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Looking at the boy opposite, with neat short hair, he was looking at him with a smile, and seeing that he was still hesitating, he grinned and said, "Let's go, it won't take you long."

While being pushed away, Yan Nuo thought in her heart that she was at odds with this person.At the same time, he racked his brains to think, this classmate... what is his name?

Yan Nuo originally wanted to take a small biscuit to thank him and go back, but he didn't expect that person to give him a small bag.

There is a dark blue thread knot on the top of the light blue rectangular kit, which locks the opening of the small bag; a small golden bell is attached to the bottom, and the word "Yu Shou" is embroidered on the kit, Yan Nuo He blinked and looked at Cheng Boyuan curiously.

——When he just entered the door, he looked at the duty list at the door of the dormitory, and successfully found the name of this classmate.

"The snacks are finished. I accidentally bought more of this, so I will give it to you; you can take it with you as a talisman."

With the corners of his eyes bent, Cheng Boyuan said to him with a smile.The lights of the dormitory at night are pale and pale, even under such light, Cheng Boyuan still looks full of vigor.Yan Nuo remembered the discussion of his classmates, maybe it doesn't matter if this person doesn't have a back door, because a person with such a temperament will be welcomed no matter where he is.

After accepting his thanks, Yan Nuo returned to his dormitory, put down his bag, and a text message popped up on his mobile phone. He looked down, and a smile unconsciously appeared on the corner of his mouth, and soon went out with his mobile phone keys.

"Yan Nuo, are you going to buy supper too?"

Yan Nuo was still smiling, seeing Cheng Boyuan standing at the door of the dormitory in a daze, then nodded unconsciously.

The foyer lights downstairs in the dormitory attracted many light-seeking moths. Li Xiaoran stood on the steps and waved at Yan from a hall away.

"Yan Nuo, is this your boyfriend?"

With his hands in his trouser pockets, Cheng Boyuan tilted his head to look at Yan Nuo.He's always smiling, casual or casual, and makes reasonable but not-so-appropriate requests.Just like his light and fluffy sentence, which seemed to be just an insignificant chat, it hit Yan Nuo's heart heavily with a swish.

Looking back now, from that day on, Yan Nuo was like a blindfolded and dull rabbit, clumsily stepping into the hunter's trap step by step.Changing dormitories, becoming friends with Cheng Boyuan, cheating on Li Xiaoran, and finally being with Cheng Boyuan as a matter of course... In the year of graduate graduation, same-sex marriage was legalized, and Cheng Boyuan used a ring to tie Yan Nuo completely.

He once thought that he was happy, the past with Li Xiaoran was just a dispensable episode in his life, and he was lucky and happy to meet Cheng Boyuan.Yan Nuo has never felt that someone can be so close to his heart, best friend, partner, lover, these crucial roles and cornerstones in life are all occupied by Cheng Boyuan.

If he could, he would rather not spend today. He would rather be the blind and deaf rabbit. The hunter tied the rope to the rabbit, and the rabbit would rather believe that the hunter would treat him well.

"Where are you going?"

"Don't worry about it!"

Yan Nuoran left home, took a taxi and went straight to the hotel.He swiped the door with the room card, and he regretted it - the hotel only has suites. When he opened the door, erotic memories swept over: After five years of marriage, how many lovers have they entangled in the suites of this hotel? On holidays and anniversaries, Yan Nuo was pressed against the floor-to-ceiling glass windows, and outside the window was the busy traffic of the city late at night; the glassware by the bathtub contained rose-flavored bath salts, and a marble-built seating area was built in the spacious shower room. Department... Yan Nuo drew the curtains and closed the bathroom door with a dark face, put on the disposable earplugs and eye mask beside the bedside table, and forced himself to sleep.

In a daze, he had a dream. In the dream, the hunter's black, thick and bright shotgun was pointed at him, and while singing "Little Rabbit, Open the Door", he splashed the rose-scented bath water on him, strictly speaking. Nuo's hair was soaked, and his ears were pricked up and trembling...

In the early morning, a car was parked on the side of the road opposite the University of Science and Technology. From time to time, female students passing by tilted their heads to inquire about the man in the car. Looking at them, he turned his head and smiled at them; crossing the road, several girls whispered excitedly, but was mercilessly interrupted by a fellow senior, "Don't dream, not only did she get married a long time ago, but she also married Senior Yan. "

Cheng Boyuan didn't care about the heartbroken voice from across the road, his eyes were glued to the taxi at the school gate, two men got off the taxi, one was handsome and elegant, the other was gentle and Jiyue, Li Xiaoran helped Yan Nuo get out of the car, with his right hand Put it on Yan Nuo's left shoulder.

The hands on the steering wheel slowly tightened, Cheng Boyuan watched Yan Nuo and Li Xiaoran step into the school gate and gradually disappeared from sight.

