He had a crush on him for 12 years and divorced

The faint smell of medicine and rice lingers around.

When he went to fetch water from the spring, he accidentally fell, and the jeans his grandma bought for 35 yuan had holes in them.

Going back dejectedly, grandma hurriedly brought purple medicine to treat his wound.

When I fell asleep at night, I vaguely felt that there was light. When I opened my eyes, I saw the needle and thread in my grandma’s hands constantly threading through the pants. I watched and fell asleep again. When I woke up, yesterday’s jeans were placed beside the pillow.

It was clean, and there was a dark blue leaf on the knee. If you look closely, the trousers are also embroidered, as if you brought it with you when you bought it.

The sound of firewood being stepped on and broken came from the yard, and one could smell the aroma of rice by sniffing.

Ren Zhaoyuan woke up from the dream, the faint smell of medicine and rice was still there.

He didn't sleep in his bedroom.

Ren Zhaoyuan sat up and recognized that it was a guest room on the first floor.

He was holding something in the other hand and lifted the quilt. It was one of his home clothes tops.

——It's the one Tan Zheng wore last night!

Ren Zhaoyuan immediately let go, and all the events of last night flooded into his mind.

sky..

Ren Zhaoyuan bowed up, opened his unwrapped hand and pressed his temple twice, propping his forehead for a while without moving.

His worst drinking days were never insane.

Not to mention swearing and swearing like last night, pulling clothes and refusing to leave.

I haven't lived like this for more than 30 years.

Ren Zhaoyuan heard movement outside and knew that Tan Zheng was still there, but he didn't go out after sitting for a long time.

Pushing as soon as I get started, pushing it a few times is not enough before throwing snow, throwing a temper tantrum after scolding, being hugged back by a person who is seven years younger than me, patting and coaxing, I still don’t buy it, I don’t let go when I pull, I don’t let go when I hug , I forgot when I fell asleep.

In the afternoon, I said to forget about it, and in the evening, I started to chase after it to ensure that I asked later.

Ren Zhaoyuan knew for the first time what it was like to have no face to see people.

Really, to die for..

"woke up?"

Ren Zhaoyuan straightened up, met Tan Zheng's eyes and then subconsciously hid: "Ahem...well, you're still there."

"It's too late, so I didn't leave."

Ren Zhaoyuan watched Tan Zheng walk in, and remembered something more important than embarrassment.

Last night, in the cloakroom, he promised Tan Zheng.

At that time, I was too emotional, and I couldn't separate my mind to take care of other things. I only knew that Tan Zheng would not be allowed to leave, and I agreed if I wanted to.

Looking back now, Ren Zhaoyuan never imagined that he would have such a big reaction.

The first moment when he saw the person lying in the snow downstairs was actually okay, but he panicked later because he immediately recognized that it was Tan Zheng.

Too scared.

If he hadn't experienced it personally, even if he had already seen his liking clearly, Ren Zhaoyuan would not have imagined that he was so afraid of Tan Zheng's accident.

I'm afraid that I can't breathe well when I recall the mood at that time.

Can..

The reason why he has been worrying and pushing away the rejection has never been that he doesn't like it enough.

Some things have to be said first.

"last night.."

Tan Zheng immediately said, "I slept outside."

Ren Zhaoyuan didn't want to ask this, but after Tan Zheng explained, he realized that he was so relieved of Tan Zheng, fell asleep unpreparedly, and woke up without thinking about what would happen to Tan Zheng after he fell asleep.

Ren Zhaoyuan was not surprised that Tan Zheng slept outside.

With him, Tan Zheng has always been modest, like this is obviously not his bedroom, but without permission, Tan Zheng would not go to the second floor if he could accommodate him on the first floor.

Ren Zhaoyuan surprised himself.

Unexpectedly, my subconscious trust in Tan Zheng has reached this point.

There is only a sofa outside. Although it is big enough, Tan Zheng's body can only be said to be good enough for sleeping, especially after all his troubles, it is impossible to sleep well.

