late morning rain

After a while, I remembered the dream at night again, and my face suddenly became hot. Gu Yueyue looked at her with a puzzled expression. In order to cover up the embarrassment, Xu Chenyu said incoherently, "The heroine's name is Senkouyu..." Xu Chenyu's voice was not counted. Big, even a little timid, Gu Yueyue was completely used to her state, she pricked up her ears and listened carefully.Mori speaking, Moriguchi, Japanese?

"The heroine is of Chinese and Japanese mixed blood, and grew up in Japan..." It's really troublesome, Xu Chenyu complained in his heart, why don't he just stop talking and find an excuse to prevaricate, why the meal hasn't been cooked yet?You can stop when it's served, but Xu Chenyu glanced at the kitchen and didn't mean to do it well at all, so he could only bite the bullet and continue.

"Why is the surname Moriguu? I've never heard of this surname..." Gu Yueyue interrupted suddenly, tilting her head and putting her hand on her chin, she looked very cute.

"The heroine of the movie I watched before was surnamed Moriguchi, so I used it because I thought it sounded good." Xu Chenyu continued after seeing the other party's indifferent "Oh, that's it" expression:

"Moriguchi is the granddaughter of the head of the Japanese gang organization Moriguchi-gumi. Her parents died unexpectedly when she was a child. So Moriguchi lived with her grandfather..."

Good secondary and common setting.Gu Yueyue complained in her heart, pure love plus a gangster stage?Personal feelings and family interests?This is the same as the second-year boy who travels through different worlds and finally becomes a king.Although she thought so in her heart, Gu Yueyue still listened carefully.

"The heroine grew up alone until another green-eyed girl broke into her life..."

There it was again, green eyes.Gu Yueyue narrowed her eyes, which page is this?

"Grandpa told Mori Kouyu that the girl is the granddaughter of a friend of his and will live here for a while. The girl has green eyes, is Spanish, and her name means month."

"Senkouyu spent her short childhood with her. Senkouyu likes her very much and regards her as all her happiness."

Gu Yueyue remembers this story. The green eyes are the hostages placed here by the Italian mafia. The girl is too smart, so she uses the young and ignorant Mori to achieve her goal. Later, the gang fights, and the grandfather sends Mori out. The two have been together ever since. separate.

Not long after, Mori's grandfather also died, and Mori's assets were inherited by Mori. Under the girl's scheme, Mori's family was ruined and he was forced to leave his hometown and hide his identity as an ordinary person.

Everything flourishes.

This is the beginning of that story.

The world that Gu Yueyue once entered is a page of this story.But Gu Yueyue didn't know the beginning and ending of the story, nor the direction of its development.The ending of that story is very important, that is Xu Chenyu's state of mind.

They must be inseparable, and cannot go further and further apart.Gu Yueyue told herself so.But if she wants to understand her better, she must know every wish and knot in her heart.

The beginning of the story is not so good. This may be a common problem of many works. People who create characters always like to make this character bear an irresistible fate, just like Hamlet who is doomed to die.The conflict and cruelty in the story is certainly eye-catching, but Gu Yueyue wants to see a world without sorrow from her writing.

Gu Yueyue looked at Xu Chenyu frowning and thinking about words, in fact, it doesn't matter how you say it, as long as you have an expression, I know what you want to say.Gu Yueyue felt that Xu Chenyu was too uncommunicative, and it was too difficult for her to speak up.Gu Yueyue wanted to stop talking to her, but she also wanted to hear her voice, and finally stopped until the waiter arrived. Xu Chenyu breathed a sigh of relief, with a face of relief that was finally over, picked up the chopsticks, buried her face in the bowl, and ate Got up, and reminded her to eat quickly, Gu Yueyue yawned, even though she was not hungry, she still ate with her.During this time they did not speak again.

