I want to reunite with you

I am the eldest son loved by everyone and raised in the palm of my hand since I was a child.Looking back on the first 18 years of my life, I have lived happily ever after.Later, I became a victim of the court struggle, and I will marry as a woman after an imperial decree.Think about how I, a seven-foot man, can be inferior to others, let alone a descendant of a much-maligned eunuch.Kou Xiannian, I hated him to death, hated him for not resisting the order, hated him for marrying me!The bad times didn't last long, and he separated from me.The good times didn't last long. Three years later, the Si family was murdered by traitors, and the house was ransacked. I became an orphan overnight.Kou Xinian, that annoying bastard, saved me when I was down, and then lied to me that he would come back to find me, but he never came, one year, two years, five years, ten years, he didn't come...I hate him so much.Before leaving me, Kou Xinian said: It's fine to hate, but remember to forget.But, I miss him so much, after ten years without hearing from him.Demining: 1: No.1 (mind carefully)