Wang Xin

Unknown Gentleman:

Hello!Zhanxinjia!

When I received your letter, I really felt that a bunch of bright sunshine shone in my gloomy life, making me full of warmth.I've been really really tired recently, and I don't know what I need to do. I go to school mechanically every day, smile mechanically, and do everything mechanically.I completely reject any activities related to laughter and give up all the things I usually do, such as my favorite piano and taekwondo.I resisted going to the hospital to visit my mother. I really didn't want to see my mother haggard.I guess I still can't get over my normally beautiful mom turning into a walking dead.

This week, my father brought us bad news. The doctor said that the cancer cells on my mother’s body spread quickly. When they were discovered, it was the late stage of liver cancer. Now it has developed into the terminal stage of liver cancer, and the cancer cells have spread to stomach.The doctor said that the only way is to perform surgery as soon as possible, but one problem we are facing is that we only find cancer cells on the liver and stomach through external examination. If the cancer cells are found to have metastasized to other places during the operation, then The operation is no longer possible, because even if the operation is done, the chance of success is very, very small. It is very likely that during the operation, my mother will die due to the huge pressure brought by the operation.The doctor asked our family members to discuss how to do it, whether to perform surgery or not.If not, my mother may only live for less than a month; if it is done, the operation is successful, and after chemotherapy, my mother may survive for half a year.

The whole family, except my mother, was silent after receiving the news. Every choice may lead my mother into a situation where there is no redemption.My father is unwilling to give up treatment. He believes that as long as there is a possibility of surgery, there is a possibility of success. This is my father's famous saying. He relied on this belief to support him and became the current chairman of the company.However, my grandmother opposed this approach. When my grandfather was admitted to the hospital because of a heart attack, the doctor suggested that our family members agree to install a heart stent for the patient. This is also what we said. We agreed. In the end, my grandfather couldn’t bear it because of his body. The stress of the operation, passed away on the operating table, leaving us with no last words.My grandma was afraid that my mother would end up like this, and she couldn't accept it.

When the whole family was arguing about the operation, my aunt told my mother about it. My mother was silent for a while and then told my aunt: "I don't want to have surgery, I'm leaving the hospital, and I want to enjoy my last time." , My aunt brought the news back from the hospital. My father was very emotional after hearing my mother's decision. He wanted to go to the hospital immediately to completely brainwash my mother and agree to undergo surgery.Later, my uncle stopped me, and my uncle said: "My sister has her own ideas. Since she found out that she has this disease, my sister has been working hard for the goal of being able to live and accompany Yu'er to grow up, but now The doctor has told the worst of the situation, there is no hope for a cure, why not let my sister enjoy her last life, this is my sister's last wish."

After listening to my uncle's words, my father fell silent.My father is an orphan. He grew up in an orphanage and worked hard to become what he is now. Therefore, after my father married my mother, he almost regarded family as the focus. If my mother left now , Dad will collapse.The whole family understands my dad, but they can't say anything.I am still young and don't understand anything, but I know that my mother can only live for one month or six months.I want my mother to get longer. I can't figure out why my aunt, uncle, grandma, and mother all choose one month. There is no money in the family?Or something, I can't accept it.I was very angry. I cried and made my grandma change their minds, but it was useless, completely useless. Even my father changed his mind after going to the hospital.

I don't know what to do now, my mother will be discharged from the hospital this afternoon and go home, I have tried to persuade my mother, I want her to live longer and be with me more, but my mother just cries, nothing Said, I don't know why adults are like this, never think about us children, just think about ourselves, I don't think my mother has ever thought about what I will do in the future?I only have one mother, what will happen to my father if my mother passes away?I can't imagine it at all, I am in pain, really in pain, I love my mom and dad, I don't want any of them to leave me, why can't they be with me till the end.

I can't write any more, I hope you can reply to my letter soon, and I wish you and your family good health.

Ouyang Zhiyu

2005. 9, 15

The author has something to say: Sorry~~~ Mina-sang~~~ Xia Yan was called to work overtime by the unit yesterday~ so I didn’t update on time~~ Xia Yan is sorry for all the favorites~~~

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