Three thousand congratulations

【1】

"If possible, can you tell me about your impression of Takasugi?" Guren asked cautiously.

"Huh?" Youzi raised his eyebrows, "Are you tired of being a dead woman? You actually came to ask me?"

"No, no, I just think you will be more familiar with Takasugi."

"Of course, my Jinzhu-sama, how could I not know about it?" Youzi tossed his hair proudly, "In this world, you can't find someone who is more handsome, far-sighted, and ambitious than our Jinzhu-sama." Vigorous and capable... ([-] characters omitted below) are you?"

"Eh...she's really a fan girl..."

"That's right! Speaking of admiration for Mr. Jinsuke, if I came to Shimata Matako to be the second in the ghost army team, who would dare to be the first? I can even check the back of my underwear for Mr. Jinsuke !"

"If you're fat or something..." Does this morbid Ai Takasugi know?Seeing how many times a day he confides in his heart, it would be difficult for Takasugi not to notice it, right?How did this guy Takasugi manage to walk around within three meters of Matako Kurishima without even noticing it?Guren felt very puzzled.

"Damn woman! You seem to be pestering Mr. Jinzhu a lot recently! Be careful! If you dare to make any crooked ideas, I'll kill you with one shot!!" Youzi took out the gun as a threat.

"Don't be rough..." Guren carefully removed the muzzle of the gun, "There is one more question... why did you follow Takasugi? You know he wants to destroy the world, right?"

"It is an honor for this world to be destroyed by Mr. Jinsuke! There is nothing that Mr. Jinsuke cannot do. Even if there is, I will help Mr. Jinsuke succeed when I come to Shimata! Of course I follow Mr. Jinsuke because Jin Zhuda is handsome, far-sighted, ambitious, and capable... ([-] characters omitted below)"

【2】

After approaching apprehensively, Hong Lian asked softly, "Wu Shi becomes Tai Sang?"

"It's becoming flat, please don't read a word less, you will become perverted." The weird strategist turned around holding a magazine.

"Sorry, I want to ask you a few questions..."

"Consulting? As the strategist of the ghost army, I can't just give advice to others, but if you are willing to do me a favor, I can consider it..."

"Well, help?"

"Vote, No. 45." The weird strategist handed over the magazine in his hand, and Guren took it over and took a look. It was YKB48's popular general election column.

"Number 45? Loli Reiko?" She glanced at the number 15 in the magazine, who was no older than 45 years old. "But it's obvious that Nanako Koyamajima, who is number 40, looks good, right?"

"That kind of woman looks good over there. Don't you think that No. 45 has a good temperament?"

"What kind of temperament can you have at such a young age? They haven't grown up yet, and they are cute at best. A beauty like size 40 is fine!"

"Women over the age of 15 will lose the most innocent beauty and become vulgar! You are a typical example. Although you look good, the real charm can only be shown ten years earlier!"

"Are you a lolicon? This is a crime!"

"What lolicon, this is obviously called knowing how to appreciate the immature beauty of women!"

"Immature? I think it's a minor?"

"Well, you can say that too. Anyway, hurry up and buy a CD to vote for No. 45."

"No, I insist that No. 40 is the most beautiful, and I will not let my taste bend."

"Are you the kind of person who thinks you like Kojima Haruna more than Bian Mayou? (Hey, it's okay to talk about AKB!)" the weird strategist said in surprise.

"That's right, I prefer the flirtatious and sexy ones to the pure and cute ones." Honglian nodded seriously, "A beautiful face with a beautiful body and a strong body, this is the correct aesthetic standard."

"I have nothing to say to people like you."

"I also have nothing to say to Lolicon. This is a crime. Please don't do anything that harms the growth of minors."

【3】

"Please don't talk now." Before she could speak, Wanqi Heshang waved his hand first.

Honglian stood aside in embarrassment, and when he finished tuning the strings, he turned to her and said, "Your melody has changed."

"Eh?"

"It's different from the previous ones. Although it sounds pleasant at first, something is missing, and the melody is incomplete."

"So it's changed... ugly?"