On Saturday, Gu Yueyue asked Xu Chenyu to go to the amusement park. Although Xu Chenyu didn't pay much attention to her words, she still went there yawning.That day Gu Yueyue was wearing a Japanese-style haori and shorts, her long, thin and fair legs dangling in the sunlight.

Xu Chenyu lay on the bench in the park, checking Weibo, Gu Yueyue bought two ice creams of the same flavor, gave one to Xu Chenyu, and licked the other herself.Gu Yueyue had a great time watching Xu Chenyu play with her mobile phone while adding ice cream.

"There is a new movie coming out." Xu Chenyu said in a very soft voice, but was still caught by Gu Yueyue. Gu Yueyue looked at the movie poster on her phone, "There is a strong sense of cheapness, which traffic niche acted it? "

"do not know."

"Ha, I don't care about the bad domestic movies. Oh, by the way, haven't you written a story about the entertainment industry before? Tell me about the follow-up~"

"Hmm... the one about the author and the actors? It's a mess." Xu Chenyu had conceived such a story, but it was only a conception and could not be written on paper.Writing a novel requires not only the framework of the story, but also the filling in of details to make it real.After all, Xu Chenyu is still a student and has no relevant life experience, so the novel cannot be formed.

She told this story to Gu Yueyue.The initial setting is the story of childhood sweethearts who were separated unexpectedly during the growth process and met again many years later.Later, I felt that the plot was too simple and common, so I added business warfare and gangster elements. After joining, I found that I couldn't write it at all, so the original manuscript lay dead in the computer.

"Hee hee, if your novel can be published and adapted into a movie in the future, I must read it. But now there are too few dedicated actors and excellent screenwriters, and there is a high chance that it will be changed." Gu Yueyue threw the trash to the trash at her feet bucket.

"I don't write novels to make money." Xu Chenyu raised his head, thought for a while, and then said, "But with the pissing nature of Guangdian, it is estimated that Lily will be changed to friendship, and then add a male lead?"

"Haha, a tragedy in the world." Gu Yueyue stood up, stretched her waist, then pointed to the roller coaster not far away and said, "Let's go play that!"

Xu Chenyu also threw away the trash in his hand, stood up, "Let's go."

When it rose, the wind blew, accompanied by the voices of boys and girls around, Xu Chenyu was always quiet and never made a sound, although Gu Yueyue looked happy, she didn't cry out either, they were always so similar in an inexplicable way .When falling from a high altitude, the lights and shadows of countless figures quickly passed by in front of his eyes, and the world spun for a moment, but the sound was stuck in his throat when he wanted to scream.

There is a feeling of suffocation.

And they were pulled back to the high place by the huge traction force, the shouts of the surrounding people became louder and louder, Xu Chenyu bit his lip, they repeatedly rose and fell in the air, when they hit the highest point, Xu Chenyu's brain suddenly became quiet.

The voices around me are far away.

Xu Chenyu turned his head and suddenly found that there was no one around him.No, not just her side, the entire roller coaster disappeared, and the sound also disappeared, leaving only her falling from the apex.

The wind blew past, Xu Chenyu closed his eyes, maybe it was an illusion, just like when he got up suddenly, his eyes would turn black.Slowly, the blackness faded, and the screams around were still ear-piercing.

"Damn, it's too exciting."

Xu Chenyu heard people around her say that at that time, Gu Yueyue had completely lost her previous composure and turned into Yan Yi, with sparkling black eyes.

☆, in the world

When Gu Yueyue woke up, she found herself in Xu Chenyu's other world. She looked in the mirror and found that she was still an NPC. Not only that, she also had thick arms, short legs, and a short body. She looked like a primary school student. She took out her mobile phone to locate the coordinates of Japan. A small village in Kanagawa should be the place where the story begins.

I have to say that Xu Chenyu really lacks social experience. Do gang headquarters usually set up in villages with poor infrastructure?Obviously the city center is better, it is good for hiding and convenient for crime, the quality of life and education conditions are much better than those in small villages.However, Gu Yueyue is not the author, so she can't control the setting of the world view, but just let it develop.