But at this time, it seems inappropriate to let Tan Zheng sleep here for a while or to urge Tan Zheng to go back to rest.

Seeing that Ren Zhaoyuan lifted the quilt and wanted to move, Tan Zheng immediately stepped forward: "Be careful of your legs, slow down."

Ren Zhaoyuan felt that his legs were really hurting after being reminded, and he was startled when he lifted his trousers. There was an obvious swollen rib on both calves, and the purple and cyan stretched all the way to his knees. appalling.

Ren Zhaoyuan looked up at Tan Zheng, and Tan Zheng was startled because of the question in his eyes: "You probably fell down the stairs, don't you remember?"

Last night, after realizing that Ren Zhaoyuan was asleep, Tan Zheng carried him from the cloakroom to the guest room, and there was a burst of wind that knocked the door against the wall, disturbing Ren Zhaoyuan to frown in displeasure.

Leaving it open all the time was not an option, and I was afraid that the wind would change and the door would suddenly close and wake Ren Zhaoyuan up. Tan Zheng tried for a while, but Ren Zhaoyuan still held on to his clothes, so he had to bend down and take off his coat.

After closing the door and coming back, I saw a slipper at the bottom of the stairs, and another one near the middle.

Looking at the furnishings at home, he knew that Ren Zhaoyuan was not a person who would throw away his shoes. Tan Zheng hurried into the guest room and rolled up Ren Zhaoyuan's trousers to see that his knees and calves were all blue.

Tan Zheng couldn't be softer than touching the bones next to each other to make sure it was all right, and then patted rhythmically through the quilt until Ren Zhaoyuan, who had just frowned because of the pain and kept making unhappy sounds in his throat, fell asleep .

Don't know where Ren Zhaoyuan's medicine box is, and it's not easy to search casually, so Tan Zheng hides in a corner of the living room and calls to order medicine.

When Tan Zheng took off the other slipper on the stairs, he stood on the steps and looked down. There were seven floors.

Ren Zhaoyuan put down his trousers, thinking that he seemed to have fallen, but the period from when he saw Tan Zheng on the second floor to when he fell next to him was too confusing, and he couldn't remember exactly how and where he fell.

"It seems to have fallen, it's okay."

"Feel sorry."

Ren Zhaoyuan didn't expect Tan Zheng to apologize suddenly: "What's wrong?"

"I shouldn't be downstairs in the middle of the night. I didn't expect to be seen by you. It scared you."

Ren Zhaoyuan smiled, propped himself up and turned around to get out of bed: "If I want to apologize for what happened last night, I should apologize more."

When the range of motion is large, I feel a little pain in the joints of the body. The shoulders, elbows, and hip bones are not serious, but faint.

"It comes down to me."

Tan Zheng squatted down and stretched out his hand to bring the slippers. Ren Zhaoyuan realized what he was going to do and immediately dodged back, his heel hit the wooden bed with a "bang".

In the next second, he was surrounded by a wide palm.

"Are you okay?"

It's okay to touch it, it's okay to be held by the heel like this.

Ren Zhaoyuan took a deep breath calmly, leaned over and pushed him: "It's okay, I'll do it myself."

Tan Zheng didn't respond, and quickly put the shoes on for him.

"Tan Zheng, last night I..."

"You promised," Tan Zheng still squatted in front of him, raised his head, and stared straight into his eyes, "Do you want to go back on your word?"

Ren Zhaoyuan's back was stiff, and his scalp was numb: "No...you get up first, I have something to say."

Tan Zheng didn't move: "Say it."

Ren Zhaoyuan sighed softly.

"You have liked me for a long time, but in fact we didn't have much intersection before. I know that liking doesn't necessarily need to accumulate over time, and I also believe in your feelings. It's just that maybe I'm not as perfect as you imagined. Maybe you will feel I'm not what you've liked all these years."

"will not."

"Tan Zheng..."

