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事微望进入 is an idiom, which means that the development of things is contrary to the wish, and it means that things do not develop according to the expected direction.Now, it just explains my state of mind at the moment.

When I come back every night, the day-shift nanny I hired has already left work. There is no way, there is no place for her to live in my rental house. Moreover, the money paid by the day shift, if it is a live-in nanny 24 hours a day, The price is also different.

That day I got off work from a part-time job. Because of some delays, I got home 10 minutes later than usual, but when I walked from the corridor to the door, I clearly heard someone in the room talking to my mother and my footsteps. , The voices in the room fell silent.

Is it a neighbor visiting?

I didn't do what he thought, and I opened the door directly. At that moment, I was frightened, because there was a person kneeling abruptly in front of me, and she was kneeling by the door. I couldn't get in or get out.

I saw her face clearly, furious.

"How dare you come?!" I questioned her.

She burst into tears, repenting and confessing: "It's all my fault. It's all because of my aunt's ignorance, which hurt both of you mother and child. I came today to apologize for you. I can't bear the condemnation of my conscience. I I sincerely apologize, if you want to kill or cut it, it is up to you."

"Give me the money, and I can talk about everything else." I said coldly.

She cried with snot and tears, as if when I mentioned money, it seemed like she was asking too much.

She cried to my dismay.

I yelled angrily: "You are a wolf-hearted person! My mother is so kind to you, how can you have the heart to deceive her who is dying! How can you have the heart to deceive us who are in urgent need of money? That is our life-saving money!"

I roared, she cried bitterly, my mother remained silent without saying a word.

"I was desperate, there was nothing I could do! At that time, my son owed a loan shark, and people chased him for money. Our family sold everything we could sell, and we paid everything we could, but it was still not enough! The lender said he would not repay the loan He wanted his leg, and he ran away in fright... Our whole family hid, hid." She cried and said intermittently: "When you called me, I thought that no one knew that I had another My dear, it happened to be... Later, when you were selling the house, I thought I could repay it. At first, I really just wanted to repay the money! Repay my son’s part, and I will repay the rest of the money You guys! Really! But I didn’t expect that those lenders would not be honest, and they doubled the money in the end, and the money...the money was all taken away by them.”

She was afraid that I would not believe it, so she kept rubbing her hands together and explained eagerly: "Please forgive me! I really didn't expect things to come to this point."

I watched coldly, and said with a sneer, "Oh? Then what do you mean by throwing yourself into a trap now? If I don't forgive you, aren't you afraid that I will send you to an official?"

Out of the corner of her eyes, she never raised her head to look at me, and she was still sobbing.

"I've said it! Either pay back the money, or I'll send you to the police station. You can choose one!" I said firmly.

She continued to beg for mercy with tears streaming down her face, and she cried so hard that my brain hurt.

Finally, my mother couldn't take it anymore, she stood up and helped her sister.I didn't want to care about it, but seeing my mother staggering, I still couldn't bear to embarrass her.

"Get up!"

She looked up, her eyes filled with anticipation.

"Don't get me wrong, I didn't forgive you. I was thinking, let you cry like this or go directly to the police station, these methods have no practical significance. The practical significance is that I want you to pay back the money! I need to be calm about this matter talk to you."

With my mother's hand, she stood up tremblingly.

I asked about the current situation of her home. According to her description, it can be said that the house is completely bare, perhaps even worse than our current situation. At least we still have a rental house to shelter us from the wind and rain.

Demands for repayment may be protracted.

I couldn't wait and didn't want to procrastinate. I told her to give her a one-month deadline. If she couldn't pay back the money within one month, I would call the police. Even if the money didn't come back, I would still be angry.

"Oh, by the way, I've already recorded your crying and crying on my mobile phone. Don't think about getting out of here this time."

I reminded her that my mother was hesitant to speak beside me.

I'm too lazy to watch her pretending at home. Anyway, with her here, I don't have to worry about no one at home to take care of my mother. I turned around and went back to live in the shop where I worked.

My mother is willing to believe what she cried, but I don't believe it.Even a local household like me couldn’t find a suitable buyer so quickly, so how could she resell the house.

Even if she didn't premeditate for a long time, she is definitely a habitual offender who is familiar with the road.

It is a great irony that a person who has not returned home for 20 years, and did not come back to attend the funeral when his parents passed away, came here to talk about family relationship!

Only a rigid and rigid person like my mother would accept her as a younger sister.

Out of sight, out of mind, I hid far away.

There are only four weeks in a month, and before I settle my salary at the end of the month, the one-month deadline is almost here.

When I returned to the rental room, the two sisters lived happily.For the sake of her taking care of my mother, I didn't speak rudely, and I didn't open my mouth to ask for money.