"It's more appropriate to say ordinary."

"It's not a bad thing to be ordinary." She couldn't understand someone's melody or something, so she could only casually agree.

"Your previous melody was very similar to Jinsuke. But now, it is the difference between AKB and Ayumi Hamasaki."

"Please don't make random comparisons, and why the AKB meme appeared again." It was almost a conditioned reflex, she was a little surprised, eh?I still have this attribute?

"Wait, you mean I was similar to Takasugi before??"

"It's just that the melodies are similar." Wanqi Kawagami put away the shamisen, "Did you come to me to ask about Jinsuke? If so, I have no comment."

"Is it because you don't understand or simply don't want to tell me?"

"Jinsuke's song is not so much a bosom friend as it was chosen by him. There are too few people who can listen to it. After only being allowed to listen to a section, I can't help but want to listen to the whole song. The accent, It's completely unexpected where the flat tone will appear, I can only roughly know that it exists." Wanqi Heshang looked up at her, "I think the song is attractive, do I have to get to know the composer himself? "

"That's not necessarily..."

"If you can't accept this style of music, just stay away and cover your ears. This is not a song that you can force yourself to like after listening to it a few times."

"It's not that I want to force myself to like it, it's just that there are some things that I haven't figured out, and I feel troubled, so I want to find the answer."

"Are hearts and ears useless?"

"If I have to say it, I probably have an idea in my heart. It's just that I want to find out what kind of person the other party is before drawing conclusions."

【4】

I originally thought that everyone gathered together because "they are all bad people and want to take revenge on society".

But this is not the case.For the members of the ghost soldiers except Takasugi, this world does not seem to have to be destroyed.

The reason for these people to gather seems to be inseparable from the man named Takasugi.

Thinking about destroying the world, you will get so many supporters. Is this world really so disappointing?

In fact, the best way to make the world disappear is to make yourself disappear, right?Then we will never see this disappointing world again, will we?

Has the disgust reached a point where it abandons the desire to leave and instead stays and destroys?It's incredible to think about it.If it's me, I can't wait to escape, whether it's death or oblivion.Because this disappointment and disgust only surrounds me.

Then the reason for Takasugi to stay and face this world that he feels has no value in existence must be beyond himself.Doesn't even have anything to do with him?Otherwise, why take a long way to do these troublesome things with a nauseated body?

People with such crazy ideas still have attractive qualities, which will make people follow and fascinate people.Perhaps it can be said that there is a different Takasugi hidden behind this idea.But if you want to get close, you must first get close to or even integrate into his madness and cruelty.

Just thinking about it is scary.

But when you think about it, is something scary, is it really scary, or is this feeling a deliberate illusion or even a protective cover?Maybe the real purpose is to keep no one close.

Such deliberation here is to hide something.

So what is it that is hidden by Takasugi?

【5】

After the meeting of the core members of the Ghost Squad, Youzi, the weird strategist, and Wanqi Kawagami stayed behind as usual.During the conversation, the topic turned to Guren.

"Master Takasugi doesn't intend to restore her memory, is she planning to make good use of her? With her current state, it is indeed a good opportunity. If we can let her work for us..."

"She still doesn't have the kind of value worthy of my use." Takasugi interrupted the weird strategist.

Youzi immediately came up to him and said, "That woman is inquiring about Mr. Jin Zhu. Isn't she planning some trick?"

"Eh? Did she come to you too?" asked the weird strategist.

"Yeah? No way? Even you..." Youzi glanced at Lolicon with disgust, "I feel offended."

"But I didn't say anything to her. The kind of woman who likes coquettish and cheap women can't talk."

"So," Wanqi Heshang recalled, "She didn't ask me anything."

"Eh...I seem...it seems...probably..." Youzi looked at Takasugi in a panic, "Master Jinsuke, don't worry, I will definitely not be fooled by that woman next time! This time she It took advantage of my love for you, Mr. Jinsuke! That despicable woman!"

"Lai Dao You Zi, you are such a brainless wild boar girl!"

"Pervert lolicon! See if I kill you!"