Yan Nuo was still wearing the same clothes that he hurried out in the middle of the night yesterday, and Li Xiaoran beside him, whom he hadn't seen for several years, seemed to be more temperamental.

The black car sped away with the roar of the accelerator, and the cicadas were still singing in the trees. Except for the security guard at the school gate, no one noticed that a car parked here for two hours and then left quietly.

"Tell me about you, how long have you been married? What kind of person is the other party?"

Li Xiaoran put down the coffee cup in his hand, and looked at Yan Nuo's left ring finger unconsciously.

The fingers of Yan Nuo's left hand retracted an inch unconsciously, and he forced a smile: "A classmate of graduate students."

The waiter in the restaurant stepped forward and asked softly if he wanted to add more coffee. Li Xiaoran smiled and shook his head and refused, "We are leaving soon", then turned his head to look at the person across the table and said, "You should also go to school today, we go together."

Yan Nuo nodded, secretly glad that this embarrassing conversation was finally coming to an end.

He never imagined that he would meet Li Xiaoran, his first boyfriend, in the breakfast room of the hotel where he was staying.

At that time, Li Xiaoran and Yan Nuo were not in the same school, they met in the lecture, and they confirmed their relationship under Li Xiaoran's temptation.Rather than saying that it is the heartbeat of love, Li Xiaoran attracts Yan Nuo more because of his indifferent temperament.This person is always gentle and calm, compared to Yan Nuo who builds a wall of indifference to cover up his inferiority and uneasiness, Li Xiaoran's indifference seems to be engraved in his bones.

Their relationship is polite and rational, Li Xiaoran and Yan Nuo are the same age, but they are already in the third year of graduate school and plan to go abroad.The two discussed the future more than once. Yan Nuo's favorite school is in country A, which is only one state away from NE University, which Li Xiaoran plans to go to.

If Cheng Boyuan hadn't been a hindrance and misunderstood Li Xiaoran's cheating at the time... then maybe the current self is living a different life, Yan Nuo thought in a daze in the rickety taxi.

"Beware!"

When getting out of the car, Yan Nuo was almost tripped, Li Xiaoran's gentle and polite hands supported him firmly, he raised his head and smiled apologetically, and the two walked towards the academy together.

For several days of academic sharing, Yan Nuo, as a representative of the college, gave a speech on the research direction and latest research results in recent years, and also listened carefully to the sharing of NE University. I have to say that in the field of computer science, country A is still at the forefront of the world , Many ideas and practices gave him a lot of inspiration; often at the end of a day's meeting, Yan Nuo and Li Xiaoran's team returned to the hotel together, and sometimes they would discuss the day's issues with Li Xiaoran in the hotel lounge at night.

As if filling himself with work, he would not feel so uncomfortable, thinking about the cheated love, or the future he should have had.Cheng Boyuan's phone number and WeChat have been blocked by him, and Yan Nuo knows that if Cheng Boyuan really wants to find him, he can always find him.

However, Cheng Boyuan never appeared again.

When he opened the door of the house, Cheng Boyuan held his mobile phone in one hand and was still talking with his colleagues.

After graduating from graduate school, Cheng Boyuan went to a quantitative fund to be responsible for quantitative strategy research. Compared with Yan Nuo's academic pursuit, Cheng Boyuan is obviously more interested in making money.Compared with Cheng Boyuan's income, Yan Nuo's doctoral salary and project subsidies are just a drop in the bucket. Yan Nuo doesn't care about the economic gap between the two, while Cheng Boyuan is very satisfied.

He is always trying to control his significant other more or less, and this behavior stems from the mean side of his character.

The down payment of the house was paid by Cheng Boyuan, and he repaid the loan, as if Yan Nuo owed him more, so he tied him more tightly.

In his heart, there has always been a seed of uneasiness planted at the beginning of their love.

This is a love he stole.

Half a month after Yan Nuo disappeared, he still went to and from get off work on time, and handled work problems perfectly. Only his closest colleagues vaguely noticed that Cheng Boyuan seemed to have eaten gunpowder recently. He often stared at his phone in a daze when he went to work, or Keep turning the ring on the ring finger.

"Just do what I say for that program! You run it on the simulation disk first, and report the results to me later!"

The colleague on the phone was anxious to explain something, but Cheng Boyuan didn't listen. The key was still hanging on the doorknob. He was stunned for a second before closing the door, taking off his shoes, and putting away his bag.

"I see, then follow your instructions first, don't be in a hurry to get the results today, you guys should get off work early, and just give it to me before noon tomorrow."

As soon as his tone changed, he was as gentle as if he could pinch water. The person on the other end of the phone seemed to be quite frightened by the sudden change, and after a few quick responses, he hung up the line.

Of course, the other party naturally couldn't see the involuntary smile on Cheng Boyuan's face.

Yan Nuo is back.

The light in the bedroom was on, and the sound of walking footsteps added many pleasant sounds to the empty room.

Cheng Boyuan could feel his heartbeat was about to break through his ears,