street people

Sun Yanshi walked out of Lanying Lane with a dull head, and walked around aimlessly.

It was a bit windy tonight, and it was getting late. The road was empty and lonely, and there were almost no pedestrians in sight.The cold wind cooled the mind and calmed down the emotions. The chaotic mind became much clearer, and the restless heartbeat also calmed down.

Sun Yanshi had nowhere to go, so he walked to the parking lot and got into his car. After sitting there for a while, he suddenly lowered his head, slammed his forehead heavily on the steering wheel, and sighed wearily.

He closed his eyes tightly, and Lang Song's sonorous and powerful confession not long ago sounded in his ears. At the same time, those details that he had noticed but were unconsciously ignored also came to his mind.

At the beginning, Lang Song always kept talking about "brother", but from a certain day on, he suddenly stopped calling him that. Has Lang Song's mentality changed since then?

On the day Langyue was lost, those two hugs with all their strength had taken on a different meaning, right?

After Lei Bin dug up the old stories in front of everyone and revealed all his privacy, he had a frank and honest chat with Lang Song.He told Lang Song that he had not been honest about his sexual orientation because he was afraid of being misunderstood. He said that he only regarded Lang Song as his younger brother and had no other intentions.In those two days, Lang Song was much quieter than usual. He just thought it was because Lang Song couldn't digest this matter for a while. Now that he thought about it, Lang Song was probably depressed because of the sentence "I only regard you as my younger brother".

That day in the small courtyard, he joked with Zheng Ye that he had liked class flowers in high school, which happened to be overheard by Lang Song.That night, Lang Song suddenly became silent, and he sat by the door alone, preoccupied.At that time, he just thought that something happened to Lang Song, and asked a question, but Lang Song denied it.It turned out that Lang Song thought he really liked Xie Shuangyu, so he was depressed...

There were two times when Zheng Ye seemed to have something to say in front of him, but suddenly took it back, probably because Zheng Ye had already seen something...

In fact, everything is traceable, he should have noticed it long ago!

Sun Yanshi inserted his fingers into his hair, clenched his hair in remorse, and scolded himself in his heart: Why are you really as slow as Zheng Ye said!Why didn't I find out sooner!

As more and more clues were recalled, the familiar coolness rose from the back again, making people's hairs count down.

Inexplicably, Sun Yanshi thought of Zhang Xun, and of Mrs. Zhang's hoarse accusations.

"It's all because of you! You taught Zhang Xun badly, and you killed my grandson!"

Sun Yanshi was startled, and suddenly understood why Lang Song's confession scared him, because he could no longer bear the accusation of "it's all because of you"!

His sexual orientation was made public in Lanying Lane, and there was a lot of noise. Perhaps it did have a little influence on Zhang Xun's decision to come out voluntarily, but even if he did, it was not voluntary.Therefore, although he regretted and felt guilty about Zhang Xun's death, he did not feel that Zhang Xun's death was because of himself. He took care of Mrs. Zhang because of sympathy and the affection of neighbors for many years.

But Lang Song is different. The person Lang Song likes is him, and he is really influenced by him.

No one knows better than him how difficult the road of homosexuality is. Once he thinks that Lang Song will follow this road, his body can't help but tremble.

Lang Song and Lang Yue have no parents. At first he took them in out of sympathy, but later he wanted to take care of them out of genuine affection.

But he not only failed to take good care of the two of them, but also bent Lang Song, how embarrassing he was!

Lang Song's parents must have dreamed more than once of a beautiful life with their children and grandchildren. If they knew that Lang Song fell in love with a man, how much they would hate him!

Lang Song is only 19 years old, has zero emotional experience, and has not yet had time to establish a correct and sound view of love. Now he has embarked on this rough road in a daze. If he regrets it after many years, point to him and say, "It's all because You", how did he bear such a heavy charge!

Sun Yanzhi's breathing was completely out of rhythm, and his chest heaved rapidly with the frantic heartbeat. For a moment, countless emotions surged up, remorse, fear, pain, panic, all emotions were stuffed into the already messy brain, making him The headache is splitting, as if it will explode in the next second.

The blue veins on his forehead were bulging, and Sun Yanshi bit his lower lip tightly and grunted in pain. After a long time, he tasted a trace of rust in his mouth, and his disordered breathing and heartbeat returned to normal.

Sun Yanshi leaned back on the seat and sat with his eyes closed for a while before he calmed down completely.

At this moment, the phone on the center console vibrated twice.

The drooping eyelashes trembled twice, but Sun Yanshi did not move. He knew that it was Lang Song who sent the message.After a while, he opened his eyes and picked up his cell phone, the screen suddenly lit up in the dim car.

【Where are you?It's cold outside and you don't have a coat on. 】

His heart twitched violently, Sun Yanshi immediately pressed the lock screen button, and the car was plunged into darkness again.But soon, Sun Yanshi unlocked the phone screen again, and replied decisively and quickly.

[I'm in the hotel, don't worry. 】

He knew that Lang Song was only worried about himself, and he had no reason to refuse the simple concern. Moreover, escaping was not an option, he had to face and solve this problem head-on.

Lang Song didn't send any more messages, and Sun Yanshi sat in the car for a long time, and when he woke up, it was almost midnight.He planned to really find a hotel to get a room, but he checked his pockets and found that he didn't bring anything except his mobile phone.

Sun Yanshi couldn't face Lang Song for a while, and he couldn't go home. He hesitated for a while, and sent a message to Zhang Wu, asking if he was asleep.