The two enemies fought again.

Takasugi smoked quietly, without saying a word.

Suddenly, Wanqi Kawasami said, "'Even if it is something invisible to the eyes, I want to try to find it, probably because I believe in something. Compared to being rejected and hurt in the process of searching, I can't find it. The answer feels even worse. I can't remember anything from the past, but the anxiety caused by not being able to answer is so familiar, it makes me almost unable to continue to exist. Every second of doubt, a moment of truth I can’t get it. Sometimes I feel like I’m only alive to find an answer.’”

Gao Shan rested his chin lazily at first, but when he heard what he said, he couldn't help but glance at him.

"That's what that woman said." Wanqi Heshang explained.

Gao Shan pondered for a moment, then said in a contemptuous tone: "What do you believe in yourself, you think you can find the answer. It's really stupid and hopeless."

"Jinsuke thinks so?" Kawagami Wanqi looked up at Takasugi, "I thought Jinsuke wouldn't like idiots."

Gao Shan lowered his head and put the cigarette rod aside, showing his signature dark smile: "It's something to be destroyed anyway."

【6】

In the evening, the weather outside is already very cold.Guren walked outside the house and saw Takasugi casually leaning on the handrail of the corridor, looking up at the sky.

Following his gaze, the clouds in the sky covered half of the moon, and the remaining half of the moon cast a cool light on the world.The cold moonlight shone on Takasugi's body, making his black hair look a bit cold and damp in the night, and his cheeks became more stern.

Just looking at Gao Shan's back like this, she stood there for a long time, until the other party said lightly without looking back: "Have you seen enough?"

She panicked, not knowing how to answer, so she was about to leave.But as soon as she turned around, she was embraced by him from behind. She turned her head to look at him in surprise, and wanted to stretch out her hand to push him away, but just as her palm touched his open chest, she shrank back like an electric shock. His skin was very cold, She thought: It should be cold if you wear so little in this weather, right?Then I interrupted my thoughts again, I can't care too much about this person, I haven't come up with an answer yet.

But Gao Shan didn't pay attention to her complicated psychological activities, just picked her up by the waist, didn't even bother to say a word, and entered the room.

After putting her on the bed, Takasugi was about to leave, but Guren grabbed his sleeve and whispered, "Please wait..."

In fact, she didn't know what she wanted to say to him, but she felt uneasy about his leaving without saying a word, so she hastily persuaded him to stay.

"Are you so interested in my affairs?" Gao Shan turned his back to her, unable to see his expression.

"That's just..."

"It's ridiculous. I wish I could leave and disappear from the world." Gao Shan turned around, stared at her and said, "It's like this again now. She's such a changeable woman. After all, she's still stupid."

"Is it stupid not to hate you like before?" She frowned, talking about stupidity every now and then. Was the former self so unbearable in his heart?

"Hate? Is that really the case? If so, I will be happier, right?" Takasugi smiled slightly, "It's not too late to start, even an idiot can do it, right?"

"Do I have to hate it?" She hesitated, "If you like it... can't you?"

He actually said the words inadvertently. Ever since he felt his tenderness on that rainy night, he wanted to find a reason, a reason that would make him fall in love with him.So I endured desperately, worked hard to get closer, and discovered a different him.

Even if you are underestimated, you don't stop, just because you want to know him, and have a reason to fall in love with him, not just because of some unfounded feelings.

Obviously, I have already felt the feeling of love, why must I hate?

"Say such stupid words..." Gao Shan was stunned for a moment and then laughed, he stretched out his hand to pinch her chin, "Do you want to fall in love with me that much?"

The way he sneered scared her a little.Is his own liking something impure and inaccessible to him?Could it be that liking him is such an impermissible thing?

"No matter what I look like, won't I regret it?"

"Those cruel things, it seems that you won't understand unless you experience them yourself." As he questioned like this, his heart gradually tightened.

"I really don't know how to live or die." He sneered contemptuously.

What's next?Thinking of this, his body was pressed heavily by him.