The NPC played by Gu Yueyue goes to a local elementary school and should be in the same class as the protagonist. Xu Chenyu, who is not in the same class, is probably too lazy to write. When she was young, Moriguchi sat in the second-to-last row by the window for the protagonist, and watched with her chin Cherry blossoms outside the window, not interested in studying, a girl with green eyes sits behind her.

Use a period of green years to buffer the plot, supplement the details of the story, and contrast the cruelty of seeing you again as an adult.This kind of plot is usually used in this way, but Gu Yueyue did not see much innocence of a child from Xu Chenyu when she was young, she always had a gloomy look on her face, just like Xu Chenyu in real life underdraw.

It turned out that she hated people so much when she was a child, Gu Yueyue felt emotional, she still liked Mori's spoken language when she was a child, and that guy probably had the same stern look when she was a child.

Mori has a kind of gloom from the bottom of her heart, which is inseparable from her background in a gangster and the lack of family care. The camera cuts to a few weeks ago. At that time, Mori had not yet gone to school, and she also had a strong attachment to school. repulsion psychology.Mori Kouyu stays at home all day reading comics and playing games, and doesn't go out once a few days. He draws the curtains and lives in his own world. He doesn't care about his family or political affairs, and is completely cut off from the outside world.And grandpa was busy dealing with the gangster affairs, so he threw Sen spoken language to auntie, and auntie took care of her eating, drinking and sleeping, and she didn't care about the spiritual level at all, as long as the eldest lady didn't die and didn't cause trouble.

When she was young, Senkouyu had an almost paranoid obsession with darkness. She felt that she would never leave here, until the girl pushed open her door and brought in the sunshine.

However, Senkouyu didn't fall in love with her at that time, she just met her at that time.The time when she really liked her was on a midsummer night, the camera cut and looked again, it was in a deep mountain, the night was already deep, the moon was also covered, and the sound of insects chirping could be heard, owls and bats flew and stayed the sound of.The young Mori was lost in this jungle.

She should be very scared, but there is still no expression on her face. She is thinking about waiting for someone to rescue her, or sleeping on the spot until dawn. Thinking about finding these solutions in my young brain, I didn't cry or be overwhelmed.

Maybe it's because I've learned from a young age that it's useless.

Mori Kouyu walked aimlessly for a long time, his exposed skin was bitten by mosquitoes, it was itchy, and he couldn't help but want to scratch it.

"So you are here."

A highly recognizable voice with an accent suddenly came from behind, the young girl turned around, and saw a green-eyed girl holding a firefly lamp, appearing in front of her eyes, and the sky behind her suddenly lit up , there are stars all over the sky.

That's when she fell in love with her.

Gu Yueyue couldn't help feeling that the special effects for the main character were good, and it was convenient to flirt with girls.At that time, the green-eyed girl walked into Mori Kouyu's heart, and then made her restless all her life, really verynice.And she and other NPCs will always be ignored, without even a facial description.

Gu Yueyue has heard many stories told by Xu Chenyu, and she feels that her stories attract her most because of her strong sense of fate. The two are a natural pair, ribs broken by the Lord, and when the heartstrings are connected together, there will be the most beautiful harmony. Voice.Although falling in love is inexplicable, and development is inexplicable, but love is extremely intense.

In Yu Sen's spoken words, that is the beginning of real life. From then on, her love will only be more than the day before, it will not remain the same or decrease, and it will be difficult for her to fall in love with others.This kind of plot hardly exists in real life. No one can continue the initial enthusiasm after experiencing deception and injury, but Xu Chenyu can write a person, and a person can last a lifetime.That kind of desperate love is nothing short of a vicious curse.

But Xu Chenyu is full of bad humor like this.