A few seconds later, Zhang Wu called and asked if there was anything wrong.Sun Yanshi hesitated for a moment, and asked if he could borrow a night at his house.Zhang Wu agreed generously without asking why, and immediately sent the location after hanging up the phone.

Sun Yanshi drove to Zhang Wu's house, Zhang Wu opened the door for him, and said with a smile that he was watching a football game and it was too early to go to bed.The tacit social understanding of adults relieved Sun Yanshi's heavy heart a little. He smiled and said "excuse me", and then followed into the room.

Zhang Wu's house is very big, he led the way in front, arranged a guest room for Sun Yanshi, and prepared all the toiletries in advance.

This was the first time for Sun Yanshi to visit Zhang Wu's house. Because of special circumstances, he came to the door empty-handed, which made him a little embarrassed and awkward.

Zhang Wu saw that he was uncomfortable, and patted him on the shoulder: "Stay at ease, you can stay as long as you want."

Sun Yanzhi nodded and smiled: "Brother Zhang, thank you."

Zhang Wu asked Sun Yanshi to go to bed early. Although he didn't close his eyes last night and saw that tonight would be over soon, Sun Yanshi didn't feel sleepy at all, so he and Zhang Wu watched the football game together in the living room.

The two watched the game while eating snacks, chatting occasionally.

Although Sun Yanshi couldn't watch the goal match, at least he was distracted by most of his attention, leaving him no time to think about other things.

At three o'clock in the morning, the game is over.After almost two nights of sleepless nights, no matter how excited his nerves were, he felt exhausted. Sun Yanzhi fell asleep after washing up.

Sun Yanshi didn't wake up until noon, and returned to Lanying Lane after eating at Zhang Wu's.Naturally, there was no one at home, only Huang Dou who heard the door opening ran out of the yard to meet him, baring his teeth and calling out "Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo"

Sun Yanshi knelt down and patted the dog's head, thinking that Huang Dou was protesting that he didn't come home last night.

There was a thermos cup on the counter, and a note was pressed under the cup. Sun Yanshi picked it up and saw that it was left by Lang Song. He told him that there were prepared meals in the refrigerator, and they could be eaten by heating them in the microwave.He unscrewed the thermos again, and there was a glass full of warm honey lemonade inside.

Lang Song makes a cup for him and Lang Yue each morning. When it's hot, it's at room temperature, but now it's cold and it's hot.

Sun Yanshi stared deeply at the little note, and a burst of soreness welled up in his throat.

He couldn't help thinking, it should be hard for Lang Song to be rejected so resolutely by him last night, right?Probably can't fall asleep either?But Lang Song had to go out of the stall early in the morning, then send Lang Yue to school, and then rush to work in the restaurant. He didn't even have time to hide and digest his emotions, and even prepared lemonade and meals for him.

Thinking of this, Sun Yanshi felt distressed, guilty, and annoyed.Although he didn't do it intentionally, he did passively bend Lang Song's sexual orientation and hurt Lang Song.

After sitting in silence for a while, Sun Yanshi sent a message to Lang Song, saying that he was at home and would pick Lang Yue up for class in the afternoon, so that he could go to work without worry.

In the evening, when Lang Song came back from get off work, he saw Sun Yanshi who was sitting against the wall at the door of the store. A gleam appeared in his dark eyes, but they dimmed instantly when he saw a backpack next to him.

Sun Yanshi looked at Lang Song, tried to put on a normal look, and smiled: "You're back?"

Lang Song stared at the backpack and asked hoarsely, "Where are you going?"

Sun Yanshi lowered his eyes with a guilty conscience: "I'm going to stay with Brother Zhang for two days."

"Why?" Lang Song stepped forward, "Are you afraid of what I will do to you, so you dare not live at home?"

Looking at Lang Song's aggrieved eyes, Sun Yanshi felt very uncomfortable. Of course, he didn't hypocritically think what Lang Song would do to him, and it was impossible to speculate on Lang Song like that.

"No." Sun Yanzhi denied, he sighed lowly, stood up and faced Lang Song face to face, "Sorry Xiao Song, my tone was not very good yesterday, let's calm down for two days, think carefully, and then sit down and have a good time Let's talk, will you?"

Sun Yanshi tried his best to make his voice soft, and the result could not be changed, but he hoped to minimize the damage to Lang Song.In fact, there are some things he can say right now, but that may be too cruel for Lang Song who has just been rejected, so he wants to separate the two for a few days, give Lang Song some buffer time, and then sit down and talk .

What he wants to do is not only to sort out the relationship between the two, but also to get Lang Song back on the right track in life.

Lang Song stood in the shadows where the light could not be found in the room, his face turned pale, and it took him a while to answer in a trembling voice: "Okay."

He could probably guess what Sun Yanshi wanted to talk to him. In fact, he didn't want to talk about it, but he couldn't refuse because Sun Yanshi had the initiative.

He couldn't concentrate all day today, and Sun Yanshi's eyes of resistance and fear before he left last night kept appearing in his mind, and he couldn't help thinking wildly, what if Sun Yanshi felt disgusted?What if Sun Yanshi doesn't talk to him anymore?What if Sun Yanshi drives him away?

Now that Sun Yanshi is willing to have a good talk with him, he should feel lucky...

The Adam's apple twitched twice, and Sun Yanshi lifted the backpack with the clothes on it: "I will come to pick Yueyue to school tomorrow morning, you can go to work without worrying."

Lang Song lowered his head to prevent Sun Yanshi from seeing his red eye circles, and gave a low "hmm".