Because, I thought of a possibility, isn't she nowhere to go, homeless?Then why not let her stay and take care of my mother, so that I can avoid the cost of finding a nanny, and besides feeding and drinking, I don't have to pay her wages.

I explained my thoughts clearly, but I didn't expect her to accept it readily and agreed happily.

I said, "Think about it, you have to serve my mother as long as she lives, and I won't pay you."

She nodded: "I know, I know, I don't need money, just treat it as me working part-time for you to pay off your debts, and being able to take care of my sister here and provide me with food, I am very satisfied, very satisfied."

Seeing that her attitude didn't look like a lie, I had no choice but to let go of my worries first, because at least, I could reduce the burden.

I called the school and applied for class resumption.

I am planning to go back to school here, not because I have enough money, but because I can’t make much money in a small place, and working three jobs here is not worth what I earn in Beijing. What’s more, I always have to work for Considering my future life, taking a long-term leave of absence to work is not an option.

Taking advantage of this mother who can take care of me, I still have to move forward in my life.

I plan well, but plans don't always change quickly.

The night before I left, I went back to the rental room to chat with my mother and told her about the physical problems that needed attention.

Somehow, while we were talking, the topic came to me, and it was the first time we had a public discussion about my orientation.

I don't think I'm the problem, she can't accept it but she can't do anything to me, I'm not a child anymore, she can neither change me nor add sticks to me.

What's more, our current physical condition is not suitable for armed conflict.

She can only talk to me calmly.

Everything she said was sincere, and she helped me analyze all the difficulties I might encounter in life in the future, the pressure I would have to bear, and even the eyes of the world.

I know very well that her worries are not unfounded.

"Besides, I know that you child is emotionally unreasonable, you care about Liang Ye, and now...you can't go to England, will you have a future?" She took my hand and said earnestly.

It's strange that she has never been this close to me in the past twenty years, or in the ten years I can remember, and I don't find it strange that she holds my hand like this now.

"Liang Ye, it's just an indeterminate value in my life. It has nothing to do with your illness. I haven't even had a showdown with him. How can I attribute the current result to the injustice of fate? I know that when I choose not to treat him The moment I told the truth was the moment I gave up on myself, I was afraid, it had nothing to do with other people or things...it was because I was not sure about myself or him."

Hearing what I said, her tears fell down again.

I know what she is worried about, but if you can let go of loving someone, it proves that I am not a person who can be crazy about love.I thought so at the time.

I comforted her a few words and planned to pack up and leave by train tomorrow morning.

Growing up, it was the first time we talked openly with her in a calm atmosphere. We were all immersed in the atmosphere of family affection and forgot the person quietly approaching outside the door.

I returned to Beijing to continue my studies.

When I came back this time, I worked even harder. I wanted to catch up with my studies and work harder to make money.

24 hours a day is limited, no matter how hard I try, it cannot be extended indefinitely.

Therefore, I can only save as much as I can on myself.

My body was getting thinner and thinner visible to the naked eye, and my classmates were all worried, so I could only shake my head and say it was nothing, I could bear it.

The monthly remittances to the family have to be more, because there is one more person and one more mouth, how can there be no expenses at all.

That was the third time I sent money home in a month and a half. I was very suspicious, but every time it was my mother who called me, and the money was put into her card, and only she knew the password. I thought, She should be prudent enough in spending.

I dispelled my worries, gritted my teeth, and saved some more from the gap between my teeth.

Bad things broke out suddenly, this time, I went back with the determination to die.

On the phone, my mother cried to death again, I didn't care to listen to her details, I hurriedly bought a standing ticket and rushed home.

On the train, I sorted out the ins and outs of the matter.

I was right to be skeptical about money recently. She really asked me for too much. The reason is very simple. They planned to build graves and erect monuments for their deceased parents in their hometown.

Even the living can't take care of themselves, yet she still has the leisure to worry about the feelings of the dead.

It was her sister who instigated it again. She coaxed her elder sister with sweet words, saying that recently she often dreamed about her dead parents. They all persuaded her to take good care of her elder sister, and her unfilial behavior towards her parents had been forgiven.

And she finally came to her senses and wanted to do something for her parents who didn't show any filial piety during her lifetime.

It is right to take care of my sister, but what else can she do for her parents?

The two sisters thought about it, and repairing the grave and erecting a monument is something that should be done.

She has no money, so the money is naturally paid by my mother, besides, they are living together now.

My mother must not be able to travel long distances back to her hometown, so her sister is in charge of all matters.

In order to dispel my mother's worries, she actually went back to her hometown. There are pictures of her repenting and suffering in front of her ancestral grave, burning paper and spilling wine, and local relatives can also prove this.

The money saved for two months was remitted, and the man disappeared from the world again.

I came home with red eyes, this time, I will not let anyone go.