Mori likes every aspect of her, the earnestness in class, the joy in physical education class, the satisfaction of eating and drinking, the leisurely time in the bath, each and every appearance is always fixed in her mind, that's it It doesn't make sense.When they are with her, it seems that an inherent barrier has been launched, and the outside world has nothing to do with them from then on.

Mori's oral language is too humble, it's in every aspect, including feelings, and it can't stand quarrels and disturbances, so it builds a pure land without disturbances, stays in the psychological safety comfort zone, and keeps her here.

But no one wanted to stay except her.

The green-eyed girl has her own goals, her classmates are all working hard towards her dreams, the servants work to make money, and the grandfather handles matters big and small. Only she is there, as if there is no life, Mori has nothing to like, and she has never even liked herself. .

Not being able to fall in love with oneself is the author's curse to the protagonist and also a reflection of himself.

Gu Yueyue understood the beginning, but she didn't know how it would develop.

When Gu Yueyue opened her eyes again, she found Xu Chenyu lying next to her. Gu Yueyue had been hiding in Xu Chenyu's body for many years, and then suddenly one day, she had her own consciousness.

And Xu Chenyu is also clearly visible, truly appearing in front of her eyes, there is no such real her who is separated from the dimension, who can be touched, who can be kissed.That night Gu Yueyue looked at her, kept watching, as if she was afraid that she would disappear in the next second, until the first ray of sunlight shone on her through the window at dawn, Gu Yueyue sat up slowly, half-closed her eyes With green eyes.

After a long time, Gu Yueyue lightly hooked the corners of her lips, bent down, and kissed Xu Chenyu's forehead, just like kissing herself.

Countless times, I have bloomed in your every thought of dying, and you have never seen how cruel and beautiful they are.

I want to lie in your story to find you, to piece together the life you don't want me to know, your mind is chaotic, and you are also sensitive and sentimental.You have closed yourself for many years, and those emotions will finally be released in your pen.

Little by little I'll hold on to all your emotions until you cry out and know you hold me tight until we're one and never torn apart again.

The sun has just climbed into this small town, and the early-open toy store plays European and American singles, and the voice of the lead singer of the HIM band on the stereo is like a lover whispering in the ear.

"ohohohohooh~mybaby, how beautiful you are~

"ohohohohohoh~ my darling, completely tornapart~"

☆, disappear

Gu Yueyue disappeared for a while.

During that time, when Xu Chenyu woke up every morning, he would feel that his brain had stopped functioning. He didn't pay much attention to it at first, or he didn't pay much attention when he noticed it. It was like a common cold, which would be cured after a few days. Like a cold, it didn't get better, and it didn't get better after a long time. The brain stopped, and the feeling was especially serious in the morning.

But she can't stop, because she has to go to school, because she has to go to class, everything around her is running, the teacher lectures, the classmates listen to the lectures, the parents go to work, the chef cooks in the restaurant, the cashier pays the bill, the waiter cleans the table, the United States makes trouble, China Shengshi...they were all following this world, but she knew that she had stopped, without warning, suddenly stopped.

And she just ignored it for a few weeks, and everyone or things other than her were moving forward at a fast pace. The flowers bloomed at some time, and the weeds also thrived, but she was still in place, and she was the only one left.She finally realized she was sick, dragged on a few times, finally went to the hospital, got some sleeping pills after a terrible conversation, and came back.

At first, she was able to hold on, but then she couldn’t. She couldn’t go to school, and she couldn’t sleep. On a night when the power was cut off, some images began to flash in her mind, about her own life, so Xu Chenyu began to live in the dark. Zhong repeated to himself over and over again in his heart, her name is Xu Chenyu, Xu Xian's Xu, Chenyu of Qingchenyu, was born in a famous ancient capital, 17 years old, third year of high school, bad in studies and bad temper, so Alone, in short, is a lonely and gloomy weird guy, full of disgust for many things, hate sunshine and laughing freak.All those years past, she had kept her mouth shut, hidden from her parents' sight, in the shadows, in the dust.Occasionally there are things I like, such as violin music with a clear tone, such as unfounded stories that suddenly come to mind.I also like the night, so I often stay up late, and then I started to suffer from insomnia, until now I can't sleep at all.In those days when her imagination was still alive, she could still hear the echo of night rolling in the sea, and see the mermaid rushing out of the sea, the blue fish tail bending into a beautiful arc under the moonlight.