"You think so because I don't let you know enough. If you don't believe it, then slowly understand and believe. Just like what I said last night, how can I prove that I will never leave, first of all, you Give me a chance."

Ren Zhaoyuan moved his lips but was unable to make a sound.

It seems that there is no way to organize a sentence with all the reasons listed before.

"If you don't like me anymore, or if you feel dissatisfied, just push me away," Tan Zheng stood up slowly with one knee on the ground, and put his hands on the edge of the bed on both sides of Ren Zhaoyuan. Bu Shun looked at him and said, "But now you promised to give me a chance, and you want to take it back, I don't accept it."

Obviously Tan Zheng didn't touch him at all, but Ren Zhaoyuan had the illusion that he couldn't move in Tan Zheng's eyes, as if he was firmly bound, and after a few seconds he spoke softly: "I don't want to take it back."

"Then what are you trying to tell me by saying this?"

I want to tell what may happen in advance, I want to be as comprehensive as possible, I want to reduce the risk, I want to...

It doesn't seem necessary.

People can't predict the future, even if Tan Zheng will really have a gap in him and feel disappointed in the future, no matter what he says now, Tan Zheng will still categorically answer "no".

"Feelings are not a matter of one person. It's not that everything will be fine if I promise, you..."

Ren Zhaoyuan stopped talking halfway, as if he had made a difficult decision, looked at the person in front of him for a while before continuing: "Let's try it first, shall we?"

When I agreed last night, I didn't think about it. Looking back, it seems that there is nothing absolutely wrong.

There are so many possibilities, so many possibilities, if you don't really go to that step, how will you know what the situation is.

The oppressive aura on Tan Zheng's body subsided silently, pulled away the too close distance, and his expression relaxed and eased.

It's like experiencing the melting of ice and snow in just a few seconds, and everything is resurrected.

"Really?"

Ren Zhaoyuan said, "Really."

"No repentance is allowed, nor can it be taken back."

Just now, Ren Zhaoyuan was speechless sentence after sentence, but now he is like a child without the slightest attack power.

"Don't go back on your word, don't take it back," Ren Zhaoyuan couldn't help laughing, "How about I make a note for you?"

Tan Zheng didn't think there was anything wrong with it at all: "It's okay, it's better to add another recording."

"I don't, you record it yourself."

"Then, high-five as proof."

"Aren't you naive, Mr. Tan," Ren Zhaoyuan said while smiling tautly, and patted Tan Zheng's solemnly raised hand, "Has it taken effect?"

Tan Zheng stopped with satisfaction: "Well, yes."

Ren Zhaoyuan's resistance was futile, and Tan Zheng walked out with his forearm supported.

"Will it affect walking? If the pain is severe, we will go for an examination."

"It doesn't matter," Ren Zhaoyuan said, "It's not that serious, it's just a bit of bruising after being knocked, and it will be fine in two days."

Tan Zheng agreed, but still worriedly helped him go out to wash.

A few boxes of new toiletries were placed in a glass locker beside him. Tan Zheng used one set when he washed, and got a new set for Ren Zhaoyuan. Then he realized that this was Ren Zhaoyuan’s own home, so he asked him, “Would you use this one?” Or should I go upstairs and get it for you?"

"Go upstairs and get it for me. Go straight up and turn left to see the sink."

"Okay," Tan Zheng still supported him, "Then go and sit for a while."

Ren Zhaoyuan looked at him for two seconds, couldn't help but turned his head and smiled: "Tan Zheng, I want to go to the bathroom first."

"Oh," Tan Zheng let go of his hand immediately, "Then, be careful, I'll go get things."

Walking a little faster, the pinnae of the ears looked a little red.

Ren Zhaoyuan looked away from Tan Zheng, and when he was about to turn around, he saw his smiling face in the mirror, was startled slightly, lowered his head and smiled again.

It seems that if you agree, you agree.

All the hesitant and entangled things went over in one go, and it was obviously not resolved, and it seemed to have solved all the problems in the simplest way.

Also, very good.

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