was only 13 years old, the youngest daughter of Zhou Yuan's family in Yicheng. Zhou's house was bloodbathed and died overnight. I went to Yicheng to investigate this case. Knowing that she was alive, I followed clues to Luocheng. The restaurant found her, she was the only witness, I just sent her back to Yicheng that day to be a witness."

"I...I just..." I looked up at Kou Xinian, and suddenly felt that I was making trouble for no reason, so I couldn't continue.I turned around and wanted to run, if there was a hole in the ground, I would just go into it.

Kou Xinian hugged me again, "Hengshi, don't go." His tone was as if he had done something wrong, and I felt even more guilty.

So he kept on doing nothing, preparing to speak out all the words that were suppressed in his heart: "I have something I want to confess to you."

Kou Xinian nodded, "Speak, I'll listen."

"I don't keep my husband's way." As soon as these five words came out, I not only cried, but also thought about the posture of closing the book and squatting in the pigsty...

Kou Xianian was confused, I cried even louder, and confessed honestly: "I was drunk that day and slept with someone else, I thought it was you, but I... I woke up and found it wasn't... I didn't obey my husband... "

"Hengshi," Kou Xinian was laughing again, not giving me any face, obviously I was crying so hard, he wiped my tears and asked: "Is this the reason why you woke up and ran away that day?"

I will not answer him.