Xu Chenyu began to think of Gu Yueyue, Xu Chenyu didn't have much memory of the past years, her memory is very poor, until now, she can't remember her real appearance, Gu Yueyue, Gu Yueyue, sometimes it's like boiled water , Sometimes it looks like Weiyang tune, sometimes it looks like red pepper, but at this moment, she is like a touch of light white, soft as gauze, gently falling and covering her.

Xu Chenyu doesn't remember how they met, she only remembers that they have been together for a long time, have traveled to many places together, shared each other's daily life, and talked about all kinds of unconstrained thoughts.The moment is lucky, Xu Chenyu once said that he doesn't like her, it is true, but sometimes she likes her again, but she still acts like she doesn't like her, very contradictory, but this kind of contradictory psychology has existed for a long time, as if being Day and night are separated, and I really want to express all my emotions face to face, but I can't even see each other face to face.

In fact, her white top, her low ponytail, her fair skin, and her soft and light lips are all so attractive, there is no reason not to like her, but she just can't do it, Gu Yueyue stood The edge of her world is like a white star.And she didn't touch drugs, and went back to school intermittently for a while, but she still continued to waste time, lying on the table with her eyes closed, not saying a word, so there was only darkness, the sound of the pen scratching on the paper by her ear gradually faded away, and the autumn wind swept away. Passing the ginkgo leaves that fell on the ground, the gray bird suddenly rushed into the sky.He still can't start.

Then I started to crave sleep.I go to bed very late every day, and the content of the dream is weird and chaotic.She always wakes up suddenly, the misty dream in the dream dissipates in a sudden moment, and there is no trace of the missing.And every time I open my eyes, I open the curtains with good shading effect, and see the white sky in the air.Will immediately hide under the blanket, covered tightly, as if it is still a long night.It seems that there is no sunlight, and there will be no dawn.She often sleeps restlessly, and always has some bizarre dreams, which will disappear shortly after waking up. She also tried hard to remember some dreams and wanted to write them down, but she would suddenly forget them when she suddenly woke up.But one day she had a dream that she didn't want to remember. She dreamed that she was crawling on the table, surrounded by darkness, and green fireflies gradually rose from her feet, illuminating the pale green stiff faces of her classmates in the darkness. She closed her eyes, but those scenes appeared in her mind exactly.At that moment, she knew it was a dream, but she couldn't wake up no matter how hard she struggled.Suddenly, the fireflies scattered away, taking away all the darkness.The glare of the sun came in from the window, and the eyelids suddenly hurt, so painful that they couldn't open them, but in an instant, the people around them were not as numb as zombies. Their faces were rosy and youthful, and they were smiling and talking.And she felt extremely anxious.Why is she alive why is she still here?It's disgusting.And the night also wove a dense web at that time, which almost suffocated her.Surrounded by light, overhead is a huge suffocating darkness.

When will darkness swallow everything?she began to think so.It would be great if they all died, and she would die along with her, as well as her parents, and everyone she had met in her life, all of them would die.It is a disgrace to live like this, and it is a disgrace to anyone who has seen her alive.She often felt insecure and unable to do anything, so every minute of her life became a torment.want to get out of here.