At this time, it is time to show determination, not waver, absolutely not back down.If he was allowed to leave at this time because of resistance, maybe there would be no chance for him to accept himself in the future.Guren said this to herself.

Just like before, if you feel sad or painful, just be patient.

But... this time, the momentum and degree are different from before.From his rude actions, he couldn't feel the emotion of pity at all. No matter how he looked at it, he was simply raped and turned into a tool to carry his tyranny, so he was not accepted at all.

As his kiss and touch approached that limit, his heart was completely shaken by fear.

If it goes any further, there will be no way to end it.

If you are wrong.

but refused...

How to do it?

If you refuse, it will hurt him.

【7】

Stopping what he was doing, Gao Shan lowered his head and watched her forcefully holding back the crying and pulling the corner of his clothes, he coldly reprimanded: "Are you an idiot or a lunatic?"

"Are you that mean?"

Being scolded by him like this, she raised her eyes and looked at him in disbelief, and tears welled up in her eyes instantly.

"Why must I be said to be like this?"

Don't want to hate you, want to know you, forgive you, just not accepted by you, despised by you?

Is it so interesting to trample on other people's love?

Seeing her crying, Gao Shan was silent for a long time, and said: "You are so scared and in such pain, why don't you say anything, why do you still accept it?"

His voice was hoarse for some reason.

"You obviously... just don't want to."

There was a long silence, avoiding his eyes.

Sure enough... have nothing to say?It's all fake, it's all stupid stuff.You don't know what you're doing, do you?

【8】

"Because..."" She was still sobbing, but she still opened her mouth.

Takasugi was sinking, his heart that was about to freeze again stopped moving.He even waited.

"Because it's...with Jinsuke."

"Because it's Jinsuke..." Even if you don't believe me, I still have to say it.This is what I really think.

I don't think I am a person who likes to be tortured by nature. I am also in pain during the process of enduring, but because you are the one who did those cruel things, I endured it.

Is the light I see, the warmth I feel, and the things I believe after I believe in patience, all false?

Did you fall down on the way to find again?

Is it still a failure this time?

【9】

A low cry came to his ears, but his body didn't have time to respond.

Because the heart was held by a warm hand at that moment, completely unable to move.

hateful.

Why do you want me to feel that way.

"Don't be so naive." He pretended to be indifferent and said such words.But in a certain corner of my heart, I felt a warm pain because of being hit hard.

What are you kidding, this is impossible.

How could I be accepted like this?I have been hurting you.

"You really like to lie." He said in a contemptuous tone.

【10】

Seems to be considered a liar.

Why don't you believe me?

Or am I really a fool?

If it's true as you said, I can't even believe myself anymore.

How should I express it?

Can you take your heart out?Even in that case, you will throw it away with a wave of your hand, right?

What should I do...

In distress, Honglian curled up with her back facing him and shed tears silently.After a long time, he sighed almost imperceptibly from behind, and then he reached out and hugged her from behind.

Is this consolation?

If yes, no need.Whether it is hurt or rejected, I can accept it, but I don't have to have mercy.

Thinking of this, she broke free from his embrace.

But soon she was embraced by him again, this time the embrace was stronger, making it impossible for her to escape.

【11】

It hurts

tell me in words

I don't understand such a thing

don't leave me alone

so cruel

Just break my body and tear it apart

Do as you like

No matter how you call and how you struggle

It's okay to cry so hard that your eyes are red and swollen

you still hold me tight

never separate

enough

The author has something to say:

How does this affect the future direction of CP?Is it the same regretful ending as Yinshi, or can it blossom and bear fruit? (Gui: Are you sure you will ration her to Ao Shan?? Could this article be finished like this??)

In fact, I said it earlier (when?), this article is in chapter 30, and the hero and heroine can actually end when the hero and heroine haven’t even kissed.After Chapter [-], don’t worry about the CP issue, anyway, sooner or later everyone will have their turn (this is my promise to you, (⊙v⊙) eh)

In short, since the breakup with Yinshi, the plot has been a little bit abusive (is it a little bit?), and I have to speed it up again~