One day it started to rain, and she wandered aimlessly on the sparsely populated street for a long time. She stood under the eaves, took off her rain-wet glasses, and looked at the gray sky with her head tilted. It has been falling, tick tock disturbs people's nerves.When did it start? It wasn’t like this a long time ago. She should like rainy days, because the raindrops on her face are cool, and when they fall into puddles, there will be beautiful ripples. On rainy days, she will sleep soundly , wake up with a good dream fulfilled.What now?I have been sleeping all the time, sleeping too deeply, and I can't wake up no matter what.The rain crackled and never stopped.Dark clouds locked the sky, as if to drive away bad luck.She saw fallen leaves and mud in puddles, rotting leaves with clear veins and filthy silt.very disgusting.That was all her state of mind.But the rain will not stop, it will continue to fall until she drowns.

She slept for several days in a row, woke up to replenish water instinctively, missed meals countless times, then fell asleep again, was woken up, and then fell asleep again, perhaps because she had been lying down for a long time, after waking up My body hurts everywhere, I haven't eaten for several days, my stomach is numb from hunger, and I don't feel a thing.She heard a voice that was almost furious, you idiot, you are not normal, I am sick, I want to sleep, I want to die.She never said those words to them.

There is a pharmacy on the trail to the left of the school.The classmate said that the business is not bad, because there are residential areas nearby.The pharmacy is separated by several half-demolished buildings and a small grove, and there is a lot of rubbish on the road.Xu Chenyu passed by here several times.Occasionally look up.It was raining again when I opened the door and entered the pharmacy for the first time.Her medicine is almost finished, and she needs to make up for it once.Xu Chenyu parked the car at the door of the pharmacy, rubbed his shoes, and pushed open the glass door.The antique decoration builds a world.At that moment, she was stunned, the sound of rain was far away, as if she had stepped into a different time and space, the wooden structures intertwined in front of her eyes, behind the transparent glass cabinets were all kinds of medicine boxes, there was no one here, she looked around .

"What do you need?" Suddenly, a female voice came from the top of my head. I looked up and saw a girl standing at the entrance above the revolving wooden stairs. She was wearing a knee-length white coat and her hair was pulled up high. Only two strands hang down the front.The woman looked at her and walked down the stairs, the sound of high heels stepping on the steps was calm and peaceful.

Like the aesthetic sister, the voice actor.Xu Chenyu thought this way, "Hmm...is there any budesonide?" She swallowed and said.The woman is tall and thin.Xu Chenyu's eyes were locked on her legs - her calves were even more slender against the backdrop of the stiletto heels, and they swayed slightly, extremely alluring. "Yes, here." The woman walked past her, her slender fingers slid across the glass, and then stopped at one place.She went around, opened the glass, took out the medicine, and handed it to me.The woman is good-looking, she has a full forehead and a high nose bridge.The lips are light and raised upwards, like a classical beauty in ink and wash.The only discrepancy was the eyes—those beautiful but deep eyes that couldn't see to the bottom.

"How much?" I asked. "65 yuan." She walked to the cashier, and I followed her, rummaging through my pockets, and came across a note that was obviously bigger, and felt relieved.I handed her a hundred yuan, and she took it. Her fingers were long and slender, like bamboo, but white, as delicate as enamel. "35 yuan for you." She put one hundred bills into the cash register, lifted the iron bracket, put it down, and counted out 35 yuan a few times, then handed it to me.Xu Chenyu took the change, looked at the woman's downcast eyes, her lips were dry.

On the woman's counter lay a book, Baudelaire's The Flowers of Evil.

Her depression was hidden in book after book, as was her medical certificate.She remembers the doctors who followed the procedures, she remembers swallowing her sorrow, I remember the drugs, and the ridicule and banter of those people.Sometimes she was drowsy under the effect of drugs, as if she was standing at a focal point, and all kinds of eyes were cast on her, gloating, mocking, indifferent, helpless, complaining... all eyes Converging on her skin, the skin she had torn apart.When it was cut apart, not only blood flowed out, but also thick darkness and rotting inferiority complex.

And she can only be indifferent in front of people.When alone, hide in a corner and kill all light.In fact, I also thought about standing in the sun, being cheerful and gregarious; I didn't want to be melancholy and irritable, I wanted to control her little emotions and not let the little sadness overwhelm me.I want to be friends with others, I want to know their joys and sorrows.But there is always a huge gap between her and them, and that gap gets bigger and bigger with age, and gets deeper and deeper.She hid in the corner slyly, falling ashes in all kinds of eyes.She wanted to escape even more, to give up all her disgust and desire, but she couldn't do anything, she couldn't start.

The air was oppressive in the eyes, and Gu Yueyue suddenly looked like an angel in her head, her eyes were like boiled water, neither hot nor cold, just the temperature that makes people want to sleep.Xu Chenyu took medicine while thinking, small blue and white capsules, one, two, three... Xu Chenyu turned off the light, lay down on the bed, wrapped the quilt tightly, and the huge darkness suddenly hit.

☆、Disconnection

Gu Yueyue likes HIM's gonewiththesin. Falling with sin, or perishing with the sine function.She thought that Xu Chenyu would prefer the latter, after all, she was so bad at math.Gu Yueyue knew that Xu Chenyu also liked this song, especially the singer on the cover of the album, the singer with half-long hair, blue eyes, snow-white skin like a knight.When Xu Chenyu was very young, when he watched Disney, he didn't like the princess or the prince. He just wanted to be a knight, fight the dragon and rescue the princess.

If she is kidnapped by a dragon, will Xu Chenyu come to rescue her, probably not.Gu Yueyue raised her head and saw the black monster blocking the sky. It was Xu Chenyu's beast. It devoured her and fed on her pessimism and violence.Xu Chenyu could feed it into a hug.She is so sad.

That beast can't hurt her, because Gu Yueyue is the other side of the beast. Over the years, Gu Yueyue has suppressed it, preventing it from tearing Xu Chenyu apart, and preventing it from destroying her world.But now it's gone berserk.

That day, Xu Chenyu was just like usual, going to school, sleeping, eating, playing with her mobile phone, after school, and then staring at the message Gu Yueyue sent her for a long time, finally threw down her mobile phone and fell asleep wrapped in a quilt.

Someone knocks on the door, she calls her name outside,

But Xu Chenyu just wrapped herself up and didn't want to leave,

But it was useless, the sound of the key turning in the lock came, Xu Chenyu lowered his head, staring blankly at the ceiling.

She knocked on the bedroom door, but the bedroom was also locked,

"Morning rain."

She said in a cold voice, without anger or joy, as if she was dead.She left the bedroom door, the sound of shoes stepping on the floor was far and near, the window was pulled open from the balcony by her, the girl was backlit, and it was pitch black.

Xu Chenyu looked at her without making a sound.

Xu Chenyu suffered much more than Gu Yueyue imagined. She knew it was useless to say anything, so she could only drag her, but the moment she touched her, she began to cry, at first she just sobbed softly, then The sound became louder and louder, and the sound tore her body in pain.

She waited for her to calm down. After waiting for a long time, Gu Yueyue pulled her downstairs and into the car. She didn't look at her, but leaned against the window with wet tears on her face.

During that time they had a bad time. Xu Chenyu was so depressed that he was about to die. He dropped out of school, had an artery cut in the bathtub, swallowed a lot of sleeping pills, suffered from insomnia all night, and when sleepiness came, he began to sleep violently again. The biological clock Disordered, with no blood on the white of the lips.

At the beginning, she always cried, and the sensitive sound of opening the door could scare her, but later she couldn't even cry, she looked dead.

Gu Yueyue would be affected by her emotions, that's why she thought it would be good for them to die together like this.But no, she wants to let her live so that she can live too.

Gu Yueyue began to look for something to divert her attention. She watched movies with her, from Douban top1 to top250, drew pictures, made figures, and played games. During that time, the beast in Xu Chenyu's body was very peaceful, peaceful. Like dying.

Gu Yueyue was very sad, as if she knew that she couldn't save her.One day when Xu Chenyu woke up, it was already night, and the temperature of the air conditioner was turned on very low, making it feel chilly.Gu Yueyue was wearing pajamas, with her back turned to her, sitting on the ground, drinking wine and watching a movie.

The figure of the movie is very small, and it’s hard to hear it if you don’t prick your ears. The resolution of the movie is low, and it should be a long time ago.

"What is this movie about?"

Gu Yueyue turned around in astonishment, with a frightened expression on her face,

Xu Chenyu smiled.

"language……"

Xu Chenyu slept for a long time, unlike before, when she woke up groggy, she woke up this time soberly, as if she had seen the reality.

Xu Chenyu narrowed his eyes, got out of bed, poured a glass of water and drank it all, then sat on the ground with Gu Yueyue and said

"Let's talk."

Gu Yueyue froze, sat upright, and waited for her to speak,

"I know who you are, Yueyue."

"You and my heroine look alike, not by accident, you are another reflection of me."

"Thank you for being by my side."

Xu Chenyu leaned forward and kissed Gu Yueyue with a dull face.After the kiss, Gu Yueyue smiled, tears streaming down her face.

In the late summer of that year, Xu Chenyu finally accepted herself.

Later, Xu Chenyu lived a normal life and continued to go to school to sleep and watch dramas. When she was 19 years old, she fell in love with someone. It was different from every secret love in the past. They were together, and I don’t know who confessed first , in short, both of them are interesting.

The time we were together was really happy. The feeling of being accompanied made Xu Chenyu very comfortable. They always hugged each other at night, and the first thing they saw when they woke up in the morning was each other.Xu Chenyu told her everything about her, and told her that she was born in a slow city, which was located in the Central Plains, and it was once a beautiful city, but it was a pity that the feng shui took turns.She told her that she liked the city gates that stood, the palaces where the emperor played.She also complained to her about the backwardness of the economy, the excessive concentration of tourism resources, and the weak cultural competitiveness.She told her that the city's scenic spots have undergone modern repairs, and the sense of vicissitudes has faded.Of course, the most important thing to talk about is the stubbornness of this city, the kind of stubbornness that has remained unchanged for thousands of years.

Xu Chenyu felt that she would recover one day, and Gu Yueyue did not appear again for a long time, until one day, after they had sex, the other party touched her face and told her, I really like you, but maybe not Way to marry you.

At that moment Xu Chenyu was stunned for a moment, but immediately returned to his normal state, "When you can love me, just love me." Xu Chenyu said to her, and then fell asleep holding her.

"You, it's always like this." In that night's dream, Gu Yueyue sighed and said, "fuck you." Xu Chenyu didn't look at her, nor did he open his eyes.

Xu Chenyu knew about his girlfriend's family situation, and she could also foresee that one day she would leave her, get married, and have children.But she has been selectively ignoring it. Xu Chenyu always said to herself, "It's okay, it's okay. Everything will be fine. It's okay, it's okay." But even if he got out of the shadows, his life didn't improve much.It seemed that the future was still dark. At that time, Xu Chenyu realized that those shadows had never dissipated. Not only did they not dissipate, but they gradually melted into her flesh and blood, accompanying her every breath.

There was a quarrel between them, silent and forbearing, they were too bad at words, and their angry words lost their language, and they seemed pale and powerless. Later, Xu Chenyu apologized and said that she would never leave her .

"It's obviously not your fault." Gu Yueyue lay reclined on the sofa, her hair a little messy.

"fuck you." Xu Chenyu still didn't look at her.Later, the QQ chat history was formatted clearly, and Xu Chenyu couldn't remember the other party's fierce words anymore. He just clicked on it with joy and saw it, but the feeling of brain fragmentation would never disappear.

Her emotions came out again,